before and after

Ye Ruixin was extremely curious about how Liang Xiao reproduced this room exactly.This place was both familiar and unfamiliar to him, so he began to follow his memory to find the objects in the drawer.

It was a kind of joy of reunion, and the joy that gushed out slowly penetrated from the spine outwards, tainting his whole body with a sweet breath.Like the blue sea water under the summer sun, it has a honey-like sweetness.

Seeing Ye Ruixin appear in this room, Liang Xiao felt unreal.

Liang Xiao didn't know why he only told Ye Ruixin about the existence of this room today.Perhaps it was the painful memories of the past that subconsciously made Liang Xiao avoid this place.It wasn't until Ye Ruixin asked about the gramophone just now that Liang Xiao suddenly remembered it.

After learning of Ye Ruixin's death, Liang Xiao shut himself up at home for a whole month.To be more precise, he imprisoned himself here.

Liang Xiao lost Ye Ruixin once here, really lost it.For Liang Xiao, all sweet and painful memories are sealed here, and the two are fused together.Liang Xiao couldn't bear to forget Ye Ruixin, but he didn't have the courage to face everything here again.He couldn't imagine how the memories would come flooding in when the door opened, so even the cleaning appointment was made when Liang Xiao was not at home.

Ye Ruixin is standing in front of her alive now, feeling an unreal sense of happiness.When the originally extravagant dreams suddenly come true, people's subconscious will be accompanied by a depressive sense of suffocation.

Liang Xiao's eyes followed his figure, and he replied lightly:

"It's been too long, I forgot." Liang Xiao said.

"Why is my wine empty?" Ye Ruixin picked up the empty glass bottle on the shelf, "Did you entertain guests with it?"

"Vaporized."

"What?!"

Ye Ruixin looked at Liang Xiao in disbelief, he didn't expect Liang Xiao to speak so casually.But at this time, his attention was all on the things on the bookshelf, and he didn't want to argue with Liang Xiao, so he just muttered to himself: "I'm not a lonely ghost! You drink it as soon as you drink it, and the glass bottle stays behind." What are you doing here? Or is it a bottle of wine, I don’t even remember this bottle of wine.”

[I'm not a cheapskate!You drink it and drink it, what do you keep in the glass bottle?If it weren't for this bottle, I would have forgotten about this bottle of wine. ]

This sentence was a bit long, and Liang Xiao only understood the general idea.He was not prepared to tell Ye Ruixin the truth, some things were just his own secrets to Liang Xiao.

"Did you use this?"

Ye Ruixin took out a notebook from the summer vacation, this is the souvenir book issued by the school.Ye Ruixin took it back and put it on the bookshelf without using it, but now it can be seen at a glance that it has been used, and it has been soaked in water.

Seeing Ye Ruixin pull out the notebook, Liang Xiao immediately walked up to Ye Ruixin and wanted to take it away from him, but Liang Xiao suddenly remembered something and withdrew his hand.Liang Xiao wanted to pretend nothing had happened, but his strange behavior had already attracted Ye Ruixin's attention.

Intuition told Ye Ruixin that there must be something written in it.Ye Ruixin looked at the somewhat unnatural Liang Xiao, and opened the book with a smirk.

"Let me see what you wrote!"

Ye Ruixin opened the first page, which was blank.He flipped through it quickly, and every page was blank.Apart from the slightly yellowish liquid that had wetted the booklet, there was no writing.Ye Ruixin didn't give up, and looked at the spine of the book. The binding was smooth and no paper was torn off.

"You must be hiding something from me." Ye Ruixin looked directly into Liang Xiao's eyes, looking for clues.

Liang Xiao shrugged, but didn't answer him.

"Look slowly, I'm going out first."

The more Liang Xiao was like this, the more Ye Ruixin wanted to know the truth.He took the notebook to the desk and began to study the pages slowly under the light.

The scientific way of thinking begins with gathering information.Most of the behaviors that start blindly lack rigorous logic, and many crucial clues will be missed.

Ye Ruixin flipped through the pages of the notebook, even if each page was empty, it was unique.

Ye Ruixin was sure that something must have been written in this booklet, and about two-thirds of it was written.Because the subsequent pages are almost brand new, without any creases.If it is opened for writing, it is impossible to be completely free of traces of flipping.On the previous paper, some strokes can be seen in some parts.It's similar to the notch on the paper under the ballpoint pen, but the depth is not to the extent that a pencil can restore the handwriting, it is much shallower, and the strokes cannot be seen clearly at all.

The way to solve a case with a pencil and notch is definitely not enough to deal with a doctor of medicine.

The only obvious trace now is the yellowish liquid residue in two-thirds of the place, and after this page, there is no trace of the booklet being turned.Moreover, the booklet was not handled immediately after soaking, so half of the paper was bent due to the change of tension.If it is dried in time, it will not form such obvious marks.

Oddly though, the bottom half of the page is also slightly wrinkled, but not yellowish.It looks transparent and cannot distinguish the color.

It was beyond Liang Xiao's expectation that Ye Ruixin noticed this notebook.When Ye Ruixin held the book in his hand, the anxious feeling of being peeped into his heart made him uneasy.But this feeling will not trouble Liang Xiao for a long time, since he is discovered, let it be.

While Ye Ruixin was curious about the secret, Liang Xiao was also looking forward to Ye Ruixin's progress.However, Ye Ruixin's dedication to "solving the case" surpassed Liang Xiao's expectations.After Uncle Liu's Spring Festival holiday, the driver would deliver something every day.Those are the experimental materials that Ye Ruixin found.He put into practice all the methods he could think of and found on the Internet.This process was kept secret from Liang Xiao.

"Actually, I should apply for a search warrant like you."

One day while having dinner, Ye Ruixin said suddenly.

"search warrant?"

"The tools used to write must still be in your room."

While talking, Ye Ruixin took a mouthful of food and put it into his mouth.But his eyes kept staring at Liang Xiao.Don't let go of any subtle clues revealed in his expression.Liang Xiao laughed, Ye Ruixin was obviously playing with her own words.

"Okay. I'll accompany you to find it after dinner."

Not sure whether it was Liang Xiao's calmness that made Ye Ruixin a little suspicious, or Ye Ruixin didn't want the game to end too soon, so he finally rejected the invitation.

If Ye Ruixin went to Liang Xiao's room, it should be easy to find that bottle of BlueGhost ink.This is a gift from Liang Xiao's student, an American girl with lovely freckles.On the last day of her internship, she handed this ink to Liang Xiao.Some shyly said:

"Some secrets can only beaman's secret."

[Some secrets can only be kept by one person. 】

This is a bottle of yellowish transparent liquid, which will not leave writing on the white paper after the writing is completely dry.But because the liquid contains a fluorescent agent, the ink only appears ghostly light blue when illuminated by a purple light.Other than that, it will always be kept a secret. BlueGhost's name comes from this.

Liang Xiao's house doesn't have a purple light lamp, so he hasn't found the girl's confession to her on the box.

At that time, using this ink to write was due to Liang Xiao's self-confessed cowardice and possessiveness.

Liang Xiao has never been in the habit of writing diaries and book reviews. He believes that once all thoughts are recorded in words, they will no longer be free.Even with the strongest lock, it can't give people enough sense of security.It will be a conclusive proof that will one day be made public.Therefore, whether it is for protection or beautification, the subconscious will make the text look forward and backward, or hesitate to speak, or pretend to be a gesture.From that moment on, thoughts are no longer pure, so there is no need to write.

It's just that there are some memories that are too precious to Liang Xiao.After all, his memory can't stand up to time, so he chose this way to commemorate Ye Ruixin.But never thought that such a possibility would appear.

If the courier service in the United States was more convenient, Ye Ruixin should not have finally solved the case until the fifteenth day of the first lunar month.

Ye Ruixin was different that day. He sat in the living room early in the morning, looking out the window from time to time.If it was Christmas Eve, it might be difficult to tell the difference between him and the other children waiting for Santa Claus in the house.After four o'clock in the afternoon, Ye Ruixin finally got his package.Excitedly, he signed the package and took it to the upstairs room.

The method of making mysterious letters is nothing more than using acid-base and various color developing agents, among which fluorescent agent is the most common one.Ye Ruixin has already ruled out the possibility of acid-base reagents through the materials sent by the driver in the past few days.

If it is a fluorescent agent, then the purple light can basically solve all the problems.

Take out the purple light lamp in the package, plug in the power and turn it on.Ye Ruixin took a deep breath and slowly opened the notebook.The paper on the first page was a little damaged due to many experiments, but under the irradiation of the purple light, a bluish fluorescent color clearly appeared.

This line was written in the middle of the first page, and there were only four of them on the entire page:

'I miss you. '

Ye Ruixin can be sure that this is Liang Xiao's handwriting, his Chinese is tough and neat.Looking at these words, Ye Ruixin remembered the wet blue-black ink under the yellowish light in the library when he first met him.

After silently reading these four words, Ye Ruixin smiled.He thought that later, he would force Liang Xiao to read out every word in front of his face.It's sure to be a really fun picture!

On the next page, there is slightly more writing.

'The first time I saw someone standing on the handrail of a bridge playing the violin in the middle of the night.The day you said that I thought you were going to jump into the river, it was true. '

Ye Ruixin's blurred memories are recolored and come alive with each page.

'Have you ever seen a hamster?It looks like it when you wake up and straighten your hair in the mirror.I have never told you about this.You know that you will be angry if you are compared like this. '

Liang Xiao's writing is just like his own, without too much elaboration, decisive and clear.He recorded their past in simple words, and those chapters that were full of color in memory were briefly described so plainly, but they became another kind of thick.Taking Ye Ruixin to look back on the time that only belonged to them, bit by bit, it warmed my heart.

Ye Ruixin paused word by word, triumphantly flipping through the secrets in Liang Xiao's heart.Time passed quickly between the words, and suddenly, Ye Ruixin saw this sentence:

'Tell me when you left, you will come back.I did what I promised you, but you didn't come back. '

This page appeared without any warning, and it was a violent blow to Ye Ruixin's heart.Before Ye Ruixin's smile could be withdrawn, a sour feeling surged at the same time, stiffening Ye Ruixin's smile.

The discomfort caused by the purple light became unbearable at this moment, Ye Ruixin covered her eyes with her hands.

'I miss you. '

Liang Xiao's voice rang clearly in Ye Ruixin's mind, and Ye Ruixin had imagined Liang Xiao's tone many times.Shy, affectionate, enthusiastic, all kinds of voices have been raised in Ye Ruixin's heart.But Ye Ruixin never thought that Liang Xiao wrote these four words with such emotions.

He is mourning.

Ye Ruixin watched how she walked into Liang Xiao's life, and how Liang Xiao fell in love with her slowly.However, if all these memories are based on his own death, it would be too cruel.

Ye Ruixin knew that this was not the last page, and he was about to watch himself disappear from Liang Xiao's life little by little, leaving traces dripping with blood.

Rubbing her eyes, Ye Ruixin stroked the corner of the book with her hand, and slowly turned to the next page.

'I want you to stay.

Even though I know it's impossible, I should tell you.

It might just be a small thing for you.

But for me, this is the regret of my life. '

'Yesterday I dreamed of you.

You told me on the phone that you wanted to come back.

In the dream, I flew to Hong Kong immediately, hugged you tightly, and said to you: Then come back.

This dream is so real, so real that I still remember the touch of your suit in my arms.And that familiar smell on your body.

When I woke up, my brain reversed reality and dream.

But such an illusion only existed for a few seconds, and then there was an extremely sober pain.

Are you ok?

I suddenly began to believe in the immortality of the soul. '

'drug trafficking

Why! '

It took a long time for Ye Ruixin to recognize this text, because there was another paragraph of text covering the same place.

'Why! ! !

You tell me exactly why! '

Ye Ruixin didn't know why these two paragraphs of text overlapped. The only possibility was that Liang Xiao forgot that something was written on this page because of the invisible ink.In terms of Liang Xiao's personality, it is basically impossible for such a mistake to happen. In addition, the state of these two paragraphs of text is very different from before, and some strokes appear blunt and abrupt due to excessive force.

Drug trafficking, these two words have always been a common word in Ye Ruixin's cognition.It does not contain any emotional color, just like futures and exchange rates, it is a kind of transaction.But Ye Ruixin knew what these two words meant to Liang Xiaoji.Ye Ruixin unconsciously grasped the armrest of the chair tightly.

Ye Ruixin was enveloped by a sense of shame that he couldn't look at directly, as if his mouth was filled with sand, and all the taste was suddenly sucked away.Facing Liang Xiao's questioning, Ye Ruixin's mind went blank, too many emotions were intertwined and ups and downs at this moment, and he couldn't sort out any of them for a while.He stared at the front lazily, until Ye Ruixin felt pain in the back of his hand, and Ye Ruixin realized that the indwelling needle on the back of his hand was oozing blood due to too much force.

Ye Ruixin tore off the fixed adhesive tape and pulled out the indwelling needle.He stared at the blood on the back of his hand.Calmly and tremblingly, he took a deep breath.The blood gradually dries on the skin.Only then did he make up his mind to continue watching.

This page, Ye Ruixin remembers, is the only page with obvious traces of writing.It was only now that he realized that the reason why this page had such deep marks was because Liang Xiao scratched out the handwriting forcefully.And because of too much force, it may cause damage to the pen.In some strokes, the paper shows signs of wear.Where the wear was heaviest there was a large bead of ink that had been rubbed carelessly.It is impossible to discern what was ever written.

Under the purple light at this moment, the messy smudges of ink exude dazzling light.All Liang Xiao's collapse was being repeated in front of Ye Ruixin in another way, which made him astonished.

Ye Ruixin stroked the handwriting with her eyes closed, and the touch from her fingertips was like a wound in Liang Xiao's heart, bringing Ye Ruixin real and vivid regret.

'You like tequila, so it tastes like this.

why didn't i try it before

Ye Ruixin, I love you

i have loved you for many years

are you back

I miss you

I really miss you'

This is the last page.No need to prove anything.What is preserved here is the bottle of tequila left by him, as well as Liang Xiao's silent tears.Ye Ruixin clenched his teeth, he understood everything he had never seen.

Ye Ruixin wanted to laugh out loud, but at the same time she wanted to cry out loud.The two extremely contradictory emotions make some people think that they cannot focus on either one.Finally, he cried, tears falling uncontrollably.It brushed across Ye Ruixin's cheek and landed on the paper with a sound.

The emotions of Ye Ruixin and Liang Xiao criss-crossed in time and space, and at this moment they finally merged into one in a deep peace.Their shared experience makes each other no longer a separate individual.

Ye Ruixin has never been so grateful for life.It was precisely because he was still alive that he had the opportunity to find the part of his body that had long been lost in Liang Xiao's body, and then he held all of this tightly in his hands and never let go.