before and after

Eating hot pot in winter is very pleasant.The pot cooked on charcoal fire is always steaming, so you don't have to worry about the dishes getting cold.It's better to eat when you are on the New Year's Eve.

When it was almost midnight, Liang Xiao turned on the TV.The TV received domestic channels. At this moment, the host routinely started counting down in the last few seconds.As soon as midnight arrived, warm New Year greetings came from the screen.At this moment, no matter where the Chinese are, there will be warmth in their hearts.It's something in the bones.

"Happy New Year!" Ye Ruixin raised his glass and smiled.

After keeping the age, you can go to sleep for a peaceful sleep.Wait until you wake up the next day, and the Chinese New Year will not really begin.Knowing that Xia Yang was coming, Liang Xiao prepared the guest room in advance.After getting Xia Yang settled down, Liang Xiao asked Ye Ruixin to take a bath first, and he needed an infusion later.

Usually Ye Ruixin went to bed early, and because he drank a lot of red wine today, he was already very sleepy.After taking a shower, Liang Xiao had brought the medicine into the room.Seeing no indwelling needle, Ye Ruixin asked:

"No need for indwelling needles?"

"I'm going to go out by bike tomorrow, I'm afraid it will hurt if I don't pay attention." Liang Xiao remembered that he hadn't asked Ye Ruixin, and added, "Do you want to go?"

Ye Ruixin, who had just taken a shower, was wiping her hair with a bath towel with damp steam.

"What kind of car do you ride?"

"I brought my family bicycle."

"I can't ride. You give me a ride?"

Seeing that Ye Ruixin was interested, Liang Xiao nodded in agreement and inserted the needle into the blood vessel on the back of Ye Ruixin's hand.

"It's getting late. After I help you dry your hair, you go to bed first. I'll wait here for you to finish your infusion."

Liang Xiao's taking care of her has almost become a habit for Ye Ruixin.Seeing Liang Xiao go to the bathroom to get a hair dryer, Ye Ruixin warned outside: "Don't blow it too dry, it's not good for your hair."

Liang Xiao stopped and walked back, frowning on purpose and asked, "Why are you so rude?"

Facing Liang Xiao's "question", Ye Ruixin blinked and smiled slightly, her clear eyes bent into a bridge.

"Thank you!"

"You're welcome."

Ye Ruixin's hair is very thin and soft, it has grown beyond her eyebrows without trimming during this period.The black hair was blown up and down on his face by the wind, itching and disturbing.Fortunately, Ye Ruixin closed her eyes and let Liang Xiao blow.

The warm air evaporated the moisture from Ye Ruixin's hair, and the clean fragrance of the shampoo was dispersed in the air.The short hair dried quickly, Liang Xiao turned off the hair dryer, reached into Ye Ruixin's black hair and stroked it back, trying to make sure it was dry.Without the cover of broken hair, the warm yellow light reflected Ye Ruixin's side face on the wall, leaving a clear silhouette.

Perhaps because she was tired, Ye Ruixin raised her head slightly at this moment with lazy breathing.Liang Xiao suddenly felt that certain feelings in his body surged up at this moment, pushing him to approach Ye Ruixin infinitely.

Just when Liang Xiao lowered his head and wanted to kiss Ye Ruixin's lips, those beautiful eyes suddenly opened.Ye Ruixin was really sleepy, the moment he was confused made him miss Liang Xiao's embarrassment and red ears.

"Dried?" Ye Ruixin rubbed her eyes and asked.

"Ah."

Accompanied by his own violent heartbeat, Liang Xiao turned around and put the hair dryer back into the bathroom.In order to avoid Ye Ruixin's gaze.

"Then I'm sleeping."

With that said, Ye Ruixin had already slipped into the bed beside her.He put the infusion hand outside, and the other hand pulled the quilt and curled up to close his eyes.

Liang Xiao pulled the bracket closer, and then dimmed the lights in the room.Liang Xiao sat down on a chair beside him and looked at Ye Ruixin who was sleeping peacefully.Thinking of what happened to him just now, Liang Xiao laughed at himself.

Bit by bit flowed into Ye Ruixin's body with an inherent rhythm.Liang Xiao looked at Ye Ruixin quietly, even if he fell asleep and might not move for a long time, Liang Xiao was full of attraction.

In the stillness of the night, there was no trace of sleepiness.

When the normal saline was about to bottom out, Liang Xiao got up and carefully removed the needle on the back of Ye Ruixin's hand.Then put his hand back under the bed and cover the quilt.This may be the most peaceful sleep Ye Ruixin has had in the past few months, her breathing is still steady, and she has not been woken up at all.

Liang Xiao caressed Ye Ruixin's face, leaned over and pressed a light kiss on his forehead.

The next day, Ye Ruixin didn't wake up until noon. As soon as she opened the door, she heard noises from the kitchen and the smell of food.Ye Ruixin went downstairs, only seeing Liang Xiao in the kitchen, but not Xia Yang.

"Where's Xia Yang?"

"Just left. I wanted to wait for you to get up, but he has something to do in the afternoon and I'm afraid it will be too late." Liang Xiao opened the lid of the pot, and the water that had just been filled with cold water had been boiled again.Liang Xiao put the noodles into a bowl and asked, "What do you want to eat? If you want to eat noodles, I'll order them for you."

Ye Ruixin didn't answer.Liang Xiao brought the noodles to the dining table, only to see Ye Ruixin rubbing his temples vigorously.

Liang Xiao touched Ye Ruixin's forehead, it was a little hot.Liang Xiao then went to the medicine box and got a thermometer for Ye Ruixin, who had a low fever.

During the recovery period, the person's resistance will be reduced due to the effect of the drug.Ye Ruixin has a low fever once or twice a month.

"Eat something before taking the medicine."

Liang Xiao warmed up a cup of milk for Ye Ruixin, and put some of his favorite cereals and oats.

In fact, Ye Ruixin didn't have any appetite at all. After forcing himself to eat two big mouthfuls, he put down his spoon and left the restaurant.This state is actually Ye Ruixin's normal state recently, and his mood fluctuates easily.When you are in good shape, you can be no different from ordinary people like yesterday.But in most cases, he is more likely to be immersed in depressed and irritable emotions.Ye Ruixin will try to control as much as possible, but when she is not feeling well, this depression will be more obvious.

Liang Xiao ate the noodles in two or three mouthfuls.When she came to the living room, Ye Ruixin was sitting on the sofa hugging her knees, with her chin resting on her knees.The sunlight outside the window is very thick, not as thin as it should be in winter.In a trance, Ye Ruixin's paleness was dyed a little distorted.

Liang Xiao walked over to Ye Ruixin with warm water and medicine, Ye Ruixin took the medicine and swallowed the medicine directly with water.Liang Xiao could see that he was having a hard time swallowing.It was a kind of nausea that almost became a conditioned reflex.In addition to drips, Ye Ruixin had to take a lot of medicine every day during this period.His stomach was not good at all, and after a long time, once he swallowed the medicine, he would unconsciously feel nauseated.

Liang Xiao gave Ye Ruixin a candied date.Then he pulled Ye Ruixin's hand over and massaged some acupuncture points on his hand.This will make Ye Ruixin feel more comfortable.

"Fortunately, it wasn't yesterday." Ye Ruixin said suddenly.

"Well, you were home alone yesterday."

What the two of them said obviously didn't mean the same thing.What Ye Ruixin cared about was affecting their mood of keeping up with the new year, while Liang Xiao was always worried about himself.Liang Xiao didn't realize this, but Ye Ruixin's hand moved slightly because of his emotions.

"pain?"

Ye Ruixin shook his head, but couldn't take his eyes off Liang Xiao.

"I want to sleep for a while." Ye Ruixin gently held Liang Xiao's hand, "You accompany me."

Before Liang Xiao could answer, Ye Ruixin pulled Liang Xiao over, and naturally put all her body weight into Liang Xiao's arms, sleeping peacefully.Liang Xiao took a blanket from the side and covered Ye Ruixin's body, followed him to close his eyes.

Ye Ruixin's hand has been gently holding Liang Xiao's hand.Because of the fever, his palm was so warm.Sunlight becomes a liquid, submerging each other in it.It is like the most primitive sense of stability in life.The clenched hands are connected to each other and gradually become one.There is no strangeness at all, and no extra running-in is required.They were meant to be together.Finally, each other's breathing gradually tended to the same frequency, and they fell asleep peacefully.

Liang Xiao didn't have the habit of taking a nap, and only half an hour had passed when he woke up.

Sleep is often an unconsciously pleasant state and a protective mechanism of the body itself.

Ye Ruixin had already let go of her hand at this moment, but curled up beside Liang Xiao.Liang Xiao carefully moved his pressed arm, and walked around Ye Ruixin's body to wrap him in his arms.

Ye Ruixin should like to be hugged in his arms, he likes the feeling of being sunk in the soft mattress.During the several nights spent with Ye Ruixin all night, Liang Xiao found that no matter how he lay down at the beginning, he always curled up with the quilt on his side and fell asleep in the end.Unsurprisingly, following Liang Xiao's movements, Ye Ruixin rested her head on Liang Xiao's chest, stretched out her hands to naturally hug Liang Xiao's waist, and hugged him tightly like a quilt.

Liang Xiao's body became his resting place, and Ye Ruixin's warm and generous chest was enough for Ye Ruixin to cling to and continue to sleep.The sunlight slid silently outside the window, and the parts that shone on them also changed accordingly, and the light and shadow floated.

Liang Xiao didn't feel sleepy after waking up, the only thing at hand was Ye Ruixin's book next to the sofa yesterday.

Inside the book is a bookmark, clipped in a third.Liang Xiao continued reading along the part Ye Ruixin had read.Ye Ruixin took this book from Liang Xiao's bookshelf, and Liang Xiao had read it.But apart from the outline, I can't remember the other details clearly.When she was about to read an important plot, Ye Ruixin suddenly woke up.He trembled in shock, clutching Liang Xiao's clothes nervously.

Liang Xiao immediately put down the book, comforted Ye Ruixin's back, and asked, "What's wrong?"

Liang Xiao's smell and voice made Ye Ruixin realize that it was just a dream. He slowly left Liang Xiao's embrace and sat up, saying, "I dreamed that my gramophone was broken."

"phonograph?"

"It's the one I bought at the flea market in LA." Ye Ruixin remembered that when he returned to Hong Kong, he asked Liang Xiao to keep his things and wait for him to come back. "Did you keep it for me?"

"Yes, they are all there."

"Really?" Ye Ruixin couldn't believe it, he didn't see any old things in Liang Xiao's house.

"real."

"Where?"

Liang Xiao didn't answer, but walked upstairs with a smile.He knew that Ye Ruixin would follow him.Ye Ruixin suddenly guessed something when he followed Liang Xiao up the stairs.There is another room on the second floor that I have never entered. Ye Ruixin has not paid much attention to it, thinking it is a storage room or something.

Is it...

Liang Xiao turned the doorknob, followed by a squeak.Time and space began to overlap and become chaotic, this room seemed to be locked in a time tunnel, presenting itself in front of Ye Ruixin intact.

Ye Ruixin walked to the desk and sat down, the gramophone she dreamed of was placed on it intact.Ye Ruixin took out the dust blower from the third drawer of the desk to blow away the dust on the turntable.Then he changed hands and took out a vinyl record from the bookcase and placed it on the turntable.Take off the protective cover of the cartridge, unlock the tonearm, and slowly put the needle down on the record.With the automatic rotation of the record, the music played slowly.

Everything is deep in Ye Ruixin's memory.

Habit is something like a core, the body stubbornly remembers a certain rhythm.Once touched, the memories surged like instinct.The sunlight outside the window was tinkling just like the time in those years, covering Ye Ruixin with a sense of happiness that was lost and found again.It made him almost forget the existence of Liang Xiao, and indulge in yesterday alone.

Memory is always biased, a feeling full of contradictions, clear and vague.Everything that is extremely deep in memory may be completely different from reality, and most of it carries the psychological projection of that period.It's like the slide in my childhood memory, higher than everything I've ever seen.

Back then, Ye Ruixin didn't know that the time living in this room would be his most dazzling years.At that time, there was a clear light in his eyes, and the future within reach was tightly grasped in his palm.His youthful frivolity and dreams are slowly sucked into this unique space and blended into all objects.

These things that were once lost are kept intact.No matter what happens, this place will not change, and I will always wait for my return.

This feeling, how like a home.