before and after

I heard Ye Ruixin say:

"Liang Xiao, I actually like men."

These words made Liang Xiao's heart skip a beat.Liang Xiao's expectations were like glass marbles, which were instantly bounced back by his eyes at this moment, and then scattered in all directions, rolling down nowhere to be found.

"Even if Brother Jin doesn't like men, I will always be by his side. Forever."

Liang Xiao never mentioned what he originally wanted to say.He suddenly thought of the few words Ye Ruixin had said, and remembered Ye Ruixin's longing to finish his studies and return to Hong Kong.Liang Xiao suddenly realized that whenever Ye Ruixin mentioned Li Jin, there would be unprecedented brilliance in his eyes.

Liang Xiao didn't say any more.But the feeling in my heart cannot be avoided.The bitter taste spread from the heart to the throat, eroding every cell, so unpleasant.

On that early summer night, Liang Xiao realized that he could not replace Li Jin's position in Ye Ruixin's heart.Because he clearly saw a gap.The past that he had no time to participate in lay between him and Ye Ruixin like a cliff.

There is no way to make up for it, and it cannot be crossed.

When did you fall in love with Ye Ruixin?

Unknowingly, hindsight.

After the budding of love, ordinary getting along becomes delicate.But during the initial period, Liang Xiao kept himself as busy as possible.

One tip paper was changed to two, and more time was spent searching for information in the library and writing papers.Several times I simply did not go home all night.

Do you like him?

The answer hasn't changed since that summer night.

Liang Xiao didn't set a deadline for this, nor did he try to measure the breadth and depth of this relationship.So, after almost a decade.When Ye Ruixin asked him this question again.Liang Xiao's answer did not contain any hesitation.

If you like it, you like it.These days of not returning home at night is not an escape from this relationship, but just needs a little time to accept my own changes.

Ye Ruixin's classes are also very busy this semester.In addition, he has to study the laws and regulations of Hong Kong in his spare time.He said that he wanted to obtain a Hong Kong lawyer's license, so that it would be easier to do things in the future.

Liang Xiao knew that this was more or less for Li Jin.

Different from Liang Xiao's habits, Ye Ruixin likes to sit on the bay window in the living room when studying.The apartment is near the street, and the floor is not too high.Sometimes when Liang Xiao came home, he could see Ye Ruixin by the window just by looking up.

Just like at this moment, Ye Ruixin is holding thick legal regulations in his hand.Looking sideways out of the window, staring at a place aimlessly, his lips moved slightly silently.

Ye Ruixin was reading seriously and didn't notice that Liang Xiao was back.It wasn't until he heard Liang Xiao's door closing that he turned his head and looked over, and said, "You're back?"

"En." Liang Xiao answered while turning his head to lock the door.

After finishing speaking, Ye Ruixin continued to look down at the book.It is rare for him to read seriously. He is really talented and lucky in finance.But this kind of rules and regulations must take time to memorize.

The busyness of each other occupies the second half of the semester.When Liang Xiao still had two exams, Ye Ruixin was already on vacation.With the end of a subject exam, Ye Ruixin's anticipation became more and more obvious.

That feeling spread from the bottom of his heart and spread throughout the room.

As the day approached, Ye Ruixin became bored.He often practiced the violin until he was sweating profusely, and would kindly bring tea to Liang Xiao who was still studying in the middle of the night.Even start counting down the calendar.Waiting for the day when Li Jin will come.

"Borrow me a book."

Ye Ruixin walked into Liang Xiao's room suddenly, looked at his books all over the wall and said.

"You take it yourself."

Liang Xiao looked at Ye Ruixin at the side, perhaps harassing himself was his best pastime at home.Liang Xiao ignored him, waited for Ye Ruixin to randomly pull out a book, and sat on the sofa beside him to read it.Liang Xiao raised his head and said:

"You don't have a room of your own?"

"Lonely ghost! I won't leave." Ye Ruixin said without raising her head.

[Lonely ghost, meaning cheapskate in Cantonese. ]

Ye Ruixin didn't leave, Liang Xiao was somewhat happy.It's just that he sat too close, so close that he seemed to hear his breathing.It was difficult for Liang Xiao to study books without distraction.

"Love letter!" Ye Ruixin exclaimed suddenly.

Liang Xiao heard the prestige and looked over, a piece of pink letter paper was dangling in Ye Ruixin's hand, like a simple and elegant carnation.

"There are still love letters in this era? Let me see who it is!"

Liang Xiao didn't have time to snatch the letter back from Ye Ruixin's hand, so he listened to him read it.

"JulyChen? I seem to remember this person, she is not wrong! She is considered a pretty girl!"

Liang Xiao thought of this girl. He did lend her this book, but he didn't read it again after getting it back.

"Give it back to me." Liang Xiao reached out to grab it.

As soon as Liang Xiao got up, Ye Ruixin had already retreated to the living room.And be ready to escape at any time.He held the love letter high, like a child snatching candy, triumphant.

Liang Xiao has been bored with this kind of chasing game since he was a child. After failing once, Liang Xiao has no plans to fight again.But Ye Ruixin remained vigilant all the time, he changed his steps lightly on the floor with bare feet, not giving Liang Xiao any chance to take it back.

"Liang Xiao, hello. Maybe you will be surprised when you see this letter, but please forgive me for my lack of courage."

Ye Ruixin read, and slowly put away her smile.He looked at Liang Xiao with affectionate and focused eyes.It seems that he is the one who wrote this letter, or that he has become a medium, a professional drama actor.He is sparing no effort to convey this love from words and convey it through his body.

"If the germination of love can be based on scientific theories, then this world may lose many extremely precious things. I have asked myself more than once, since when did I like you? But there is no answer after all."

Perhaps attracted by the delicate writing, Ye Ruixin leaned against the window with the letter paper.Slowly read word by word.

Midsummer has not yet arrived, and the breeze is blowing.The open door lets in the draft.Blowing Ye Ruixin's thin shirt, the hem of the shirt fluttered.It was as if he had just landed in front of his eyes.

Ye Ruixin moved his eyes away from the girl's beautiful writing, and stared up at Liang Xiao.

"I want to tell you, I like you. If possible, would you like to try to like me?"

Under the sun, the dense green leaves outside the window reflected the golden light of the setting sun, silently flickering beside him, mottled.

There was such a gap, Liang Xiao felt that Ye Ruixin said these words to himself.Every detail in these ten seconds is extremely clear, and even the air seems to have a specific shape for careful storage.

"You are blushing!" Ye Ruixin had already put away his affection, "Liang Xiao, you are blushing!"

Ye Ruixin's laughter made trembling emotions jingle in the sunlight, breaking the frozen moment.The sense of disappointment is exposed naked in the flowing air, and there is nowhere to hide.

"boring!"

Liang Xiao turned around and went back to the room, and closed the door heavily with a "bang", without even taking back the love letter.

"Hey! Are you really angry? Big men are so thin-faced!"

Liang Xiao was standing behind the door.It seems that if you leave there, you lose your sanctuary.He could clearly hear what Ye Ruixin said outside the door.Ye Ruixin probably really thought that Liang Xiao was angry because of this incident, at least during that time, Ye Ruixin did not provoke Liang Xiao again.

Until one afternoon in midsummer, Ye Ruixin was pacing back and forth in the room with nothing to do.He changed clothes a few times, all of which seemed dissatisfied.

He knocked on the door symbolically, and entered the room without waiting for Liang Xiao's answer.

"Which one is better?" Ye Ruixin asked, wearing one suit and holding another suit.

"Almost." Liang Xiao was telling the truth.

"Choose one!"

"Just wear this suit."

"Really?"

Ye Ruixin was obviously not satisfied. He looked in the mirror and fiddled with his hair twice.After getting her hair done, Ye Ruixin went a little further to see the effect on her whole body.

"The air conditioner is not cold enough, it's so hot." Ye Ruixin muttered.

"Peace of mind naturally cools."

Liang Xiao knew why Ye Ruixin was happy, he knew the reason very well.So when I saw Ye Ruixin's uncontrollable eagerness, I felt somewhat unhappy.

Ye Ruixin's phone rang, and he immediately picked it up and said:

"Okay, I'll go home now."

[OK, I'm going downstairs now. ]

After saying that, Ye Ruixin went out immediately.When he came back, Li Jin followed him.

The sound of the key opening the door came, and Ye Ruixin's voice became clearer and clearer with the footsteps.

"I'm here (living here). Let me introduce to you, this department (this is) my classmate Liang Xiao." Ye Ruixin spoke to Li Jin in Cantonese, and when Liang Xiao looked at them, Changed to Mandarin, "Liang Xiao, I told you, Brother Jin."

"Hello."

Li Jin smiled and stretched out his hand, Standard Port.

Li Jin was born handsome, with a smile in his eyes all the time.Although he was only a few years older than himself, the things in Li Jin's eyes were deep and steady.This is not something that can be settled by staying in this ivory tower for a few more years.

Before Liang Xiao met Li Jin, he had never imagined what the person Ye Ruixin liked should look like.But when he saw Li Jin, Liang Xiao suddenly drew a clear outline in his mind.

It's not what Li Jin looks like, and it's even completely different from Li Jin.At that time, Liang Xiao thought he was wrong, but when he saw Vito later.Everything becomes concrete and clear.

Vito is handsome and elegant, well-dressed, with an inherent romantic sentiment.At the moment when Ye Ruixin met his eyes, one could almost see the collision of hormones, which was the unique aura brought about by mutual attraction.

This feeling did not exist when he saw Li Jin that day.

"Hello." Liang Xiao stretched out his hand.

"I've been hearing Rui Xin mentioning you. There are no specialties in Hong Kong, so I brought some dim sum and seafood. I hope you will like it."

Li Jin handed the things in his hand to Liang Xiao, and Ye Ruixin said from the side:

"They all taste delicious! I like the food the most."

"Thank you."

Just as Liang Xiao wanted to ask Li Jin what he wanted to drink, Ye Ruixin dragged Li Jin into his room.

Li Jin is much taller than Ye Ruixin, when Ye Ruixin looks up at Li Jin, his bright eyes are cute and full of admiration.

Liang Xiao walked into the kitchen and poured Li Jin a glass of iced lemonade and put it on the coffee table in the living room.

The voices of Ye Ruixin and Li Jin came from the room with the door open.Li Jin's voice is deep and deep, like a tree full of safe pampering, while Ye Ruixin is like a skylark born of Li Jin, jumping around and relying on it.

After all, a guest came, Liang Xiao didn't go back to his room, but sat in the living room.Not long after, Li Jin walked out of the room.

"Sit whatever you want," Liang Xiao said.

Li Jin sat opposite Liang Xiao, and said with a smile:

"Ruixin is really sorry to trouble you here."

Ye Ruixin didn't sit down, but stood beside him.The body is next to Li Jin, which is more intimate than sitting side by side.

"I paid him rent! Liang Xiao?" Ye Ruixin smiled.

Li Jin laughed, stretched out his hand to rub Ye Ruixin's hair, and scolded:

"There is no one like you who is not afraid of being ugly!"

[How can you be so not shy! ]

Liang Xiao couldn't understand what they said, and he didn't want to understand it.But the upbringing since childhood made Liang Xiao unable to close the door and turn a blind eye to it.

When Li Jin came to the door this time, he more or less wanted to confirm Ye Ruixin's living environment.He didn't mean to hide this truth, and Liang Xiao could tell it at a glance.He should be at ease, after sitting for a short while, Li Jin said:

"It's getting late, I won't stop you from resting. If you have time, let Ruixin bring you to Hong Kong to play, and I'll be the host."

"Okay, I will definitely go if I have the chance."

Liang Xiao got up and sent Li Jin to the door, while Ye Ruixin followed Li Jin downstairs.

Finally, he could go back to his room, but even after closing the door, Liang Xiao could still feel Ye Ruixin's cheerful mood permeating the air.

Liang Xiao remembered that Ye Ruixin came back again later.Unlike the usual sound of water when he was washing, the sound of tidying things came from outside the door.

Liang Xiao touched the pages of the book, and the minute he suppressed his emotions was as long as an hour for him.Finally, Liang Xiao got up and opened the door, and walked to the door of Ye Ruixin's room.

"Going out?"

"Go to Route 66." Ye Ruixin said while taking clothes from the closet.

"Ah."

Liang Xiao responded without saying anything.After going to the kitchen to pour a cup of tea, he returned to his room.Ye Ruixin quickly tidied up his things, dragged the suitcase to Liang Xiao's door, Ye Ruixin probed and said:

"I'll go first! Enjoy your holiday!"

Ye Ruixin left, her footsteps were as light as poetry.But for Liang Xiao, this was an extremely long vacation.Apart from sports and study, Liang Xiao has no other special hobbies.Without Ye Ruixin's harassment, life became regular again like a rigid pendulum.

After taking a shower in the morning, Liang Xiao wiped his head with a towel while watching the news on his mobile phone.

Ye Ruixin's ID suddenly appeared on the Facebook homepage.The blue sky and white clouds play a broad movement.The straight asphalt road has no end in sight, the white paint has a clear pattern printed on the ground, and a clear sign is written in the shield-like symbol - ROUTE66.

In the photo, Ye Ruixin was sitting directly on the ground, squinting his eyes under the sun and smiling brightly.

Liang Xiao suddenly applied for this Facebook account by Ye Ruixin, and after applying, Ye Ruixin was the first to follow him.However, Liang Xiao's homepage is blank so far. Apart from the factual news that he pays attention to, there are not many people who interact with each other.

Looking at Ye Ruixin in the photo, Liang Xiao was a little surprised.He seldom uploaded his own photos, but this time besides the one just now, he also posted two photos with Li Jin.

After Ye Ruixin returned to Hong Kong, Liang Xiao would gradually point out Ye Ruixin's profile picture.

From the photos, look at the street scene Ye Ruixin walked through, the sky he saw, and his appearance.He still seems to be the same, but it seems to be completely different from the past.

Thinking about it now, it went from light as a feather to overwhelmed.All great changes are piled up in trivial details.There was no sound when they fell, and dust filled the sky when they collapsed.

Liang Xiao had seen Ye Ruixin's happy face, and always remembered his happy face.But at that time, why didn't I notice the unhappiness in his eyes?

In the past two years, Liang Xiao asked himself this question more than once.

Ye Ruixin's trip lasted about three weeks, and she was a little tanned when she came back.Liang Xiao was ready to listen to him talk about trivia about the trip with great interest, even if there were other people's names mixed in.But Ye Ruixin just gave Liang Xiao the souvenir, and didn't say much else.

Mostly because Li Jin returned to Hong Kong, so he was not happy.Liang Xiao guessed so.

During the second half of the summer vacation, Ye Ruixin was seldom at home.Although he used to have a lot of social activities, he was especially busy that summer.I often come back from playing until early in the morning and then sleep until the afternoon, and then go out at night.

This state lasted for about a month or two, and Ye Ruixin became bored.

"Liang Xiao, aren't you bored at home all day?"

"do not think so."

"I feel so bored."

Liang Xiao closed the book and watched Ye Ruixin raise his head and take a sip of wine.

"You weren't like this before."

When Liang Xiao said this, he didn't understand what Ye Ruixin was thinking.So his words were full of puzzlement and doubt.Later, when Liang Xiao realized it himself, he understood Ye Ruixin's feeling at that time, and realized his loneliness at that time.

Liang Xiao's words made Ye Ruixin slightly startled when he raised his hand just now, and he didn't continue to drink.Instead, he lowered his head and swung his wine glass.A small amount of liquid swayed in the transparent wine glass, sparkling.Reflected in Ye Ruixin's eyes, it was a little gloomy.

"Stop reading tonight and go out with me."

Ye Ruixin put the wine glass on the table, got up and opened Liang Xiao's wardrobe.

"Let me pick out a shirt for you, look pretty!" When Ye Ruixin was speaking, she was already holding the clothes and gestured in front of Liang Xiao, "Actually, you are very handsome! You have a really good figure!"

Liang Xiao smiled, not because he understood Ye Ruixin's compliment.He just likes to see Ye Ruixin blurt out Cantonese, because it is his subconscious behavior.There is no time to cover up, no time to think, giving people a feeling of incomparable innocence.

Liang Xiao drove Ye Ruixin to the entrance of a bar.Ye Ruixin should have planned to participate in tonight's event, so he took out the invitation card and walked in with Liang Xiao.

As the door opened, the deafening music quickly overwhelmed the two of them, as if they were sucked into a huge vortex, and they could only talk through "crying" pasted to each other's ears.

"Estimate the Keywords for tonight?"

Ye Ruixin's lips accidentally touched Liang Xiao's ear, which made it tickle.

Liang Xiao looked around and saw that there were people wearing white shirts, even women were wearing white shirts.It's just that their shirts are more fancy and sexy than men's shirts.Some were not buttoned at all, and the underwear was ready to come out.

Liang Xiao blocked the noise with his hand, and leaned over to Ye Ruixin's ear.With the instant of distance, the smell behind Ye Ruixin's ears lingered at the tip of his nose, that familiar cold aroma.The passing crowd caused Liang Xiao's nose to accidentally touch Ye Ruixin's auricle, almost rubbing his ears together.

With a violent heartbeat, Liang Xiao said, "Whiteshirt?"

"Bingo!"

Ye Ruixin dragged Liang Xiao to the bar and sat down.Liang Xiao just ordered a glass of orange juice to drive.Ye Ruixin is still the same, TeqilaPop.

The bartender quickly delivered the wine to the two of them. Ye Ruixin deftly picked up the wine glass and tapped it lightly on the table. The bubbles contained in the cocktail rose rapidly.Excitedly, happily ran out of the water.Before the bubbles disappeared, Ye Ruixin picked up the cup and drank it in one gulp.Probably because of the smell of alcohol in his sense of smell, Liang Xiao suddenly felt that the alcohol that melted into his body as Ye Ruixin's Adam's apple rolled, had also slipped over the tip of his tongue.With the bubbles of soda, the spiciness of alcohol.

"Orange juice?"

Accompanied by these words, a girl with dyed chestnut hair came over.She looked at Liang Xiao and smiled charmingly.The tangy fragrance of flowers came oncoming, and Liang Xiao couldn't help but backed away to avoid the slightly strong smell.

The girl lowered her head and sniffed the orange juice in front of her, as if to confirm whether there was alcohol in it.Liang Xiao wasn't sure if she could smell other scents from the perfume on her body.

"Chinese, Japanese or Korean?"

The long hair slid on Liang Xiao's arm intentionally or unintentionally, and Liang Xiao moved his position as far as possible without being rude.Keep a certain distance from her.

Liang Xiao is not good at dealing with women, so he is not good at getting rid of women's entanglements.When she was finally relieved, she turned around and found that Ye Ruixin had disappeared.

Maybe it was because Ben didn't like this environment, or maybe it was because of Ye Ruixin's sudden disappearance.Liang Xiao only felt that his heart was no longer at ease in the atrium, and was suspended in the air.It's like breaking away from gravity.The whole world vibrated accordingly, the swaying wine glass, the dazzling lights, everything became illusory and unreal.

Liang Xiao chased the clear and dazzling white light with his eyes in the darkness, looking for Ye Ruixin everywhere.He is Liang Xiao's only connection with this place.

The strong light rotating with the rhythm has no rules to follow at all, Liang Xiao watched for a long time in the field, but found nothing but dazzling.Just as he took out his mobile phone to call Ye Ruixin, the DJ switched the music.

As the track changes, all the lights in the bar turn bright white and flash to the beat of the drums.The heavy bass shakes the hanging heart so that it has no place to rest, the brain has no time to think, and there is only the lingering rhythm in the mind.It seems that the switch between day and night is no longer controlled by the rotation of the earth, and all the laws are disrupted, changing instantly,

In this flickering gap, Liang Xiao saw an unforgettable scene in his life.

Ye Ruixin was kissing a man.

The flickering follow spot light is like the flash of an antique camera.Freeze the clips into discrete frames.

The man's cobalt blue sleeve studs, half a cigarette permeating the fingertips.When the smoke was about to burn to the end, they ended the kiss that fell into no one's land.

Those dark green glasses stared directly at Ye Ruixin's black pupils.The man raised his hand to put the cigarette in his mouth, took the last puff and then stifled it.Light smoke slowly exhaled from his slightly parted lips, instead of his lips continuing to linger with Ye Ruixin.

The whole space is filled with the smell of alcohol and lust, as if the air has been evaporated.Liang Xiao hung up the phone and left the bar.He needs a place to breathe again, he needs to get away from here.

That night, Liang Xiao suffered from insomnia for the first time.

Whenever he closes his eyes, Liang Xiao will think of Ye Ruixin's eyes.

Ye Ruixin said that he loves Li Jin.When he looked at Li Jin, his eyes revealed the light of soul.He was kissing another man, his body seductive and inviting at the same time.

Those clips criss-crossed back and forth in Liang Xiao's mind, and Ye Ruixin in the picture was unfamiliar.

Yes, strange.

At this moment, Liang Xiao clearly realized that neither Ye Ruixin's soul nor his body had anything to do with him.They are just friends, nothing more.

Such a clear understanding is cruel, but it is an indisputable fact.

Ye Ruixin didn't go home that night, Liang Xiao went to the library early in the morning.He can read at home, but he can't help but pay attention to the sound outside the door.This is his restlessness.

It's a pity that even complicated theories and profound academics can't make Liang Xiao completely forget Ye Ruixin.I will think of him, at this unprepared second or at the unpredictable next moment.Missing Ye Ruixin is a kind of uncontrollable confusion hidden under Liang Xiao's meticulous and rigorous appearance.

After returning home, the sense of loss of no one is mixed with the bad mood of the day.Liang Xiao took a shower and lay down on the bed early.Last night's insomnia allowed him to at least fall asleep, but the fitful sleep made him upset and irritable, so he simply went out for a morning run after dawn.

Exercise produces phenylethylamine, an alkaloid and monoamine neurotransmitter, which increases the level of dopamine in extracellular fluid and inhibits the activation of dopamine nerves, which helps to suppress depression.

After running twice as many kilometers as usual, Liang Xiao sat on the side of the road to rehydrate.At this moment, he was out of breath, and his brain had no time to think about anything else.The sweat on the body slowly evaporated in the summer air, and the breeze carried a hint of coolness.Liang Xiao looked up at the leaves falling with the wind, he just realized that the summer has completely passed.

When Ye Ruixin came back, it was already noon on the third day. Liang Xiao was just about to eat when he heard the sound of the lock key accompanied by Ye Ruixin humming a little tune.

Hearing Ye Ruixin's voice, Liang Xiao's mood suddenly settled down.No matter how unpleasant the previous few days were, the gloomy mood disappeared the moment I saw him.Liang Xiao silently felt this unexplainable feeling until Ye Ruixin made a cup of coffee and sat opposite him.

Liang Xiao had never seen Ye Ruixin's clothes before. It was a simple and elegant shirt, which suited him very well.With the silver coffee spoon gently stirring, the aroma of coffee gradually came.Liang Xiao noticed some other flavors in this bitter aroma.

It smells like smoke, and there's a low, woody, perfumey smell.Both of these smells did not belong to Ye Ruixin.

"Liang Xiao, I found a boyfriend."

Ye Ruixin's words reached Liang Xiao's ears lightly, and its weight was like missing a cube of sugar in today's latte.

"The guy from that night...?"

Liang Xiao missed a few words, but in the end he didn't say: Kiss you.

Ye Ruixin didn't know how much Liang Xiao saw that night.The coffee finally reached the right temperature, Ye Ruixin picked up the cup and took a sip.Then answer, it is an answer.

Liang Xiao put down his chopsticks and looked at Ye Ruixin.

"Don't you like Li Jin?" Liang Xiao asked calmly.

Hearing Liang Xiao's words, Ye Ruixin was a little surprised.He put down the coffee cup brought to his mouth, and looked seriously into Liang Xiao's eyes, trying to make sure if he was joking.After watching it for a few seconds, Ye Ruixin had an answer, and he said:

"Liang Xiao, why are you so innocent?" Ye Ruixin laughed softly, "I like Li Jin and I don't conflict with finding a boyfriend."

Ye Ruixin's answer left Liang Xiao speechless.Liang Xiao didn't understand Ye Ruixin's way of thinking.He really wanted to know what Ye Ruixin was thinking.Until the smile gradually disappeared from Ye Ruixin's eyes, the corners of his lips still maintained an elegant curve.

"Brother Jin already has a girlfriend." Ye Ruixin said suddenly.

Ye Ruixin did not expect any answer to these words.Liang Xiao didn't intend to speak again.One picks up the chopsticks and continues to eat, while the other slowly drinks his coffee.The conversation ended in silence.

Li Jin's name was never mentioned between the two of them after that.Liang Xiao later found out that the man was called Vito.He is a captain, Italian.When he comes to America, Ye Ruixin will live with him.When Ye Ruixin has vacations, he will also take his plane to accompany him to fly around the world.

In the following years, they have maintained such a relationship.And the school days are finally coming to an end after the graduation trip.Liang Xiao still needs to continue his Ph.D., and Ye Ruixin plans to return to Hong Kong after completing his MBA.

Ye Ruixin didn't have many things to take away, only some daily favorite clothes and necessities, which couldn't fill a 24-inch suitcase.Qiao Jiang drove to pick him up. Before leaving, Ye Ruixin still dragged Liang Xiao and told him:

"Don't break this record player, I found it with great difficulty. And the things in this cabinet too, keep it for me."

Liang Xiao looked at Ye Ruixin's longing for those objects, and said:

"It's so troublesome, why don't you take it away? Or I'll post it for you later."

"Liang Xiao, do you think I'm taking your place?" Ye Ruixin's eyes suddenly became suspicious, and he frowned and looked at Liang Xiao, "In short, when I return to the United States, no matter where you live, you have to reserve a room for me. I."

"Your unilateral declaration is invalid."

"You will agree."

"not necessarily."

"you will."

Liang Xiao clearly remembered Ye Ruixin's expression when he said these three words.

His eyes were half playful and half begging for mercy, but more of a kind of self-confidence.He was absolutely convinced that those expressions were just his mischievous improvisation.

Liang Xiao took a sip of the black tea in his hand.The cold tea flowed down his throat and into his body, pulling him back from the warm memories of the past.

This was the last time Liang Xiao saw Ye Ruixin, and it had been five years since now.

The days are short and the nights are long in winter, and the sky is already dark.The warm lights of the coffee shop are reflected by the glass windows, driving away the snow outside the windows.

Ever since meeting Ye Ruixin in the afternoon, Liang Xiao's emotions can probably be summed up in terms of ups and downs.After the shock and the joy of regaining what was lost, there is more loss.

Ye Ruixin came back for half a year, and he hadn't contacted Liang Xiao in the past six months.Judging from today's meeting, if it wasn't for a coincidence, I am afraid that he has no plan to contact in the future.Having known each other for so many years, it can be said that they are very close.Ye Ruixin didn't mention everything he experienced in Hong Kong at that time, and now he returns to the United States as if he is a stranger.Liang Xiao couldn't accept such indifference.Disappointment is unpleasant.Even a calm person like Liang Xiao was eventually controlled by his emotions, and his attitude towards Ye Ruixin was unavoidably aggressive.

At this moment, facing the empty seat opposite, Liang Xiao thought of Ye Ruixin sitting there just now.He answers every question and is rarely docile.Thinking about it now, Liang Xiao knew that Ye Ruixin must have sensed his emotions just now, so he cooperated accommodatingly.

Fresh memories, all the details are very clear.Liang Xiao was surprised to find that what he thought he would never forget was slowly blurring.Although deep-rooted, there is only one outline.

Liang Xiao thought of an afternoon two years ago.It was a day in late autumn, and the sycamore trees in front of the door had begun to shed their leaves.About a month before Ye Ruixin could be contacted at all, Liang Xiu called.He said: Ye Ruixin's news, you can just Google it.

Enter Ye Ruixin's name, and the webpage quickly pops up with a full page of news.Those harsh words jumped into Liang Xiao's eyes, drug trafficking, hostage-taking, organized crime...

Liang Xiao was surprised to open each piece of news, and all the results were the same.

It's almost unbelievable that Liang Xiao couldn't connect Ye Ruixin with these crimes no matter what.What happened and what happened to him in Hong Kong?Liang Xiao knew nothing and had no clue.I can only watch these jaw-dropping words become irrefutable labels, imprinted on Ye Ruixin, and then declare his death without emotion.

The person who once left bright colors in his memory completely disappeared in this world.Liang Xiao learned of his death in such an extremely cruel way.Across the cold screen, like a stranger who only knows his name.

All the astonishment and pain accumulated in Liang Xiao's heart, and he could see those fine and deep wounds as long as he lowered his head.They were there all the time, bleeding and not healing.

The coffee cup in front of him was empty, so light that it had no weight.The feeling of being lost and found is extremely heavy, Liang Xiao stretched out his hand to cover the place Ye Ruixin touched, as if he could feel the warmth left just now.

"Just come back."

Liang Xiao lowered his head and murmured.

The snow continued to fall again.

For Liu Steward's age, sunny, frosty, rainy and snowy weather is nothing but natural weather, and it has no effect on his mood.But seeing Ye Ruixin meet an old friend, he felt that it was somewhat gratifying.

"Sir, apply some medicine after taking a bath."

Butler Liu brought a bowl of sweet soup and put it next to Ye Ruixin's desk.

"En." Ye Ruixin flipped through the pages of the book and responded.

After ten o'clock in the evening, Ye Ruixin lay on the bed and turned sideways.Butler Liu poured the essential oil on the medicine bag, then tore off the tape and stuck it on Ye Ruixin's lower back.Liu Butler's movements were very careful, he tried to avoid the position of the knife edge, and prevented the tape from directly touching the scar.

"The current plaster is really convenient. It should get hot after a while, so you should be able to sleep better at night." Seeing Ye Ruixin lying down, Liu Butler tidied up the tape on the side, then got up and said, "Go to bed early."

Butler Liu went to the door of the room, turned off the light, and gently closed the door.

The room was very warm, and a warm feeling came from behind him not long after.There are also some medicinal herbs, which are not unpleasant, but a faint medicinal fragrance.

Meeting Liang Xiao inevitably brings back many memories of Ye Ruixin.It reminded him of the apartment on the street, of the smell of grass in the school, and everything wanted to be bathed in the light golden morning light, full of unknown and new light.

Memories should sweep and dwell long in the long night tonight.But Ye Ruixin fell asleep quickly, maybe it was because the hot compress really worked, or maybe it was because of the cleanness of the moonlight tonight.

In short, Ye Ruixin didn't have time to recall too much of that night.After a long-lost sleep, it was dawn when I opened my eyes.

It's a dream, Ye Ruixin realized.

Sleeping peacefully does not conflict with dreaming. Ye Ruixin dreamed of Liang Xiao last night.

The picture in the dream is always blurry, often accompanied by faces that cannot be seen clearly.Liang Xiao in the dream couldn't see clearly.But this does not prevent Ye Ruixin from being sure of his identity.

This kind of subjective directivity is very common in dreams, which is different from the identification process of the brain when awake.Even if his face is far from the person you remember, but in the dream, you will not have the slightest doubt.

The details that were ignored in the real world became clear.It was a summer, a summer vacation with nothing to do.

"Wake up, go for a morning run.