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Guan Xiao was taking a shower when he received the email from Professor Ross. At 12 o'clock in the night, the heating in the room was fully turned on. When Guan Xiao came out barefoot to find a hair dryer, he heard the sound of a new email notification.

Guan Xiao covered his head with a big towel, walked to the desk, and opened the mail.

Tube, happy new year.

I have a Chinese friend who asked me to write a movie episode for him, but you know I still have a band, so I recommended you to him, you are in China, and you can meet him when you have time, I think it is It is a good exercise for you. His films are famous overseas. If your song can appear in his films, it will be of great benefit to your future career development.His contact information is attached below, I wish you a pleasant negotiation.

Besides, Ohrin has already started urging you to come back, and I have a headache from his noise.

Rose.

Guan Xiao smiled unconsciously, as if Orin's clear childlike eyes were blinking at him.Guan Xiao pulled to the end and saw the name of the contact person, Xu Zhixing.

Guan Xiao froze for a moment, as if he didn’t recognize the name suddenly, the index finger that clicked on the mouse

After a long time without sliding, the black and bright pupils slowly filled with mist.

The old man's name was so unexpected, even though it was only a weak link between him and Chen Qian, it was only a one-time relationship on the red carpet back then, Xu Lao still couldn't remember him, but he was not sure. Boom, boom, beat violently.

Guan Xiao pondered for a while, clicked on the reply and typed back, to the effect that he would like to thank Professor Ross for his promotion. He would cherish this opportunity and create excellent works. The return date may be extended to March.

Closed the computer, Guan Xiao sat on the sofa with his knees hugged, took the mobile phone at hand, dug out new information, entered a string of numbers he knew by heart, but couldn't type a word for a long time, and simply saved a blank draft.

Biting his lip, Guan Xiao brought up the dialing interface again, and quickly entered the number as if he was afraid that he would regret it, but he couldn't press the dialing button. After a long time of annoyance, he locked the screen and threw it aside.

Similar to the feelings of being close to home and feeling timid, even if you know that he is in a certain corner of the city, you will still be afraid to hear his voice, even though you are already going crazy with nostalgia. what should i do.

Guan Xiao didn't know whether he decided to break up because he was worried about Chen Qian's family or was affected by Zou Pei's incident. In short, in such a situation where his career was repeatedly suppressed, his lover's family was firmly opposed, and someone was interposed in the middle, he couldn't hold on. It's only natural to go down and back down.Thinking about it now, the turmoil and anxiety in my heart at that time were not due to Chen Qian, but my own uncertainty about the future. If Zou Pei just broke up with me, then my timidity was the deepest reason.

Guan Xiao has always been unwilling to admit that he would have such a timid time, and the current dilemma is simply mocking the resolute self two years ago, leaving his embrace, looking forward to a future without him, ignoring his good intentions, Blindly focusing on repairing his wounded heart, he has been imagining for the past few years, if he asked for an explanation, would Chen Gan give him a satisfactory answer?It's a pity that I didn't even have the courage to ask, so I ran away, and now I am struggling to make a call.

Guan Xiao had a severe headache, and it was already 2 o'clock in the morning.

Chen Ganwo watched the script at home for a week without going anywhere. The story of the protagonist Huo Wenduan attracted him like a huge vortex, and he could even feel the despair of being forgotten or abandoned by the world. , can only disguise himself with a crazy mask, he is not a patient, nor a lunatic, he is just a lonely patient.

Chen Qian seemed to remember that Guan Xiao once read his script by chance and shed tears. At that time, he didn't understand Qin Xiuran's mood, because at that time he was in the happiness of getting what he wanted, and he was sad about the sadness that happened around him. I can only sympathize but cannot feel it. Those days were a time when I would laugh even when I played a tragedy, so how could it be the same as today's state of mind.

Chen Qian smiled desolately, and took a pen to underline a line of lines.

I don't want redemption, I just want to die peacefully.

In the early morning of this day, Guan Xiao called Xu Zhixing, and Xu Zhixing said pleasantly on the phone that he still remembered himself, and that he was very surprised that he became a student of Ross, so the two made an appointment to meet in a cafe.

Guan Xiao left very early, ordered a cup of hot water, flipped through the "A Brief History of Sound" that he picked up when he left the house, and read carefully page by page.The appointed time was almost approaching, Guan Xiao looked at his watch, Mr. Xu was famous for being punctual, and he should be there soon.

As soon as Xu Zhixing entered the door, he saw Guan Xiao sitting by the window, hurriedly walked two steps, saw Guan Xiao got up, and hurriedly said apologetically, "I'm sorry, the road is a bit congested, you have been waiting for a long time."

"Where is it, Mr. Xu, please slow down, I just came here not long ago," Guan Xiao bowed slightly, inviting Xu Zhixing to take a seat.

Xu Zhixing sat down, took a serious look, and exclaimed, "Sure enough, you are very talented, you are very famous."

Guan Xiao smiled, "Old Xu still remembers me, I'm very honored."

"You were very eye-catching on the red carpet that year. I noticed you before, and you sang well. It must be more beneficial to go out for further studies." Xu Zhixing narrowed his eyes, as if remembering that year when Chen Gan couldn't cover up on stage. bright smile.

Thinking of Chen Gan, Xu Zhixing's eyes darkened unconsciously, this child, alas.

"Mr. Xu, I heard that you are going to make a new movie. What type of episode do you want this time? Do you have a script for me to see, so I can familiarize myself with the story before creating it," Guan Xiao asked respectfully.

"Hehe, yes, I've reached my age. This is the last one. I brought you the script. You can read it first and mention it if you have any ideas." Mr. Xu was just out of his mind, as if thinking of something, his eyes There is a taste of judgment in it.

Guan Xiao took over the script, and the words "Repeat the Mistakes" were written on the cover.

Turning to the first page, the cast list is impressive.

Guan Xiao suddenly raised his head to look at Xu Zhixing in a panic, and saw Xu Zhixing looking at him with a clear face.

"Old Xu, this..." Guan Xiao's heart was beating violently, almost jumping out of his throat.

Elder Xu smiled understandingly, "You're not mistaken, it's him, I just remembered this, it's a coincidence, I've heard something about you, you two separated?"

Guan Xiao seemed to have not recovered from the shock, nodded mumuly, and murmured, "Yeah...we've separated a long time ago." The last sentence seemed to be a sigh, and the ending sound dissipated in the air.

"It's a pity, but there is never a definite date in the relationship. Since there is such a fate, let's cooperate again. After all, you are more familiar with each other." Old Xu smiled, and continued, "You compose the music and he will perform it, God's will."

There are not many directors who are so open-minded and honest. Xu Zhixing has a unique temperament all his life. People who get along respect him very much, and those who can’t get along don’t dare to say anything. They just say they are not easy to provoke. The relationship between Chen Gan and Xu Zhixing is somewhat like a teacher and a teacher Friends, Xu Zhixing cared a lot for Chen Qian.

Guan Xiao curled up his fingers and didn't turn it down any further, feeling overwhelmed by the pain in his heart.

Xu Zhixing looked at his phone and said relaxedly, "Take care of yourself, you are all young people, unlike me, there are still many chances to start over."

Xu Zhixing has seen countless people, and he has seen too many such things, whether the true feelings are fake or not, the real feelings are very few, at this time, the sadness in Guan Xiao's eyes is seen in Xu Zhixing's eyes. Naked concern, thinking of the possible situation for a while, can't help but secretly sigh that God has arranged it long ago.

Guan Xiao turned the cup in his hand helplessly, and smiled at Xu Zhixing uncomfortably, "Mr. Xu, he and I are quite complicated. If I knew he was the lead actor, I might not accept it."

"Oh? Why are you avoiding him?" Xu Zhixing was greatly surprised, and raised his gaze at the same time.

"It's not hiding, it's..."

"I don't know how to face me."

Guan Xiao shuddered, turned his head in disbelief, and immediately froze in place, "Chen...what are you doing?"

Standing tall and straight behind Guan Xiao, Chen Gan's tall and thin body looked at the frightened person in front of him without any waves in his eyes, pursed his lips and remained silent.

"Sit down, Xiao Chen," Xu Zhixing looked at the situation and stepped forward to break the deadlock.

In fact, everything was a coincidence. Chen Gan didn't know that Xu Zhixing was meeting with Guan Xiao today. He just heard that he was going to discuss the episode. It is a very important part that can resonate strongly with the audience. Sometimes the rendering of music will immediately put the audience into the situation. Therefore, Chen Qian asked to make an appointment together to talk about his thoughts. He did not expect the old people to reunite, which was extremely shocking.

Chen Gan nodded slightly, turned his eyes away from Guan Xiao, and sat down opposite Guan Xiao with a blank expression. When he saw the script under Guan Xiao's hand, he frowned slightly.

Guan Xiao was trembling from the coldness of Chen Gan's attitude. He gritted his teeth and insisted not to show sadness. He forced a smile and said, "Long time no see, Chen Gan."

Chen Gan glanced at Guan Xiao casually, and responded lightly, "Well, long time no see."

The atmosphere in the corner of the cafe suddenly became strange, as if the air had condensed, only the smell of death filled the air.

Xu Zhixing expected this would be the case, so he explained a few words casually and left with an excuse, leaving the reunion time for the two of them.

After the initial shock, Guan Xiao gradually calmed down.

Chen Qian seems to have not changed, and it seems to have changed.

Chen Gan asked in a calm tone, "When did you come back?"

"Just came back last week."

"Are you used to it over there?"

"not bad."

The conversation between the two was restrained and polite, and outsiders who didn't know the inside story thought they were just meeting for the first time. Guan Xiao had a faint smile on his face, but he didn't see Chen Qian's hands under the table, which were bleeding out.

"How are you doing?" Guan Xiao asked softly.

"Fortunately," Chen Qian's eyes seemed to see Guan Xiao's heart, he just stared at him silently, his eyes intertwined with Guan Xiao occasionally and he didn't dodge it, he just watched without moving.

"Are you going to come back this time?"

"Stay until March and leave."

"Have you read the script, what do you think?"

"very good."

He used to think carefully and tell himself that it is very suitable for you, but now he only evaluates it, it is very good.

Chen Qian's blood surged in his chest, his stomach felt like a tearing colic, all the cells were screaming crazily, he wished he could pinch Guan Xiao by the neck and push him against the wall to ask clearly why he left in the first place without any news. He later figured out all the things, whether it was what Yu Ran said to Guan Xiao, or what Zou Pei did deliberately in desperation, but he just didn't want to explain, he wanted Guan Xiao to solve the mystery himself, He wanted to see him crying and begging for his forgiveness, he wanted to punish him severely, he wanted to crush him into flesh and blood, so that he would have nowhere to go.

But he didn't, he just looked at it, and saw the sadness and unspeakable longing, he wanted to give Guan Xiao a hug, wanted to see him act like a baby in his arms, but he couldn't, he couldn't bear it anymore The weight of two people, because he alone is already trying to live.

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Yo, hello, everyone, enjoy watching.I don't know if there are any of you.