Don't understand

On the plane back to China, Guan Xiao has been silently looking out the window at the clouds at a height of tens of millions of feet. The huge wings are swinging up and down against the wind, like free wings.

If the plane fell at this time, would it be a regret for a lifetime, Guan Xiao dared not think.

Guan Xiao closed his eyes, resisting the surging tide in his eye sockets, touched the little clay figurine in his bag, and clenched his fingers convulsively.

Guan Xiao postponed the date of returning home, and the plane landed in Beijing first.

After taking a taxi, Guan Xiao went to Zhou Jin's office without stopping. After the lawsuit, the two became friends and had contact in private. This time, Zhou Jin still needs to be troubled.

When Zhou Jin entered the door, he saw that Guan Xiao was still sitting in the same position. He hadn't seen him for two years, and his demeanor became more restrained.

"Come?" Zhou Jin walked over with a smile.

"Well, long time no see," Guan Xiao looked up and smiled.

Zhou Jin handed over a cup of hot tea, took off his suit jacket, rolled up his shirt sleeves, and asked with a smile on his face, "Why, the contract is about to be terminated again? You have nothing else to do with me besides helping you with the lawsuit, right?" .”

Guan Xiao smiled, "There was nothing I could do to bother you before, but today I came to trouble you on purpose, there is still a difference."

"I'm very happy to hear you say that," Zhou Jin pushed his glasses, "tell me, how will you handle this lawsuit?"

"My contract with Times expires in half a year, but now I need to open my own studio. My mentor helped me contact some musicians. I need to be free to work with them. Besides, Times have signed I have not fulfilled the contract commitments, so I need you to help me to directly propose termination of the contract, and strive to settle the lawsuit as soon as possible," Guan Xiao said while taking out the materials, and Zhou Jin reached out to take them.

Zhou Jin roughly listened to Guan Xiao's meaning, and then said, "Understood, this lawsuit is not difficult to fight, leave it to me."

"You are still so confident, Barrister," Guan Xiao teased with a smile.

"After talking about the official business, there is no personal matter to talk about?" Zhou Jin calmly picked up the teacup and put the information aside.

Guan Xiao looked at Zhou Jin uncomfortably, seeing that Zhou Jin was just looking at him calmly, suddenly he didn't know how to speak, all he wanted to ask was stuck in his throat.

"He's very successful, but he's not doing well," Zhou Jin knew in his heart what Guan Xiao couldn't say, so he replied directly.

Guan Xiao bit his lower lip, his expression was slightly cracked.

"It is certain that you have misunderstood, but you should explain clearly before leaving. I am afraid it is not a good time to come back now," Zhou Jin frowned, remembering Chen Gan's desperate state recently, and said very worriedly.

"Us...how did his father die?" Guan Xiao asked with restraint.

"He had a second cerebral hemorrhage, and he went straight to the hospital," Zhou Jin observed Guan Xiao's reaction, and added softly, "Chen Gan didn't see the last time."

Guan Xiao swayed and closed his eyes in pain.

I don't know.

If I knew you'd been through this.

Chen Gan, do you hate me to death?

I picked a terrible time.

Can you forgive me?

Zhou Jin got up and patted Guan Xiao on the shoulder, "Anyway, go and explain to him clearly, don't be suspicious, most of the differences in the world come from concealment, and most of them are good intentions."

When Guan Xiao returned to the house, his whole body seemed to be exhausted. The temporarily rented apartment was well-equipped and well-decorated, but it was less popular.

All the demons turned into ferocious emotions are tearing at each other, and the past words are flooding in their minds. They stand in different factions to attack each other, repentance and determination, soft-heartedness and deceit, longing and revenge, all clamoring to seize Guan Xiao's sanity.

Chen Qian was still talking with Xu Zhixing at this time, Chen Gan seemed to have changed in two years, his face became thinner, his facial features became more distinct, he was unsmiling on weekdays, his expression was solemn and he did not communicate with outsiders during filming, and he was so silent that he could not communicate with outsiders much. With the paranoid taste of not being close to strangers, he is more self-respecting and respectful than before, and his dealings with people are becoming more and more subtle. If Chen Gan two years ago was a green bamboo with strong vitality, then he is now Like a quenched sword, it shines with a dazzling and deadly light.

Chen Junsheng's death was like a mountain pressing on Chen Qian's back. He fell into the purgatory of endless samsara without even a chance to breathe. The brand of an unfilial son was engraved on his heart like blood. Every midnight, he dreamed back and cried for his father to wake up. , alone in the middle of the night to endure thousands of remorse gnawing and whipping.The moment Chen Junsheng closed his eyes, he had no choice but to bury that person firmly in his heart, never expecting to see the light of day again, and personally put the rivets on the coffin of the far away affectionate.

Guan Xiao's name is a taboo, and the people around him never mention it, as if such a person has never appeared beside Chen Gan. The traces of the past collapsed, and gradually, Chen Qian finally found a short-term peace in his heart, and he discovered a new way to decompress.

He became more and more silent, so indifferent that he could almost die for his work at any time. Sometimes Liu Yu would be terrified when watching him act, always feeling that he would rush off the cliff or fall into the bottom of the sea in the next scene. Another high-risk action, almost killed on the spot several times but repeatedly saved the day. Liu Yu was terrified and had to be impressed by Chen Qian's near-perfect acting skills. The mental torture that lasted for years finally made Chen Gan become a steel.

No longer the popular star who said witty words and pretended to be old-fashioned, he is the real pearl of the film industry.

Yu Ran couldn't see the past and had also approached Chen Gan, asking him not to do this, the deceased would not blame him, and would be forgiven if he repented intentionally, but Chen Gan refused to express his position, gritted his teeth, and was determined not to say that I didn't want to. I love his promise, and I would rather bear it than I can bear without compromising.Yu Ran broke down, and asked him what he was expecting, Chen Gan said word by word with the blood in his heart, I am waiting for him.

The crazy state day after day made Chen Qian's works enter a high-yield and high-quality blowout state. In two years, he quickly occupied the seats of major award ceremonies, and won one after another heavyweight awards, but he could never find them again. The appearance of the handsome and domineering president back then.

Chen Qian stubbornly fell in love with the roles of some special groups, such as drug addicts, mentally ill, eunuchs, and psychopaths. He was fascinated by each of them. It seemed that it was not himself who was crazy in the play, but was locked up by himself. Shadow, he can only rely on these false scenes to greedily suck in fresh air, which gives him the strength to survive and makes him hold back bad thoughts every time.

This time when Xu Zhixing found Chen Gan, he was also worried. He had never encountered such a thing, and there was no actor more suitable than Chen Gan, but he was afraid that he was too suitable.

Mr. Xu is old, and this work will be the culmination of his directorial career. He has been observing Chen Gan, and has seen all the works that Chen Gan has acted in recent years. Now he has decided that the leading actor must be Chen Gan. .But this character is a patient with deep depression, delusions, pessimism, despair, struggle, and self-harm. For a normal person, the possibility of entering the spiritual world of this character without being affected is almost negligible. None of the stars of such roles managed to escape.Chen Gan's state made it difficult for Xu Zhixing to make up his mind, he didn't want to harm a rare and good actor.

"Mr. Xu, there is no one more suitable for this role than me," Chen Qian said with deep eyes, unable to see through at a glance, repeatedly rubbing the script in front of him with his slender fingers, as if he was browsing his entire life with concentration and fascination.

"Xiao Chen, you are indeed very suitable. I am not worried that you are not competent, but I heard from Liu Yu..." Mr. Xu put his hands and fingers on the table, and he could not make up his mind to open them repeatedly.

Chen Qian smiled lightly, and sighed briefly, "He is right, but he cannot be my master. This is my choice, please consider it fully."

Elder Xu let out a long sigh, repeatedly scanned from the script to Chen Gan, and then looked back at the script from Chen Gan, and finally said, "Okay, I agree, you come to play Huo Wenduan, you should familiarize yourself with the script first, we will start filming next week at the earliest, everything will wait My message," Mr. Xu withdrew his hand, no longer hesitated, nodded solemnly to Chen Gan, and then said with concern, "Pay attention to your body, health is the most important thing."

Chen Gan thanked him politely, sent Xu Zhixing away, and then joined Liu Yu who was waiting in the car outside.

"It's settled? It's settled?" Liu Yu turned to look at Chen Gan, a little anxious.

"Well, it's settled," Chen Gan tugged at the neckline and closed his eyes gently, not seeing the heavy worry in Liu Yu's eyes.

Liu Yu didn't say anything, and drove the car with a sad face, and sent Chen Gan home.

Winter has come to an end, and the footsteps of early spring have already been traced. Unfortunately, Chen Gan's cold winter is far from over, and everything is dead. There is only a vague idea, just stick to it, and it will be fine.

When Chen Gan came home, he took off his coat and went up to the second floor without even turning on the lights. He just walked in the dark like that, pushed open the bedroom door, Chen Gan walked slowly to the bed, sat down and stared blankly for a while.

The phone rang, and Chen Qian picked it up to see that it was Liu Yu's daily text message reminding him to take medicine.

Chen Ganmian smiled mockingly, reached for the medicine bottle beside the bed, unscrewed the cap, poured out two pills, put them into his mouth and swallowed them directly.

After waiting for a while, Chen Gan didn't feel sleepy, so he got up and walked to the bay window of the bedroom, watching the occasional cars coming in and out downstairs, and scrutinizing them with his mouth pursed.Suddenly, Chen Gan took a big step back and retreated to the center of the bedroom. He forced himself to close his eyes and concentrate, trying to suppress the bloody scene that popped up in his heart. After a long time, Chen Gan lay back on the bed with a pale face and gasped slightly, staring at the ceiling steadily.

"Awl face, it hurts to death!"

"I will never eat fish again!"

"What if you have children?"

"You can't bully me like this!"

"let's break up."

"I'm leaving."

Chen Gan opened his eyes suddenly, his forehead was covered with cold sweat, and there were spots of light dangling in front of his eyes, which looked like his face when put together. Chen Gan hugged his head in extreme pain, curled up into a ball and shook violently.

do not do that.

Don't laugh at me.

Just leave and go.

When I dreamed back at midnight, my father's voice and smile were not the only ones, but he was the one who had the most.

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Please touch, everyone.I'm a little embarrassed.