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Su Fu finally got up after noon, maybe it was because of the effect of the medicine, maybe it was after the most uncomfortable moment in the morning, but his spirit seemed better, and he even ate half a bowl of rice.

In fact, Su Yu was more anxious about his illness than anyone else, and this anxiety almost buried him, but he always thought of the bad ending, which made him panic even more.

He felt like a warrior who was unprepared but had to go to the battlefield. Holding a rusty dagger, he challenged the giant dragon in front of him alone. It spewed fire from time to time to roast him, and often opened its mouth After devouring him, he has no ability to resist at all, he can only helplessly ask for help, but sees a glimmer of light.

"Shall we go for a walk in the afternoon?" Jiang Chen looked at Su Fu who had started to sit still again and asked.

Although he didn't have any desire to go out, and even felt inexplicable fear of the outside world, but seeing Jiang Chen's outstretched hand, Su Yu still held it. He didn't want Jiang Chen's eyes to be filled with sadness, even though he now There is no ability to bring happiness to others.

It was sunny outside, and the weather at the end of September was just right for a walk. Jiang Chen took Su Yu for a walk in the park, and then the two of them sat side by side on a bench.

"Do you think that when we two get old, we will take walks and visit the park like we do now?" Jiang Chen asked while wrapping Su Fu's coat.

"Maybe." Su Yu said, but he was terrified in his heart, how would he survive so many days in such pain.

"Look at that kid over there, guess what he's doing squatting there?" Jiang Chen pointed to a little boy about three years old.

Su Kui looked over and saw the little boy with his head down, motionless, and said, "Maybe he was crying." Maybe he was wronged at home and ran out to cry alone, and no one would comfort him. I already understand that crying is useless.

"It's not like, let's make a bet, I think he should be very happy now." Jiang Chen suddenly made a naive joke.

What's the bet, Su Wei thought, but didn't say it.Seeing that Su Fu was silent, Jiang Chen got up and went to chat with the children.

I don't know what Jiang Chen said to the kid over there, but the kid turned around and waved to Su Fu with a smile.

Su Fu usually waved his hand reflexively, and his mood improved for no reason. A child full of vigor always reminds people of some hope. Then he saw Jiang Chen chatting with the child's parents, and looked over at him just came back.

"How about it, I won the bet, what's the reward?"

He has nothing to give to others now, Su Yu thought, but now he is more concerned about another question, "What were you talking about with the child's parents just now?" He was sure that the two of them glanced at him, were they talking What's wrong with him?

"The lady said she was your fan and wanted to take a photo with you. Let me ask you later. Do you want to take a photo?"

"Can I take a photo with me like this?" Even if Su Yu couldn't see his own face, he could feel that his appearance must be terrible. His face was probably as pale as a ghost. He didn't know what kind of photos he would get if he went out. evaluate.

Once his thinking started to run, he couldn't stop, he kept thinking about the worst possibility, and he began to feel lost, and this kind of emotion began to surround him again, and then Su Yu saw that more and more people seemed to be turning to this Looking around, he began to get scared.

"Of course you can, you look very handsome now, you look very energetic, even better than on the show..."

"I want to go back." Su Yu said.He couldn't hear what Jiang Chen was saying at all, he just knew that he couldn't stay outside anymore, the outside frightened him.

"It's still early, just sit down for a while, and forget about taking a group photo."

"Go back, I don't want to stay here anymore." Su Yu said again, looking at Jiang Chen with pleading eyes.

In the evening, Su Yu's mood seemed to be even worse. He walked aimlessly around the house like a wandering soul, then nestled on the sofa and didn't move. Finally, Jiang Chen persuaded him to go to sleep .

As usual, he couldn't sleep well. Jiang Chen woke up suddenly in the middle of the night. When he touched the place next to him, it turned out to be cold, and he was immediately startled into a cold sweat.

Where did Su Yu go?toilet?But it shouldn't take so long.Can't sleep and go to the living room?But he is usually lazy and doesn't want to move.There was still the worst idea, but Jiang Chen didn't dare to think about it, he quickly got up from the bed.

Not in the living room!The entire first floor is gone!Looking at the pitch-black upstairs, Jiang Chen was a little scared. Why didn't he turn on the lights when he went upstairs?Every step seems to get heavier, and the inner restlessness and fear intensify with each step.

Jiang Chen never felt that the time to go upstairs was so long, it was so long that he could hardly breathe, and he felt that the stairs were so short that he came up in just a moment.

There was a dark figure outside the balcony, standing upright, not knowing what he was looking out, or what he was thinking.

Jiang Chen's let go heart hung up again.

"What are you doing?" As soon as the words came out of his mouth, Jiang Chen felt that his voice was dry, and he split his arms.

He licked his lips, trying to ease the tension in his heart.

Su Fu turned his head and saw that Jiang Chen seemed to be taken aback for a moment, and then asked, "What are you doing here?"

"What are you doing there?" Jiang Chen asked again, while walking over quickly.

Su Yu couldn't say anything, the emotion of insomnia at night surrounded him, and the feeling of pain and anxiety made him breathless. He seemed to feel the call of death, and he wondered if he would be relieved if he jumped off like this , such a hopeless and meaningless life will come to an end.

But at this moment, he thought of his relatives, Jiang Chen, they all wanted him to live so much, how sad they would be if he ended his life like this.

Just like that, countless thoughts ran through his mind, he was sad, anxious, and guilty at the same time, and he just stood on the balcony stupidly for an unknown amount of time.

Just when Su Fu started to think in a mess again, Jiang Chen suddenly hugged him tightly, as if he wanted to rub him into the marrow of his bone, because he clearly felt the pain of the bone being held by Jiang Chen, but he couldn't push him away , A wet feeling came from the neck.

Did he cry?Su Fu thought about it, and felt a little ridiculous, but he still hugged Jiang Chen back, and kept hugging him for a long time, so long that Su Fu felt that his whole body was going numb.

The next morning, Su Fu was woken up by Jiang Chen. He looked at the dark circles on Jiang Chen's face and asked stupidly, "Are you also insomnia?"

"No." Jiang Chen said, "Your brother will bring the doctor over later, so get up first."

"Which doctor? It's not good anyway, it's just a waste of effort."

"It's your former psychiatrist who happened to return to China last year and came to see you. Don't feel pressured, just chat casually."

The psychiatrist is called Ning Lingyun. He is actually only in his early 30s this year. He looks clean. Although he is young, he is already one of the most well-known psychiatrists in China. He came here from City F last night, so Arrived at Su Yu's house early in the morning.

After Ning Lingyun came, he greeted Jiang Chen first, and then went upstairs with Su Fu.

"How was his condition all day yesterday?" Su Shaoqing asked.

"Not too good, last night I went to the balcony on the second floor by myself." Jiang Chen replied.

Su Shaoqing nodded, and seemed to have nothing to ask, so he fell silent.

After a while, Jiang Chen suddenly asked, "What was he like when he was most serious?" He lowered his head and didn't look at Su Shaoqing, as if it was very difficult to ask this question.

"Probably similar to now." Su Shaoqing said.

"What's a rough idea? There will always be times when he's in a better mood and a worse mood, right?" Jiang Chen was somewhat dissatisfied with Su Shaoqing's ambiguous attitude.He vaguely noticed that Su Shaoqing was concerned about Su Yu's condition, but he was a little careless, as if knowing that he was always like that, some concern became insignificant.

"The last time he was with my mother, how do I know about his treatment process?" Su Shaoqing was also a little impatient.

"How can you not understand? Don't you just ask?" Jiang Chen's questions also became sharp.

"Let's talk about it after you stay with me for a while longer." Su Shaoqing said wearily, he realized that the current quarrel is meaningless, Jiang Chen is not him, so he won't understand.

He watched his mother's ups and downs, ups and downs, and even attempted suicide twice since he was a child. From the initial helplessness, to the physical and mental exhaustion, to the current numbness, he even When I see them struggling helplessly, I want to persuade them to give up. Living is a kind of pain, not only for themselves, but also for their relatives.

No matter what you say, no matter how much you say, the reaction they can give you is only faint, like a soulless doll, your words never reach their hearts, they seem to have their own world, their own If you can't get out, you will be cut into pieces inside, and if others can't get in, you will feel endless suffering outside.

"Are you trying to say that I will be as indifferent as you after a while? Seeing him suffer, watching him struggling indifferently, even when I saw you coming in, I almost never looked at him. Have you ever hugged him?" Jiang Chen Suddenly excited, he also has too much pressure, he really wants Su Fu to get better soon.

"Can I just hug him? What do you know? You've only been with him for two days. After a long time, you'll know that everything is useless. Let's save it!" Su Shaoqing also became excited, "If it wasn't for you , Maybe he will never become like this in his whole life, maybe he will never get sick in his whole life! Now you have the nerve to stand there and accuse me?"