embrace you beyond loneliness

Liu Yi took all the holidays for this year. He was always with Mo Fan when he was in the hospital. Mo Fan's parents called every day, and it was Liu Yi who answered them. Everything seemed to be back on track.During the few days that Mo Fan was in Liu Yi's care, his spirit was much better than when he first came. He decided to try again, healed his injury, and returned to the game.He didn't want to give up so quickly. The points for the Olympic schedule will start soon. He has been waiting for this dream for so many years. If he gives up now, what will he insist on in the future?

After Mo Fan returned to Singapore, he had the operation immediately, and after resting for a while, he finally started postoperative rehabilitation training.Mo Fan's mood also gradually came out of impatience. Liu Yi could feel his change in the daily video with him, he became less ostentatious and much more stable than before.

On the other hand, after Liu Yi took a long vacation for several days, new problems also appeared in his company.He had heard the news that the company was about to be acquired earlier. After returning this time, he found that the company's people were very excited. It seemed that the news had been confirmed. It was no wonder that the senior management had changed earlier.In this way, his situation becomes more volatile. The new boss may not be willing to increase the investment in their laboratory, and maybe even their entire department branch will no longer support them. Everyone is walking on eggshells. Eighty-nine people are looking for new opportunities.

It's not that Liu Yi doesn't want to leave, it's just that he and the high-level executives had almost reached an agreement, and seeing that he could leave without any worries after selling the shares, but the acquisition happened, and he was put on hold again, negotiating back and forth, Liu Yi Yi was also physically and mentally exhausted.Both he and Mo Fan regard each other as their comfort, and only when they talk via video at night can they feel better.

"Hey, I wish you were here." Liu Yi sometimes acted like a baby to Mo Fan on the screen.Sometimes he would even say: "I'm resigning now, how about I come to Singapore to find you?" When Mo Fan heard him say this, his heart ached and he wished he could fly to Liu Yi's side immediately.

At this time, Mo Fan always laughed, but he felt very sorry for Liu Yi in his heart. He knew that the wronged Liu Yi had suffered would only be more than what he said, and he always buried everything in his heart.Because of this, Mo Fan took rehabilitation training more seriously, and worked hard every time. His parents came to see him every day, and they could see his progress every day, as if he was getting closer to recovery.

The Olympic points are about to start counting, and he still wants to try one last time. In another month, the Japan Masters will start. The level of that competition is not high. He has recovered from his injuries during this period of time. Maybe the state will be better in a month. The most important thing is that if he misses the Olympic points this time, he will have to wait another four years.

He thought about it and told Liu Yi about this idea, and he secretly made an appointment with himself. If Liu Yi stopped him, he would die of this idea, but Liu Yi could see his thoughts at a glance.

"Do you want to go?" Liu Yi said.

"how do you know?"

"I just know." Liu Yi blinked at him: "Since you said it, you must be tempted. I don't know you yet?"

"So, what do you think? Do you support it?"

"Well... how do you feel about your condition?"

"I think... I feel pretty good."

"Then I support you to fight with the coach. I believe in your judgment." Liu Yi said again: "You know, I haven't been there to understand your injury during this time. You still have to respect the advice of the coach and the doctor. You can discuss it together, if it really doesn’t work, don’t worry, wait a while, there will still be opportunities in the future.”

Mo Fan nodded, and after thinking for a while, Liu Yi looked at him quietly through the screen without any further urging.

That night, the idea of ​​continuing to participate in the competition was still lingering in his mind. The next day he found his coach and doctor and summoned the courage to speak out that he wanted to participate.Naturally, the doctor would not agree. He had been with Mo Fan for so long, and even with Mo Fan's character, if he would give himself some leeway on the court, he would not be injured.He has seen so many athletes, each one of them lived with full fighting spirit, died in the arena and survived. He did not believe that Mo Fan could control himself. This is the fate of their athletes. He is a doctor. He couldn't watch Mo Fan surrender his life in vain.He rejected Mo Fan straight away.

The coach didn't express his opinion, he didn't agree or disagree.Mo Fan was stunned by the doctor, and left dejectedly.This day's training, the coach has this in mind.As an experienced, professional, and rational coach, he knows very well that he should not support Mo Fan's ideas, but as a colleague, as an athlete who used to be the same, facing Mo Fan's sincere and sincere pursuit, it is really difficult for him. Can't say the word "rejection".

When he saw Mo Fan, it was as if he saw himself 20 years ago. At that time, he also lost all opportunities to compete due to injuries, and could no longer stand on the field.Injury is the eternal nightmare of athletes, and he once suffered from it.But now, the Olympic Points Competition has begun. This is the only chance to lead to the Olympics. If you miss it, it will be the next four years. There are not many athletes who can wait for four years, and there are not many long-lasting competitive states. This opportunity will not come again.Mo Fan is at the right age to play now. After another four years, when his injury is healed, will he still have the current state of mind and desire to win?He didn't know which choice was best for Mo Fan, and he couldn't make a decision for Mo Fan.

He thought about it for several days, but he still couldn't get an answer. At this time, Mo Fan came to the training hall less and less.For some reason, since the injury, the communication between Mo Fan and him was not as good as before, which made him more worried, if Mo Fan lost this opportunity, would it be possible to regain his strength.

One night, he met Mo Fan outside the training hall. Mo Fan didn't come in, but just sat on the bench outside with his ball bag.

"Why don't you come in?" he asked.

"I don't know what to do when I come in." Mo Fan said.

He was speechless. After a while, he went to the vending machine, bought two bottles of coffee, and threw a bottle to Mo Fan.

"Father," Mo Fan said, "If I don't make it to the Olympics this time, do you think I can survive another four years?"

"If you believe you can, you can."

Mo Fan took a sip of coffee and said with a wry smile: "My confidence is so important... Dad, when was the most glorious time in your life?..."

The coach thought for a while: "I played the Open for the first time. I was 19 years old that year. That game was in Europe. You know, in European games, the auditorium is very dark, and the light is all on the field. At that time, I just Standing on the field, a ray of light hit me. I remember that my whole body was hot at that time, and I even felt like crying. Do you understand? That is, there is a ray of light in this world for you Yes, that feeling."

"Did you win then?"

The coach shrugged and smiled: "I lost, and I lost badly."

"I know, that's how I felt at the World Championships. It seems that my understanding is much worse than yours." Both of them laughed.

"Mo Fan," the coach put away his smile and asked Mo Fan, "You really can't wait another four years?"

"Dad, do you know how long four years are? How many days, how many minutes, how many seconds? I have a lot of time to live, but I don't have so much time to play. If a year later, I have a new injury Sickness, I have a new opponent, I can't handle everything, even, I may have an accident, will I die? Will it disappear? If that's the case, what's the point of talking about it for another four years now? I don't With so many minutes and seconds, I can only take one step at a time. I just want to try, and I can't even give myself a chance to try."

"And what if your injury is more serious? You know that could happen."

"Father, you are also an athlete. You should know, like me, with a ruptured ligament, after a long period of training, half a year? A year? It is impossible to return to the previous level. You and I can see this kind of example. So many, so many talented players have ended up like this, and I don't want that."

The coach didn't answer.

"Okay, the training time is over, I have to go to the rehabilitation center, let's go first, thank you for the coffee."

The coach smiled and watched Mo Fan leave.

That night, when the coach returned home, he thought a lot about his past, his teammates, Mo Fan, the doctor, and the young players on the team.He didn't know what decision he made was right, or what was right?what is wrong?He opened the registration page for the Japan competition, staring at the registration application in a daze.Mo Fan's words kept circling in his mind, so he had to face it.Which team is better, Mo Fan, to prolong his sports career or maintain his competitive state?And is he really qualified to make decisions for Mo Fan?

He poured himself a sip of ice water, and stared at the registration webpage for a long time.

The next day, Mo Fan came to the training hall. The children had already started training. He was watching from the sidelines, holding a racket in his hand as usual, pondering the movements. Suddenly, a blank sheet of paper flashed in front of him. He looked up, and it turned out to be the coach.He found the paper in the coach's hand, and when he saw that the registration was successful, he almost jumped up.The coach finally saw a long-lost smile on his face.