embrace you beyond loneliness

The matter between Mo Fan and Liu Yi did not come to an end because of his departure. On the contrary, what is left to Liu Yi now is not only the inescapable longing, but also the malice he has never experienced before.

The incident started on an ordinary morning, not a special day, so now Liu Yi can't remember the specific day.

That day, he ran in the morning and went to school as usual, and he arrived at school very early. The result of class placement had been posted on the bulletin board, and their academic career had officially entered the stage of racing.

Liu Yi found his classroom according to the information on the bulletin board. The door of the classroom was still open, but there was no one in there. He found his seat and will be here for the next two years. Mo Fan will not be annoying in the future. He has a lot of money. Time to read and miss.

He raised his head, but suddenly saw five words written in red pen on the blackboard: "Liu Yi is □□".The words were written in a large and thick outline, which pierced Liu Yi's eyes, which was particularly eye-catching.

He rushed up subconsciously, wiped the words clean with the blackboard immediately, and wiped so hard that his hands were sore.

His mind is a mess, who wrote it?How many people know?He doesn't even know.It was quiet outside the corridor, but he felt that there might already be several pairs of eyes peeping at his reaction, waiting for an opportunity to laugh at him and watch his jokes.

He tried his best to calm himself down and searched classrooms one by one, but every classroom was empty, and he even checked every drawer without a clue.He heard his heart beating wildly, as if he was about to jump out of his body. He felt that there seemed to be a dark door in front of him. Now the door was opened, but what he saw was indeed a darker world, with a strong sense of foreboding. Looking at him, it made him tremble uncontrollably.

The reality was indeed as Liu Yi expected. From that day on, he found that everyone looked at him differently. On the surface, they looked at him as usual, but when they turned around, they changed their faces.

There would be people in the class pretending to be innocent and talking about AIDS, as if it was just for him, and if his hands accidentally touched them, they would retreat as if they were electrocuted.

Later, for some unknown reason, the student union and the club successively dismissed him from his post. To put it nicely, it was to give him more time to study, but in fact they all knew the reason well.

He confronted the high-ranking student union president face to face: "Since everyone wants to study, why do you simply dismiss me while everyone else is fine?"

"Who made you the first in grade?"

"Whether I learn well or not is my business, but you can't dismiss me without a reason. Besides, there is no monthly exam yet, how do you know I can't learn well?"

The president was at a loss for words for a while, Liu Yi saw this and said: "I don't care about the position of the student union, but if you don't give me an explanation today, this matter will never end. I am usually easy to talk, but it doesn't mean I can bear everything."

Seeing that the president was really angry, he changed the subject and threw the blame out: "Don't get excited, I can't help it...Now it's the matter between you and that sports student that was seen and spread everywhere. They also said..."

"What else?"

"You also said that he and his girlfriend were the ones who messed with each other. Alas, people's words are terrible. If you use you again, there will be opinions from below, and we can't control it."

"Who said that? Let him come out and confront me face to face. What evidence does he have to dare to pour dirty water on me?"

"Hey, whether you splash the dirty water or not, the dirty water is also on your body, and you have no way to prove that you didn't do it, right? How could it be such a coincidence, just after we broke up, we fell in love with you."

"Ridiculous! Don't worry about it, you just call that man out."

"Liu Yi, I advise you to keep quiet for the time being. You know that you are gay. It is a shame here. Now that you are suspected of breaking up others, it is a double shame. When you make a big deal, be more serious to you. There is no benefit, and the whole school will watch the joke."

"I'll ask you, that person, will you hand it over?"

Seeing that he refused to listen to his words, the president became impatient: "Anyway, this decision is good for everyone. Besides, kicking you out was approved by everyone's vote, so I took advantage of the fact that there was no big trouble , you have nothing to lose. Besides, the decision has been announced, and it is impossible to withdraw it."

Liu Yi looked at the old-fashioned face of the president, and heard him prevaricate in a bureaucratic manner. Knowing that it was useless to be soft and hard here, he sneered: "What's so great about me being the president of the student union? I can't explain what happened. The reason is only to push the blame on others... Let me tell you, your grass-roots team will, if I am not idle and have nothing to do, I will not care."

The president was ashamed and couldn't say anything, only to realize that Liu Yi slammed the door and left.

On the way, Liu Yi was thinking, how would they know if Mo Fan broke up or not?He never said it himself, and it is impossible for Mo Fan to say it. The only possibility is that Xinlei himself said it?

At this time, he suddenly remembered that on the day he ran to find Mo Fan, it was also a message from a classmate in his class. He seemed to remember that person said that he and Xin Lei knew each other.

Liu Yi followed the bulletin board of the class and found this person in the science class. When he walked to the door of the classroom, he saw that the person was still brushing the exercises.

At this moment, he really looked at the boy. His cropped hair was a bit long, he was wearing glasses, his appearance was ugly, and his school uniform had many folds, which made it annoying to look at.

Without even thinking about it, he opened his mouth and called out that person's name. At this sound, the eyes of the whole class gathered.

The boy walked over hesitantly, and Liu Yi had already guessed seven or eight points from his expression that he was the one who spread the word, and maybe he wrote the words on the blackboard as well.

He didn't get angry, and lied to him directly: "Do you know why I came to you?"

"I don't know." He also made a very awkward look, looking stupid and cowardly.

"Don't have to admit it. The president has already told me everything. You said what he said, and you came up with the idea."

Students of their age, in fact, do not know much about the skills of dealing with society, and it is easy to show their true colors.When Liu Yi saw a momentary panic flash in his eyes, he was convinced that he did it.

Before the man could argue, Liu Yi reached out and grabbed his collar.The man thought Liu Yi was trying to hit him, so he simply yelled, "You, what do you want!" As he spoke, he covered his head with his hands.

Liu Yi grabbed his hand, dragged him to the corridor, and kissed him on the mouth the next second, not only kissed him, but also licked him inside and out with his tongue.He knew that the man was struggling, so he simply grabbed his hair and collar so that he couldn't escape. He didn't let go until he felt that the man was about to lose all strength from the kiss and couldn't move.

When Liu Yi let go of him, both of them were out of breath.The man was angry and ashamed, his face was flushed, he was so ashamed that he couldn't say anything at all.

Surrounded by a circle of people, everyone was so shocked that they couldn’t speak. At first they just saw a joke, exclaiming and laughing beside them, but as time went on, they realized that something was wrong, and their expressions changed from excited to terrified. They were so nervous, they were about to cry when they saw the boy being grabbed by Liu Yi, and they were a little afraid that something would happen.Even, Liu Yi could hear a few girls reminding in a low voice: "Forget it, forget it, the teacher will come."

Of course Liu Yi didn't take them seriously.

The corners of Liu Yi's mouth raised, and he said with a smile on his face, "Hey, you're quite intoxicated."

The boy was humiliated head-on and face-to-face, his body seemed to be unable to stand upright, his whole body trembled, and tears flowed out unconvincingly.

"Just you, you deserve to be Xinlei's lifelong spare tire. I can snatch her man, but you are only worthy of carrying her shoes." Liu Yi wiped his mouth with his sleeve, and before turning around, he said, "Also, are you The stinkiest mouth I've ever kissed."

The boy was first held down and kissed by Liu Yi, the homosexual he hated the most, and then poked at the sore spot where he could not woo him. Finally, he was framed for having bad breath. Stepping on his feet, he looked around from the corner of his eye, and everyone turned into a joke at him.

He wanted to die, so he pushed through the crowd and rushed out. When he ran to the toilet, he rubbed his mouth with cold water desperately. He was so sick all afternoon that he missed class, and the next day he had a high fever and took sick leave.

Now the story of Liu Yi and Mo Fan spread completely, even the third and first year of high school knew about it, and Liu Yi immediately became the focus of the school. Yi knew that they were in groups of three or four, and those who peeked at him were talking gossip.

Later, he felt that some boys looked at him curiously and aggressively. They would look him up and down in the toilet, and some even made dirty and dubious remarks.Liu Yi didn't even look at him, washed his hands and walked out.After what happened last time, now every boy is afraid of him, afraid of causing some embarrassment, but there are people who love him.

For example, when they were eating in the cafeteria, some people dared not approach Liu Yi as if he already had AIDS, and some people not only wanted to approach him, but even hooked his legs under the table with their feet.

The teacher heard about Liu Yi's incidents sporadically. Originally, they thought that most of the students were popular for 3 minutes, and the rumors spread in two days and no one spread them.However, he seemed to have underestimated these high school students' curiosity about sex. Instead of reducing the rumors, they attracted complaints from other parents. Those parents heard that there was a homosexual in the school, and they were on the verge of a big enemy, fearing that they would spoil their children.

Facing the parents, the teacher had nothing to say. Only once, when Liu Yi passed by the office, he heard the sound of arguing inside.He really heard the most vicious speculation in the world, which came from his parents, who described him as abnormal and mentally ill. According to him, Liu Yi should be sent to a mental hospital to take a good look at it, instead of staying in the school to pollute him. his precious son.

Liu Yi felt chilled, and he trembled with anger.

"This parent," he could hear that it was the math teacher Teacher Jiang: "Our country removed homosexuality from the mental illness list in 2001. What you say is against the national policy. Does Liu Yi have a puppy love? , Will it affect the grades, we will naturally supervise and guide, but you can't just call my students mentally ill and abnormal."

"You, what do you mean? Are you still supporting them in homosexuality? I want to complain to the Education Bureau!"

"This parent, there is no evidence that homosexuality is illegal in our country, and Liu Yi has the right to education in our school. I am not supporting anyone, but the country has never said anything illegal. We are not qualified to judge Whether he should support or oppose, besides, this kind of matter is his own choice, and we have no right to support or oppose. But if you want to complain about me, please go ahead!"

The parent was so angry that he stuttered, and he did what he said, and he really went to the Education Bureau to complain to Mr. Jiang. The matter became more and more troublesome, and the principal couldn't let Mr. Jiang stay at school anymore. The teacher's family has some background, and she was transferred to another middle school through some connections, but she can't teach in high school, she can only teach in elementary school.

Mr. Jiang is his math teacher in the second year of high school, and they haven't had a chance to get along well. Liu Yi has always felt guilty about Mr. Jiang's transfer, and he is very grateful to Mr. Jiang.

Ultimately, it became a matter of school ethos.The principal was criticized by the Education Bureau, and when he came back, he asked Liu Yi's class teacher to call Liu Yi's father. The father and son confronted each other in the principal's office.

When Liu Yi got home, his father slapped him just as soon as he stepped in the door. The slap hit his ear, and he had short-term tinnitus.For a while, he only saw his father's mouth opening and closing, but he didn't know what he was talking about.In fact, you don't need to listen to know, it's nothing more than scolding him for embarrassment.

His mother helped him up distressedly, and advised him to ask his father for forgiveness.

Liu Yi was dizzy, and uttered a sentence that made the whole family feel uneasy.

He said: "Mom, you don't know, in this person's heart, there are already people more important than me and you. We are all burdens to him..."

The author has something to say:

The memory killing is almost over, and it will be sweet soon