The benefactor suspects that I don't love him

It was already dark when Chen Yuan returned home, and he stood at the porch and scanned around but did not see that figure.Taking off his suit jacket and hanging it up, he walked across the living room into the bedroom.

The light was not turned on in the room, Chen Yuan paused for a moment with his hand touching the switch, but finally did not press it down, and searched for Lu Li's location in the dark.

There was no one in the bedroom, the bed was neatly made, and the table was neatly put together. It looked lifeless under the dark night, glowing with a cold light, very much like Lu Li.

Calm, stubborn, indifferent.

An open-air balcony was built outside the bedroom, and Chen Yuan finally found Lu Li there.

The wind at night was a bit cool, he only put on a thin coat and squatted on the ground smoking a cigarette, the wind blew his clothes revealing his slender white neck and thin figure, revealing a trace of fragility for no reason, Chen Yuan felt his heart contract suddenly, It hurts a little bit.

Lu Li was holding a cigarette between his slender fingertips, watching the flames flickering.The autumn night was very quiet, and the voice behind him had already reached his ears.He pushed the remaining half into the ashtray before he finished smoking, and said softly, "You're back."

The body of the person in front of him was too thin, giving people the illusion that he could be blown away by the wind. Chen Yuan stepped forward in a panic and hugged him tightly from behind.

Lu Li was embraced by him with his back on his back, a smile flashed in his eyes, "What's the matter." He turned around and patted Chen Yuan's back lightly.

Chen Yuan buried his head in Lu Li's neck and asked in a muffled voice, "Are you free tomorrow? Let's go out for a walk together."

Lu Li thought for a while, "I can't do it tomorrow, Xu Anran is sick, I want to help him go out to substitute for the class."

Xu Anran is Lu Li's roommate in college. Since he is a senior and has no courses, he finds a tutoring agency outside to earn some money in his free time.The institution stipulates that he must have two classes a week, and he cannot postpone the class because he is sick, so Xu Anran asked Lu Li to help him with a day's class tomorrow.

Chen Yuan, who was rejected, didn't speak either, but silently hugged his arms a little more tightly, and only after a while did he say "hmm" as an answer.

Lu Li probably stayed outside for a long time, his whole body was soaked by the air-conditioning, and a trace of coolness flowed towards Chen Yuan along his body and coat.

Lu Li's body trembled, and Chen Yuan's heart trembled too.

Finally couldn't bear to hug Lu Li horizontally, Chen Yuan closed the balcony door with his legs, put Lu Li on the bed, and sat by the bed by himself.

Lu Li frowned while lying on the bed, nudged him, "Go and change your clothes."

Chen Yuan didn't move, and Lu Li didn't speak anymore.

When he was a sophomore, his grandmother was hospitalized and needed a lot of medical expenses. The money he earned from part-time jobs these years was not enough. At this time, Chen Yuan came to him.

He and Chen Yuan met at a symposium held at the school when they were freshmen.As an outstanding representative of graduation from University A, Chen Yuan, an outstanding young entrepreneur, returned to his alma mater to give a speech, and as an outstanding student representative, he accompanied the reception throughout the process.

From the first glance, Chen Yuan looked at him differently.

But at that time, Lu Li didn't understand the meaning of Chen Yuan's eyes. He just made friends with each other and talked in his spare time, and it was basically Chen Yuan's one-sided conversation.Until his sophomore year, Chen Yuan proposed to support him for three years on the grounds of 500 million medical expenses.

Lu Li agreed.

Chen Yuan is a smart person. He exchanged 500 million for Lu Li's three years, and he got a good idea of ​​Lu Li's powerlessness and feelings for his grandma.

At that time, Lu Li was 19 years old and Chen Yuan was 32 years old.At first Lu Li thought that such a big age difference would make them uncomfortable getting along, but he didn't expect that after living slowly, they would be more comfortable.

Chen Yuan bought a house for Lu Li next to the university town, and the two stayed in the house or went shopping when they were not in class, doing things that ordinary couples would do.

However, now that Lu Li is a senior, the three-year contract is about to expire.

In the dark bedroom, two people were lying down and sitting, and silence spread in the room.

Lu Li's eyes looked at the void, and there seemed to be many small black and white blocks shaking in front of him in the darkness, densely packed.Chen Yuan's gaze on the side was a little hot, and he couldn't ignore it.

The black figure beside the bed slowly bent down, and Lu Li raised a hand to press his shoulder, "Go eat first, Auntie cooks and stay in the kitchen."

Tonight's Chen Yuan was not as obedient as before, he stubbornly took his hand and held it, then lowered his head and kissed his lips accurately in the night.

Try to stop.

Lu Li sighed inwardly, grabbed Chen Yuan's tie and pulled it.Chen Yuan didn't expect his movement, and suddenly lay on Lu Li's body.Lu Li clearly felt the pain of bone impact, and frowned.

The two breathed intertwined, and Chen Yuan saw Lu Li's frown, quickly propped himself up with his hands, and rubbed the place where Lu Li was hit by him just now, "Does it hurt?"

Lu Li didn't answer, but he squeezed the hand on Chen Yuan's shoulder, and the positions of the two of them were changed immediately.

Chen Yuan, who was pressed under him, was breathing a little fast, and his eyes reflected a little moist light in the darkness.Lu Li accidentally kissed his eyes, Chen Yuan's eyelids jumped in shock, and the soft and long eyelashes brushed against Lu Li's mouth.

Chen Yuan closed his eyes slightly, the warm touch was released infinitely, the heart in his chest was beating non-stop, and the blood all over his body was about to boil.Then, a drop of crystal flashed in the corner of his eye.

Lu Li paused, and gently wiped it off with his fingertips.This scene was so tender that Chen Yuan had the illusion that the two were in love.

Lu Li stroked Chen Yuan's eye sockets a few times, withdrew his fingers that were still a little wet, turned over and got out of bed, "Get up, go eat." After speaking, he turned and left the bedroom.

Chen Yuan slowly sat up from the bed and looked at Lu Li's leaving figure, raised his hand to cover his eyes, and a bitter smile crossed his mouth.

Time passed quickly, and it was June in a blink of an eye.

Since then, the two have rarely seen each other.Lu Li is about to graduate, and there are defenses and various matters in school, and he is overwhelmed every day.And Chen Yuan didn't know if the company was busy during this time, and sometimes he didn't return all night.

Lu Li was happy, at least he could have a good rest at night.

But if Chen Yuan comes back one night, he won't be so free.The man didn't know what kind of insanity he was smoking, every time he pestered him like crazy until the early morning, and then fell asleep drowsily.

Because the contract was about to expire, Lu Li somewhat condoned his behavior.He only left after graduation and returned to S city.

In the past few years, it's not that he has no feelings for Chen Yuan, but compared to grandma, this feeling is secondary.He himself is not a person with big ambitions, he just wants to have a stable job when he returns to a small city, so that he can spend his old age with his grandma in a mediocre way.

Chen Yuan didn't come back for several days, Lu Li looked at the calendar on his phone, and there were only ten days left before he graduated and left the city.

Another night, Lu Li went out to have dinner with Xu Anran at night, and it was ninety o'clock when he got home, and the lights in the room were still dark.

It seems that Chen Yuan still won't come back today, Lu Li fumbled for the switch on the wall to turn on the light, when suddenly a strong force pulled his hand off.

Immediately afterwards, the tip of his nose was filled with the smell of alcohol.

"Chen Yuan?" Lu Li called out in doubt.

The person in front of him didn't answer, but stood by the door stubbornly holding his hand.

Lu Li shook his arm lightly, a little funny, "Are you drinking? Why don't you turn on the light."

Chen Yuan jumped forward and fell on him as if he was drunk, and Lu Li was a little out of breath under the pressure.The moment Chen Yuan leaned over, Lu Li felt that he drank a lot of wine, and he might not be conscious.

Sighing helplessly, Lu Li supported his body with one hand and freed the other hand to turn on the light.

The moment the light was turned on, Chen Yuan lowered his head, and his body was still hanging on Lu Li's body. Lu Li could only help him to sit on the sofa, and then got up to pour Chen Yuan a glass of water.

Unexpectedly, before he took half a step, his arm was pulled, "Don't go."

Lu Li said in a good voice, "Let go first, I'll get you a glass of water."

The man who was usually silent became even more silent when he was drunk, but he didn't say a word, but he didn't put away the strength in his hands.

Lu Li had no choice but to follow his temperament and sit beside him, "I'm not leaving, you can let go of your hands now."

The hand on the arm trembled and finally let go, Chen Yuan whispered, "It's not just this one, don't go."

Lu Li was a little puzzled, "Then why don't you go?" He also drank a little wine when he had dinner with Xu Anran at night, and his brain couldn't react very well.

Chen Yuan avoided this topic, but lowered his head and asked softly, "Lu Li, do you like me at all?"

This question made Lu Li silent as expected.

Chen Yuan raised his head fiercely, revealing his red eyes, and asked again unwillingly, "Is there nothing at all?"

Lu Li stared at the water glass on the coffee table for a while, and replied firmly, "No."

Chen Yuan gritted his teeth and couldn't hold it back, a tear rolled down from his eyes and hit his trousers, causing a dark spot to fade.From the first time he saw Lu Li three years ago, Chen Yuan knew that he was finished. He thought he was only interested in his face, but after three years of getting along with him, he had already been deeply involved.

These days, he often works overtime in the company until late at night, and when he is sleepy, he will take a nap in the back of the office.It's not that he didn't want Lu Li, he thought he was going crazy.

But when he thought that they would never be together again in a few days, he forced himself to get used to life without Lu Li from now on, but it turned out that it was useless.

He couldn't do without Lu Li, and Lu Li had no affection for him.

Lu Li, what should I do with you?

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