world travel

He hadn't seen Liang Jiayu for a long time.

When the Spring Festival comes, the old grandson's tree next door is no longer shining, leaving only Liang Jiayu's lonely reclining chair.

Shi Ruofei's first winter vacation is coming soon, he was so excited that he didn't sleep well for several days, after a week of fairy days, he started to help Shi Nanchuan with work.

He said he still wanted to be a carpenter like his father.What I learned in college is so boring, I might as well be a carpenter.

Zhou You's mood fell to the bottom, and Liang Jiayu didn't show up, he seemed to suddenly lose a piece of his heart.

But this is normal, probably because Liang Jiayu is going home for the New Year.He still remembers his big family, it was crowded and lively, everyone was kind and nice, unlike him...

Life during the Chinese New Year is extremely boring.

After the seventh day, Liang Jiayu came back again.

Zhou You saw him turning on the light again, sleeping on the couch and reading a magazine.Zhou You watched him secretly, feeling at ease that he could come back, but at the same time didn't know what his next move would be.

He always can't get past that hurdle in his heart.

He felt that he had done too much to Liang Jiayu, coupled with those unclear and true and false stories and barriers, Zhou You couldn't take this step.

Isn't Liang Jiayu afraid?If he really wants to attack him... Does he not care?Does he have a mentality of wanting to make up for himself?

Perhaps, after a while, Liang Jiayu will have a complete epiphany.

He would go back to his normal life and find other lovers.Travel around and think.

After winter is over, spring will come soon.

This year's spring came a bit fast, in the blink of an eye, Zhou You's sweater was no longer worn, and two days later, his shirt was no longer worn, and his arms were about to be exposed.

When Nanchuan's legs healed a lot, he was going to take Zhou to the sea.

Zhou You took the fishing rod and bait, and went fishing in the sea boredly.

There was an inexplicable anxiety in his heart, and nothing could relieve it.At this time, the sea is calm and there is no sign of a storm, but Zhou You seems to have returned to that typhoon day, the icy sea water wraps him, confusing him to let go of his hand, and give up struggling little by little...

"Xiaoyou? Xiaoyou?"

"Huh?" Zhou You came back to his senses, only to realize that he had been staring at the sea surface, the bait had been eaten long ago, but there were no fish.

"What are you thinking?" Shi Nanchuan looked at him and said with a frown.

"No." Zhou You forced a smile.

He felt a little sick.

After returning, Zhou You bit the bullet and ate dinner, then went to the bathroom.He stared at the mirror and saw that his eyes were a little swollen, maybe it was because he didn't sleep well.He knew that his mental state was not good, and he was not aware of all this when he was a child. Later, after studying, he felt that he might have psychological obstacles.

Zhang Quan's treatment for him was useless, and it was always up and down.Sometimes I'm happy, sometimes I want to die.The days after meeting Liang Jiayu were fine at first, but then he couldn't tell who he was.So he wrote all the keywords in the memo on his mobile phone, for fear that he would forget.

Also, moderate pain worked for him, at least letting him know that he was still alive.He has a sense of proportion and will not really get out of hand, but he is afraid, he is afraid that he will be like his uncle...

That night he had a nightmare.

It's still the same, most of the scenes are sea water, although Liang Jiayu is close at hand, but Zhou You can't catch him, he can only see the frightened expression on his face, he knows what he is shouting to himself, but Zhou You can not hear.

The dream was complicated, he was trapped in the sea and couldn't move, until he finally woke up in the real world, the real sense of fear still remained in Zhou You's body.

If Liang Jiayu had never appeared, then he might not have dreamed and would not have worked so hard.Thinking of this, Zhou You hated Liang Jiayu a little bit, why, why didn't he give up...

Zhou You went out for a walk, the weather forecast said there might be rain.

Shi Nanchuan instructed: "Xiao You, remember to bring an umbrella and come back early at night."

Zhou You took a long transparent umbrella from the shoe cabinet, and said to Shi Nanchuan, "Take it!"

He went out alone, passed by Liang Jiayu's house next door, held his breath, and pretended to be normal.

Will Liang Jiayu see him?Will he follow?

A few thoughts flashed through, Zhou You had already gone a long way.

No... Liang Jiayu will not follow, after all, last time, he must have been disappointed.

The sky is a bit cloudy, and the beach in April already feels a little like early summer.

Zhou You still took a walk along the original road. It hadn't rained for a while, so the umbrella in his hand was thrown back and forth by him, as a boring toy to pass the time.He thought of Hagrid in Harry Potter, with his wand hidden in an umbrella.Zhou You pressed the button on the handle of the umbrella, and the umbrella swiped open, but Liang Jiayu was not conjured up for him.

So Zhou You was a little dejected again, put away the umbrella and opened it, opened it and put it away...

Finally, he saw the dark cave again.

Ah, here it is.Zhou You stopped in his tracks, it was here that Liang Jiayu suddenly appeared that day.Where was he sitting that day?

Zhou You walked forward for a while, stepped on scattered small stones, and sat down where Liang Jiayu sat that day.The sea is too quiet, there is no sound, it is not the same as he thought.

He just sat at the entrance of the cave and watched the sea for a while. Finally, Zhou You turned his head and decided to go to the cave to have a look.

In fact, it was hard for him to say why he didn't dare to go in, as if... this cave represented his previous life, dark and meaningless.Zhou You walked over cautiously, took another look inside, and swallowed uncontrollably.

He doesn't know what's inside, like he seems to be starting over, but he just hid in one place to escape for so long.

He is afraid to actually solve the problem, because that will destroy the order he himself has established.

So he dare not accept Liang Jiayu.

Obviously wanting to... but not daring.

Zhou You took a deep breath, clenched the umbrella in his hand, and walked slowly along the cave.

In fact, it is really not very big, but what is amazing is that he only walked about two or three steps inside, and the light outside became more and more dim.The cave is a downward structure, and Zhou You uses the umbrella as a pathfinding device, and he has to wave it every step of the way.

After his eyes got used to the darkness, Zhou You could vaguely see the whole picture inside.

As Shi Ruofei said, it was actually nothing, nothing, there was even a very smooth place in the innermost part, there were some shells hiding sand on the ground, all kinds of messy sticks and stones.

Zhou You suddenly breathed a sigh of relief. This feeling is a bit like the aftermath of a catastrophe. You see, it's really nothing, fear is meaningless.

He found a fairly clean place to sit down, and even hiding in the darkness silently like this made him feel a long-lost sense of security.

Zhou You closed his eyes, thinking of many things from the past. In the last scene, he saw Zhou Xin.

It's his mother.