Seemingly dark but not bright

The plane was delayed, and even the people who just played with their mobile phones became anxious.Someone in the waiting room has already lost their temper, and there has been a lot of noise.But there is nothing to do even if you are in a hurry, the weather is the reason, no one can blame it.

Zhao Miao was quite calm, just kept swiping his phone, asking Han Youliang about Gu Sheng's situation.

He doesn't eat much, eats like a kitten; he is much thinner than before; although he is still good-looking, his skin is frighteningly white.This is what Zhao Miao learned from Han Youliang.Zhao Miao seemed to see Gu Sheng quickly, what he saw with his own eyes was more real than what others said.

Finally at five o'clock in the morning, the plane was ready to take off.It was past six o'clock when Zhao Miao returned home.But because it was winter and everyone was still sleeping, Zhao Miao didn't disturb anyone except Gu Sheng who just went downstairs and wanted to drink water.

Two people stood at the door and at the stairs, looking at each other.After such a long silence, it was Gu Sheng who spoke first, "Xiao Miao, long time no see."

Zhao Miao rushed over and hugged Gu Sheng, who he had been thinking about for nearly seven years.Gu Sheng, who had liked him since high school, made him wait so long to show up.

"I miss you so much." The simple four words are what Zhao Miao can say at this moment.I've already thought about going crazy, I don't understand that a good person can disappear and can't be found.These seven years have been a torment for Zhao Miao, he has never been worried about Gu Sheng's safety, but there is nothing he can do.

Gu Sheng seemed to be frozen, he was taken aback for a moment before he said, "You didn't sleep all night last night, go upstairs and get some sleep first!"

"I'm not sleepy, but I do have something I want to tell you." Zhao Miao kept looking at Gu Sheng, afraid that he would disappear in the next second.

Gu Sheng was dragged upstairs, but found that Zhao Miao's feet were limping, so he pulled him back, "What's wrong with your feet?"

"It burned before I came back yesterday, but I didn't deal with it in order to catch the plane." Zhao Miao replied, knowing that Gu Sheng was at home now, Zhao Miao couldn't care about anything, just wanted to go home quickly, lest people run away again.

Gu Sheng squatted down and found that Zhao Miao's ankle was suppurated. He frowned, "Why don't you take care of your body? Where is the medicine box?"

"It should be in the cabinet next to the TV. As for where it is, I don't know. I haven't been home for several years." Zhao Miao replied.

Gu Sheng rummaged through the cabinet, found the medicine box, and asked Zhao Miao to hold it. He carried the suitcase in one hand and supported Zhao Miao upstairs with the other.Fortunately, Zhao Miao only carried a small suitcase, and there was not much stuff in it, otherwise the skinny Gu Sheng might not be able to carry it.

Zhao Miao sat on the bed and found that there was still warmth in the bed, "Did the teacher sleep on my bed?"

Gu Sheng nodded, and said while helping Zhao Miao apply the medicine, "Your mother told me to sleep in your room because you said you wouldn't go home."

Unexpectedly, Zhao Miao came back, so Gu Sheng was stunned downstairs for a long time.

"Where have you been all these years?" This is what Zhao Miao has always wanted to ask. He never answered the phone call or text message, as if he disappeared from this world.

"I'm in City M. After all, I'm a university student there, so I'm fairly familiar with it." Gu Sheng replied.

Zhao Miao's complexion changed, it was because Gu Sheng had studied in M ​​City, so he took the risk of failing to re-enroll in the university that Gu Sheng studied, and even graduate students studied in that university.After staying in M ​​City for so many years, he also deliberately searched for Gu Sheng's whereabouts, but no matter how hard he searched, he couldn't find it.But Gu Sheng was in M ​​City, Zhao Miao didn't know what expression to show, whether he blamed himself for not working hard enough, or Gu Sheng for hiding too deeply, it was impossible to talk about it.

"Then why don't you come back to see, I... Everyone is very worried about you, but you don't disclose any news, don't you treat us like family?" Zhao Miao joked.

"You have always been my family, it's just...I..." Gu Sheng didn't know what to say, and didn't hold back a word for a long time.

"It's because of those slobbering idiots and your depression, right?" Zhao Miao asked.

Gu Sheng denied it flatly, "I don't have depression."

"My teacher's wife, that is, your friend, Zhou Caixiao told me everything, what else do you want to deny?" After the college entrance examination, Gu Sheng suddenly disappeared, and Zhao Miao, who was like a headless chicken, had to go to Zhou Caixiao. Shino.Gu Sheng was the closest to her before, Zhou Caixiao refused to say anything at first, but was annoyed by Zhao Miao, so she said everything about Gu Sheng.Including the depression I got a long time ago, and it hasn't recovered until now.The previous blow was too great, Gu Sheng's situation was up and down, and he disappeared only to heal his wounds. Zhou Caixiao said that she did not know Gu Sheng's whereabouts.

After Zhao Miao heard this, he was completely in disbelief.Gu Sheng, who obviously always smiled at him and brought him warmth, actually suffered from depression, but Zhao Miao couldn't believe it. From the second year to the third year of high school, some of Gu Sheng's behaviors were indeed wrong, but he didn't think about depression.

"We can end this topic." Gu Sheng didn't like to bring up his depression, or he didn't want to talk about it with Zhao Miao.

"I went to the university you used to study. I majored in psychology. If there are no accidents, I may become a psychological counselor in the future. So you think we should end this topic?" Zhao Miao had many choices, but because Gu Health, his range of choices immediately narrowed down a lot.Zhao Miao is not a patient person, he can even be said to have a grumpy temper. He knew it from the frequent fights in the past, but the most important thing to treat a sick person is gentleness.Zhao Miao tried his best to control his temper and learn annoying majors, but when he thought that he might be able to help Gu Sheng, Zhao Miao immediately became motivated.

"Why are you doing this?" Gu Sheng asked back.

"This is my own business. You helped me so much before. If it weren't for you, I'm afraid I wouldn't be a student at that university, but a small street vendor selling skewers at the door, so I want to help you too." Zhao Miao explained .

Not daring to confess at all, Zhao Miao couldn't guess Gu Sheng's thoughts.When he was in high school, because Gu Sheng had just graduated from university and was not much different in age from the students, Gu Sheng received a lot of love letters.It's just that all of them were thrown into the trash can, and the received gifts that could be returned were all returned, and those that could not be returned were also lying in the trash can.Zhao Miao originally thought that those people would calm down for a while, but unexpectedly, because of Gu Sheng throwing love letters and gifts, he became more obsessed with him, saying that such a man is very infatuated and dedicated, and there are a lot of blah blah blah.Girls in the class seldom have such a situation. As for the students in other classes, Gu Sheng had no choice but to tell their class teachers about the situation.

Being liked is both a good thing and a bad thing.Most of the big boys in high school are rough and careless, Gu Sheng is gentle, and the girls like to compare, which caused dissatisfaction among several people.That's how it got out that Gu Sheng was gay.There is no evidence, but rumors spread ten to ten, and Gu Sheng is not close to women, so many people naturally believed the rumors.The school was very dissatisfied, and this had a bad impact on the school. Gu Sheng was almost expelled, but the dean tried his best to protect Gu Sheng, because he let Gu Sheng, who had just graduated, take the second year of high school and become the head teacher.

Although the turmoil has passed, Zhao Miao clearly felt that Gu Sheng didn't have the same enthusiasm for teaching as before.When he first came to this class, even though Gu Sheng was only acting as the head teacher, he cared about every detail of the work in the class and cared about every student.But in the last semester of the third year of high school, it was like a different person.Leaving after class, and explaining things, except Zhao Miao and Han Youliang, keeping a distance from every student in the class.

"I'm fine, you've been tired all night, go sleep for a while!" Gu Sheng lowered his head to cover up the disappointment in his eyes, Zhao Miao didn't notice it either.

"Are you still going?" Zhao Miao asked again.

"I was going to leave yesterday, but my uncle advised me to stay for the New Year's Eve dinner, maybe on the second day of the new year." Gu Sheng replied.

Zhao Miao sneered, "So after leaving this time, do you plan to disappear for a few more years? Gu Sheng, you are really good at it. You only care about yourself and don't care about other people's life or death?"

"I told my uncle that I want to relax by myself. I don't care about other people's lives, and no one cares about mine." Gu Sheng didn't understand why Zhao Miao was suddenly angry, which made his tone not very good, at least I don't want to talk to Zhao Miao now, so I get up and want to leave.

Zhao Miao hugged Gu Sheng, "So you don't take me seriously? Do you know that I worry about you all the time, every time I see people who commit suicide because of depression on the news, I'm very scared , afraid that you will do stupid things too. How can you say that no one cares about your life?"

"..."

There was a long silence in the room. Gu Sheng liked Zhao Miao's concern for him, but at the same time he hated it, "Go to sleep for a while, I don't want to talk about these things."

Zhao Miao also felt that his tone was a bit harsh. Gu Sheng loves to think wildly, and he can't question every sentence like before, just like interrogating a prisoner, so he said in a slightly gentler tone, "I'm only 27 today, and I still have a few days to go, so I promise you to rest for a while, but you can't leave, stay with me in the room."

"I see, you go to sleep!" It sounded a bit strange, but Gu Sheng still stayed in the room with Zhao Miao.

Zhao Miao was lying on the bed, staring at Gu Sheng who was reading a book, and quietly sent a message to Han Youliang, asking him to watch someone.Zhao Miao was afraid that when he woke up, Gu Sheng would disappear.

After sending the message, Zhao Miao also felt a little sleepy, and said in a low voice, "Gu Sheng, you can't leave again."

"I see." Gu Sheng replied.

Hearing Gu Sheng's response, Zhao Miao fell asleep in peace.