To die

After a short rest at home for a day, Lu Hanqian took Lin Yan for a full physical examination.

Apart from mental problems and heart disease, he was very afraid that Lin Yan might have other problems that he was hiding from him.

Fortunately, it's okay.

But in fact, looking at it from another angle, this is nothing to be thankful for.

Heart failure itself would have killed him, and any more illnesses would only speed up the process and make Lin Yan's death even more embarrassing.

He watched Lin Yan lying on the hospital bed, the doctor put clips on his fingers and chest, then looked at the list printed out by the instrument, and shook his head hesitantly.

"There's really no need for surgery."

The doctor said: "It cannot be repaired, and it is still a burden to the patient's body. I suggest conservative treatment."

"...how conservative treatment?"

Lu Hanqian asked slowly with a difficult tone.

"Pay attention to a light diet, low-fat and low-salt, and avoid strenuous exercise."

The doctor paused, and then said: "It is also best to prepare an oxygen machine at home."

He glanced at Lin Yan who was sitting on the hospital bed, silently looking down at the ground: "How is his chest tightness now? Do you have any symptoms such as difficulty in breathing?"

Lu Hanqian was speechless, Lin Yan wouldn't say anything now, how could he be able to tell what was uncomfortable by himself.

"...he used to seem a little bit."

Lu Hanqian tried his best to recall, thinking back to the past, he felt that Lin Yan didn't like to move very much, he would never stand when he could sit, and never sit when he could lie down, he was always very tired easily.

The doctor sighed and turned to check Lin Yan's legs and feet.

"A little swollen."

The doctor said: "You have to be mentally prepared, this situation may continue to worsen in the future."

Patients with advanced heart failure can't escape the fate of difficulty breathing, chest tightness, vomiting, and edema of both lower limbs.

Due to the weakened contractility of the heart muscle, it was unable to provide the blood supply needed for the metabolism of body tissues. Lin Yan's well-proportioned and straight legs would inevitably swell and swell day by day, making it difficult for him to walk and feel pain.

He had to lie in bed for a long time, and then formed a kind of vicious circle, the more pain, the more unable to walk, and the less able to walk, the more swollen.

There might even be a day when he can no longer fit in those different styles of Martin boots that hit his calf, his favorite.

Faced with this inevitable and indignified way of dying, Lu Hanqian didn't know whether he should take Lin Yan to receive psychological counseling.

If the last part of the journey was destined to be a hard one, it might be more fortunate to go directly to the next life without knowing it than to wait soberly for death.

If it wasn't for him, he might have survived.

Every time Lu Hanqian thought of this, his heart ached so much that it was about to burst.

This is not a mistake that an apology can make up.

Even if it was unintentional, once thinking that the person he loves is actually going to death step by step because of himself, Lu Hanqian even wants to exchange his heart for Lin Yan to reduce this guilt and suffering.

"I won't let you die."

Lu Hanqian stretched out his hand and gently touched Lin Yan's cheek, knowing that he couldn't hear him but stubbornly said: "Don't be afraid. Don't be afraid, Lin Yan."

Lin Yan was not afraid.

He was indifferently isolated from the outside world, only looking at the ground dull and dull.

Lu Hanqian hugged him sadly.

After coming out of the hospital in the afternoon, Lu Hanqian took Lin Yan to see a psychiatrist again.

It was introduced by Gu Zhao, and it is said to be quite reliable. His cousin also watched it here when she hurt herself.

The doctor first asked Lin Yan some questions gently, trying to test his reaction, but Lin Yan didn't respond.

He was sitting there really no different than a mad patient.

Except for his temperament and appearance, which cannot be changed much for a while, it is difficult to see the shadow of Lin Guyan, a young man with high spirits and high spirits, when he stood in the court.

When the psychiatrist showed Lin Yan the "Constitution/Law" and "Civil Law" regulations, but he didn't respond, Lu Hanqian couldn't bear to read any more, and retreated to wait in the corridor with Gu Zhao.

"What are you going to do next?" Gu Zhao asked.

"......do not know."

Lu Hanqian lowered his head and flicked his phone distractedly.

He mechanically stored some videos of baby squirrels and penguins, in case Lin Yan couldn't sleep again tonight, he could show them to him.

"I hate that old beast."

Lu Hanqian said in a low voice: "But I seem to... have no qualifications."

Gu Zhao didn't speak.

"If it wasn't for me, Lin Yan wouldn't hate our family so much and mess with that old beast."

Lu Hanqian said: "...In the end, I'm still to blame."

"You brought Lin Lu out, but he didn't say anything?"

Gu Zhaochi asked: "There's also your mother's business, didn't you go to the hospital a while ago, did you go and see?"

"She's fine, she just fell down and will go back in a few days."

Lu Hanqian's tone was emotionless, and he said indifferently: "When I went to the mental hospital, I beat up the vice hospital. After that, my dad called me, but I didn't answer. I heard that the vice hospital was paralyzed. Now, blame me for being too heavy-handed."

Lu Hanqian smiled coldly: "Fucking call me, it's fine if I didn't beat him up together."

"..."

Gu Zhao felt a little strange, and thought that according to Lu Beizheng's ruthless style, even if his own son snatched someone out, he would not necessarily give up. Why did he let it go this time?

Could it be that he also felt that Lin Yan's life was not long, and he had already become like this, and there would be nothing more troublesome?

"How is Lin Lu's heart?"

Gu Zhao asked again.

However, it was good if he didn't mention it, but when he mentioned it, Lu Hanqian's face darkened again.

"No heart source found."

Lu Hanqian said in a hoarse voice, "I also looked for it abroad, but I haven't found it yet."

"..."

"I probably won't give him psychotherapy."

Lu Hanqian said: "...he simply...maybe not last until the day he recovers."

Gu Zhao stood speechless, not knowing how to comfort him.

"I want to take him out to play, but I don't know where he wants to go."

Lu Hanqian said: "When we were together before, I never heard him say that there is any place he wants to go. I don't know if it's really not there, or he just doesn't like to tell me... But no matter what, I don't want to He wasted his last little time in the treatment room of the hospital."

"......Will be fine."

In silence, Gu Zhao said weakly: "You are neither short of money nor rich, and Lin Lu is such a nice person, everything will be fine."

"He needs to rest."

Lu Hanqian said dumbly and pitifully deceiving himself: "Maybe God just wanted him to go away so that it wouldn't be so uncomfortable, that's why..."

Lu Hanqian blinked, and remembered that when they first met, Lin Yan walked past him, carrying the pleasant old trees and the faint fragrance of Cangshan Mountain, and far away, raised his chin coldly, and coldly gouged him out. , how beautiful it is.

He was never seen again.

"I didn't expect that he fought with me for so long and tried every means to leave. In the end, he finally left happily, and now he is back by my side."

Lu Hanqian pressed his eyes, and said with a hoarse smile: Lin Yan, he...is really unlucky. "

His depression and depression made Gu Zhao feel uneasy, but when the consultation room opened and the psychiatrist led Lin Yan out, Lu Hanqian stood up instantly again, smiled and walked over to kiss Lin Yan's forehead, it's all right Say the same:

"Well, it's not a big problem, is it? I just said that he rolled his eyes last night, and he will be fine."

The expression on Gu Zhao's face was very complicated. He thought to himself, this man surnamed Lu is really a goddamn acting school in front of Lin Yan.

......

The psychiatrist advised that Lin Yan may have become like this because of some kind of strong and continuous stimulation in the mental hospital, so Lu Hanqian must be patient when getting along with him in normal times, and must not lose his temper or be physically violent towards him.

She didn't mention that Lin Yan might have been electrocuted like this. He was not allowed to fall asleep for a long time, and whenever he was exhausted to the point where he couldn't bear it, he would be kept awake with electric current. Over time, no one could bear it. .

But these were too dark and cruel, and the counselor couldn't describe them to Lu Hanqian, which caused the patient and family members to be hurt again.

When Lu Hanqian asked why Lin Yan always woke up in the middle of the night, she replied very tactfully: "Please don't blame the patient, this is the most painful time of his day."

Lu Hanqian nodded. Lin Yan was present, so he didn't ask any more questions.

At night, when Lin Yan woke up again, Lu Hanqian held him in his arms and comforted him in the most secure way.

Lin Yan watched the video, and Lu Hanqian accompanied him drowsily.

But he usually has to go to work in the morning, deal with emails, and being unable to sleep in the middle of the night is a terrible thing.Lu Hanqian usually only lasted for a few minutes, and when Lin Yan's attention was attracted by the duckling's fluffy butt, he began to doze off secretly.

However, maybe because of being too tired recently, when Lu Hanqian dozed off, he snored a little.

He didn't realize it at first, but the voice was making Lin Yan watch the video a little bit, and he was a little annoyed that Lin Yan woke him up again and again.

Waking up as soon as he fell asleep, and waking up as soon as he fell asleep, Lu Hanqian was going to die of anger, and was about to lose his temper when he suddenly felt a chill in the corner of his mouth.

"..."

All the halazi flowed out.

Lu Hanqian was ashamed and angry, he had never snored before!

It's because I'm too tired to take care of Lin Yannong and deal with the company's affairs recently, so I'm drooling in sleep now!

Lin Yan looked at him with pitch-black eyes and didn't speak. Lu Hanqian felt as if he had punched the cotton with his fist, and couldn't express any anger.

"...What are you looking at?" Lu Hanqian lacked confidence, pretending to be angry and said, "Look at your phone."

However, Lin Yan looked at him, and suddenly put one hand in front of his mouth, blowing, and made a "huhhuhuhuhu" sound similar to snoring.

Lu Lin Yan's imitation object, Han, can't wait to throw Lin Yan out of bed immediately Qian: "..."

"alright."

Lu Hanqian heaved a long sigh, pulled himself together, and resigned himself to holding Lin Yan to stay awake: "I'll watch it with you. My little friend."



Almost a month had passed since Lin Yan's mental state was slightly better.

It was already late autumn at that time, and the trial of Gu Li's case started three days later.

This mother who once turned to Lin Yan for help, but was finally forced by fate to go to a desperate situation step by step, is about to finish her life.

Before the trial, Lu Hanqian went to see Gu Li.

With the thought of doing something good and accumulating virtue for Lin Yan, he asked Gu Li if she needed any help.

If she wanted, Lu Hanqian could hire a lawyer for her and fight for probation, or indefinite term, so that even if Gu Li was dying, at least she could not die on the execution ground.

But Gu Li refused.

The first condition for a suspended sentence or life sentence is to plead guilty, admit your mistakes and repent, but Gu Li refused.

She insists that Zhao Yu deserves to die, and if she is given another chance, she will still kill him.

Even a verbal confession won't do.

"Where's Lawyer Lin?"

Gu Li asked sensitively, "Why didn't he come?"

Lu Hanqian was a little embarrassed, and lied: "...Oh, I'm his friend, and he's feeling a little unwell recently, so it's not convenient to come over."

At this time, Lin Yan's demented appearance was shown to Gu Li, and it was estimated that he would give Gu Li a blow in the end, making her completely desperate for this world.

"Is that so..."

Gu Li looked a little sad, and she asked: "Lawyer Lin didn't blame me, did he...he has been taking care of me, but I finally let him down."

"How could it be?" Lu Hanqian said, but he remembered Lin Yan's tears when he was drunk that day, and subconsciously felt that it might be a very important node in the change of Lin Yan's mental state.

He said dryly: "... Lin Yan, he is very good, and he has always wanted to see you, but his physical condition does not allow..."

"Is it?"

Gu Li forced a smile: "Lawyer Lin is a good man, and he is gentle. May God treat him kindly."

"Is there any wish you want to achieve?"

Lu Hanqian tried his best to ask in an approachable tone.He is not used to communicating with ordinary people, and even feels a little embarrassed. He feels that with his background and personality, sitting and talking with ordinary people, they don't like him, and it is difficult for him to communicate with them.

But for Lin Yan, he could only try to blend in.

Gu Li shook her head. People who are about to die usually have nothing more to ask for.

For her, the love is gone, the hatred has been repaid, there are no regrets, and there are no souvenirs.

"...anything is okay?"

However, after a moment of silence, Gu Li still couldn't help asking.

There was a very shy, embarrassing, and embarrassed look on her face, as if there was a request that she was looking forward to, but she was afraid of embarrassing Lu Hanqian.

"what?"

Lu Hanqian saw it, and asked: "You can mention it whatever you want, and I will try my best to satisfy you."

"Will it be almost December when the execution will be executed?"

Gu Li wrung her hands together humbly, and she asked very softly: "Can you let me wear a goose yellow dress after I die? My daughter is going to be 17 this year, and I want to wear a dress for her birthday." Give her a gift."

"..."

Lu Hanqian was stunned.

"It doesn't need to be too expensive, just a few dozen yuan is fine..."

Gu Li whispered: "If you feel unlucky... forget it, it's okay. I, I will do it for her when I get there..."

She carefully observed Lu Hanqian's expression, fearing that her pleading would go beyond the bounds and cause trouble to Lin Yan's friends.

"it is good."

However, just when she was about to withdraw her request and not cause trouble for Lu Hanqian, Lu Hanqian suddenly agreed.

"I'll prepare it for you."

Lu Hanqian said in a hoarse voice: "Is the lace one okay?...I'll ask someone to buy it. I'll buy the...the most beautiful one."

Gu Li's eyes were filled with tears, she didn't know whether she was happy or grateful.She wrung her hands nervously, as if she didn't know how to thank Lu Hanqian, so she kept saying:

"Thank you...you are such a good person, Lin Lu's friends are all good people..."

At that moment, Lu Hanqian could not describe his mood.He deserved Gu Li's thanks, but he seemed to be able to empathize with Gu Li at that moment.

He understands her humbleness, her clumsiness, her ordinary love and hatred——

It turns out that human feelings can also be communicated regardless of class.

Lu Hanqian suddenly felt a little embarrassed sitting here.

Gu Li was very grateful to him, but in order to make things difficult for Lin Yan, like playing with an ant, he took what this ordinary mother was looking forward to the most as a weight in his hands without any psychological burden. , tossed around contemptuously.

This feeling is quite a rare experience for Lu Hanqian.

Until a long, long time later, he could still vividly remember the strange feeling of suffering when he was sitting opposite Gu Li.

Not long after, Gu Li's case was in court, and Lu Hanqian took Lin Yan to watch it.

They sat in the very back row of the courtroom, an inconspicuous position, afraid that Gu Li would see Lin Yan.

This was a court trial without any suspense. The Zhao family hired a very powerful lawyer. In addition, Gu Li stabbed Zhao Yu more than forty times. It can be seen that it was not manslaughter at all.

She admitted everything that the opposing lawyer questioned, including whether she approached Zhao Yu premeditatedly.

As soon as this sentence was said, the public interest lawyer on Gu Li's side was instantly chased and beaten by the opponent, and his defense was so pale that he had no power to fight back.

The court hearing was very sad, Lu Hanqian was in a complicated mood, and after a while, he whispered in Lin Yan's ear:

"If it were you, you wouldn't be in such a mess. You would go up and silence the Zhao family's lawyers."

However, Lin Yan was in a daze, staring straight ahead without focusing. He had no idea that he was now in his most glorious and most anticipated absolute home court.

Before going out, Lu Hanqian put on a navy blue coat for him, and a dark green scarf wrapped around his chin. His pale and thin complexion made him look even younger.

Finally, the judge asked Gu Li if there was anything else she wanted to say, and gave her one last chance to defend herself.

However, Gu Li smiled and shook her head.

She was incredibly calm, and said softly to the judge: "I avenged my daughter and intentionally murdered him. I don't need any defense. I am a mother, and protecting my daughter is my right from God."

"Zhao Yu thought that he was so high that he could despise everything and not take my daughter's life seriously——

But he didn't know that the sorrows and joys of ordinary people should not be underestimated. Even ants, when they are in a desperate situation, their anger will be extremely serious.

He died ignorant of goodness, justice, and human hearts. "

These are Gu Li's last words in this world.

A few days later, she was sentenced to death and executed immediately.Because she has no regrets.

Lu Hanqian fulfilled his promise and sent someone in to bring Gu Li a goose yellow princess dress.

Lace, very pretty.

Gu Li walked away wearing it, a woman with advanced leukemia, her body was swollen, she looked like a fat man in her 60s and [-]s, wearing a fluffy lace princess dress.

That look is kind of ridiculous.

It is said that Gu Li was afraid that her skirt would be crushed, so she asked the prison guards to give her some wrapping cloth to wrap her swollen stomach and arms thinner.

Although it was hard, maybe with pain, but she was very happy, and finally she was smiling.

And that night, Lu Hanqian received a call saying that he had found a heart source that could match Lin Yan.

Lu Hanqian seemed to be in a dream, and he was almost unable to speak a word under the ecstasy.

He took Lin Yan to the hospital in the middle of the night, and only after he arrived did he know the name of the donor——

Death row prisoner: Gu Li.

Maybe it was a coincidence, maybe it was God's intentional arrangement.

Because in this world, all evil has an end, but good will last forever.