To die

Lu Hanqian took Lin Yan home, bathed and washed his hair.

I didn't pay attention when I was in the isolation room, and when I came back to take off my clothes, I found that Lin Yan's neck was cut by the iron ring.

——When he didn't lose his mind, he should have struggled very hard.

Instead of being like now, when Lu Hanqian undressed him//and unbuttoned him one by one, Lin Yan didn't even respond.

In the past, if Lu Hanqian did this, Lin Yan would slap him open.

Under the yellow light in the bathroom, Lu Hanqian poured the shampoo into the palm of his hand, then rubbed it into foam, and rubbed it on Lin Yan's hair.

Lu Hanqian's technique was extremely unskilled, and it was the first time he washed someone else's hair.

The foam was rubbed everywhere and almost slipped into Lin Yan's eyes.

But Lin Yan was in a daze, and didn't know how to close his eyes, and just let his eyelashes tremble non-stop.

Lu Hanqian spared a hand to rinse off the foam and covered Lin Yan's eyes.

"Close your eyes."

He said, and put his hands on Lin Yan's thin eyelids, preventing Lin Yan from opening them.

Lin Yan was at a loss, his eyelashes trembled in Lu Hanqian's palm, like a pair of tiny butterflies caught in his palm.

Lu Hanqian's palms were so itchy that he couldn't help but turn off the shower and help Lin Yan wipe off the foam on his forehead.He squatted down and said fiercely:

"Don't move. If you move again, it will hurt you!"

Lin Yan looked at him dully, with no expression on his face, a kind of quiet and ignorant emptiness.

He has been unable to read the meaning it represents from the words of others.

Whether it is intimidation or gentleness, Lin Yan can no longer judge the joy and anger in Lu Hanqian's words at this time.

Lu Hanqian's sleeves were rolled up to his forearms, his hands were covered with foam, and his clothes and pants were wet several times.

He squatted in front of Lin Yan, silently looking at Lin Yan with a businesslike expression, and Lin Yan looked at him woodenly.

His brows and eyes are still so lingering and affectionate, like a charming painting, the bridge of his nose is straight and straight, and the line of his lips is thin and sharp.

Even if she loses her mind, she is still a most beautiful doll.

Lu Hanqian's eyelashes trembled slightly, as if he had been lured by some kind of temptation, he pinched the back of Lin Yan's neck to make him bow his head, and slowly brought him towards him.

He pressed Lin Yan's cold lips and kissed him slowly.

Lin Yan opened his eyes blankly, as if completely unconscious, Lu Hanqian twisted his jaw to make him open his mouth, and he opened his mouth, allowing Lu Hanqian's tongue to come in cooperatively.

Lu Hanqian hooked Lin Yan, rubbed his sensitive and fragile palate hard, or withdrew to suck Lin Yan's lips fiercely.

Body fluid overflowed from the corners of Lin Yan's lips, which looked sparkling under the orange light.

He seldom showed such a thought-provoking attitude, his eyes were always dull and cold in the past, as if hiding a handful of white and cold snow.

Now Lu Hanqian was sticking close to him, kissing him, biting him, Lin Yan was stunned, he didn't frown, he didn't say it hurt, he just let others play in silence.

——It's not just Lu Hanqian, in fact, according to Lin Yan's state at this time, if Lu Hanqian hadn't come early, Lin Yan wouldn't be able to resist if anything happened in that isolation room.

Lu Hanqian once hoped that Lin Yan would completely belong to him.

Well-behaved, soft and glutinous, clinging to him like a dodder flower, staying at home every day waiting for him to get off work, coquettishly asking him to kiss her, not without Lu Hanqian.

But it wasn't until this day actually came that Lu Hanqian realized that Lin Yan like that was broken and could no longer be repaired.

And he may belong to Lu Hanqian, or anyone who wants to possess him.

Lu Hanqian hugged him tremblingly.

"... scratching the back..."

However, Lin Yan suddenly opened his mouth and said softly.

Lu Hanqian paused: "What?"

He raised his head almost unexpectedly, he didn't expect Lin Yan to make a sound.

After all, the vice president said that Lin Yan can't cry out in pain now, and has completely lost the ability to speak.

"Say it again." Lu Hanqian couldn't help approaching, and couldn't help asking: "What is it? Lin Yan, say it again."

However, Lin Yan was in a daze, staring blankly at the ground, and closed his thin lips again.

"...Say it again, okay?"

Lu Hanqian couldn't help urging anxiously, holding Lin Yan's face in his hands, and asked repeatedly: "What did you just say?"

Lin Yan's reaction was unusually slow.After a long time, he repeated it dully.

Lu Hanqian pressed against his lips, concentrating all his energy on listening.

However, when he finally heard what Lin Yan was talking about, his whole body froze suddenly.

Lin Yan said, "Husband."

Because when they first met, there was a lot of friction between Lin Yan and Lu Hanqian.Every time Lu Hanqian used various tricks to torture Lin Yan, forcing him to stop calling for his husband.

But at that time Lin Yan had never called out, and his face was covered in cold sweat and pained to the point of tears, refusing to make a sound.

...I thought you could really take it.

Lu Hanqian thought blankly.You never bow your head, I thought you didn't have that pain either.

But it turned out that you just endured it at that time, and the embarrassment and grief of being humiliated remain in your memory, and you can still remember even now when you lose consciousness.

In the past, he refused to speak out under the pride, but now it is the most primitive reaction of the body.

When Lu Hanqian hugged him, he would be afraid, and reflexively called: Husband.Fear of being punished.

Lin Yan has never been so invulnerable to swords and fearless as he is.

He was just enduring it, refusing to show timidity.

In fact, it hurts a lot.

"......sorry Sorry."

Lu Hanqian buried his face in Lin Yan's shoulder, and hugged him tremblingly.

"I didn't know you were in so much pain, so uncomfortable..."

Lu Hanqian couldn't help saying in a hoarse voice: "I really don't know...Lin Yan."

However, Lin Yan seemed to have been pressed a certain switch. Once Lu Hanqian touched him and tried to hug him, he would mutter those two words repeatedly.

Lu Hanqian's heart was almost broken, he didn't dare to move, he didn't know where to put his hands.

Lin Yan's eyes were distracted, the orange light reflected in his dull eyes, Lin Yan seemed to be thinking about something, and murmured slowly and vaguely.

"...don't bark anymore."

Lu Hanqian choked with sobs, feeling as if his heart was being lingered.These two words, which couldn't be more romantic and intimate, have become the cruelest curse to punish Lu Hanqian.

He didn't dare to let Lin Yan see him again, so he walked around behind Lin Yan, helped him rinse the foam, dried his hair, and finally wrapped him up in a bath towel.

He covered Lin Yan's eyes to prevent him from seeing him, so as not to be stimulated again.

However, when the warm water slowly flowed down from the top of Lin Yan's hair, dripped onto his collarbone along his dark and soft hair, and overflowed from the two dimples above his collarbone, Lu Hanqian's eyes suddenly became hot .

For the first time, he realized that if Lin Yan hadn't met him, he would indeed have a very good life.

He wouldn't have to ask others to help him even take a bath like this, from unparalleled eloquence to communication barriers, no self-esteem and no health to linger on.

He didn't know that Lin Yan would never let the Lu family go no matter what.

At this moment, Lu Hanqian only felt that if he hadn't appeared in Lin Yan's life, Lin Yan wouldn't be what he is now.He might be a hundred times better off than he is now.

...but it was too late.

When you break a crane bird's wings and blind its eyes, if you give it freedom with "good intentions" at this time, it is nothing more than letting it die.

Lu Hanqian took Lin Yan out and dried his hair.

Lin Yan's fair and delicate skin was slightly red after bathing. The warm running water made his blood circulation much faster. His body felt soft and warm, like a piece of beautiful soft white jade.

Lu Hanqian stood behind Lin Yan, inserted his fingers into Lin Yan's hair, and dried him bit by bit.

He didn't dare to use too much force, because Lin Yan couldn't speak, and he couldn't tell him if it hurt.

So he just observed Lin Yan's expression very carefully to judge whether his strength was too strong.

After all the procedures were completed, Lin Yan's neck and skin exuded a faint fragrance after bathing.

The gloomy and dirty stained in the mental hospital seems to have been washed away with the running water.

Lu Hanqian put on a light blue plaid pajamas for Lin Yan, and said in a coaxing tone, "Okay, the wash is for nothing, let's go to sleep."

He lifted the quilt and took Lin Yan to lie down.

When Lin Yan closed his eyes and seemed to be falling asleep so quickly, Lu Hanqian tiptoed out of bed, took his own bath, and then returned to bed.

They slept soundly until midnight.

When it was almost three o'clock in the morning, Lu Hanqian felt something was wrong.

Lin Yan somehow woke up, tossing and turning in the quilt.

He didn't know how those people in the mental hospital managed Lin Yan's work and rest, but after waking up at this point, Lin Yan seemed to be feeling very uncomfortable, a little anxious, wanting to sleep but unable to fall asleep.

Lu Hanqian didn't know how to comfort him, so he hummed a lullaby for half an hour, but instead Lin Yan was disturbed.

"Don't move, don't move..."

Lu Hanqian reached the head of the bed, turned on the lamp, looked at Lin Yan: "Do you want some water?"

Lin Yan remained silent, while Lu Hanqian yawned with red eyes.

"...Okay, let's watch the video."

Lu Hanqian swiped on his phone, tuned up "Caijing Online" and read it. The host said, "This week, the stock market is generally not ideal. Many stocks continued to fall, and once fell below the lowest point..."

Lu Hanqian barely supported his eyelids and listened to Lin Yan, but this "Caijing Online" was obviously not within the scope of Lin Yan's interest. He only read it for less than half a minute, and then began to wriggle a little anxiously again.

"Okay, change one, change another look."

Lu Hanqian flipped through the video catalog one by one, wondering which one would be more soothing to Lin Yan.

His eyes were bloodshot—

No one is in a very happy mood after being woken up in the middle of the night.Lu Hanqian just feels sleepy and lack of energy now, if someone else wakes him up at [-]:[-] in the middle of the night, Lu Hanqian will probably have already taken his head off.

"Would you like to see the panda cub?"

When he was about to slip to the bottom, Lu Hanqian was suddenly blessed, and remembered Lin Yan's favorite entertainment after lunch, and immediately opened a video: "Would you like to watch these little glutinous rice balls breastfeeding?"

Lin Yan didn't speak, but the result was obviously good——

A few balls of white and waxy panda cubs appeared on the screen, lying limply in the basket, waiting for the breeder to come and distribute feeding bottles one by one, Lin Yan's breathing eased a lot.

He looked at it quietly, and there was a clear difference between that expression and his staring blankly at the air.

Lu Hanqian could feel that the flashing images on the screen fell into his eyes, and Lin Yan had a reaction.

Each video is very short, about three to five minutes to watch.

Lu Hanqian was afraid that he would get tired of watching them, so he changed a few baby penguins to toddlers, and Lin Yan seemed to like them too.

He was particularly interested in that kind of fluffy and chubby animal. Lu Hanqian thought a little regretfully that Humbert's disfavor might be due to his size.

Lu Hanqian held the phone for too long, his right hand was a little sore, so he switched to his left.

However, what is interesting is that when he changed hands, Lin Yan turned his neck as he moved.

Lin Yan seemed to be held by an invisible thread, his eyes fell on the screen, Lu Hanqian played tricks, deliberately turned the phone to the corner, and then slowly moved it from the left to the right.

Like teasing a child.

But during this time, Lin Yan's gaze was also moving. He slowly learned to roll his eyes, or slightly turned his head in the direction of the phone.

Lu Hanqian covered his eyes, turned up the volume of the phone, and Lin Yan would also move a little towards the panda cub's cry.

At that moment, Lu Hanqian really didn't know what kind of feeling came to him.

...Fortunately, not completely unresponsive to the outside world.

With sore eyes in his eyes, he asked Lin Yan hoarsely, "Are pandas so cute?"

Lin Yan didn't say a word, still just staring at the screen silently.

Lu Hanqian smiled and kissed him on top of his hair, and said softly: "Not as cute as you."



In the dark room, only one desk lamp was quietly on.

The light from the screen was reflected on Lin Yan's pale face, and he looked intently like a child.

Lin Yan's eyelashes are long and dense, and the contours of his face are also beautiful. The silhouette looks very beautiful.From Lu Hanqian holding the phone for him, looking down from a slightly higher angle, you can still see his two deep collarbones, and two delicate dots protruding from the empty pajamas...

Hugging in the arms of warm and fragrant nephrite, the person you like is in front of you.

But you can only look at it, not touch it.

Lu Hanqian let out a long breath.

"Come on, let's see for yourself for a while, okay?"

Lu Hanqian adjusted the tablet for Lin Yan, put it on the quilt, and put it in a position where Lin Yan could see it.

Then he moved aside and slid the phone on.

Lu Hanqian moved under the quilt, and then glanced at Lin Yan out of the corner of his eye to make sure that he was focusing on the penguin cub——

Quietly, a small video was opened.

Lu Hanqian couldn't take it anymore, no matter whether Lin Yan was sharp and proud, or a little dull like this, he liked it all.

Since I like it, it's hard not to respond if I hug and rub like this.But thinking about how Lin Yan is like this, he is still trying to do something to others, that is really inhuman.

In order to avoid any embarrassing situation that would frighten Lin Yan again, Lu Hanqian felt that it would be better to solve it by himself first.

Wearing headphones, he tried his best to get himself into the state quickly and make a quick decision.

However, I don't know if it's too nervous or what, Lu Hanqian is always so short of fire.

Just when he was finally getting well, the scene changed and it went dark for a while, Lu Hanqian suddenly saw the shadows of two people on the screen.

"..."

"...!!!"

Lu Hanqian was almost frightened to the point of softening, but at some point, Lin Yan's video ended and he couldn't change it, so he subconsciously turned his head towards Lu Hanqian, and watched it together with him.

Lu Hanqian instantly covered Lin Yan's eyes: "How can you look at this!!"

Lu Hanqian was extremely nervous, afraid that Lin Yan would be stimulated by the scene in the video and recall some bad memories.

"Are you all right?"

Lu Hanqian immediately opened the video of Panda Zai Zai to wash his eyes: "Is there any discomfort?"

When he was taking a bath, he was really scared by Lin Yan's "husband", especially afraid that Lin Yan would say something that would stab him in the heart, then Lu Hanqian really couldn't survive.

However, Lin Yan did not.

He watched the video silently, said nothing, and his reaction was still a little slow.

After about a minute or so, Lu Hanqian gradually felt relieved when he saw that Lin Yan was fine.

But Lin Yan suddenly turned his head, as if imitating the action in the video he saw just now, and gently kissed Lu Hanqian.

His lips were cold and soft, and he kissed Lu Hanqian's cheek for about two or three seconds, then he let go and looked at Lu Hanqian.

Lin Yan's neck was thin and long, and when he turned his head to look at someone like this, the angle was very beautiful.

Like a deer in the forest looking inquisitively at the intruding hunter.

Lu Hanqian stared at him blankly, his heart beat suddenly accelerated.

......What does it mean?

He wanted to ask why he kissed me suddenly.

But maybe Lin Yan didn't know what it meant at all. His brain was chaotic and fuzzy, and he was simply imitating the actions he saw in the video.

And Lu Hanqian happened to be by his side at this time, so he took advantage of it.

"...Do you know what that means?"

Lu Hanqian choked up and asked tremblingly.

"Kiss me if you know what it means..."

Lu Hanqian looked at him desperately and sadly, and asked in a hoarse voice: "You're going to die, do you know... you're not going to die by my side? Didn't you secretly copy my mailbox? Didn't you want to die? Is my family broken and imprisoned...?!"

"——What do you mean by kissing me now!"

Lu Hanqian's eyes were red, like a child who was at a loss for what to do with the teasing of fate.

He looked at Lin Yan, and said sadly and slowly: "You obviously don't like me...then don't play tricks on me. Lin Yan, let me go...I can be alone now People like you."

—Don't you give me hope and take it away.

Lu Hanqian touched the back of Lin Yan's head, told him to turn his head away, and then whispered in Lin Yan's ear:

"...Next time, don't kiss me again. This action can only be done with someone you like."

Lin Yan is unlikely to understand.

He only felt that Lu Hanqian scratched the back of his neck itchy, so he subconsciously turned his head back.

Lu Hanqian helped him hold the phone, and Lin Yan started watching the video again.

It was about seven o'clock when Lin Yan finally felt sleepy again, and fell asleep sleepily in Lu Hanqian's arms.

Lu Hanqian was sticking to his back, and Lin Yan was sitting in Lu Hanqian's arms, in a posture completely protected by Lu Hanqian.

After he fell asleep, he leaned back, unconsciously resting his head on Lu Hanqian's chest.

Lu Hanqian slowly reached out his hand, and carefully turned off the desk lamp.

Then he looked at Lin Yan's sleeping face, and kissed him lightly on the cheek.

"Good night, my darling."