Life is like a journey

"How is today?" The nurse was changing her medicine, Qin Xuan knocked on the door twice, and pushed open the door to enter.

"It's okay" will be raised for more than a month, and he is more energetic than when he just woke up. One hand is reserved for the nurse to give the needle, and the other hand is playing Lego on the small table on the bed.

Qin Xuan sat down by the bed, and Lu Qingshi put the rescue helicopter's wings up and pressed it firmly: "What, do you have something to tell me?"

The feeling is still so sharp, Qin Xuan was ashamed, before she could speak, she was interrupted again: "If you are acting as a lobbyist for others, then go out."

Seeing her indifference to her condition, Qin Xuan became a little anxious: "I'm not here to be a lobbyist. I really care about you. As a friend, I also hope that you can accept this operation."

"As a friend, if you had thought about me, you wouldn't have come." Lu Qing's actions were a little impatient, he tore off a part and couldn't find it anywhere.

Qin Xuan grabbed her wrist: "I don't understand, how many years have passed between you and Fu Lei, what's wrong with it, it's not him who performed the operation on you"

"He can get over it, but I can't!" A person who has always been indifferent will always be particularly irritable and irritable when he mentions things related to his ex-husband.

The parts on the table flew apart, Lu Qingshi's hair was disheveled, his eyes were red, and he stared at her panting heavily.

Qin Xuan stood up: "Can you not be so selfish?! Think about your grandfather's feelings, Gu Yanzhi's feelings, my feelings, Yu Gui's feelings, and the feelings of everyone in the emergency department. You just went like this. You let us what to do!!!"

They've been quarreling before, but they've never been so hysterical. Both of them are like crazy, saying the most vicious words to hurt each other's heart.

"Anyway, you've always been so arrogant." Qin Xuan walked up and down the ward, pointing at her nose and scolding, "As a doctor, you don't even feel such a big tumor in your brain?! Lu Qingshi, Your book has been read into the dog's stomach!"

"That's better than you. As an obstetrician, I can't even cure my own infertility."

She spoke as if she could not speak her mind, and when she came back to her senses, the room was silent.

Qin Xuan panted heavily, his eyes slowly turned red.

She had never seen her look so aggrieved before, Lu Qing turned her face away, squeezed the sheets under her body tightly, and said in a cold tone, "Don't be so self-righteous, I have never regarded you as a friend, I don't need you to live or die you control"

The sound of Qin Xuan slamming the door lingered in her mind for a long time, and when she came to her senses, she was hugged into her arms.

"You... know everything?" Lu Qing choked up and clutched her clothes tightly.

"I'm really useless... As she said, as a senior surgeon, I can be keenly aware of other people's illnesses, but I can't do anything about my own body..."

Sometimes there will be a deep sense of powerlessness. I have saved countless people, but no one can save myself. God is really unfair. Those who harm others live a long life, and those who save others are at stake.

Gu Yanzhi hugged her tightly, and gently rubbed her head: "No...you are amazing...you are strong, gentle and cute...you were not knocked down by the illness, but..."

Lu Qingshi let go of her, with tears in his eyes, but his eyes turned cold: "Are you also trying to persuade me?"

She knew she shouldn't cry at this time, but she still hugged him into her arms with red eyes, rubbed her chin against her thin shoulder blades, and swallowed the smell of disinfectant and tears into her throat.

"I... respect your opinion"

For so many days, Gu Yanzhi was the only one who said this to her. Obviously he was also very sad, his eyes were red, his lips were trembling, and he gritted his teeth to restrain himself from crying.

Lu Qingshi slowly hugged her back, coveting the warmth in her arms for a long time, so much so that he took a deep breath of the smell of mint and tobacco mixed in her neck, sighed and called her name.

"Gu Yanzhi"

"Ok?"

"I want to go home"

"Eleventh bed, Dai Yuchen, get up for chemotherapy." The nurse pushed the medicine cart in, lifted the quilt, and suddenly broke out in a cold sweat.

"Come on people!"

Yu Gui and several medical staff rushed in and carried the man from the ground to the gurney. The bedside ultrasound and ECG were connected, and the X-ray results came out soon.

Liu Qingyun picked up the film and glanced at it, then shook his head: "Send it to the emergency room."

She was already in a coma. Chen Yi had a tracheal intubation and was connected to a ventilator. Yu Gui pressed her slightly deformed calf: "Send it to the operating room. I remember that this patient is not scheduled for surgery? Who is the surgeon? one time"

Everyone froze for a moment, Qiqi looked at her.

"What's wrong? Hurry up." She urged: "The tumor has already metastasized to the lungs, and it is compressing the large blood vessels, causing respiratory failure. If there is no operation, the patient will die. Send the patient to the operating room and then go to the family to be critically ill."

Hao Renjie hesitated for a moment: "This is... Sister Lu's operation"

Yu Gui's hand that gave her the needle stopped suddenly.

"I can't be discharged from the hospital yet, the physical examination results are good after the consultation of various departments, and the director's signature is required."

Gu Yanzhi's words were almost worn out, and the nurses in front of the triage desk said nothing to let him go.

"Then, please leave, please leave the head office."

The nurse glanced at Lu Qingshi who was sitting in a wheelchair behind her: "The time off for leave should not exceed four hours, and all accidents during the outing are the responsibility of the patient himself and his family."

"Okay" Gu Yanzhi happily signed the calligraphy and painting.

When pushing her away in the corridor with the leave note, a group of doctors in white coats ran past them.

"Where's Director Xu?"

"I just had an intestinal obstruction, what about emergency surgery?"

"Director Zhang isn't there either?"

"Chest call for consultation"

Yu Gui gritted his teeth, walked briskly, and stuffed the film into the hands of the little nurse: "Okay, prepare liquid nitrogen, let's bite the bullet."

Lu Qingshi turned his head slightly, the group of people had already run away pushing the gurney.

"Qingshi?" Gu Yanzhi stopped in his tracks.

Lu Qingshi lowered his head, bit his lips, without much hesitation: "Go to the observation room"

"Brother, the surgeon, I'll be your assistant." The two of them changed their clothes and entered the operating room.

Liu Qingyun nodded, put on his gloves, shook hands with each other, and walked to the operating table.

Yu Gui stood opposite her.

The shadowless lamp was turned on, the surgical navigation began to work, and the anesthesiologist completed general anesthesia for intubation.

The LCD screen on the wall shows the patient's name, age, past medical history and latest examination results.

The "disinfected" blue surgical towel was spread out, and everyone was obviously a little nervous, even Hao Renjie, who loves to talk the most, shut up and stopped beeping.

"The surgical plan has been discussed before, and it should be fine if you follow it. The anesthetist always pays attention to vital signs."

It was the first time for this young team to complete the operation independently without the command of the superior doctor. Everyone was somewhat expectant and apprehensive.

Yu Gui made the first cut, making a gash on his thigh.

"Gauze, monopolar electrosurgical unit"

Lu Qingshi pressed the communicator on the table: "Have you left the metastatic lesions in the lungs? Follow the previous operation plan, but you will die."

Several people raised their heads at the same time, and Yu Gui was so frightened that his hands trembled a little: "Lu...Ms. Lu...then what should I do?"

"This is not an emergency scene. Don't ask me such stupid questions. You have trustworthy partners by your side, advanced surgical equipment, and the test results are all hung on the wall. Use your pig's brain to find a solution."

Yu Gui stopped what he was doing, took a deep breath, and looked at Dai Yuchen's full body CT and test results on the wall, an idea popped into his mind.

Liu Qingyun and her wanted to go together, and they both said in unison: "Do chest opening and bone removal at the same time."

Lu Qingshi nodded his head: "Your time is running out, there are five hours and three ten minutes left."

"Scalpel, chest opener" Yu Gui immediately moved.

"Tweezers, hemostatic forceps" Hao Renjie quickly handed over the instruments, and Chen Yi stood up.

"Don't worry, I will try my best to prolong the anesthesia time"

As the minutes passed, beads of sweat oozed from Yu Gui's forehead, but as soon as he thought of her watching from above, he felt a sense of security spontaneously.

It's strange, whether it's on the operating table or the first aid scene, only Lu Qingshi can give her the courage and determination to go forward.

Because she knows that she never fails, and she will not allow others to fail.

"Surgical scissors" Yu Gui picked up the artificial blood vessel and cut another section, but it still didn't fit well, and she couldn't put it down at all. She took a deep breath and looked up.

"Brother, give me a blood vessel in the leg, the artificial blood vessel cannot be put in"

"Okay, nurse, go prepare some distilled water." The bone was about to be taken out, Liu Qingyun held it in both hands and stuffed it into the liquid nitrogen basin, a white mist rose up, and the temperature in the operating room dropped several degrees. .

Sansuke put the removed blood vessel in normal saline and handed it to her, Yu Gui took it and trimmed it and finally found a suitable length to put it in.

The operation time is running out, Liu Qingyun is busy returning the cleaned femur to room temperature, Yu Gui is busy connecting the autologous blood vessels with the pulmonary artery, the equipment nurses are passing equipment, patrolling the stage and counting the gauze, Chen Yi adjusted the anesthesia again Quantity, everything is tense and orderly, and no one looks up again.

"Yu Gui, is your side okay?" Liu Qingyun put the inactivated femoral head back into the patient's body, and fixed it with a steel plate.

"Soon, how about you, brother, how long is the anesthesia time left?" Yu Gui was sweating profusely, his hands kept moving, and his back was wet in the ultra-low temperature operating room.

"less than half an hour"

"it is good"

The two of them speeded up at the same time, and when the timer rang, Yu Gui put the needle holder back into the tray, wiped the sweat from his forehead with his shoulder, and was about to collapse.

Xu Qiankun also broke in at this time: "Where is the person?! Are you done? You are not dead!"

Liu Qingyun got off the operating table, took off his hat and threw it into the trash can, panting against the wall: "No...it's too dangerous, thanks to Director Lu"

Yu Gui looked up: "Where's the person?"

The observation room upstairs, I don't know when it started, it has already been empty.

Gu Yanzhi pushed her slowly out of the hospital gate: "You should feel at ease now."

Lu Qing nodded, and let her carry herself into the car: "Well, they... are all excellent"

Gu Yanzhi closed the car door for her, and sat in the driver's seat by himself: "It's just a pity that I wasted an afternoon of leave time."

"It's okay." Lu Qingshi stretched out his arms to reach her hairy head from the back seat: "We..."

"Ok?"

“There will be many afternoons”

In an instant, the haze that enveloped her dissipated, and the original good weather became even better. The blue sky in Jinzhou in November was like a wash, and the ginkgo leaves slowly fell down, paving the whole street in golden yellow.

Gu Yanzhi stepped on the accelerator: "Let's go, go home!"

Parked the car in the garage, took the wheelchair out of the trunk, but it could only be pushed downstairs, Lu Qingshi looked at the long stairs and hesitated.

"or……"

Gu Yanzhi knelt down in front of her: "Come up"

Seeing that she didn't move, he took two steps back and hugged her down, Lu Qingshi struggled: "Hey..."

"Don't move, I'll fall down in a while." She sent the person up, and fixed her palms on her hips before starting to climb the stairs.

"Is it heavy?" Lu Qingshi hesitated for a while, but chose to hold her neck tightly.

"It's not heavy, you forgot, the first time I saw you, I carried an old man downstairs from upstairs"

"Remember..." At that time, her physical strength was super strong. If it wasn't for her, the patient would not have been saved so quickly.

"But..." Gu Yanzhi paused.

"Huh?" Her muscles are very strong, she is comfortable lying on her stomach, and her steps are steady, Lu Qingshi is not worried at all.

"I think we should buy an elevator room"

It's not me, it's us.

Her heart beat violently for this short personal pronoun, so that she realized it later, and pulled her short hair, pretending to be angry.

"What do you mean, say I'm sinking"

"Don't, don't, I was wrong, Director Lu, please hold your hands high, and spare this little hair, if you pull it again, you will be bald"

After imagining her bald head, Lu Qingshi couldn't help laughing out loud: "Haha, I'm looking forward to it."

While speaking, the sixth floor had already arrived, and when the door was opened, two little pets rushed up.

Gu Yanzhi put the person on the sofa, and the French fries rolled in Lu Qingshi's arms, his voice became soft and thin, his hair grew a little longer, his blue eyes were round, and his tongue kept licking the back of her hand , Hamburg also jumped up to lick her face, and was pulled away by the collar around her neck by the master.

"You can't, you're too heavy, go back to the cage"

I have not been at home for nearly two months, the furniture is as clean as new, there are flowers on the coffee table, there is no dust on the carpet, the cages of a cat and a dog are clean and tidy, and there are fresh cat and dog food and clean food in the food bowl. Clear water.

"Thank you" Lu Qing said sincerely, scratching the French fries' chin.

"Thank you, didn't you disturb my house when I was hospitalized?" Gu Yanzhi poured hot water from the kitchen into her hands.

"Sit down for a while, I'll cook. Let's eat porridge with preserved egg and lean meat at night, okay?"

"It's okay." Lu Qingshi took a sip of warm water and said, "It doesn't need to be too much trouble, just eat something casually."

Gu Yanzhi put on his apron, rolled up his sleeves and washed his hands: "No trouble, you can watch TV first, or if you want to play Lego or puzzles, I'll get them for you."

As soon as she finished speaking, there was a knock on the door, and Lu Qingshi's cup left his lips.

She walked out of the kitchen: "Who would knock on the door at this time, wouldn't it be a courier?"

The words were joking, but when they opened the door, they were the last person they wanted to see.

Lu Qingshi's face darkened: "See off, Gu Yanzhi"

Lu Xucheng came alone, without a nanny, with a few gifts in his hand, including her favorite fruits.

Panting, the old man climbed up to the sixth floor. Seeing that it was her who opened the door, he didn't get angry with anyone, but said calmly: "You go out first, I want to talk to Qingshi alone."

Gu Yanzhi hesitated, and took a look at her. She was afraid that the old man would get angry again. This is not a hospital after all.

"Don't worry, I'll be returning to Beijing tomorrow. I'm here today to see my useless granddaughter for the last time. I won't eat her. Why are you so nervous?"

The old man said unhappily, and stuffed something into her hand: "Okay, get out!"

Lu Qingshi didn't speak, and then she silently let out the door: "Then I'll go downstairs to buy some food, and I'll stay with grandpa for dinner later, Qingshi, call me if you need anything."

Gu Yanzhi closed the door gently, lay on the door and listened to nothing for a while, then turned and left.

"You and I really have nothing to say." Lu Qing rubbed the head of French fries, without looking at him, his tone was light and airy.

Lu Xucheng walked in with a cane, sat down on the sofa farthest from her, and looked around the small room.

The simple and bright decoration style is what she likes, but there are many other things added, such as the game controller under the coffee table, the tank model made of bullet casings on the TV cabinet, and the two pairs of slippers next to each other at the door. And the shepherd dog squatting next to the sofa and staring at it.

Lu Xucheng smiled all of a sudden. He felt that if he really got into a fight with someone, the dog would jump up and tear him up without waiting for that local hooligan to come back.

But he really didn't come here to quarrel.

He and Lu Qingshi had quarreled too much in their whole life, which wiped out the only family affection they had.

"Your favorite apple, grandpa will wash one for you." Trembling, Lu Xucheng opened the plastic bag he was carrying, and took out a big red apple.

For a moment, as if going back in time, the benevolent old man squatted in front of her: "Okay, Qingshi won't cry anymore, your favorite apple, grandpa will wash one for you, okay?"

"Okay!" The little girl replied crisply.

Today's Lu Qingshi just coldly refused: "No need, I can't eat, if you have anything to say, hurry up and leave."

Lu Xucheng was taken aback for a moment, so he had to put it back and fasten the bag tightly.

"Okay, okay, let's eat when you're ready"

He was sitting on the sunny side, his silver hair was glaring under the sunlight, Lu Qingshi forced himself to look away, a little impatient.

"what do you want to say in the end?"

Lu Xu let out a long sigh: "If you want to remarry and find someone to accompany you, I have no objection, but..."

"Are you going to say that Gu Yanzhi is not suitable, she is a woman, does not earn as much as I do, her job is too dangerous, and she is so much younger than me, it is impossible for us to be together for a long time, should we settle things as soon as possible and get back on track? "

Lu Xucheng said nothing, expressing his acquiescence.

Lu Qingshi pulled his lips and smiled: "Come on, I'll tell you everything you want to say, go back."

Lu Xucheng raised his head and looked at her deeply, with a trace of pain on his ravine face: "I know you have always complained about me because of your parents and Lele. I don't blame you, because besides being a father , I am still a doctor and an academician of the Chinese National Academy of Sciences! I have the responsibility to lead my team to develop the SARS vaccine when all the doctors are helpless. Otherwise, do you think you can still sit here today? You have already gone like your parents I met my ancestors!"

Lu Qing was also excited, panting slightly: "Yes, you are great and selfless, so you just watched my dad die of SARS, recorded his disease course in detail, and did experiments on him! Endure it, did I tell you anything?! But Lele..."

She covered her face with her hands, and her voice was a little choked: "Did Lele do something wrong? He's still so young... pestering you all day to call him grandpa...why didn't you save him...why..."

Lu Xucheng's lips trembled, and tears welled up in his cloudy eyes: "Do you think you're the only one who lost his son?! I lost my son too! Daughter-in-law, great-grandson, and now even my granddaughter..."

"No!" Lu Qingshi screamed in shock and interrupted him: "If you had performed that operation back then, Lele would definitely not have died, definitely not, definitely not..."

Lu Xucheng stood up and turned around tremblingly: "Don't you understand? It's your arrogance that hurt him"