Life is like a journey

Lu Qing went into the office with a tired body after the operation: "Where is Yu Gui? When are you going to delay the handing in of the medical records?"

Liu Qingyun stood up and gave her the finished content: "Sister Lu...she..."

"What's up with her?"

After listening to this, Lu Qingshi frowned slightly: "Who is to blame for not being as skilled as others? You are really capable if you can stab yourself."

"It's my fault that I couldn't find the blood vessel. Doctor Yu did the central venous puncture because of the critical situation at that time." The little nurse stood up sobbing, blaming herself.

"Where is she now?"

"Director Xu asked her to go back to rest"

When I received a call from Yu Gui early in the morning, I cried so much that I knew you jumped up from the bed: "Xiao Gui, what's the matter, what's the matter? Don't cry! Speak slowly..."

Yu Gui choked up, she didn't know how to speak, she was HIV positive, and there was a high possibility of infecting her after occupational exposure, so she couldn't continue to be with Fang Zhiyou.

Why is this disease...

Why……

Yu Gui covered his head and sat on the roof, weeping uncontrollably, and the tears fell into the floor drop by drop.

In fact, although Yu Gui is a timid person who often sheds tears, he seldom breaks down and cries hysterically.

Fang Zhiyou's heart ached: "Tell me, what happened? Don't be afraid, I'm here"

Yu Gui looked at the small wound on her hand that was wrapped up, tears streaming down her cheeks, and the wind on the roof picked up, messing her hair.

"I know, let's break up"

Fang Zhiyou squeezed the phone tightly, a dull pain flashed across his heart: "reason"

Yu Gui choked with sobs: "No...no reason..."

After being together for ten years, this is the first time she has proposed to break up. Hearing the sudden rapid breathing over there, Yu Gui's internal organs felt cramped.

"I'll give you a chance to take back what you just said, and I'll pretend nothing happened"

Tears blurred vision, and the outlines of high-rise buildings in the distance became blurred. Yu Gui's hand was holding the cold railing, and her heart was as cold as this iron.

"When we were together, we made a promise, remember?"

"Remember"

It was late autumn ten years ago, the streets full of phoenix trees, the sound of footsteps rustling on them, and the street lamps emitting a soft light, no matter when she recalled later, she would always remember that the stars were very bright that night, the moonlight very good.

Yu Gui blushed and asked her, "Have you really thought about it?"

What greeted her was a cautious kiss, as thin as a cicada's wing, which landed on her forehead, but swept across her heart like a feather, creating sweet ripples.

"Um"

"Hanging the hook for 100 years must not be changed, whoever changes is a puppy." The two fingers were tightly entwined.

Fang Zhiyou hugged him into his arms: "From today on, you are my girlfriend"

At that time, the young minds did not consider how much change this kind of relationship would bring to each other, nor did they consider the future full of variables.

In her arms, Yu Gui caught a glimpse of a sycamore leaf falling from mid-air, and the leaf returned to its roots. At that moment, she felt that she had also found her roots.

"You are not allowed to like others, if you like others, then..."

"So what?"

Yu Gui angrily said, "Let's break up!"

Fang Zhiyou hooked her little finger and smiled: "You too, if one day you really like someone else, tell me."

"I'm sorry, I... fell in love with someone else..."

Fang Zhiyou became excited: "You fart! Yu Gui, tell me what happened?! No matter what it is, we will share it together..."

Yu Gui's voice was light and weeping: "You can't share...you know...we really can't be together...it will delay you..."

Yu Gui lay on the railing with tears in her eyes, her hand trembling slightly as she held the phone. She dared not tell anyone that she was a potential AIDS patient. Her career was ruined. She could not afford the future she had promised, nor I can't be with her anymore, even though the risk of female sex transmission is very small, but she knows that the small risk does not mean there is no risk.

"What, are you going to jump off the building?" Startled by the voice behind him, Yu Gui's whole body trembled, his three souls went to seven souls, his wrist loosened, and his phone fell from a height.

She subconsciously stretched out her hand to grab it, and Lu Qingshi rushed over and grabbed her clothes: "You don't want to die!"

Yu Gui, who came back to his senses, was sweating all over, and sat slumped on the ground. His face was full of tears, but he was infected with AIDS and lost his mobile phone. Is there anything worse than this? !

She thought that Lu Qingshi might have been sent by heaven to restrain her.

The young man in front of him was no longer in high spirits, his eyes were red, his hair was disheveled, his white coat was wrinkled, without a badge, and his sleeves were covered with black and yellow snot and tears.

Lu Qing still stretched out his hand: "Get up"

"Why?" At this moment, she really had the urge to jump off here.

"Follow me to the Infectious Diseases Department" Lu Qing couldn't help but dragged her up, and pulled her sleeves down the roof. She was tall and fast, and Yu Gui followed her step by step, following her through the white corridor and through the crowded outpatient clinic hall.

She looked at the back of her head, her hair was tied up meticulously, her eyes fell from her white coat to her armband which was the same as her own, and suddenly she felt a shocking power from her thin back, so that the sockets of her eyes slightly Sour.

It feels like the big sister is pulling the little sister. The gentleness that Teacher Lu occasionally shows is a very reassuring existence for her.

Until she was pressed on the stool of the hematology department: "Give her a blood test, five liver function tests, and a "Bloodborne Occupational Exposure Registration Form""

She was forced to fill in the form while Lu Qing was looking at her inspection report: "Isn't it occupational exposure, is it life or death?"

Yu Gui sniffed, "I really don't want to die..."

"Then why are you standing on the roof?"

"Here...for girl..." Lu Qingshi raised his head.

Yu Gui was scared, he didn't have the courage to come out in front of her, his voice lowered: "Call your partner"

"There is no problem with liver and kidney function, so let's intensify the medication, AZT and 3TC combined preparation + ritonavir twice a day, take it for 28 consecutive days and then do the primary screening."

After coming out of the infection department, Yu Gui took the medicine and remained silent: "I don't know if the blockage can be successful..."

"Fortunately, you are still a doctor, don't you know that the best blocking time after occupational exposure is two hours?"

"I... didn't think about it that much at the time..."

Lu Qingshi turned around and looked at her: "Do you regret it? Save that patient"

Yu Gui thought for a while, struggled in his eyes, but shook his head firmly: "I don't regret it, he will die if I don't save him."

"AIDS can kill you too," Lu Qing said flatly.

"That's different." Yu Gui squeezed the medicine box in his hand: "At least I won't let the patient die in front of my eyes."

Lu Qingshi was noncommittal, and threw the document in his hand to her: "Report to the medical office by yourself, and you won't have to go to work for a month."

In the morning Xu Qiankun was ambiguous, meaning that she would not use it in the future, Yu Gui was a little nervous: "Mr. Lu, from now on..."

"I will check your homework in a month, and if you fail, you can pack up and leave."

After Lu Qing finished speaking calmly, leaving her standing alone, she sniffed with sadness and joy.

"Thank you, Teacher Lu"

Waking up early the next morning, Qin Xuan made the bed and folded the quilt as usual, picked up his clothes and tidied them up, her phone vibrated, and she took it out to see that it was a text message from the word "Hui", asking when he would be back.

Bao Fengnian came out after washing his face, and snatched the phone from her hand: "Okay, I'm leaving, call me if you have anything to do."

Qin Xuan raised his eyebrows: "Will you have a lover?"

"Look at what you said, isn't my lover you?" He wanted to lean over to kiss her face, but was pushed away, and instead patted her buttocks, picked up the briefcase, opened the door, and looked around. No one got into the elevator.

Qin Xuan looked at the empty room and suddenly felt a little dull.

"The patient, female, 17 years old, was admitted to the emergency department due to a knee injury, and was later diagnosed with advanced bone cancer. Please speak freely"

The results of Dai Yuchen's CT tomography were enlarged on the screen, and the professor of orthopedics pushed his glasses and said, "Because of the young age of the patient, we don't advocate amputation. After consulting with colleagues from the oncology department, we proposed several chemotherapy options..."

Lu Qingshi sat down and listened quietly, turning the pen around on his fingertips.

There is a small table on the hospital bed, the girl is sitting on the bed doing homework, the football is quietly placed on her bedside, the mother walks in and hands her the warmed milk: "Take a break baby"

Dai Yuchen bit the straw and looked at the blue sky outside the window: "Why doesn't Dad come to see me?"

Mother Dai sorted out the changed clothes for her so that she could take them home for cleaning: "Your father is busy with work, and he will come to see you after two days of work."

"Mom, what's wrong with me?"

Facing her naive inquiry, Mama Dai felt a lump in her throat, and turned her back to her with red eyes: "The doctor said...the knee injury is very serious...you can stay for two more days..."

"But I really want to go out and play football..." Dai Yuchen threw the empty milk carton into the trash can: "And the test is about to take place, I want to go back to school for classes"

"You don't usually pay much attention to your studies, now you are rested and you are clamoring to go back to school..."

When it comes to study, the nagging mother is still the nagging mother.

Dai Yuchen curled his lips and said nothing.

"I still owe [-] yuan, pay it as soon as possible." Everyone says that gold is expensive, but they don't know that there are more medicines that are more expensive than gold. Go to the end of the corridor and make a phone call.

"Do you still have money? Transfer another 2 yuan to me. The doctor just prescribed medicine today..."

The man was smoking a cigarette, and an impatient voice came: "Didn't you just transfer you [-] yuan? Why do you need money again? Besides, isn't the medical insurance covered?!"

"You have to pay for medical insurance reimbursement before you can claim it! Besides, Yuchen's chemotherapy drugs are not reported at all. Yuchen is my daughter who co-authors, isn't it..."

"Okay, I see. I'll go see her tomorrow and take the money with me," the man said impatiently, and hung up the phone with a snap.

"Are you there?" As soon as the message was sent, the other party replied quickly: "What's the matter?"

Fang Zhi hesitated for a moment and sent out the typed words: "Can I advance this month's salary in advance?"

"Okay, gold coins or RMB?"

Fang Zhiyou breathed a sigh of relief: "RMB"

She sent the account, and the news of the remittance came quickly. Fang Zhiyou was sincerely grateful: "Thank you, Ruoshui"

"You're welcome, let's go to Jinzhou again." The other party teased her with a big smile.

"Well...something happened to my girlfriend, I'm worried about her"

We have been together for a long time, although I don't know what kind of person is behind the network, but I still have an instinctive trust in her, just like when she said advance salary, the other party transferred without saying a word. She will remember this friendship forever.

"Then hurry up, tell me if you need it, and borrow it from you first"

Fang Zhiyou packed a few clothes and stuffed them into the bag, and took out all the money in the piggy bank, which was about a few hundred yuan. She put half of it in the living room and left it for her mother. After she was done walking around a lot in her absence, she boarded a bus bound for the train station.

Because the optimal blocking time had passed, Lu Qingshi prescribed a very large dose of medicine, and the side effects were relatively obvious.

On the first day of taking the medicine, she started to lose a lot of hair. She had seen how chemotherapy patients lost all their hair from black and thick hair. An invisible fear gripped her heart tightly.

The next thing was fatigue and nausea. She read a book for a while and fell asleep in a daze. When she woke up lying on the toilet and retching, there was a knock on the door.

Yu Gui stumbled and crawled over to open the door, and was embraced by someone: "Xiaogui..."

Huge surprise and fear crept into his heart, Yu Gui pushed her away: "Go! Stay away from me! Don't come over!"

She shrank back as she spoke, knocking down the chair in the room, and the water on the table spilled all over the floor.

Fang Zhiyou held the fruit in his hand, closed the door, and walked towards her step by step: "I've been to the hospital, I've seen your mentor, I...know it"

I don't know if it's because of the medicine, or what, but she has never been so hysterical before, Yu Gui picked up a pillow and threw it at her: "Get out! I told you we broke up! What are you doing here?!!! "

"I don't agree!!!" Fang Zhiyou answered her loudly, looking at each other with tears streaming down their faces.

"Why do you have to be happy with each other when you are in a relationship, and only one person agrees to break up? Yu Gui, you are so unfair to me"

Yu Gui shuddered and buried his head in his knees: "Don't come here...you go...I...I'm sick...I'll infect you..."

Fang Zhiyou looked around at her dormitory that was less than ten square meters like a utility room, full of books everywhere, a table made of suitcases, surgical knots on the iron bed, and the smell of instant noodles mixed with sundries. How did Xiaogui spend half a year here.

When she thought of this, her heart was so painful that she was about to suffocate, and when she hugged her into her arms, she could clearly feel the bones on her body.

Fang Zhiyou rubbed her head, tears fell on the top of her hair: "I'm not afraid, then you can infect me."

At first, Yu Gui was able to push her away and reject her, but then he gradually lost his strength, clutching her skirt tightly and crying loudly.

Fang Zhiyou wiped her tears for her: "It's okay, it's okay, don't cry, no matter what, I will be with you"

At dusk and dusk, the afterglow of the setting sun shone on them through the only window, and Yu Gui fell asleep in her arms, with his fingers still hooking the corners of her clothes.

She just moved her arm slightly, and someone woke up suddenly, and opened her tearful eyes.

"Zhiyou...don't go!"

Fang Zhiyou leaned over and pressed a kiss to her forehead: "Don't go, I'll stay with you"