Life is like a journey

On the night when the patient's family members finally agreed to donate their organs, Lu Qingshi stayed alone in the duty room for a long time, lying on his back on the iron frame bed, letting his thoughts wander aimlessly, and when he recovered, his face turned cold. It turned out that she had burst into tears before she knew it, and she laughed while crying, staying alone in the dark room, enjoying a moment of comfort without letting go of her emotions.

There was a knock on the door, Lu Qing turned over, wiped the corners of his eyes with the back of his hand and opened the door, just opened the door a crack, a can of coffee she often drank came into view.

Qin Xuan raised his hands above his head, holding a can of coffee, looking very funny: "I'm sorry, Director Lu, I shouldn't quarrel with you, you have a lot of adults, please forgive me this time."

The corner of Lu Qingshi's mouth twitched, and he raised his hand to close the door. Seeing that the situation was not good, Qin Xuan quickly inserted an arm: "Hey, hey, it hurts, his arm is about to break..."

Lu Qingshi let go, and stood with his arms folded expressionlessly watching her performance.

Qin Xuan knew that when he questioned Lu Qing in front of so many people, he planted the root cause of her being questioned by her family members, but she didn't make any excuses, and in order to save Miaomiao, she knelt down in front of so many people in the afternoon to apologize, This flexible integrity made her dumbfounded, but what moved her even more was her benevolence as a doctor.

Perhaps in this huge Renji University of Medical Sciences, only Lu Qingshi can truly realize the saying "It is not the disease that is treated, but the patient".

So she also stood up straight, bent slightly and bowed: "I'm sorry Qingshi, I shouldn't question you in public, and it also delayed your rescue time..."

Lu Qingshi interrupted her: "Do you really want to apologize?"

Qin Xuan nodded like a chicken pecking at rice.

A half-smile smile appeared on the corner of Lu Qingshi's lips, and Qin Xuan's scalp went numb for a while. Doesn't this boss want her to kneel down too? !

There is gold under the daughter's knees, and she kneels to the sky and kneels to her parents...

She gritted her teeth, Lu Qingshi, count yourself as cruel!

Knees bent slightly, Lu Qing took the coffee in her hand: "Do you want me to forgive you for a bottle of coffee?"

Qin Xuan almost stumbled and fell to the ground: "You..."

She gritted her teeth with hatred, and said that the "senior" who was more powerful than her and had better medical skills than her had no choice but to get up angrily and ran out, sweeping away the entire floor The vending machine upstairs, and then ran back panting and threw a large bag of coffee in front of her.

"Please invite Director Lu to drink coffee for one year!"

Lu Qing nodded in satisfaction: "Put things down, people, you can go."

Qin Xuan wanted to scratch her calm face twice to relieve his anger, and he muttered to himself when he went out: "If you drink too much coffee, you will be bald sooner or later!!!"

Hao Renjie pinched the duck's throat with his orchid fingers: "Hey, who is Dr. Qin cursing for baldness?"

Qin Xuan rushed over and covered his mouth: "You will die if you keep your voice down!!!"

After trying to walk a few steps, Gu Yanzhi threw away the crutches, refused the nurse's support, and moved forward step by step. The room in the rehabilitation room was not too big, just over 100 square meters, and she started walking only halfway. Her forehead was sweating, and her legs were weakening. She gritted her teeth and barely took a step forward. Her knees could not support the weight of her body, and she fell to the ground with a heavy muffled sound.

"Captain Gu!" The nurse exclaimed and ran over.

"Don't help me!" Gu Yanzhi clenched his hands into fists on the ground, blue blood vessels burst out on his neck, he gritted his teeth and stood up slowly, then walked forward, then fell down, and the cycle repeated.

When she fell down for the seventh time, the nurse couldn't help the tears in her eyes: "Captain Gu..."

She wanted to raise her foot to help her, but was stopped by someone: "Doctor Lu"

The other party nodded slightly, and stood there without moving, observing her recovery process. When she fell to the ground for the tenth time, Gu Yanzhi lay there for a long time with her head buried in the ground, neither moving nor speaking.

Lu Qingshi walked over and extended his hand to her: "Are you afraid?"

The person in front of him trembled slightly: "I... am I useless..."

"No..." Lu Qingshi helped her up, looked into her eyes, there was a hint of bewilderment in her brown pupils, and deep fear of the future.

Lu Qingshi held her shoulder and said word by word: "I am your attending doctor, if I say no, I won't."

I don't know if anyone has said that her eyes are very beautiful, like a tranquil blue lake, and also like a sea of ​​stars. Her own shadow is reflected in her dark pupils. From being at a loss to her eyes gradually becoming more determined, Gu Yanzhi gently bent her eyes. lower lip corners.

This was what Qin Xuan saw when he came in. One was sitting on the ground in a blue and white striped hospital gown, the other was half squatting in front of her, putting his hand on her shoulder, and Gu Yanzhi also put his hand on her She looked at each other with a smile, that kind of warm and soft aura that no one could easily blend into, but it was instantly broken when she spoke, she almost thought it was her own hallucination.

"Yanzhi, how is today?"

Gu Yanzhi came back to his senses and smiled at her: "It's still the same."

Lu Qingshi helped him up: "Let's stop here for leg muscle strength training, go try the gripper."

"One, two, three" Under their expectation, Gu Yanzhi held the force grip with one hand, exerted force for three seconds and then released it. The value showed five kilograms.

Lu Qingshi took a note and wrote it: "Come on, change hands"

This value was far worse than her previous one. Gu Yanzhi was a little bit disappointed, and he followed her advice and switched to the left hand, this time it was four kilograms.

"I..." She looked at her trembling hands, feeling lost, Qin Xuan patted her on the shoulder fiercely to cheer her up: "Hey, don't be discouraged, the best doctor in Renji Medical University will do your rehabilitation in person, She hasn't given up yet, so you have to work hard!"

Taking a look at Qin Xuan, who was full of fighting spirit, and at the doctor with the same gentle but firm face holding the medical record folder, Gu Yanzhi nodded and smiled slightly.

"thank you all"

"Yes, sign here, sign your name, and write about mother and daughter..." The organ donation coordinator instructed the patient's family to sign.

The patient's family has just written a daughter's name: Zhou Yuetong.

She stopped the pen suddenly, and couldn't write any more in the column of her signature. Mother Zhou's wrist was shaking like chaff, and tears fell down and wet the black and white words.

Father Zhou patted her on the shoulder and comforted her: "Sign it, wife..."

Zhou's mother couldn't restrain herself from crying. Once she wrote a pen, it meant giving up any existing treatment and life support system. Although she knew that her daughter would never come back, this decision was still too much for Zhou's mother who lost her beloved daughter. Cruel.

When the medical office told Lu Qingshi that the patient's family had made the final decision, the silent doctor turned around and closed the door gently without saying anything.

She didn't know how to face the disappointed He Miaomiao's family. She understood how terrible it was to feel that hope was in front of her eyes but finally fell into the abyss. She walked alone for so long, but she couldn't climb out of the abyss.

She has been practicing medicine for so many years, she has never been afraid of failure, what she is afraid of is the feeling of powerlessness like now.

Standing under the setting sun, the young doctor buried his head in his arms, messed up his long black and beautiful hair, and bit his lip to keep himself from crying.

There was a crisp sound of a lighter behind her, and Gu Yanzhi walked to her side with a cane: "One?"

She looked at the other party's clear and bright eyes, which reflected her distressed appearance, and there was something she couldn't understand deep in those eyes.

"If you don't smoke, I will smoke myself"

Lu Qingshi gritted his teeth: "You are still sick."

After all, she snatched it with her hands, and she was choked to tears when she smoked for the first time, and the things that had accumulated in her eye sockets gushed out all of a sudden, like a valve was opened, and more things came out.

Gu Yanzhi didn't speak, and stood quietly with her.

The setting sun sank into the horizon, and the high-rise buildings in the city fell into half bright and half light and shadow. The moon rose, and the smoke held in the doctor's hand was flickering and flickering, and finally went out in the darkness.

"Pa-ta--" She pressed the lighter again, but this time she didn't take out a cigarette, and the fire light danced in her pupils.

"The world won't be dark forever," she said.

"If for a moment, you feel dark"

"Then, it must be that you haven't found your own fireworks yet."

She turned her head slightly to look at her, and stretched out her hand to protect the flames: "Actually, to patients, Dr. Lu is just this little firefly, using his own light and heat to fight against vast and boundless diseases."

Lu Qing thought, thank her for a cigarette, which gave her a reason to cry.

The night in early summer was quiet and peaceful, moths flitted to the flames, and lived towards death. When Gu Yanzhi looked at a mosquito that was burned by the flames and landed in his palm, he thought, maybe he was the same.

"Let's go and go home, it's time for lunch." Hao Renjie enthusiastically embraced her shoulders, but was pushed away.

Yu Gui carried a bag full of eggs and plunged into the simulated operating room without looking back: "No"

There is a thick stack of textbooks and densely written notebooks in hand.

Hao Renjie poked his head in: "Hey, no matter how hard you try, you won't be able to catch up with your teacher Lu."

The other party turned on the surgical machine, put on the gloves and put on the mask: "I'm not here to catch up with Mr. Lu, I'm here for the patients"

In order to have fewer powerless patients like He Miaomiao, and for less powerless patients like Zhou Yuetong.

If she can be better, maybe she can sew He Miaomiao's wound better, maybe Zhou Yuetong's rescue can also help her, maybe she can stand on Wang Youshi's operating table, maybe the one who got out of the ambulance for the first time Pregnant women will not die.

She has always regarded Lu Qingshi as her goal. In fact, it is the patients who should be the most pursued. For the sake of the patients, she has to hone her skills so that they can come in handy at critical moments.

This is the truth that Lu Qingshi didn't teach her, but he hoped she could understand.

Hao Renjie looked at her profile, the rookie from the beginning has become a little tougher, this is really good news, at least he won't have to worry about following her when he goes to the emergency scene next time.

Amen, thank you Miss Lu.

Even if he no longer wants to face the facts, He Miaomiao's attending doctor has the obligation to tell the family the truth. Lu Qingshi stood up and bowed to apologize: "I'm sorry, the patient's family decided not to donate organs temporarily, and we also..."

"I'm very sorry," she repeated, lowering her head again.

Mother He covered her mouth with tears streaming down her face, and said nothing. Father He's eyes were slightly red, and he forced her to stand up and asked her to sit down: "Doctor Lu, don't do this, we understand, understand, and do everything you can do." Yes, we all know..."

He couldn't help wiping the corners of his eyes with the back of his hand as he spoke: "Whoever's children are darlings, we really don't blame you, we can understand that family, this is Miaomiao's fate!"

Mother He broke down in tears, took out a piece of paper from the bag she was carrying, put it on the table and handed it over: "Miaomiao is a gift from God... Even if the time is short, my father and I cherish this fate very much." ...Now the time has come...God is going to take her back...There is nothing we can do...It's just that before leaving, Miaomiao has a gift that she wants to give to other children who are suffering from illness..."

On the desktop was a black and white "Consent Form for Organ Donation", with the names of He's father and mother signed in the lower right corner. Miaomiao was unable to sign because of her serious illness, so He's father took her hand and pressed her fingerprints.

Lu Qingshi clenched his fists, his throat rolled up and down, and the corners of his eyes slowly turned red.

"Before Miaomiao told us that if one day she was gone, she wanted to donate her corneas to other children. Her mother and I always disagreed because it was unlucky, but now... I don't know when Miaomiao will be. Miao is gone...we still want to fulfill her last wish...it should be for me and her mother...to leave a thought in this world..."

With trembling hands, Lu Qingshi took the informed consent form, choked with sobs and bowed: "Thank you...and thank you Miaomiao...for your great contribution to the cause of organ donation in our country..."