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Although it is daytime, the Internet cafe is still dark, and the light needs to be turned on to see the light.From time to time, the young people burst out with foul language, and the keyboards were crackling, as if they were fighting.Jin An plugged in the earphones, and everything became quiet again. After opening the familiar game interface, Jin An's restless and anxious mood finally calmed down.

When the friends in the game saw Jin An online, they greeted her one after another. Jin An replied one by one with a smile on his lips.The game guild she is in is not big, and they are all friends who have known each other for many years and played all the way through countless games.They are familiar with each other, and they can talk about anything through the Internet, and they seem to be a little more sincere than friends in the real world.

Jin An glanced at the list of friends and found that some activists were not there, so she made a close friend: "How many of them are there?"

"Tongtong said that the family has arranged a job. I also said that I can't play like this anymore." The friend replied, and said with some emotion, "We have also graduated, and we will make money soon."

After a while, my friend seemed to think of something: "Didn't you say you found a job?"

Jin An was silent, she grabbed the earphones at once, closed her eyes and leaned back, throwing herself heavily on the back of the chair.All along, she has clearly known what games mean to her.It's a sanctuary, a place where you don't have to think about the real world.It is a safe house that allows her to persist in real life and brings people peace of mind.

But those who play games are people in the real world after all. They also have to live and study, and they also have to work to make money.After all, I will stay away from the online world little by little, and become the adult who I used to laugh at and find boring when I was a teenager.

Jin An covered his face.

Jin An knew all these things.But knowing and accepting are two different things.

Jin An played in the Internet cafe for three days.She played from morning to night, and when she got home, she pretended nothing happened.Xiang Yang didn't notice anything, and when he saw Jin An looking towards him, he would foolishly smile at Jin An.

What a fool.

Jin An disliked it very much. Apart from disliking her, she forbade Xiangyang from eating instant noodles, and tried to do something occasionally.Xiang Yang was very disturbed, and she circled around Jin An: "Sister Jin An, you are working too hard, it is better not to cook. I... I will never eat instant noodles again in the future."

What a fool... Jin An held the pot expressionlessly, why should he be tired?Playing games in the Internet cafe all the time, laughing and laughing is many times more relaxed than Xiang Yang, a guy who goes to school.She gathered her chopsticks, and lightly tapped Xiangyang's forehead: "Go back and sit down."

Xiang Yang looked at Jin An reluctantly, thought for a while, then shook his head, turned to the other side, picked up the bowl and chopsticks, and gave Jin An a flattering smile: "Sister Jin An, I'll help you."

Jin An sighed and said nothing more.The child has a lively personality, holding the bowls and chopsticks and walking fast in front.Jin An is watching Xiang Yang's back from behind, does she want to continue?Raise this child, to face those things that make her not good at and want to escape.

Jin An couldn't figure it out, she thought she would know the answer to this question within a week.In fact, however, she plunged headlong into the virtual world, like an ostrich with her head buried in the sand.Jin An poked the rice grains in the bowl, she was wondering whether to see a doctor again.But Jin An is always wary and defensive towards doctors or strangers.

"Is sister Jin'an very tired recently?"

Jin An raised her head, and met Shang Xiangyang's cautious eyes, she was a little dazed.Jin An has always known that Xiang Yang is a lovely and sensitive child.It's just that at this time, such sensitivity made Jin An feel uncomfortable, as if his despicable thoughts had been seen through.

I made a vow back then, but now I regret it...

Jin An lowered his eyes, she didn't look at Xiangyang, her palms began to sweat, Jin An nervously pressed his hands on his pants, and wiped them unconsciously.She hadn't had such symptoms for a long, long time, when facing Xiang Yang.And at this moment, the child seemed to be standing in the position of a stranger again, and it took a lot of courage for Jin An to even face her.

"Eat." Jin An said, she let out a disappointment when she saw Xiang Yang, and obediently picked up the rice.Jin An felt his heart beating fast, a panic-like fast.How would the child see himself if he knew what he thought?Will she still call her sister sweetly?

Of course not.

Jin An thought, she clenched her chopsticks tightly, buried her head down, and planed the rice bit by bit.When there is no food, the rice will become very sweet. Chew a few more bites, and the sweetness will spread and fill the whole mouth.Not a great experience, especially when you don't have money for groceries...

Jin An frowned, the memory of the past made her put down the bowl and chopsticks, and then barely suppressed her desire to vomit.She sat there, looking at Xiangyang.The TV is on in the living room, and the programs that children like are playing.Xiang Yang didn't watch TV, and she didn't even glance over there.She took small mouthfuls of food, and as she chewed, her little head moved little by little, but those small eyebrows were still twisted together, she didn't know what was bothering her.

"Sister Jin'an, if you have something to do, do it. I will take care of the food."

After a while, Xiang Yang raised his head and looked at Jin An.Jin An subconsciously avoided Xiang Yang's eyes.She hummed twice, then straightened up, and left as if fleeing.Jin An walked in a hurry, and Xiang Yang watched Jin An's back quietly from behind. After a while, the little girl sighed like a little adult, and turned her head.

Jin An picked up a pen and wrote a few words, but still threw them aside in a slumped manner.She flipped through the phone unconsciously, but she didn't know what she wanted to do. She just paused after seeing Cheng Lixue's name, but she still didn't call it.

At night, the little girl washed up and stood next to Jin An with her pillow in her arms.Jin An was stunned, they had been sleeping together for many days, every day the little girl would voluntarily climb into her bed, Jin An had already formed the habit.Although it was different today, Jin An also resisted a little, but he saw the little girl looking at him with big watery eyes, so pitiful and helpless.

Jin An was silent for a while, patted the bed.

The little girl immediately pulled out a big smile and climbed onto the bed. She lay on the bed, looked at Jin An for a while, and then suddenly hugged Jin An again.

"Sister Jin'an, I really like you."

The little girl's arms were warm and warm.Jin An's eyes suddenly turned sore, she wrapped her arms around the little girl's body, and the palms on Xiang Yang's back trembled slightly.

"Go to sleep."

Go to sleep, tomorrow is another day.

Jin An fell asleep, she hadn't slept so deeply for a long time.When she was not at work, she played games and codewords all night and all night, and entrusted all her feelings, whether it was the thoughts hidden in her heart, or the family and friendship she longed for, to the illusory network, and the same illusory on the text.After going to work, time is like a strict class teacher, which keeps her exhausted all the time.

When Jin An opened his eyes, Xiang Yang had already gone to school. Jin An came to the living room and saw a cold breakfast in the living room, with a note written by Xiang Yang beside it, "Sister Jin An, rest well." Jin An Standing in the living room, the sunlight came in through the window at the end of the passage and fell on Jin An's body, making her whole body warm.

It was obviously already June, and the weather was hot and dry, but Jin An felt very comfortable.It's like the winter in my hometown, where the sun hasn't been seen all year round, is suddenly covered with sunshine.

It is the warmth of contentment.

Jin An heated up the food and finished it slowly.She didn't want to go to the Internet cafe for no reason, and she didn't want to breathe the stench in the gloomy room.She moved a stool and sat in the sun, squinting her eyes, lazily, watching the sun flood the room and also flood her body, gradually filling her stomach and body with heat.

Just like when holding that child.

In the afternoon, Jin An checked the time and went to the primary school where Xiang Yang was.Except for handing over to Xiang Yang's class teacher on the first day, Jin An has not been to Xiang Yang's school yet.She was walking on the road with the setting sun, watching the world was painted orange red, everything in her sight showed a gorgeous color.And his own shadow was dragged very long, far, far away.

Xiang Yang has a lively personality, Jin An thinks that she should have many friends, and she should be able to hear her happy smile from far away.But nothing.Jin An stood at the gate of the elementary school, waiting for wave after wave of laughing children holding hands, chasing and beating children who shouted loudly, those children who were tired of their parents and shouted to watch cartoons and eat snacks at night.

But there is no sunshine here.

The more westward the sun was, the more orange-red it looked, and finally the whole sky and the city turned red. Jin'an saw Xiangyang coming out of the teaching building.She is alone, and the setting sun pulls her figure, swaying behind her, like a close friend.

Xiang Yang didn't see Jin An, and Jin An didn't say hello, but just followed behind her silently.Jin An didn't hear the sound of the small trumpet, nor did he hear the cheerful and lively laughter, he didn't even have a happy figure, no friends, nothing.

Xiang Yang walked straight forward, and Jin An followed quietly.She saw Xiang Yang standing at the station, tiptoeing to look at the license plate, then left shaking her head and sighing.Jin An also walked under the license plate, and she looked up at the license plate. This place is too remote, and there is only one car leading to the subway.So where does Xiangyang want to go?Jin An shook his head.She still followed Xiangyang, watching her buy raw vegetables, and then carried them upstairs.

Jin An didn't follow upstairs, she wandered downstairs.At this time, the phone rang suddenly.Jin An answered the phone, it was Cheng Lixue.

"How are you doing?" Cheng Lixue asked.

"Well...it's okay." Jin An said, she didn't know what to say.If it was yesterday, she might take this opportunity to complain to Cheng Lixue.But now...she thought of Xiangyang's silent and lonely back, and that bright and shining smile every time she turned to her.Jin An lowered his head, "I'm... fine. That's it."

Jin An hung up the phone in a hurry without waiting for Cheng Lixue to reply, and she looked up at the place where she lived.She is a cautious character. She has lived in this house for several months and still has no sense of belonging.But at this moment, when she looked up at that place, she suddenly thought naturally, ah, that is her home.

People can wander, but they cannot live without a home.

Jin An stepped up the stairs and opened the door.

The room was filled with the smell of food, followed by a small head from the kitchen, Xiang Yang immediately filled the empty room with a surprised smile: "Sister Jin'an! You are back! Come and eat!"

"What did you do?" Jin An asked.

"Yeah... Actually, I practiced quietly for a long time." Xiang Yang rubbed his hands in embarrassment.

Jin An didn't say anything more, she rubbed Xiang Yang's little head, bent down, and hugged Xiang Yang tightly in her arms.

"I don't want to say I'm sorry."

Jin An said in a low voice.

"Then don't talk about it." The little girl gave a heartless answer.She smelled the scent in Jin An's arms and showed a big smile.

Jin An didn't speak anymore. When she straightened up again, Xiang Yang saw that Jin An's eyes were slightly red, and she opened her mouth, wanting to say something.But Jin An pressed her forehead: "Don't talk, go eat."

"Oh oh oh..." Xiao Xiangyang nodded, turned around and went to the kitchen to get the dishes.

Jin An looked at Xiang Yang's back, pursed his lips, and then smiled softly.

In this world, there is no one who is always happy. She is really... too hypocritical, not as good as such a child.Jin An pressed his heart, it was warm there, maybe it was the heat from the food, or maybe it was Xiangyang's own temperature.

"Xiangyang, you have to be happy." Jin An took the bowl and chopsticks from Xiangyang and looked down at Xiangyang. "I hope you can be happy every day."

Rather than pretending to be strong and pretending to smile.

That may be the courage and motivation to persevere.