I have a good relationship with Jinzhu's Bai Yueguang

Sometimes, admitting the wrong person is not the most embarrassing thing, but admitting the wrong gender is.

The next day I woke up with a hangover, a splitting headache, and humiliation when I recalled last night.

"Were you a girl when you were young?" I asked him dully.

Xu Xiaomo's face darkened when he heard it, and after a while, I heard the sound of him taking a deep breath.

My mind was not clear last night, and now I think about it, I really want to slap myself twice.What is meant by whether he was a girl when he was a child? Could it be that he had undergone a sex change?

Before I could figure out how to face Xu Xiaomo, he pushed open the door of my room first.He walked in lightly, and frowned when he saw me, "Why did you wake up so early?"

When I say biological clock, my eyes don't know where to look.

Look at the face, and I will think of the thing about admitting the wrong gender.Look elsewhere, I somehow remembered the kiss from last night.

Thinking about it, my face burned up.

Xu Xiaomo approached, bent down naturally, and pressed against my forehead.

I shrank back subconsciously, but he grabbed my shoulder with one hand and couldn't move.

"Why?" I stared at him suspiciously.

"Take your temperature, why do you feel that you are a little hot?" He looked calm, completely different from me who was a little flustered.

Seeing that I was silent, he continued to ask: "Do you have a fever again?"

I caught the flash of a smile in his eyes, gritted my teeth and said, "Why don't I take your temperature like this?"

Unexpectedly, he smiled brightly, "Okay."

"..."

Overnight, Xu Xiaomo seemed to be a different person, as if some strange switch had been turned on.A beauty's smile is worth a thousand gold, and I was immediately defeated.

I pushed him and motioned him to get up.

He got up, but didn't go away.

"Don't you have anything to say?" He sat on the edge of the bed, looking as if he was going to have a long talk.

"We've known each other since we were kids, do you remember?"

It's okay if he doesn't mention it, but when I mention it, I feel complicated again.The face is still beautiful, but I don't know why there is an extra handle on the bottom.

I nodded, then sighed.

He frowned and asked in a puzzled tone, "Are you unhappy?"

"Uh, a little bit." I said truthfully.

He looked at me questioningly.

I'm silent, how should I say this, say that I thought you were always a cute little girl in ice and snow?It's not just that I'm unhappy, Xu Xiaomo has to go crazy.

So I changed my tune and said, "Happy."

Having said that, I still have a hard time connecting him and the little girl as one person.Even the memories between us don't seem to be on the same line.For example, the little prince in the other party's mouth.

I only remember that I gave him this book, but I never remembered when I read it, and when I was talking about foxes with girls.

After Xu Xiaomo knew it, he shook his head to indicate that it was okay, and then he said abruptly: "It's okay if you can't remember it, I will remember it soon."

I can't hear it.

I didn't know what the other party meant by "soon" until the afternoon.

I can't remember how many times I asked the question, I just watched the man pack his clothes in surprise.

"Are you serious?" I asked him, "Where did you say you were taking me?"

"Go back to H Town." He said calmly, "Do you have other arrangements for the Chinese New Year?"

I said no.

"Isn't that good? I'll take you out to play." He handed me the bag in his hand, and said solemnly, "Xiao Puyun said that you plan to go back to your hometown to check your household registration during the Chinese New Year. I'll accompany you there."

I:"......"

Never thought that Xiao Puyun is not only a liar, but also a big mouth.

......

......

On the way there, I still couldn't help asking him, "Do you have a younger brother?"

Xu Xiaomo was driving the car, his face obviously darkened, "I am the youngest in my family."

"What about the illegitimate child?" I was still a little worried.

Xu Xiaomo said abruptly: "Ling Jingchuan, I am 27 this year."

I reacted, suddenly embarrassed.I am the same age as Xu Xiaomo, unless we are twins, we cannot be considered brothers.

"You don't believe what Xiao Puyun says in the future." Xu Xiaomo said seriously, "He didn't say a word of truth."

"Then he said you like me?" Seeing the other party's serious face, I couldn't help teasing him.

Xu Xiaomo hesitated for a second, then said: "This is believable."

My heart skipped a beat and I stared at him for a long while speechless.

I fell asleep during the period, and when I woke up again, the car was parked on the side of the road, with a view of the countryside by the window.Xu Xiaomo was not in the car, I opened the door and saw a man standing not far away smoking.

He was lazily smoking a cigarette, squinting at the endless mountains in front of him and the scattered houses below.I walked up to him, and he glanced at me, then took the cigarette down.

I stopped him from pinching the cigarette, and by accident, I held his hand and took a shallow puff of the cigarette.

He didn't speak, just stared at my movements intently, his eyes darkened.

After only taking a small sip, I was choked by the smell and coughed.

He patted my back and sighed helplessly.

"Are you still smoking?" I calmed down and asked.

He nodded, "Occasionally."

"But you can't smoke."

I think his tone is very similar to a parent who takes care of children, so I can't help but smile, "Why are you acting like a parent?"

But Xu Xiaomo said, "You said that to me before."

I was taken aback, "When?"

"When you fell, you were in the hospital and said you wanted to drink Coke. I said no, and then you said I was like your parent."

"I'm sorry..." I subconsciously apologized, "My memory is too bad."

He shook his head, "Let's go, we'll be there after another drive."

The sun is about to go down, and the whole sky will be smudged orange-yellow, like an oil painting.Even though new roads have been built, the staggered intersections are still dazzling.

After Grandma passed away, I haven't been back for many years.After Xu Xiaomo found the house in his hometown, I couldn't help being surprised: "You have a good memory, too?"

He said lightly: "I will come back every year."

I subconsciously asked: "What are you doing back?"

Xu Xiaomo was silent and did not speak for a long time.A conjecture popped up in my mind, but I couldn't articulate it.

I heard the man say, "Come back and find you."

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......

The house in my hometown has not been taken care of for a long time. I don’t know how many layers of dust have accumulated in front of the door, and the couplets are also red and black.In contrast, the iron gate of Xu Xiaomo's house is still new and bright, and the inside of the house is also as brand new as the first time I saw it.After putting down the things, Xu Xiaomo took me out for dinner.

We walked back slowly after the meal, and he stopped suddenly in the middle of the walk.Before I could react, he took my hand and strode in the opposite direction.

I don't know why, so he took me to a barren flat land.

Xu Xiaomo asked me if I had any impression of this.I thought about it for a long time but couldn't come up with a reason, so I could only stare at the land, trying to find some memory point from it.

But no matter how long I stare at it, that piece of soil is still that piece of soil. I neither stared at the flowers, nor did I think of anything because of it.Finally, I had to give up and tell him honestly that I forgot.

Xu Xiaomo raised his eyebrows, "You saved me here."

I was even more puzzled, "Have I ever saved you?"

The "hero saving the beauty" in my impression was only in the alley, and it still ended in failure.

Xu Xiaomo waited patiently for a while, seeing that I really couldn't answer, he had no choice but to say: "It turned out to be a lake. I was so scared that my legs went limp and I fell down. You pulled me up."

When he said that, I suddenly remembered this matter.It was summer vacation, and we soaked our feet by the river.As a result, I not only soaked my feet, but also took a bath by the way.

After knowing what he was talking about, I was even more surprised.

"That's saving you?" I looked at him puzzled, "The water only reached my waist."

"I'm afraid of water," he said.

I paused, and then remembered some fragments.The girl was indeed a little abnormal at the time, but I didn't notice it, and played with water for my own amusement.Then I heard a crash, and the girl plunged headfirst into the water.

"I thought you fell down, and I just pulled you up..." I murmured, "Are you afraid of water then?"

Xu Xiaomo nodded.

I felt distressed and said: "Since you are afraid of you, why go to the lake..."

He said quietly: "You took me there."

I:"......"

Ok.

I cleared my throat and said in embarrassment, "Oh, only children remember such trivial things so clearly."

He replied sadly: "I always remember."

I can't talk today.

I'm curious about his fear of water.Xu Xiaomo once said that he had drowned in water when he was a child, and only after that did he have a shadow.When I met him, we were both only ten years old, which means that the other party had an accident even earlier.

To my surprise, Xu Xiaomo told me that the place where he almost drowned was his own swimming pool.

"Aren't there any servants at home?" I was anxious, and if I remember correctly, Xiao Puyun said that the man's family was good.

He was silent for a while, and then said: "At that time, no one dared to save me. It was the young master who pushed me down."

"The old man left suddenly, and everyone in the family almost tore their faces. I am an illegitimate child born outside, and no one will care about my life or death."

Although it was just an ordinary swimming pool, to a four-year-old child, it was undoubtedly the deep sea.Xu Xiaomo said that in the end, the passing housekeeper found out in time and went down to fish him up.After that, the butler led him away from the Xu family and came to this remote town.

In contrast, brothers who are also cheating, in terms of the degree of handling, my brother is on normal difficulty, and Xu Xiaomo's brother is simply on hell mode.

"Actually, I told you that I'm afraid of water." Xu Xiaomo smiled helplessly, "You still covered my eyes with your hands, and if you don't want to see it, don't watch it."

"Later, I met you abroad. At that time, you were following Gu Shang, and I recognized you at a glance. But I'm not sure."

"Until that day when I was standing on the deck, you came out of nowhere and blocked my eyes with your hands."

He smiled, "Then I realized that after searching for so long, I finally found you."

"I'm sorry..." I can't remember how many times I said these three words today, but I had to.

I never thought that I have so many stories with Xu Xiaomo, just like I never knew that I have such a heavy weight in the other party's heart.

"I'm sorry, I really don't know." I lowered my head, suddenly wanting to cry.As if he saw through me, he leaned forward and hugged me suddenly.

"It's okay," he said in a relaxed tone, "it's not a big deal."

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On the way back, the sky suddenly changed and it started to rain.We were caught off guard by the rain.When I got home, Xu Xiaomo pushed me into the bathroom and motioned me to take a shower first.

He was drenched and as embarrassed as I was.

"Will you wash first?" I was a little anxious.

He refused, and said with a straight face: "What if you have a fever again?"

Hearing this sentence, somewhere in my heart suddenly warmed up.

My brain got hot, and I blurted out: "Then why don't we wash it together?"

As soon as the words fell, Xu Xiaomo and I were taken aback.After a while, I suddenly realized, and hurriedly said, "I didn't mean that!"

"Then what do you mean?" Xu Xiaomo picked up the towel and actually walked in.

The bathroom is not big, so Xu Xiaomo turned on the shower, tested the water temperature, and then began to undress.

I looked at him in surprise, "You really want to wash with me?"

Xu Xiaomo asked instead, "Didn't you say that?"

I:"......"

His shirt was half unbuttoned, and the thin material of the shirt would stick wet to the man's body...

After only one glance, I hurriedly looked away.

I took a deep breath, but became more and more nervous, and my heart kept beating faster.

Xu Xiaomo approached me, and slowly put his hands on the back of my neck.There was a coolness in the palm of the other party, and the wet touch made me shiver.

"I'm going out to get my clothes." I lowered my head helplessly, wanting to run away.

Maybe I was too flustered, for some reason, my left foot tripped over my right foot, and then I fell forward with an unstable center of gravity.Xu Xiaomo quickly reached out to help me, and I subconsciously grabbed his arm.

In the next second, we all fell to the ground.

Xu Xiaomo was pressed under me. After regaining my senses, I hurriedly got up and asked anxiously, "Are you all right?"

He shook his head slightly and sat up too.

I looked at him, and a picture suddenly flashed in my mind, and then I couldn't help laughing out loud.

"What's wrong?" He looked at me inexplicably.

I smiled at him and said, "Do you still remember that time in the swimming pool, I fell and fell on you in the same way?"

"Ah."

"What were you thinking then?" I stared at the mole in the corner of the other person's eyes, a little lost in thought.

He said, "You want to hear it?"

I said yes.

"I was thinking, why is this person so heavy." Xu Xiaomo pinched my nose, "It's the truth."

I:"......"

He smiled, his eyes were tender with a trace of nostalgia.

The sound of water in the bathroom kept coming, and the air was filled with water vapor. In this whiteness, I heard my own voice.

"Okay then," I asked pretending to be casual, "then what are you thinking now?"

Xu Xiaomo raised his eyebrows and didn't answer for a long time.

Under the steam, we looked at each other quietly for a long time. I don’t know who started it first, maybe it was him, or maybe it was me, but it was hard to control it. When we realized it, the distance between us had shrunk to the minimum. .I closed my eyes and sat on him, lowering my head to feel the wet kiss.

He opened my teeth, and his tongue swept across my mouth slowly, and finally got entangled with mine.

After an unknown amount of time, he let go of me, and put one hand on my waist weakly.

I panted slightly, and after seeing the hesitation in the other person's eyes, I reached out without hesitation and wrapped my arms around his neck.

"I was thinking about how to kiss you."