I have a good relationship with Jinzhu's Bai Yueguang

Soothing and elegant piano music was playing in the coffee shop. It was evening, the sky was getting dark outside the window, and the shop was lit with dim yellow lights. The warm yellow tone added a bit of ambiguity to the air.

From time to time there was the rustling of pages in the air.The man with a handsome face was leaning on the sofa reading a book, taking a sip of coffee from time to time, looking serious and comfortable.

I sat across from Xu Xiaomo, not only didn't want to appreciate it, but even felt a little restless.Sitting face to face like this has become a daily routine, but I still feel awkward.

Especially after seeing the other party's mobile phone on the table.

The fox lay so brightly on the table that it was hard to ignore.

Xu Xiaomo noticed my strangeness and looked up at me. I hurriedly looked away and started to stir my coffee.

Xu Xiaomo didn't speak, and suddenly asked, "Do you want to see it?"

I didn't understand, but when I looked up, I saw the exquisitely packaged book in the man's hand.

It's a good excuse...

I nodded, "Yes..."

The next second I caught a glimpse of the letters engraved on the cover, I couldn't help being a little dazed.No, it's actually a French book... But Li Xing mentioned to me that men love books so much that people who love books will not lend books casually.

Sure enough, Xu Xiaomo didn't say anything when he heard the words, but raised his eyebrows.Just when I breathed a sigh of relief, the other party unexpectedly handed over the book.

Didn't you say that you love books like your life?Li Xing, you liar!

I bit the bullet and took it, not forgetting to say thank you.Originally, he planned to take it and turn over a few pages, but Xu Xiaomo changed his indifferent temper and asked, "Are you also interested in this book?"

I laughed dryly, not knowing how to respond.

After opening the book, I didn't see any familiar words or letters as I expected, no... It should be said that I know many of these letters, but their appearance at this moment has become obscure.

I was dazzled by what I saw, but I didn't dare to raise my head to meet that torch-like gaze.So I pretended to be serious and opened one side, then gently closed the book, intending to return it to the man.

The man didn't answer, he looked at me with great interest, "Which chapter do you like best?"

"I... I haven't seen it."

"Then you take it back and read it." He continued.

"No need!" I refused without thinking.

Interest is fake, let alone read it seriously, this book is almost a sleep book, guaranteed to make me fall asleep at a glance.

Xu Xiaomo still didn't answer, but said, "You take it."

"Send it to you."

After that, without waiting for my refusal, he picked up his coat, got up and left.When I realized it, a bell rang at the store door, and the man opened the door and walked out.

I got up subconsciously, and the next second the phone rang in my pocket, stopping my movement.

……

I turned the brightness of my phone to the lowest level, half-lyed on the back seat of the car, and swiped my phone every now and then.Gu Shang was driving ahead, and there was constant traffic on the road, so he had to be extra focused, and it seemed that he couldn't take care of me.

There was a little bit of light on the phone screen, but my eyes were never on it, but on the thin and short lanyard in the lower right corner.

With the light of my phone, I stared at the apparently broken piece of rope, which was originally a felt pig.

After seeing the fox hanging on the man's cell phone that day, at night, I took out the pig from the drawer and tied it to it in a strange way.Later, I realized that I was not sober, and when I was going to untie it, I found that I had tied a dead knot.

So I had to cut the rope in shame and indignation.

Speaking of which, I have been working for more than a month, and I can see Xu Xiaomo almost every day.Gu Shang was still too busy to see anyone during the day, I was still ordered to wait for him to get off work, and Xu Xiaomo still visited the coffee shop every day.The clerk has already known me well, reserved seats for us every evening, and would look at us several times for no apparent reason.

I understand him, two big men sitting and drinking coffee day after day, it looks weird no matter what.

Xu Xiaomo still doesn't talk much, but occasionally responds a few times.The other party is usually either reading a book or looking at a mobile phone.I found that he seemed to be concentrating, but actually... he was very careful?

Just like today, I often glance at him inadvertently, and I will be caught by the other party.It's like being noticed all the time...

After realizing what I was thinking, I rubbed my nose and felt a little heat on my cheeks.

I remembered the book just now, so I grabbed my phone and took pictures aside.The dark blue book was lying quietly on the seat. I picked it up and saw a yellow star next to the title I didn't understand.

I didn't pay attention when I was in the coffee shop today, and only now did I realize what kind of pattern the bumpy place on the cover seemed to be.

Before I could get closer and take a closer look, Gu Shang's stern voice suddenly came from my ear: "Don't look at your phone in the car."

I'm a little surprised, can you see this kind of light?I looked up and only saw the back of the man's head.

Does the boss have eyes behind him?

I stuck out my tongue in the dark and obediently responded.

Then I heard him say again: "Don't read books either."

"...How do you know?" I was shocked, maybe the man really has eyes behind him.

I looked at the back of the man's head in amazement, and Gu Shang in front suddenly burst out laughing, "What are you thinking, I saw it in the rearview mirror."

Oh.

"Get out of the car, I have to stop," he said.

I looked out the window and saw that I had indeed returned to the apartment.Gu Shang has a problem with parking. No matter how wide or large the space is, as long as there is a wall or a car next to him, he can park the car so that you can't get out.Because the distance is too tight, the rear door cannot be opened.

In order to avoid a closed accident, I obediently took my things and got out of the car.Before getting out of the car, I heard a man muttering to himself, "And I know you too well."

I paused when I opened the door, but quickly recovered and got out of the car, pretending I didn't hear it.

After taking a shower at night, when I came out, I saw Gu Shang standing beside my bed, holding Xu Xiaomo's dark blue book in his hand. The man was flipping through the book with a concentrated expression.

I was startled, and after a moment of hesitation, I walked over slowly.

Gu Shang heard the sound and looked up at me, "Did you finish washing?"

"Yeah." I replied, not forgetting to look at his face carefully.

I'm afraid he will recognize the owner of the book.After Xu Xiaomo left, I didn't read it carefully, and I didn't think much about it at that time, so I just took it and got into Gu Shang's car.

Now I realize how risky this thing is.There was a book fan in the class at the university, and he also loved books like treasures. Not only did he not want to borrow them, but he even left his own exclusive mark on the books.

Even if Xu Xiaomo didn't leave his name on the book, according to how infatuated the patron is with Bai Yueguang, he might recognize the mark like a dog crawling.

Thinking of this, I am even more disturbed.

In the next second, Gu Shang dispelled my panic, and he handed me the book with the same expression on his face.I took the book pretending to be calm, and heard him ask again: "Where did you get this book?"

The strength in my hand suddenly loosened, and the book fell out of my hand, and was picked up by the responsive Gu Shang.

"You can't hold the book steadily." The man frowned and asked, "Are you learning French recently?"

When I heard it, I was completely relieved.Just now I thought the other party was probing, but it seems that the benefactor is not aware of it.So I said blindly, "I bought it when I saw the cover looks good."

In fact, although this book is not big, the workmanship is really exquisite. The texture of the book cover seems to be embossed, and the darker color makes the whole book look unique and delicate.

I think this frigid style suits Xu Xiaomo quite well.

Gu Shang showed such an expression, "I'm just surprised that you want to learn French."

Then he smiled again, "It doesn't matter if you want to learn, I can teach you."

"You will?" I blinked. If I remember correctly, Gu Shang has no experience of studying abroad, and he didn't major in language at university.

"I learned it in college before, and I planned to go to Fa..." Gu Shang stopped talking, he didn't know what he remembered, and the smile on his face faded away.

I vaguely guessed the reason why Gu Shang learned French. The emotion in the boss's eyes was very familiar. I have seen it more than once during the time abroad.

It was because of Xu Xiaomo.

Gu Shang should like him very much, or love him.Being able to do my best for one person and keep my original intentions for so many years may not be possible for me.

To be honest, I have no concept of the word love, because I have never really experienced it.I'm not obsessed with it either.There are many times when I grow up so big and have a crush on him. I really like someone and fell on Gu Shang that time.

But because the other party is an infatuated species, I was extremely rational and cut off the seedling when it sprouted.

In hindsight, that would have been the right decision.

But it is true that I envy Xu Xiaomo. I have never complained, but I am very envious.Especially after seeing the deity, this emotion became stronger, but it was no longer envious that Gu Shang liked him, but subconsciously wanted to get closer to him.

I can't tell what's wrong with me, and I don't know what I'm thinking sometimes, let alone what Xu Xiaomo is thinking.Since we met so far, I think that with Xu Xiaomo's eyesight, it is impossible not to see Gu Shang's thoughts, especially after seeing me.

That's right, even I can see it, there is no reason why Xu Xiaomo can't see it.

But the other party not only didn't walk away with contempt, nor asked aloud, but inexplicably got close to me, a fake.

Perhaps, the other party regards me as a friend.what about me?

My mind is like a mess of wool, the more I manage it, the more chaotic it becomes.I sighed in my heart and simply stopped thinking about it.

Gu Shang was still holding the book in his hand, but it was as if the pause button had been pressed.I took the book from his hand, and saw that the man was in a bad mood, so I deliberately changed the subject: "What's the name of this book?"

"You should have seen it." Gu Shang casually said, "Little Prince."

"little Prince?"

"Yes, this should be the original version." Gu Shang said.

I picked up the book and found that there was a planet in the embossed pattern on it, and a little boy wearing a crown on it.

Of course I have read this book.

In addition to the little prince, there is also a fox inside.

In the afternoon of the second day, I didn't see Xu Xiaomo, but I saw Li Xing.When I opened the door and entered, Li Xing was buying coffee. He looked at the types of coffee engraved on the wooden sign on the wall, and his face was full of confusion.

I went over to say hello to him, and when he saw me, he was overjoyed and said, "You're just in time, pick me a drink."

I asked strangely: "Is the macchiato not sweet enough?"

Li Xing said, "It's not my boss who wants to drink, it's me who wants to drink!"

I realized I was thinking too much.

Li Xing thought more than I did, he added: "Boss can't make it through today."

I opened my mouth to say that I didn't care, but I felt a little self-conscious, so I hummed.

As soon as we sat down, Li Xing began to complain to me about work, "Finally I can get off work normally. I haven't tried to leave my chair before ten o'clock these days."

Li Xing said that a piece of land was drawn out on the west side of the city, the area was not big, but because it was in the development zone, it was a bright piece of fat.There are many people who want it, so they are very busy.

I suddenly thought of Gu Shang who was so busy these days.

"So are you done?" I asked.

"Not yet." He thought for a while and said, "There is still some handover work, but the follow-up work will be handed over to the next level."

Li Xing added: "But it's almost time for the auction, and the boss has to go out to socialize these few nights, so he can't come here."

I couldn't help but say, "It doesn't matter to me whether he comes or not."

After finishing speaking, he bit his tongue angrily, and quickly changed his words: "I don't know your boss that well, so you don't need to deliberately tell me."

However, Li Xing showed a puzzled expression, and said, "But the boss asked me to tell you."

……

What?

I didn't answer the conversation for a while, and then I heard Li Xing say: "I thought you and the boss were friends?"

"Yes..." I replied casually.

So Xu Xiaomo regards me as a friend?

really?

I drank my coffee sullenly, and secretly made a decision.

Li Xing knew that I was waiting for someone every day, but he didn't know who that person was.Xu Xiaomo knew who it was, but pretended not to.

Seeing me hang up the phone, he asked, "Is your girlfriend off work?"

I almost choked on my coffee, "No!"

Li Xing paused for a moment, then showed a suddenly realized expression, and said, "I understand."

I:"……"

No, you will understand what I said.

An ominous premonition emerged in my mind, and as expected, Li Xing said with a serious face:

"It's okay, I have such friends by my side, I won't..."

"You think too much!" I hurriedly interrupted him.

Instead, he patted me on the shoulder solemnly, as if I understood everything.

I:"……"

It's useless to talk too much, I twitched my forehead, then handed the blue book in my bag to Li Xing,

"I borrowed your boss's book before, please return it to him for me."

Li Xing had a hellish expression, "Old... the boss's book?"

I said, "Yes, give it to me."

"Why don't you pay it yourself..." Li Xing was a little reluctant.

I said I don't have his contact information.

Yes, until today, neither of us even know the contact information.The other party didn't mention it, and I didn't ask.I only know that his name is Xu Xiaomo, he is a man with a cold personality, and he is my boss's favorite.

Apart from Gu Shang's relationship, he and I are passers-by who just met by chance.

Yet I am his imposter.

Without Gu Shang, I wouldn't know him either.

"You two really don't know each other well." Li Xing said as if he had just come to his senses.

"Really." I smiled at him, "We've only met a few times before."

Li Xing came by car, so he walked with me to the parking lot. I packed a box of salad along the way, and he waited at the door.

"I'm fine, let's go." I said to him.

Li Xing didn't answer, didn't move, but looked me up and down.

I looked at him puzzled, "What's wrong?"

Li Xing's gaze finally fell on my face, and he stroked his chin thoughtfully, "Well... I said what's going on, I always misunderstood that you are very close to my boss."

I was even more confused, "What?"

Li Xing said, "Jing Chuan, after a closer look, I found that you look quite similar to my boss."

I paused, then asked, "Is it similar?"

Li Xing babbled: "Yeah, especially the eyes, both of you have faint eyebrows, and there is a... Jingchuan under your right eye? What's wrong with you?"

I lowered my head and rubbed my eyes vigorously, then shook my head and said, "It's okay, I just got sand in my eyes."

Before I left, I reminded him again and again, "Remember to return the book for me tomorrow."

"The boss hasn't come back yet tomorrow." Li Xing said behind him.

Seeing my reluctance, he had no choice but to respond repeatedly: "I'll give it to him as soon as he comes back, really."

Seeing the other party's repeated promises, I was completely relieved.

I've been very abnormal these days, and I feel that I can't go on like this anymore.

I decided to draw a clear line with Xu Xiaomo, instead of continuing to be so unclear.

And it was under the condition of hiding Gu Shang's knowledge.

……

……

In the next few days, I didn't meet Xu Xiaomo, maybe it was because I didn't go to that coffee shop again.

In fact, not only Xu Xiaomo, I have never even met Gu Shang.

Gu Shang told me to take care of myself these few days, after that he disappeared from my sight.He started to leave early and return late, often either he had already left when I woke up, or he hadn't come back before I went to bed.

If it wasn't for the dirty clothes thrown all over the floor by the other party, I would have wondered if this person had disappeared.

I picked up the man's clothes scattered on the ground one by one, and there was a clear smell of alcohol on them.

This is how much to drink...

Even if you drink too much, you have to get up so early the next day.I thought of the land auction that Li Xing had mentioned before, and I couldn't help but feel a chill in my heart. Could it be that Gu Shang is really busy with this matter?

It's normal to be busy, after all, it is indeed a treasure land, and everyone wants to give it a go.

Thinking of this, I reluctantly turned on my phone and sent Gu Shang a message to pay attention to diet and rest.

Everything seems to be back on track, the only difference is that I have an extra job outside the home.

Just when I thought I would have nothing to do with Xu Xiaomo, the man appeared again without warning as before.

The south in winter is not as cold as the north, but it is also terribly cold.

The whole work area is so quiet that you can hear the sound of a needle drop, the air can only hear the sound of typing on the keyboard, and the sudden clicking sound, which is quite rhythmic, once every ten seconds.

I sat in my seat, blowing my nose in embarrassment.The short-sleeves I wore before going to bed last night, I kicked off the quilt halfway, so when I woke up this morning, I caught a cold as expected.

The colleague next to me kindly asked about it.

"If it's really hard, there's a pharmacy downstairs, and you can buy a few packs of cold spirits."

I thanked me, hesitated for a moment, and grabbed a pack of tissues and went downstairs to buy medicine.The distance from the pharmacy to the company is not far, but the way back and forth was very tormented by the cold.

However, when the cold wind blows outside, my drowsy mind cleared up a lot.The indoor heating was fully turned on, which dissipated a lot of the cold on the body.While waiting for the elevator, I stomped my feet on the spot.

Until someone stood next to me.

There are not many employees using the elevators, except for those who go to the field, and there are people like me who steal the elevator.I didn't think much of it, I looked down at my phone.

That person called me by my name, "Ling Jingchuan."

The other party's voice was not loud, and I was shocked, as if I heard the hissing of a poisonous snake, and immediately froze in place.

Xu Xiaomo didn't wait for my response, and his tone became a little unhappy, "Ling Jingchuan."

I looked up at him apprehensively.

Xu Xiaomo seemed to have just come back from the outside, and he was still wearing a dark gray scarf around his neck. He was dressed in black, and under the black coat was a strict black suit, which made his face whiter.Coupled with the other person's slightly frowning brows, the man looked very serious.

Looking at this familiar face, I was stunned for a moment and asked, "Why are you here?"

He narrowed his eyes, and there seemed to be a trace of contempt in his eyes, as if he was looking at a fool.

It really is Xu Xiaomo, but why is he here.No, Li Xing works nearby, he is Li Xing's boss...

Alarm bells are ringing in my head, it can't be so scary...

It's not a coincidence, it's not fate, it's terror.

With a "ding", the elevator door opened, and Xu Xiaomo walked in first.I gritted my teeth and followed up bravely.

"I work here." The man said abruptly.

I was counting the floors of the elevator, praying that it would go faster.I paused when I heard the man's words, and finally nodded.I wasn't stupid enough to ask which department the man was from, after all, I wasn't blind enough to see the "30" lit up on the button.

The 30th floor is the top floor, and anyone who works there knows who works there.

I was even more depressed, I didn't go to the coffee shop myself, and I still met the other party.What scares me the most is that the man is actually my immediate boss.

Am I going to resign again...

My mood sank and I continued to count the changing numbers on the screen.

Xu Xiaomo always has the ability to startle me. I was immersed in my own world at one end, but he suddenly gave a "feed" at the other end.

No name or surname, just say "Hello".

I trembled in fright, and then looked at him puzzled.

Xu Xiaomo and I met eyes, and a smile appeared on that indifferent face the next moment.

I'm busy turning my head away.

He didn't care much, and said in a calm tone: "You said last time that we were destined..."

I hummed casually, my eyes fixed on the screen in front of me.

15, there are five floors.

16...

In the silence of the elevator, I sniffed, only to find it blocked.

17...

I closed my eyes hard, squeezed the bag in my hand, and finally couldn't help opening my eyes to look at the elevator door.

The reflection of the door is like a mirror, which clearly reflects the expression on the person's face.I looked at Xu Xiaomo above, but found that he was also looking at me.

To be precise, I was looking at myself in the mirror.

18...

In the next second, Xu Xiaomo took a step towards me and reached out to the back of my neck.I turned my head to look at him, the man's eyes were so dark that there seemed to be something hidden in them.

There was a cold touch on my neck, but it didn't spread to my whole body because I felt half of my cheek burning.

19...

In the quiet and closed elevator, I seemed to hear my heart beating like a drum.

There is still a voice in my heart clamoring, Ling Jingchuan, don't think too much, you have to resign.

The 20th floor arrived, and the elevator doors opened slowly.

Xu Xiaomo tugged down on my collar, "The collar is wrinkled."

I don't remember what I answered, I just remember that I hurried out of the elevator without stopping.

I was in a state of extreme anxiety all afternoon.I started to feel that it was Xu Xiaomo who was abnormal, but now I am abnormal myself.Just like I doubt what a man thinks of me, in fact, I also...

I ended up putting that resignation letter in the recycle bin anyway.

After returning to the apartment at night, I decided to confess to Gu Shang.In terms of emotion and reason, he should know that even if the other party will fly into a rage, it doesn't matter.

I suddenly understood a lot of things, even if Gu Shang and Xu Xiaomo were not together, I shouldn't be in the middle.

The lessons I have learned since I was a child, I still don’t understand how I grew up so much.

……

I didn't know what time Gu Shang would come back, so I had to take a quilt and sit on the sofa, watching TV while waiting, thinking that it would be a big deal to get tired and go straight to sleep.

Unexpectedly, just 10 minutes after I turned on the TV, there was the sound of a key entering the hole at the entrance.Gu Shang pushed the door open and entered the room, lowered his head and changed his shoes, then walked towards the bedroom without looking sideways.

As for the big living person on the sofa, it was just ignored.

I pouted, stood up and called him, "Gu Shang!"

Gu Shang turned his head when he heard the sound, and I saw his face, and the words stopped at the edge of his mouth.

The man's eyes were clearly visible black and blue, other than the other's lifeless eyes, the whole person looked dejected and haggard, like a defeated soldier returning to his hermitage with unsteady steps.

"Are you okay?" I walked closer and smelled the alcohol on him.

"Why haven't you slept yet?" Gu Shang didn't answer, but asked me instead.

I said I was watching TV while watching his expression nervously.

Gu Shang looked at me and curled the corners of his mouth, but there was no smile in his eyes.

He said, "Then you go to bed early."

I frowned dissatisfied, "I'll make you some hangover soup."

He smiled and said no.

I passed him and headed for the kitchen.Gu Shang told me to stop.

I stood still and waited for the boss to speak.

"Can I give you a hug this time?"

I stared at his forced smile and the haggard eyes of the other party, finally sighed, and took the initiative to reach out and hug him.

Gu Shang almost inhaled his nose.

I patted his back lightly, pretending I didn't hear anything.

Until the end, I didn't mention Xu Xiaomo's matter, but I didn't intend to mention it again.

I suddenly realized that it's not only me and Xu Xiaomo, but also Gu Shang who are abnormal.