out of print lover

Xu Xi lost his appetite after two mouthfuls of dinner. Because Lin Xing came home, his appetite improved again. He asked the kitchen to add two more dishes that Lin Xing liked. Apart from Xu Yiqing's rambling, Lin Xing and Xu Xi were on the dinner table. There were very few words in the evening, and there was not much difference from before. Xu Xiwan just felt that it was much more lively.

Xu Yiqing deliberately sent Lin Xing back to claim credit—joke, she ran back and forth because of these two awkward guys, how could Xu Xiwan know that it was her credit if she didn't send Lin Xing back in person? ?This time I helped her so much, wouldn't it be a big loss if she didn't give herself a little benefit?So she accompanied the two of them to dinner, and there were other activities in the evening, and left the restaurant early.

After Xu Yiqing left, Xu Xiwan asked Lin Xing: "How are you doing outside?"

"It's good, I've been living with Feng Yu." Lin Xing guessed that Xu Xiwan probably knew his whereabouts in the past few months. Even Xu Yiqing knew to ask Feng Yu about her affairs, so Xu Xiwan would of course.

"That's good."

After that, there was nothing to say.

After that incident, Xu Xiwan and Lin Xing hadn't spoken for several months, sitting at the same table for dinner again, the atmosphere was somewhat awkward.

The dining table was so quiet that there was almost no sound, until Lin Xing put down the bowl and said, "I'm full." Xu Xiwan came back to his senses.

Xu Xiwan looked at the plate of untouched carrots on the table, and suddenly laughed.

The hairstyle has changed, and the spirit has also changed. Xu Xiwan is not familiar with Lin Xing like this. Fortunately, his taste has not changed at all. He doesn't like carrots, so he doesn't touch a single bite.

Lin Xing was not a picky eater when he was a child, he ate everything, which was very easy to feed him. Later, when he grew up, his mouth became more tricky, and he didn't like many things, especially carrots and tomatoes, even if they were chopped up and wrapped in stuffing Baozi, she could taste it right away.

Except for Xu Xiwan, few people know about her picky eaters. She is a very educated person. When eating out, no matter what she likes or not, she will eat a little of each dish, so as not to embarrass the owner. Only in front of Xu Xiwan, would she have no scruples, what she likes and what she doesn't like, and what she said clearly, she would never let Xu Xiwan misunderstand.

Seeing her put down her chopsticks at night, Xu Xi put them down herself, "I've already had someone clean your room. You must be tired after being away for so long. Go to bed early tonight."

"Okay, thank you Wanwan." She looked very sensible, her rebellion came and went quickly, and now it seemed to have disappeared without a trace, and she turned back to the good boy she was before.

It was still different from before, Xu Xiwan could feel that the natural intimacy between them had disappeared, and Lin Xing also began to maintain proper proportions in treating her.

This is the right way, Xu Xiwan thought, the relationship between her and Lin Xing should have gradually drifted away, but she still felt a slight pain in her heart.

Xu Xi has never-ending work at night. From dinner to bed, she is basically in the study. No one dares to disturb her when she is working. Tonight, someone knocked on the door of the study.

No one dared to disturb her when she was working, except Lin Xing.

"Come in." Xu Xiwan said from behind the desk.

The door was opened, and it turned out to be Lin Xing who came. She was holding a cup of freshly brewed tea by Xu Xiwan's hand, "Still busy?"

"Well, it's the end of the year, and there are a lot of things to do right now, but fortunately, I'm almost done, and I think I'll be able to relax in a few days." Xu Xiwan stared at the computer intently, took a sip from the tea cup, and discovered the taste No, "black tea?"

Xu Xiwan always likes to drink green tea, which has a green tea aroma with a bit of leaves, slightly bitter in the mouth, and slowly returns to sweetness. As for black tea, it has been fermented too much, and it has lost the unique flavor of tea.

"Well, drinking green tea so late is not good for your health and affects your sleep."

"I see, Xiao Xing, go to bed quickly, aren't you tired?"

"Go to bed in a while. Tonight, I have something to tell you."

Xu Xiwan didn't seem surprised, put down the teacup, "Speak, I'll listen."

Lin Xing had thought about it for a long time before, but now he felt that he had almost forgotten it. He spent a few minutes organizing his words, took a deep breath, and said, "Wanwan, I'm here to apologize to you. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have lost my temper without considering the consequences, said so many things that hurt you, and ran out by myself in anger, I used to always feel that I had grown up, and you are right, but I am not mature at all."

"Xiao Xing..."

"However, I will not apologize for the words before that. I just like you, love you, and want to be with you. It doesn't matter if you reject me now. I can wait, and I will grow up to be trusted by you." I’m not wrong, I also believe that Wanwan likes me, it’s okay to say that I’m self-righteous or self-righteous, Wanwan, we’ve lived together for so many years, and I know you so well, it’s useless for you to deny it. "

Xu Xi didn't know what to say for a while.This was the only sensitive topic between them. Xu Xiwan thought that Lin Xing's return meant that she would never bring it up again. Who knew that Lin Xing's thoughts hadn't changed at all.

"Wanwan, I will listen to you and go to America to study hard. I will prove to you that my feelings for you are not sprouting in adolescence, nor is it dependent on you for many years. Even if I have seen the wider world outside, I can only Loving you alone."

Xu Xiwan said: "Xiao Xing, I don't want you to get into the wrong place, don't block all the people you have a crush on outside just because you are angry with me."

"Love is something that can't be shielded. If you can't last a few years apart, what kind of love is it? Wanwan, I just hope that when I come back, you can try to accept me instead of blindly accepting me." to escape."

Xu Xiwan laughed at himself like a self-deprecating smile, "What if I fell in love with someone else during the few years you've been away?"

"You won't." Lin Xing said firmly and confidently, "Wanwan, I believe in myself and you, you think I'm too young to understand love, I respect you, but I also know that you won't love others."

Lin Xing said: "In this life, you will never fall in love with anyone except me, I know that."

With such confidence, Xu Xiwan was overwhelmed by her aura.It seems that in the past few months when Lin Xing left, she was not only self-willed, she did think a lot, and even her style of speaking and doing things was different from before.

"Wanwan, when I come back from America, will you accept my love?" Lin Xing asked.

Lin Xing was waiting for Xu Xiwan's affirmative reply, but Xu Xiwan remained silent.

Lin Xing nodded, "I understand." It's a lie not to be disappointed, but it's more calm to be mentally prepared, "I won't give up, Wanwan."

Lin Xing walked for a long time before Xu Xiwan held down his beating heart.

Xu Xiwan almost couldn't help the temptation, said the word "good", and swallowed it back.

Xu Yiqing is right, she is a cowardly person, she doesn't even have the courage to face her own feelings, but she and Lin Xing are involved too much, not only Lin Xing's immaturity, but also Xu Xiwan's own guilt, As if she had agreed to Lin Xing, she had other meanings in raising Lin Xing for more than ten years, and she couldn't explain to Lin Xing's mother.

Xu Xiwan couldn't pass the test in his heart.On this point, she was far less brave than Lin Xing.

Now that the words have been spoken, Lin Xing's attitude towards Xu Xiwan gradually changed to respect and love. All the unruly actions before were gone, and instead he cared more about Xu Xiwan in work and life.He urged Xu Xi to put on clothes in the evening, not to stay up late, and not to smoke or drink unless necessary, and reminded the kitchen to cook some supplements for Xu Xi to nourish his body.

Recalling those events a few months ago, Lin Xing himself felt that he was extremely naive. He didn't know what evil he had fallen into, but he thought of using "sex|seduction" to get Xu Xiwan to be with her. Wanwan like this It is useless to "seduce" people, and the facts have proved that it is indeed useless.Besides, the distance between the two of them is still so far, even if it is useful for a while, it will not last long.

What Lin Xing wants is a long-term relationship, so why bother about waiting for a while.

During the Chinese New Year, Xu Yiqing didn’t know where to go crazy. Xu Xiwan and Lin Xing celebrated the New Year together. They ate New Year’s dinner and watched the Spring Festival Gala together. There were more and more new faces. She has a familiar face. When she was young, Lin Xing liked an old man who performed sketches very much. He spoke with a Northeast accent. Lin Xing could laugh as soon as he opened his mouth. She had never been to the Northeast, and she could hear many sketches now. The tone is too deliberate, as if telling the audience clearly, I just want to make you laugh, so please make me laugh.

Even so, Lin Xing and Xu Xiwan insisted on watching the Spring Festival Gala, which is their annual tradition.

When the host was counting down to zero, Lin Xing followed them and counted down softly. When the count reached zero seconds, Lin Xing turned his head and said Happy New Year to Xu Xiwan.

"It's another year in the blink of an eye." Xu Xiwan sighed.

"At this time next year, I'm afraid I won't be able to celebrate the New Year with you." Lin Xing was a little sad.

"Life is like this. No one can stay with someone forever."

"Wait for me for five years." Lin Xing said, "After five years, I will let you know that I can be with you forever."

Xu Xiwan said: "It's late at night, go to sleep." After she finished speaking, she turned around and went upstairs.

Things went smoothly after that. Lin Xing was very comfortable with the company's affairs, and there was no delay in her studies. She even started to give Xu Xiwan some advice on work. Once she identified her goal, she began to grow rapidly.

After half a year of recuperation, Lin Xing's tanned skin in Thailand has become white and tender again, and her face seems to be able to pinch water. She still looks like a delicate and lovely girl, but her eyes are getting calmer day by day. Even Xu Yiqing said: " You really look more and more like my sister."

Lin Xing smiled, "What's wrong with being like him?"

Of course it's not good, Xu Yiqing An'an complained, one Xu Xiwan is hard enough to deal with, if it really becomes two, do I want to live the rest of my life?

This complaint didn’t last long. In August, after her 19th birthday, Lin Xing was about to leave for the United States. On the day of boarding the plane, Xu Xiwan sent her there, and Lin Xing stood in front of the boarding gate. For a long time, looking at Xu Xiwan, he was reluctant to leave.

Xu Xiwan said: "Let's go quickly. The slow plane should take off."

Lin Xing stared at Xu Xiwan silently, and the waves in his eyes swayed in Xu Xiwan's heart.

Finally, Lin Xing still couldn't hold back, rushed out and gave Xu Xi a big hug, and said against her ear, "Wait for me to come back."

Knowing that Xu Xiwan would not answer, Lin Xing didn't expect to wait for an answer. After she finished speaking, she immediately let Xu Xiwan go, and went in through the boarding gate without looking back, leaving Xu Xiwan alone. The next chic back.

Xu Xiwan stood where she was, watching her go away, and only moved his lips when her back finally disappeared.

Xu Xiwan said, "Okay."

……

"Wow, your place is not bad! Well, it's going down, and I finally have a stronghold when I come to play in the future." Xu Yiqing visited Lin Xing's house and was very satisfied.

In the blink of an eye, Lin Xing has been in the United States for more than a month, out of Xu Xiwan's grasp, a completely unfamiliar city, with no familiar scenery on the roads and buildings, and the streets are full of strange and foreign faces. The moment Lin Xing just got off the plane, In fact, I was very flustered.

Xu Xiwan arranged for someone from the American branch to pick her up and take her to the apartment that had been prepared. The apartment is some distance from the school. The advantage is that it is safe and has a large balcony. You can see it directly from the balcony. The nearby park has a good environment. If it is closer to the school, it will be perfect.

After a month of adaptation, Lin Xing has basically accepted the new living environment. Xu Yiqing clamored to come and play, and asked Lin Xing to pick her up. After visiting Lin Xing's residence, she was very envious, "Xiao Xing, why don't I just move here and live with her?" You can live together, you don't know, since you left, my sister doesn't go home very much, she only knows about work and work all day long, so I'm the only one in such a big house, I'm so pitiful."

"I'm here to study, not for vacation." Lin Xing understands Xu Yiqing's character very well. She is a restless person, and she can't stay in one place for more than a month, otherwise she will feel uncomfortable all over the world. She ran around and traveled all corners of the world. I really don't know when she will settle down.

"It's a combination of work and rest, you know how to study and work, so what's the fun in life?"

Everyone's lifestyle is different, so there's no need to argue. Lin Xing just smiled and didn't refute. He just changed the topic, "By the way, you said that Wanwan only knows about work? How is she doing during this time?" ? The body won't be able to withstand it, right?"

"You know you care about Wanwan." Xu Yiqing wrinkled her nose angrily, "Don't worry, there are assistants and housekeepers watching her, and Xue Qushuang watching her, she's fine, my sister is not a three-year-old girl My child, I don’t know how to cherish myself. But you are out alone, how is it? Is there any inconvenience? Can the teacher keep up with you in class? "

Lin Xing said: "It's okay." In the last two years of the private school, it has been taught in English in the American university model. Lin Xing's English level is good, and she can listen to lectures and write papers. She has no pressure on her studies. that is……

I just want Xu Xiwan to think too much.

I have never missed it so much. In the past, even if I didn't see each other for a few months, I knew that Xu Xiwan was by my side and would not go far away, but now, I haven't seen him for a month, because I realized that there are thousands of mountains and rivers between the two of us. , how can not stop missing.

Sure enough, Xu Yiqing couldn't stay. After staying with Lin Xing for less than three days, she yelled to leave. Lin Xing didn't keep her and sent her to the plane.

Lin Xing's university life is very busy, not only studying, but also various social activities. She tries her best to adapt to life without Xu Xiwan, and integrates herself into the activities of other students. Since Xu Xiwan wants to expose herself to the outside world , Then I went to contact myself, joined clubs, participated in debates, played musical instruments, and even practiced boxing.

Such thin arms, fingers as tender as scallions, wearing boxing gloves and hitting the sandbags one after another, are always soft at first, and the sandbags don’t even move, the American classmates who came with Lin Xing made jokes unceremoniously She, "Lim, you are such a nerd."

Another American boy retorted, "Nonsense, how can there be such a beautiful nerd."

Lin Xing is not the only Asian in the class, nor is she the youngest student in the class, she is not even short among a group of American students, but her facial features are really delicate, big eyes, cherry mouth, compared with the other students She looks childish and has done her homework very well. When she first started school, many people thought she was also a member of the army of nerds, although she has a beauty that cannot be ignored.

Lin Xing heard the word nerd popping out of their mouths, stopped practicing, gritted his teeth, took off the gloves, and smiled at them provocatively, "Be careful, in a few months, let's see how the nerds beat you up!" Looking for teeth all over the place."

She was wearing a sleeveless white vest. Since she had just undergone high-intensity exercise, the sweat slid down Lin Xing's slender neck, across the collarbone, and into the collar. She bit off her boxing gloves and smiled at the group of new classmates who had just met. The teeth were white, and the group of people were all stunned for a moment.

The beautiful and immature face is wild because of sweat, like the dangerous and fatal temptation of poppies.

"I don't admit that such a person is a nerd." One of the surprised people whispered in a daze.

During the Mid-Autumn Festival, Lin Xing had a video call with Xu Xiwan. This was the first time she had a video call with Xu Xiwan after she came to the United States.

I haven't seen him for two months. When Xu Xiwan's face appeared on the screen, God knows how restrained Lin Xing was so he didn't cry on the spot.

What Lin Xing saw two months later than Xu Xi seemed to be even more different. Xu Xiwan couldn't tell what was different. Although his facial features hadn't changed in any way, his temperament was quite different. The sharpness in his eyes was revealed. The beauty that has never been around Xu Xiwan before.

"How are you doing?" Xu Xiwan asked through the screen.

"Very good, Wanwan, I listened to you, and seriously contacted the outside world, participated in many activities, and met many new friends."

Xu Xiwan said, "That's good."

"I formed a band with a classmate I met in the club. I'm a bass player, but I just started learning, and I'm not very good at playing. I'll send you the video for the next performance."

Xu Xiwan smiled and said, "Okay, I can't wait to hear it."

"I'm also in the skate club."

"Ah."

"By the way, I'm starting to practice boxing now. Look tonight, do I have a little muscle in my arm?" Lin Xing said, tightening his right arm vigorously, bending the hump that barely arched a little. Show Xu Xiwan his biceps.

The muscles are not obvious, but the arms are indeed much stronger than before.Lin Xing is a clump of wild roses with tenacious vitality. When they are artificially bred, they look delicate. Once they are placed in the wild, they immediately show their strong ability to survive, and they bloom more and more beautifully.

The current Lin Xing is the first rose that blooms in the morning. The petals are covered with dew, glittering and translucent in the sunlight, irreplaceable beauty.

Xu Xiwan thought, look, Lin Xing really lived a better life without him, but what Lin Xing wanted was to let Wanwan see his growth.

They chatted for a full two hours in this video call. Lin Xing showed Xu Xiwan every bit of herself in the United States. Later, it was Xu Xiwan who urged her to go to bed, so she reluctantly ended the video .

Lin Xing's last words before the end of the video call were: "Wanwan, give me another five years."

As usual, Xu Xiwan didn't promise her anything.

Lin Xing smiled slightly, not discouraged.She believed in herself, and also in Xu Xiwan.

She didn't know, Xu Xi silently said hello in his heart sooner or later.

In addition to schoolwork and activities, in the second year, Lin Xing began to take over part of the affairs of the American branch. After leaving Xu Xiwan this year, she grew up rapidly, and the remaining childishness on her face gradually faded. Even though she was still very young, Already a shrewd and sophisticated leader, the team she was in charge of had a profit increase of more than 30.00% in just one quarter. This achievement was enough to make many old employees feel ashamed. She was only 20 years old this year, and she had already begun to emerge .

Xu Xi was far away on the other side of the ocean at night, listening to his subordinates report on Lin Xing's current situation in the United States, looking at her photos, and feeling relieved for her achievements.

There is a photo in Xu Xiwan's wallet, and the lock screen of her mobile phone is the same photo. This photo was taken by Xu Xiwan when Lin Xing was 15 years old. She is standing under a tree, wearing white long She looked up and looked for something among the leaves, her eyes were pure and flawless.

Xu Xiwan still remembers that she was looking for a heart. It was a heart-shaped pattern in the middle of a leaf. Lin Xing picked it off and gave it to Xu Xiwan. Xu Xiwan made a specimen of that leaf , together with Lin Xing's photos from childhood to adulthood in the photo album, carefully treasured.

At that time Lin Xing was innocent and innocent, very different from what he is now, Xu Xiwan misses the past and also likes the present.

Well-behaved, rebellious, and mature, Lin Xing has her unique allure in every period.

Xu Xiwan carefully hid everything that Lin Xing gave to Xu Xiwan, even if it was a leaf, but when Lin Xing gave Xu Xiwan his sincerity, Xu Xiwan dared not take it anyway.