out of print lover

The years are as usual, except for Xu Xiwan's more deliberate estrangement, nothing is different.

Xu Yiqing still loves to play, and stays away from home for two or three days. Lin Xing heard that she seemed to have a boyfriend recently, and he didn't know if it was a serious relationship or just for fun. Anyway, seeing her come out and go in, she should be in a very good mood.Xu Yiqing would think of Lin Xing occasionally, she wanted to take Lin Xing out together to meet different people, but Lin Xing refused.Lin Xing put most of his energy into his studies and work, and the rest was spent thinking about Xu Xiwan.

Lin Xing still couldn't remember what he said or did that day when he was drunk. Although Xu Xiwan said that she didn't do anything, she was very quiet, but seeing Xu Xiwan's sudden change of attitude, Lin Xing couldn't believe that she didn't do anything. Xu Xiwan couldn't bear the serious matter, and he didn't want to tell Lin Xing.

No matter how Xu Xiwan tried to hide, as Lin Xing came into contact with more and more company affairs, the contact between them was inevitably more frequent than before.In the past, Lin Xing wanted to prove herself in front of Xu Xiwan. When encountering difficulties at work, she bit the bullet and refused to ask Xu Xiwan for help. When there is a problem, no matter whether you can solve it or not, you should run to Xu Xiwan first, and never miss a chance.

Once or twice is okay, but the number of times is too many. Even Xu Xiwan, who is so patient with her, can't help but knock her on the head and remind her, "This kind of low-level question, you came to ask two years ago, it's almost the same, why now? Are you still asking? Did you do it on purpose or did you really not make any progress?"

"Ah? A low-level question?" Lin Xing rubbed her head, took a look at the materials, and found that it was really a low-level question, but her skin was getting thicker, and she stuck out her tongue and smiled, "I was wrong, hehehe, late night, I'm noon Come and have dinner with you, okay?"

Xu Xi glanced at his watch in the evening and had already started to pack his things. "I'm going to have dinner with President Zheng of Fenglian Bank at noon. Don't you still have classes in the afternoon? Just let Lao Wu take you there after dinner."

"President Zheng? Why haven't I heard of it before?" Lin Xing's heart was full of alarm bells, "How old is he? Is he handsome? Is he single?"

"At a young age, I have learned to inquire about other people's privacy. His age and appearance have nothing to do with me, let alone you. Come on, it's past twelve o'clock, hurry up and have dinner, and then go to school." Xu As Xiwan said, she had already tidied up her clothes and walked out of the office.

After Xu Xi left late, Lin Xing quickly unlocked the screen saver of his mobile phone, and searched the Internet for information about President Zheng.President Zheng, needless to say about his family background, the key is that he looks pretty good. Most of the photos about him that Lin Xing found came from financial magazines. He is dressed in a suit and leather shoes, and looks upright. It is not an exaggeration to say that he has star eyebrows and sword eyes. Watching his interview video, his temperament is outstanding and his conversation is extraordinary, especially there is a video of him and Xu Xiwan attending a meeting together. The two sit next to each other and sit side by side.

The most important point is that President Zheng is 35 years old and still unmarried.With his looks and family background, many women want to marry him, but he is single until he is 35 years old, and he is so close to Xu Xiwan, any fool can see what's going on.

If Lin Xing didn't even know this, she was severely mentally handicapped.

No, I have to keep an eye on Wanwan to see what the hell President Zheng is up to.

Thinking of this, Lin Xing called her teacher and asked for a leave of absence, saying that she had something to do in the afternoon, so she would not go to school.Anyway, she is already in the third year of high school this year, and most of the students in her class have already started to get acquainted with family affairs. Since the third year of high school, there have been a lot less people who are well-behaved in the class, and now there are five people in a class. That's right, the teachers at the private school also knew the future of these children, so they basically turned a blind eye and let them go, so Lin Xing asked for leave, and the teacher immediately approved it without even a doubt.

All of Xu Xiwan's itineraries were arranged by the assistant, and the assistant knew how much Xu Xiwan loved and valued Lin Xing, so when Lin Xing asked the assistant about where Xu Xiwan had lunch at noon, the assistant told her without any hesitation.

It was a members-only restaurant, and basically only the heavyweight managers of the Jinling family were eligible to enter. Even Lin Xing couldn't get in, so she had to find a hidden place outside the restaurant and wait.

I don't know if it was because of the working lunch, but Xu Xiwan and President Zheng had a very fast meal. From the time they entered to the time they came out, it took less than four or ten minutes. Lin Xing hid in a coffee shop across the street and spied on them. I can't wait to have an eight-power telescope in my hand, preferably with amplifying function, so that I can clearly understand what they say and do.

Lin Xing had already inquired clearly about Xu Xiwan's itinerary. She was going to accept an exclusive interview in her office in the afternoon. It stands to reason that the two of them should go their separate ways at this moment. Unexpectedly, President Zheng also followed Xu Xiwan. Xi got into the car at night, apparently going to the same destination.

When getting in the car, President Zheng walked quickly to the front of the car and opened the car door for Xu Xiwan. In order to prevent Xu Xiwan's head from accidentally hitting the roof, he thoughtfully put one hand on the roof, while Xu Xiwan Xiwan also readily accepted and smiled at him.

That smile stuck in Lin Xing's eyes like a needle, and Lin Xing could even see a little bit of ambiguity in it.

Lin Xing's face sank like water, his back molars were about to be crushed, his fingertips were turning white while holding the coffee cup, it was obvious that he had exerted great effort to restrain himself from rushing forward.

What I was most worried about really happened, and I was going to be with someone else in the evening.

Lin Xing's internal organs were mixed together, and she was in a daze all afternoon. She didn't know how she got back to Xu's house. When she got off the car, the world in front of her was spinning. Catch it, it has already fallen to the ground.

"Miss, are you okay? Do you want to call the doctor?" the bodyguard asked worriedly.

"I'm fine, you don't need to worry about me." Lin Xing waved his hand away from the bodyguard's support, and walked into the main house slowly.

Tonight is going to be with someone else.

This cognition is like a blunt knife, slowly cutting back and forth in her heart, with bursts of dull pain, unable to cry out, almost unable to take a breath.

Lin Xing didn't eat lunch, and also skipped dinner. She locked herself in the study on the second floor of the main house. Only Xu Xiwan and Lin Xing could enter that study, and even Xu Yiqing was not allowed in. The aunt who took care of Lin Xing knocked several times Lin Xing didn't seem to hear the door, no matter how hard she knocked, she refused to open it.

Lin Xing sat in Xu Xiwan's usual seat, holding the teacup Xu Xiwan was used to, with his fingertips against the mouth of the cup, caressing it carefully.

She recalled the 12 years that she and Xu Xiwan have been together, eating at the same table, sleeping in the same bed, and their lives are intertwined and inseparable. For the past 12 years, Lin Xing has always been the person closest to Xu Xiwan Xu Xiwan even agreed to her selfish request that she would not fall in love with others before her, but Lin Xing had just turned eighteen when another person inserted herself into the room that belonged only to her and Xu Xiwan without warning. In life.

Will he marry Xu Xiwan later?They look so well-matched, and Xu Xiwan didn't show any sign of rejection. That's right, Xu Xiwan is over 30 years old this year. If she wants to get married, that man is a very ideal person. They will get married and have a baby A child, Xu Xi will have a family, her lover and children will fill all the places in her life that belong to Lin Xing, and then squeeze Lin Xing out of her life, from then on Lin Xing will never be able to enter again.

Thinking that Xu Xiwan might have a child with that man, Lin Xing couldn't help feeling sick.

It's disgusting, it's disgusting.She thought that all the men in the world are a collection of disgusting and nasty, and each one is a potential threat to compete with her for Xu Xiwan.The more she thought about it, the more she couldn't bear it. She covered her mouth and retched a few times. In a hurry, she spit out a mouthful of blood!Bright red in the palm of the eye.

Lin Xing stared blankly at the small piece of blood on her palm, and finally couldn't bear it any longer. She lay down on Xu Xiwan's desk and wept bitterly, and could still smell a bit of Xu Xiwan's scent left on the desk.

She only felt that she was really helpless at this moment, she wanted Xu Xiwan to be by her side, tremblingly took out her mobile phone, called Xu Xiwan, the waiting tone on the receiver was answered one after another, and finally died because of timeout. Hanging up automatically, Lin Xing cried even harder.

In the end, she even forgot why she was crying. It was just that her heart ached so much that she had nowhere to vent it. She could only cry hoarsely. The depression in her heart had been suppressed for an unknown amount of time. Apart from this method, it seemed that there was no other way to vent it.

After crying, Lin Xing's voice was completely hoarse, and he opened his mouth unconsciously, unable to make a sound, but the tears were like an out-of-control faucet, and they couldn't flow dry no matter what, Lin Xing's arms and Xu Xiwan's desk became wet. There was a vast ocean, and her sleeves were cold against her arms, but she couldn't feel the cold.

With tears in her eyes, she stared at a certain place on the desk, her tearful eyes were whirling, and suddenly saw something between the folders on the desk, which seemed to be a photo.

She pulled out the photo to look at it.

It was Lin Xing's mother.

The photo has turned yellow, but it is well preserved. You can see Lin Ling's bright smile, with crooked eyes, and Lin Xing's eyes are inherited from her.

Collecting it so carefully, and placing it within reach anytime, anywhere, so that you can take it out and have a look at it when you miss it, how deep Xu Xiwan's feelings for Lin Ling are, Lin Xing really couldn't figure out how deep his feelings were. come out.

Tears came more and more violently, Lin Xing's body began to tremble uncontrollably, his shoulders trembled, like a crumbling leaf in the cold wind.

Her stomach was cramping, her heart was hurting more, and she was shaking with pain.

People all over the world are qualified to love Xu Xiwan, but Lin Xing is the only one who doesn't even have the qualification to say I love you.

Once said, it is life imprisonment.

Lin Xing didn't know how long he had been in the study, he only saw the sky outside the window turn from white to black, and even the study was pitch black, only the moon sent a little bit of temperatureless twilight.

When it was getting dark, Xu Xiwan finally came back.

The housekeeper had already called during her interview, but Xu Xiwan's cell phone had already been turned on silent, and she couldn't receive the call. The housekeeper called the assistant again and asked the assistant to tell Xu Xiwan. Lin Xing spent the whole afternoon calling I locked myself in the study and couldn't scream out.

The interview Xu Xiwan was invited to was with President Zheng. When the assistant notified Xu Xiwan about the matter, the interview was halfway through. It was not only related to her, but also to President Zheng and other staff of the TV station. It was impossible for Xiwan to leave hastily. When she heard something happened at home, her first reaction was to suspend the interview. She went to the inner room and called Lin Xing, but Lin Xing didn't answer. Xu Xiwan had no choice but to call the housekeeper and ask Ming Lin Xing's situation.

Knowing that Lin Xing just locked himself in the study and did not take any other drastic actions, Xu Xiwan thought for a while, and decided to continue the interview, but urged the interviewer to hurry up, as he still had urgent matters to deal with.

"Is something wrong at home?" President Zheng asked.

"Sorry, it's a private matter, so I can't talk about it."

President Zheng smiled, "I understand, I was the one who was abrupt."

The interview went on for more than an hour and ended in the evening. Xu Xiwan asked Xue Qushuang to see off the reporter and President Zheng, and then rushed back to Xu's home.

It was rush hour, and Xu Xiwan was stuck on the road and couldn't move. During the period, she made several calls and Lin Xing didn't answer them. When she returned to Xu's house, it was already dark.

As soon as Xu Xiwan came back, the butler immediately went up to greet him, Xu Xiwan asked, "Where's Xiaoxing?"

The butler said, "It's still in the study."

"Why don't you open the door?"

"Miss locked the door, we can't open it."

Xu Xiwan's eyes were dim, and he kicked open the heavy wooden door. The butler saw the situation and retreated wisely.

"Xiaoxing?" Xu Xiwan entered the study.

The light in the study was not turned on, Xu Xiwan saw Lin Xing lying on the table with the light from the outside, his shoulders twitched, Xu Xiwan's heart also throbbed with the frequency of her shoulders twitching.

"Xiao Xing." Xu Xiwan squatted halfway beside the chair, and saw Lin Xing with half of his face pressed against the table, with a blank expression, but tears streaming from his eyes.Xu Xiwan was so distressed that he had nowhere to rest, and wanted to hug her, but when he reached out, he just touched her cheek and wiped away her tears.

The second her finger touched Lin Xing's cheek, Lin Xing seemed to be reinfused with vitality, slowly stopped tears, blinked slowly, and moved his lips slightly: "Wan Wan?" The voice was abnormally hoarse, obviously after the roar, the throat was slashed, and Xu Xiwan could even hear the breath of blood in that voice.

"it's me."

Lin Xing got up slowly from the prone position, sat upright, and held Xu Xiwan's hand as if confirming, "Is it really you, Wanwan?"

"It's really me."

After confirming that the person in front of him was really Xu Xiwan, Lin Xing took her hand to stand up and walked out of the study, "I have a gift for you."

"what gift?"

Lin Xing didn't speak, and led Xu Xiwan to walk forward, Xu Xiwan recognized that this was the way to the piano room, Lin Xing took Xu Xiwan to the piano room.

The pure black lacquered grand piano was placed by the huge floor-to-ceiling windows. Lin Xing did not turn on the light. She let go of Xu Xiwan's hand, went straight to sit in front of the piano, wiped away her tears, took a deep breath, remained silent for a few seconds, and raised her hand. Lift your fingers, and then, starting from a few key notes, a smooth melody flows out in the dimly lit piano room.

With a pair of red and swollen eyes, Lin Xing sat upright, his fingers dancing lightly on the keys.

The moonlight spilled from the floor-to-ceiling windows, like a spotlight, shining down from the top of Lin Xing's head, and her whole body was dyed with a faint silver halo.

She poured all her heart and soul into this piece of music, her fingers danced on the black and white keys, covered by moonlight with hazy brilliance, the flowing movement flowed into Xu Xiwan's ears along the air, as early as it As soon as the first note was played, Xu Xiwan had already recognized the song.

"Piano Sonata in C-sharp Minor", also known as "Moonlight Sonata", the first movement.

Lin Xing's first piano piece.

At that time, she didn't even know notation. Xu Xiwan held her in his arms, held her hands, and taught her to play the piano key by key.

So many years have passed, and Lin Xing was able to play the "Moonlight Sonata" in its entirety long ago, but she still only played the first movement.

In just a few minutes, Xu Xiwan stood next to the piano and listened quietly to a piece that Lin Xing put all his heart and soul into. When the piece was over, Lin Xing took the last note, and Xu Xiwan realized that his cheeks were a little pale. Moist, even tears.

Lin Xing sat in the moonlight, turned to look at Xu Xiwan, her whole body was covered with a layer of silver gauze, pious and holy.

"Wan Wan, do you remember this song?"

"remember."

"I wanted to play it to you a long time ago, but I never had the right opportunity, and besides, I was never ready. I would have given this piece to you at a later time, but I was afraid it would be too late. gone."

"You play very well."

"It's not good enough." Lin Xing stood up slowly in the silvery moonlight, and walked towards Xu Xiwan step by step. This year, her height was finally fixed at 1.6 meters nine. Looking at Xu Xiwan, she always needs to look up head, so it took some meaning of worship.

"It's not good enough, it could have been better, but I can't wait."

Now is not the best time, it can even be said to be terrible, enduring the wrenching pain in the stomach, with red and swollen eyes, covered in a mess, like a bereaved dog.

But it was too late to prepare perfectly, it was too late now, if he hesitated any longer, Lin Xing was afraid that Xu Xi's party would be snatched away by others.

"Wanwan, I have something to tell you."

Lin Xing raised her head, her eyes were piercing, Xu Xiwan's heart was burning hot, Xu Xiwan even staggered back half a step under her gaze.

But Xu Xiwan backed away, and Lin Xing immediately stepped forward to fill the gap between them.

The moonlight was as cold as ice, and Lin Xing's eyes were as hot as raging fire. She was so close that she was close to Xu Xiwan. She raised her head high, looked directly into Xu Xiwan's eyes, and said three words decisively. words.

"I love you."

Xu Xiwan's heart constricted suddenly, and even his breathing stopped.

"Xu Xiwan, I love you, not the love of family, nor the love of respect, I love you, I want to kiss you, hug you, want to be one with you, want to share the rest of my life with you, want to be with you You bear all the unknowns on the road ahead together, and I want to grow old with you forever." Every time Lin Xing said a word, Xu Xiwan's heart was hit suddenly, and he couldn't help but take a step back, so Lin Xing also took a step forward.

One backed up again and again, and the other pressed forward step by step. When he said the phrase "grow old together", Xu Xiwan's back slammed against the wall. There was no way out, and Lin Xing could only let Lin Xing stick up.

"I don't know what I said or did when I was drunk that day. Since you don't want me to know, then I don't want to know, but I'm completely sober and rational now. What I said, I I am fully responsible." Lin Xing's eyes were burning, "Xu Xiwan, I love you."

Lin Xing's heart was beating wildly, and she was waiting for a response from Xu Xiwan.

Xu Xiwan didn't respond, she was still running away.

Lin Xing gritted his teeth, looked at Xu Xiwan's calm face, and became furious. He simply grabbed her shoulders and bit her lips.

Different from the simple kiss of lips on the birthday, this was a solid kiss. Lin Xing's tongue slid across Xu Xiwan's thin lips, prying open her teeth, brushing her teeth, hooking her tongue entanglement.

The sweet and soft touch appeared countless times in the dream, and she spurned herself countless times after waking up. Xu Xiwan passively accepted Lin Xing's kisses, and could even hear the ambiguous sound of water between her lips and teeth. Fingernails were stained with blood.

Lin Xing had no experience in kissing, and only relied on instinct to entangle Xu Xiwan's mouth. He didn't even master the breathing skills, and soon became exhausted. Tilting his head, he kissed Xu Xiwan's thin jawline lightly, untied her collar, licked her inconspicuous Adam's apple lightly, and felt the small knot roll up and down quickly, clearly It was Xu Xiwan who tried his best to restrain his swallowing.

Lin Xing smiled triumphantly.

See, it's not that Xu Xiwan has no feelings for her.

Not speaking is tantamount to acquiescing.

Lin Xing was even more bold and presumptuous, and even wanted to continue unbuttoning Xu Xiwan's remaining buttons, but she heard Xu Xiwan say in her ear, "Xiao Xing."

"Yes." Lin Xing agreed vaguely while kissing her.

"I've already connected you with American universities, you're right, you're already old, you're not a kid anymore, you shouldn't stay by my side any longer.

you go. "

In Lin Xing's world, someone forcibly pressed the pause button, and all her movements stopped at this moment. The blood that was still bubbling a second ago seemed to be thrown with a piece of ice, and she lost consciousness all over her body.

"You... what did you say?" Lin Xing was still clinging to Xu Xiwan's shoulders, looking up at her, and squeezed out these words from between his teeth, all in disbelief.

"I said let you go."

Even after experiencing the provocative teasing of a graceful girl, her voice was still so cold that it made people tremble, "That university in the United States is my alma mater. I have already said hello to my teacher, or you don't like America. You can go to England, Germany..."

Lin Xing covered Xu Xiwan's mouth.

Xu Xiwan stopped talking and looked at her calmly.

"Xu Xiwan, I say I love you." Lin Xing gritted his teeth and squeezed out a few words.

Xu Xiwan's nails got stuck in his flesh, and he said flatly: "You just haven't been exposed to the outside world yet, Xiao Xing, look farther away, it won't hurt you to go out and venture."

Lin Xing felt that the fire in her heart had gone out, and her heart was now dark, with only a thin crack left, "I just ask you, do you love me?"

Xu Xiwan hoarsely said, "Not at all."