out of print lover

Because Lin Xing was taking a bath, the temperature in the bathroom was higher than outside, and the water was lingering. Xu Xiwan couldn't see clearly when he first entered, so he just said, "Xiao Xing, I came in, where are the clothes?"

"Put it on the shelf outside, I'll get it later." Lin Xing was taking a shower behind the curtain in the bathroom, her voice was mixed with the sound of water, as if even the sound was separated by a layer of mist, hazy.

"Then I'll put it here for you." Xu Xiwan walked to the shelf in the mist and put down Lin Xing's clothes.

She put down her clothes, and had planned to go out, if she hadn't had that casual glance when she turned around.

After Xu Xiwan took power in the Xu family, for the sake of safety, she moved from her original residence to a high-end community. This is her and Lin Xing's new home. The decoration style is designed according to Lin Xing's preferences. The sunken fabric sofa is designed in a warm and comfortable pastoral style. Even the partition in the bathroom has abandoned the cold glass wall and used a shower curtain as a partition.

The shower curtain was very high, almost flush with the ceiling, and the bottom was about [-] centimeters from the ground. Lin Xing stood behind taking a shower, just showing a section of his calf.

Xu Xiwan moved a little closer to the shelf because she was putting clothes on for Lin Xing, and with such a casual glance, the bare|naked calf behind the shower curtain happened to meet her eyes.

The girl's legs are slender and graceful, the snow-white and delicate skin is steamed with a layer of light pink by the high-temperature water vapor, and there are dots of water droplets hanging on the not very obvious calves, which are about to fall, fresh as if in a pond in the early morning of summer, Lotus with dewdrops.

Even the most skilled sculptor can't carve such a beautiful work of art with the finest and flawless jade.

The temperature in the bathroom seemed a bit too high, Xu Xiwan's throat was slightly tight, and the sockets of his eyes were scorching hot.

She should leave immediately at this moment, but her legs seemed to be filled with lead, and she couldn't move a step.

"Wanwan, do you have anything else to do?" Lin Xing didn't hear the sound of the door opening and closing for a long time, and felt strange, so he asked.

Xu Xiwan's whole body shivered, and her eyes became clear immediately. The temperature in the bathroom was ridiculously high, but she broke out in a cold sweat.

"No, it's okay." When Xu Xiwan rarely stuttered, when she took over the Xu family, she could not change her face, but now she was unexpectedly panicked. She stumbled and opened the bathroom door, almost escaping. Yes, it seemed like there was some scourge in the bathroom waiting to grab her.

Xu Xiwan's muscles seemed to be petrified, and she walked away from the bathroom step by step, stiff like a robot, even the nanny who was cooking saw that something was wrong with her, so she hurriedly dried her hands and asked with concern: "Xu Xiwan Miss, what's the matter with you?"

Xu Xiwan's complexion turned pale, his lips were tightly pursed, and his eyes were dim.

Her hands were clenched into fists, and her neatly manicured nails dug deep into the flesh, blood soon oozes out, but she doesn't feel any pain at all.

"Aunt Wang." After a long time, Xu Xiwan spoke under the worried eyes of the nanny, with a hoarse voice, "I still have work, so I won't eat at noon, and Xiao Xing will come out later. She went to bed by herself after eating."

"Hey, hey, Miss Xu, are you really okay?" The nanny asked worriedly.

Xu Xiwan didn't answer, her figure shook for a moment, then stabilized quickly, and entered the study without saying a word.

……

Lin Xing couldn't take a quick shower for a week, so the first shower after returning home took a long time. She dried her hair, walked out of the bathroom wearing slippers, and searched around the house, but couldn't find Xu. Where are the Xiwan people?

"Auntie, did she go out tonight?" Lin Xing asked.

"Where is it?" The nanny put the dishes on the table with a smile, "Miss Xu said she has work to do, so she won't eat at noon, and asked Xiaoxing to go to bed quickly after eating."

"How can I skip lunch? I'll fetch her."

"But please don't!" The nanny stopped Lin Xing, "I just saw Miss Xu's face, oh, it's terrible! Maybe it's an urgent job, and it has to be solved right away! Xiao Xing, you'd better eat first and then talk about it. I will keep Ms. Xu's food warm, and she can come out to eat whenever she finishes her work."

"Okay, thank you, Aunt Wang." When Lin Xing heard that Xu Xiwan had a difficult job, he sat down to eat and was suspicious. When he came back just now, Wanwan was obviously very relaxed, and he didn't hear that she had any work to deal with. Ah, what's going on?

But since Xu Xi had said that all night, Lin Xing had no choice but to suppress the doubts in his heart, and went to sleep alone after eating.

Still, the bed at home is comfortable, and the bedding and pillow covers smelled familiar to Lin Xing. She was so tired that she almost fell asleep as soon as her head touched the pillow. She didn't close the bedroom door, and the window was opened a crack. , the air was convective, the summer afternoon breeze was blowing in from the window, it was cool and comfortable, Lin Xing turned over with his eyes closed, and soon fell into a deep sleep.

As for Xu Xiwan, he locked himself in the study room and spent the whole afternoon stuffy in an airtight manner.

She clasped her hands, propped them under her chin, and stared at somewhere in the study, her eyes were as dark as ink, but dark and surging.

She didn't turn on the air conditioner, and the temperature in the airtight study room was getting higher and higher, and it was getting hotter and hotter, like a sauna. The T-shirt on Xu Xiwan's body was soon soaked with sweat, and it stuck to her body sticky. It was hot and cold, but she didn't notice it.

The summer air is scorched by the sun and is extremely hot. It is not until the evening that the heat gradually disappears and the temperature gradually drops.

Xu Xiwan finally opened the door of the study and walked out of the stuffy secret room.

She walked to the door of the bedroom, leaning her shoulder against the door frame, staring quietly at the bed.

Lin Xing was so exhausted at the military training base that he took a nap all afternoon and didn't wake up until the sun was about to set.

She was only wearing a loose cotton nightdress with a thin blanket around her waist, her lips were slightly parted, and she was soundly asleep.

The curtains in the bedroom were blown up high by the wind, and then fell down gently. The afterglow of the setting sun also slipped into Xu Xiwan's bedroom through the gap between the ups and downs, and sprinkled on the head of the bed.

The profile of Lin Xing's sleeping face was flickering in the golden-red sunset, and even the very fine hairs on his face were dyed with a warm halo.

That face was still immature, but it already showed a little bit of brilliance. Others hadn't noticed it yet. Xu Xiwan was the first to notice it after spending time with her day and night.

Just like a box full of treasures, a gap suddenly opened one day, revealing a little sinister light from inside, sending out a steady stream of temptations to greedy treasure hunters.

Xu Xiwan thought, before he knew it, Lin Xing had already grown into an adult.

Lin Xing grew up too fast, so fast that Xu Xiwan was a little unexpected, so that Xu Xiwan didn't realize until now that a grown-up girl should no longer share the bed with her parents—even if the parents She is also a woman.

Xu Xiwan had only raised a child like Lin Xing, and she had spoiled her so much that she forgot that even if it was a biological child, parents should keep a distance from her when they reached a certain age—not to mention Xu Xiwan even Lin Xing's adoptive mother Not really, she was just entrusted by Lin Ling to pick Lin Xing home and complete the responsibility of raising Lin Xing on Lin Ling's behalf.

So that night, Xu Xiwan personally cleaned up Lin Xing's side bedroom that he had never lived in.

Xu Xiwan moved all the things that belonged to Lin Xing in her room to Lin Xing's own bedroom, and told Lin Xing almost imperatively that she must learn to sleep alone in the future.

"Why?" Lin Xing hugged the teddy bear she grew up with, with a dazed and naive face, "But I like to sleep with Wanwan, Wanwan smells so sweet, I can't smell Wanwan. no."

Xu Xiwan raised his hand to pat Lin Xing's shoulder, but as soon as his finger touched her shoulder, he retracted as if being burned.

"You will leave me one day." Xu Xiwan said, "I can't be by your side forever."

"But didn't Wanwan say that she would protect me forever?" Lin Xing was stunned for a while, as if thinking of something, his big eyes suddenly filled with tears, "Wanwan, don't you want me anymore? You Do you want to abandon me?"

"I will never leave Xiaoxing behind." Xu Xiwan wiped away the tears from the corners of Lin Xing's eyes, "But Xiaoxing grows up, and growing up means breaking away from the control of parents and exploring your own world. How can you get tired of being by my side like before, Xiao Xing, are you right?"

"I don't want it!" Lin Xing couldn't understand, why did he have to leave Wanwan when he grew up and be left alone?Could it be... Could it be that Wanwan can't grow up with her?

Lin Xing waved away Xu Xiwan's hand that wiped her tears in a fit of anger, and threw himself into her arms, wrapping his hands around her waist, refusing to let go, "If you want to grow up and leave Wanwan, then I don't want to grow up." When I grow up, I don't want to grow up for the rest of my life, I want to stay by Wanwan's side forever, my world is Wanwan, and I don't want to go anywhere else."

What good is there in the outside world?

Lin Xing thought, if she had Xu Xiwan, she already owned the whole world, and she didn't want to go outside to explore at all, so she would rather stay here with Xu Xiwan, stay here forever, and don't change anything.

If in the past, Xu Xi hugged Lin Xing back at the party, put his arms around her small shoulders, pressed it against her ear, and comforted her softly, "Okay, okay, Xiaoxing said not to grow up, then we will never grow up." Big, Xiao Xing said to stay by my side, then I will never leave Xiao Xing."

But that night, Xu Xiwan let Lin Xing hold her with his hands behind his back.

Xu Xiwan's face was sullen, her lips were pursed, and even her eyes were deliberately concealed cold. No matter how much Lin Xing acted coquettishly and cried, she just didn't respond at all.

The palms behind her back were bloody and bloody, but she stood coldly, like a stone man.

In Lin Xing's memory, he rarely saw such a cold and unkind Xu Xiwan.

She is no longer that ignorant child, she knows Xu Xiwan's status, and also knows Xu Xiwan's fierce tactics from the news and other people's mouths, otherwise how could there be such a beautiful battle when he won the Xu family back then?It even left a strong mark in the entire history of Jinling City.

But such Xu Xiwan was far away from him after all, and he was not even the same person as the Xu Xiwan that Lin Xing knew.

Xu Xiwan beside Lin Xing is always warm, with a gentle smile in her eyes, and her soft embrace is always open to her. She will teach herself to play the piano key by key, and teach herself stroke by stroke write.Lin Xing had nightmares and couldn't sleep when she was a child, and it was always Xu Xiwan who hugged her, patted her on the back, and told stories in her ear.

Lin Xing's mantra has never changed since he was a child, it has always been that "wanwan is so good", and it is completely sincere.

In her world, Xu Xiwan is omnipotent. All the obstacles she encounters in her growth path can be overcome by Xu Xiwan with one hand, with no effort at all.

On Lin Xing and Xu Xiwan's first New Year's Eve, Xu Xiwan hugged her and said, "Xiao Xing, remember, no matter what time it is, I will protect you."

But Lin Xing had just started growing up when he was pushed far away by Xu Xiwan.

Xu Xiwan said that she had to learn to grow up by herself.

Without any warning, she left Lin Xing suddenly.

Am I making Wan Wan hate you?Or was it because I was too ignorant and arrogant, that Wan Wan finally lost her patience?

Lin Xing was lying alone on that soft and comfortable little bed, everything around her was cold and strange, she tossed and turned, her mind was in a mess, and she couldn't fall asleep anyway.

Her memories of being at her uncle's and aunt's house when she was a child are already very vague, as if the time when her memory began was that dry and cold winter, when Xu Xiwan stretched out a hand towards her. From then on, her life was full of birdsong and flowers , no more severe cold.

But today, she suddenly felt cold again.

On a midsummer night, she shivered from the cold in bed, and fell into a dream in a daze. The dream was full of ice and snow, and there was only a small door in the distance. Xu Xiwan stood behind the door, and Lin Xing ran desperately towards the door. , ran desperately, finally ran into the door, and saw Xu Xiwan's ice sculpture-like face, slamming the door shut without showing any mercy.

"Wanwan! Open the door Wanwan—" Lin Xing kept tapping on the door against the wind and snow, "Open the door! I'm Xiaoxing! Don't you want me anymore?"

"You said you wouldn't want me, Wanwan—" Lin Xing tirelessly knocked on the door, but Xu Xiwan never opened it again.

"You said you wouldn't want me..."

"You don't want me anymore."

The wind and snow got bigger and bigger, and finally drowned out Lin Xing's voice.

Lin Xing woke up from the dream, two tear stains on his face, still wet.

Her mind was buzzing, her headache was about to explode, she didn't care much, she ran out of her room in a panic, and went to take pictures of the closed door of Xu Xiwan's bedroom in the middle of the night.

"Wan Wan! Wan Wan!" Lin Xing knocked on the door very frequently, as if something serious was happening, "Open the door, Wan Wan! I'm Xiao Xing! Can you please open the door?"

"I... I'm so scared."

"I'm having a nightmare."

"I feel so cold."

Lin Xing's palms were flushed red, but just like in a dream, the door was closed tightly, motionless.

Lin Xing didn't understand what he did wrong, which made Xu Xiwan so angry that he didn't save any sympathy.

Lin Xing only wore a thin nightgown and was barefoot. With her back against Xu Xiwan's bedroom door, she slowly slid and sat on the ground.

A week ago, that room belonged to her and Wanwan, Lin Xing couldn't figure it out, she only went out for military training once, how did everything change?

"It would be great if I didn't go out." Lin Xing's head was dizzy, she buried her head in her knees, thinking with tears, "It would be great if I didn't have to grow up."

It's a pity that no one can stop growing up.

Not even the omnipotent Xu Xiwan.

Xu Xiwan occupied the well-lit master bedroom all by himself, and didn't sleep.

She didn't even dare to touch that bed. She turned off the light, opened the window, and sat on the platform of the floor-to-ceiling window, leaning against the cold wall behind her, smoking a cigarette by the faint moonlight.She almost never smoked in this bedroom, because Lin Xing didn't like to see her smoking.

In fact she has quit smoking for many years.

Now this room will never be shared with her alone, Xu Xiwan has no worries, one after another, until the coating of the tongue is numb, and even the root of the tongue has a bitter taste.

Lin Xing knocked on the door outside, and there was a muffled sound from the other side of the thick wooden board, as if the walls of the whole room were shaking, and even Xu Xiwan's heart was hit by a heavy hammer, shaking her internal organs All followed the pain.

Outside the door, Lin Xing's voice was immature and shrill, and soon became hoarse due to the continuous shouting. Xu Xiwan's heart was pulled by Zola following her hoarse shouting, and he couldn't help but rickety in pain.

Several times, Xu Xiwan had already rushed to the door, and even grabbed the doorknob, but she paused for a few minutes, then slowly shrank back.

No.

Can not open.

There is always this day.

After pushing Lin Xing a small step away, Xu Xiwan was already in so much pain that she couldn't bear it. She couldn't imagine how much pain she would feel when Lin Xing really grew up and left her.

Lin Xing is a seed sown in Xu Xiwan's heart. It took root and sprouted in Xu Xiwan's heart. Her roots penetrated deeply into Xu Xiwan's heart, absorbing the blood in Xu Xiwan's heart and growing vigorously. Gouging it out is a bloody pain.

Even the hole in the heart that couldn't be repaired no matter how hard it was, kept bleeding.

But Xu Xiwan had to goug her out.

Lin Xing is still so young, innocent and innocent, she only thinks that her Wanwan is the best and the best person in the world, she trusts and respects her Wanwan wholeheartedly, probably won't know...

probably won't know...

Xu Xiwan brushed off the cigarette ash casually, and sighed deeply and weakly.

Xu Xiwan thinks she is not a good person. She grew up to 28 years old, and she has always done things only for herself. In her view, those hypocritical morals are just the last fig leaf for the incompetent and weak to comfort themselves. But today, she fell into a In deep self-loathing.

The pathetic and terrifying tong fetish, a dangerous and potential criminal, should be eradicated from Lin Xing's world forever, and the best ending is to die alone.

It's just a beast.

Lin Xing outside the door finally became silent, Xu Xiwan was smoking and knew she was still outside.

Lin Xing was a stubborn and silly boy, he was obsessed with doing things, he didn't look back when he bumped into the south wall, and he didn't even know he was hit so badly.

Xu Xiwan was afraid that something might happen to her, so he extinguished his cigarette, took out his mobile phone, and dialed Xu Yiqing's number.

"Sister, what happened in the middle of the night?" Xu Yiqing was awakened from a deep sleep, smacking her lips to answer the phone with a lazy voice.

"Xiao Xing dare not sleep alone, come and accompany her."

"Ah? No, sister, don't you live in the same room with Xiaoxing? Do you know how many hours it takes to drive from my house to your place? Even if you don't understand me, I have to understand the driver..."

Xu Xiwan said: "I beg you, do me a favor."

Xu Yiqing was stunned.

Can the head of the Xu family use the word "begging" casually?Unless something very serious happens.

"I'll be right there." Xu Yiqing didn't dare to be silly anymore, she put down the phone and immediately got dressed, and after a journey of more than two hours, she arrived in just an hour.

Xu Yiqing had the key to Xu Xiwan's house. After opening the door and entering, under the moonlight, she saw Lin Xing with bare feet, curled up at the door of the bedroom, looking very pitiful in the dim night.

Xu Yiqing sighed, Lin Xing was protected too well by Xu Xiwan, and when she was 13 years old, she was still as immature as six or seven years old, her temper and temperament were the same as when Xu Yiqing first met her, and she was not out of shape at all.

"What's wrong with Xiao Xing? Are you afraid alone?" Xu Yiqing squatted beside Lin Xing, and covered her with a blanket she picked up on the sofa, "Xiao Xing, go to bed with my sister, okay?"

"Sister Xiaoqing." Lin Xing looked up helplessly, looked at Xu Yiqing with dull eyes, the corners of her eyes were wet, her voice was already hoarse, and she said, "Don't want me at night."

"No, no, it's just that Xiao Xing is 13 years old and is in junior high school, so he's not a child anymore, right? Xiao Xing think about it, besides you, is there anyone else in your class who sleeps with their parents every night? Are you ashamed to let others know? Do you remember my sister told you that she has been sleeping alone since she was five years old? Xiao Xing needs to be brave, right?"

Xu Yiqing sighed while comforting Lin Xing.She had warned Xu Xiwan a long time ago that it doesn't matter if you spoil a child a little bit, but you can't spoil her too much. Xu Xiwan was afraid that Lin Xing would fly away if he held it in his hand, and he would melt if he held it in his mouth. Wishing to carry Lin Xing in his pocket wherever he goes, will Lin Xing be independent when he grows up?Xu Yiqing had expected this day a long time ago, how many times did she tell Xu Xi Wanming privately?But my sister just doesn't believe it!It's all right now, if you don't listen to the old man's words, you will suffer in front of your eyes.

"Really? Wanwan really didn't abandon me?" Lin Xing wiped away tears.

"Of course! If she dares to reject us Xiaoxing, let's see if my sister doesn't jump up and blow her dog's head!"

Xu Yiqing comforted her again, and finally coaxed Lin Xing to bed. Unexpectedly, when she took her arm, she realized that she was scorching hot.

"Xiao Xing, do you have a fever?" Xu Yiqing was startled, and hurried to touch Lin Xing's head, the forehead was so hot that it could spread eggs!She hurriedly knocked on Xu Xiwan's door, "Xu Xiwan, you are a dead man! Lin Xing has a fever and you still ignore her! Get the hell out of here! If something goes wrong with her, you will cry! "