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I kill people.

Hahahahaha!yes!I killed someone!

The taste of killing?What a taste!It's like cutting off one of my emotions.

is fear.

That person was lying in front of me dripping with blood, his fingers moving in the last struggle.

There was no fear in my eyes, the corners of my mouth were raised, and I only felt pleasure when I half-closed my eyes.It was exhilarating, as if that person was the source of my fear.Get rid of that person, what am I afraid of!

I almost laughed out loud, a small laugh that sounded so clear and perhaps eerie in the endless night.I don't think anyone can laugh when they see the bloody side.Unless that person is a pervert.

But I know, I am not.My laugh is just a laugh that gets rid of the dirt that has been haunting me, a laugh that gets rid of fear.

Suddenly, I was laughing loudly, not caring if it would attract other people.It's incredibly exciting to vent your emotions.

But soon, I couldn't laugh anymore.The fear of being let go just now swept over again.

Because... Xiao Jing appeared.

My smile must have froze on my face, and the blood splashed on my face just now.

Xiaojing's eye sockets were red.I must have looked scary, I scared him.

I was at a loss for a moment, and the knife in my hand fell to the ground with a crisp sound.

This clear voice is very heavy.What have I done!I killed people!I killed someone and I was still laughing at the corpse!

Just now I was thinking in my heart that I am not a pervert!But in the eyes of outsiders, I am a pervert, let alone Xiao Jing.

"I..." stammered, with all the witnesses and evidence, my brain couldn't organize a perfect reason for me to make it up.

I think even if Xiaojing is afraid of me, I will never hurt him.This is my baby, and I want to protect him.

The person I killed hurt Xiaojing.I absolutely cannot bear this.

This person is the stalker. When Xiaojing and I fell in love, he hurt Xiaojing's wrist with a knife while I was not by Xiaojing's side.

How could I forget that there was someone else, someone who terrified me so much that I hid in a closet.

Xiao Jing flew into my arms with red eyes, holding me tightly even though she was trembling.

He sobbed, "Awen, why do you think it's so difficult?"

I hugged her tightly, my chin resting on his shoulder.Yeah, why is it so hard.So many things happened in the few days we were together.

"Xiao Jing. Don't be afraid, I'm here."

Carry it down and go down.It's our only way out.

I later disposed of the body and threw it into a nearby lake.Xiaojing has been looking at me from the sidelines, very puzzled.

I think he's still worrying about us.

"Can you come out tomorrow?" Xiao Jing sneaked out, and his family locked him up because of me.

My eyes caught sight of the bandages on his wrist, and my heart tightened and then I breathed a sigh of relief.Fortunately, the culprit who hurt Xiaojing disappeared just now.

Xiaojing noticed that my eyes clumsily hid his injured hand behind his back.

After a long time, he seemed to have made a major decision, and said to me, "Awen, I've decided."

He breathed out, "I can't be restrained anymore, and I don't want to marry a woman and have children against myself in the future."

Xiaojing looked at me with bright and firm eyes, "I love you. I want to spend my whole life with you. At least now I think so, and I want to do the same. Ah Wen, I don't want to regret it."

After Xiaojing said those words, my mind became a mess.

The small mirror in front of him disappeared and reappeared in a trance.I don't know what's wrong with me, but it feels like something has changed.

Without any reply to Xiaojing, I sent him home.On the way he looked depressed.

I can't give him an uncertain future.Because I always take one step at a time.I didn't come out to my family, and my friends didn't know I was gay.

If there is a showdown like this, what will I face.But I thought about it again, I was hiding in the house all day doing creation.The so-called friends have long been alienated.

The only thing left is my mother.Of course, it's pointless to pass this level.After all, my mother can't control me.

Immediately enlightened, I gritted my teeth and punched the wall angrily. If I hadn't hesitated just now, Xiao Jing wouldn't be so depressed.Obviously I wanted to make him happy.

When I see you next time, I must tell Xiaojing that I also want to be with him forever.

But this time I waited for several days.

The author has something to say:

Sorry, I've been too tired and busy recently.And then dragged on.

This article doesn't feel like much, and I will finish it as soon as possible.