winter morning sun green grass

[-]. Sick

Courage is always aroused in depression

But the pain intensifies through endurance

fermented overnight

Massive swelling of my right foot in the morning

totally unable to get down

When I got home last night, Qingqing was already asleep

I don't know if she will remember what she said last night

Most of all, I was selfish in the beginning

I've been alone for too long

I want to find some warm shadows from Qingqing to make me feel warm

But after getting along, it is clear that they are two completely different people

But caring for Qingqing has become a habit

I'm quite content to rely on a habit to set the pace of my life

It seems that this habit is the driving force behind the monotonous life

sister are you awake

Qingqing's soft voice came from outside the door in the morning

Qingqing knew that I didn't have the habit of locking the door, so she opened the door and came in.

Sister, did you not sleep last night, did you look very bad?

Qingqing sat down beside the bed, I endured the pain and still made a sound

Sister, what's wrong with your feet?

Qingqing lifted the quilt and saw my swollen feet

Sister, I will take you to the hospital

Talking about trying to pull me out of bed

I really don't like going to crowded places, the hospital is one of them

I have always been in good health and rarely get sick

A person's life does not allow me to indulge in physical illness

As a result, I had a severe fever and had to sleep at home for three days without thinking about going to the hospital.

But in the end, I couldn't hold back Qingqing's persistence

I was lifted up by her

The center of gravity rests on her thin body

Although I tried my best to stand up straight, I still had to cling too much to her

This feeling makes me shrink back

Sitting on the bench in the hospital watching her busy figure running around for me

I suddenly feel a little sad that no one in my life values ​​me so much

In addition to being moved, there is more guilt

In the end, it is because of one's own selfishness that influences and changes a person

Such a beautiful woman should have another life

Find someone who loves her, marry her, have an easy job

live a peaceful and secure life

Due to a soft tissue contusion in my ankle I have been placed on bed rest for a short period of time

Qingqing took leave of absence to take care of me at home, taking medicine, spraying hot compresses and never stopping for a moment

I didn't close the door until I said I was tired.

I didn't sleep well last night and I was tossing and I lay down and went to sleep

The warm afternoon sun falls through the window

I open my eyes, the sunshine is so good

It's as beautiful as the sunshine when it's warm for the first time

As beautiful as the sunshine when I saw Qingqing for the first time

In my dark and lonely life, they are all the beauty of the sunshine

But just like Nuan Nuan, I can’t bear the beauty of Qing Qing

Sister, you woke up and I made porridge

Of course it didn't last as well as you, you just have to drink

In fact, I also tried to fry two dishes, but I was directly eliminated

Qingqing bowed her head weakly and shyly

I knew before that Qingqing can't cook

Thinking that she was busy cooking porridge and frying two failed dishes while I was resting

I can't bear it again

I went home and went to bed last night

I feel a little uncomfortable now

I just wanted to take a shower

Qingqing insisted on putting the water in the bathtub

She helped me into the bathroom and out

I take off my clothes and sit in the bathtub

Soak your long hair in warm water

The whole body is very relaxed

The door was pushed open, Qingqing came in with her clothes

I instinctively sank into the water

Cover the front with your hands

Qingqing didn't mean to leave but started to take off her clothes

I turned around nervously and didn't dare to look directly

Feeling that Qingqing entered the water and slowly approached herself

Warm arms around the waist

My whole body is stiff and I dare not move

I meant what my sister said last night

Qingqing buried her head in my neck and her lips gently touched the delicate skin of my neck

Nervously, I turned around and gently pushed her away, lowering my head and not daring to look at her.

sister do you hate me

no... not me just... we can't do this

you deserve a better life

A Better Life My Parents Died in a Car Accident When I was 6

I survived because I bought ice cream at the supermarket

But if I hadn't clamored for ice cream

They also won't get hit by a runaway van

so i killed them

Later in the orphanage for a long time

I am immersed in self-blame for not eating well

It's not good to be adopted by someone.

At the age of 6, I suffered and punished myself in my own way

Qingqing calmly recounted the most painful memories of her life

Soon I got sick and saw mom in the blur

She smiled and stroked my face and fed me porridge spoon by spoon

Later I found out that it wasn't my mother but Xu's mother from the orphanage.

Under her careful care, I gradually came out of the shadows

Mother Xu also passed away when I was admitted to university

There is no one in this world who treats me better

But sister you showed up

i know you have your loneliness

I would like to use my whole heart to warm your lonely heart

I would give my life for this

Qingqing grabbed my hand vigorously, as if promising that she would never let go again in this lifetime

I look at Qingqing with tears streaming down her face

speechless

Sister, if you don't hate me, try to accept me, okay?

I know you need time and I'm willing to wait

wait until you forget about that girl

Qingqing, you are fine, but I only regard you as my sister

Nothing more

Qingqing wanted to say something, but I stopped her

I got up and left and staggered away on one foot

When I got back to my room and closed the door, I was paralyzed and sat on the ground.

tears flow

if i have green courage

Then will the ending between me and Nuan Nuan be different?

But I never have the courage

not even now

The branches are always desperately thinking about the sun and stretching out their hands

Rivers are always tired of rushing to meet the ocean

But never look back at the followers behind

Are you going through the same hardships?

I know the pain of such a chase

So we should give up Qingqing's idea from the very beginning

No matter what the result is, I can't bear her to be hurt in any way.

I can't bear some feelings

Some feelings can't bear it

Although I never expressed it, I have given all my emotions to Nuan Nuan

For Qingqing, I can only feel guilt and responsibility

Qingqing is still cheerful and loves to laugh

Take good care of me and I won't mention emotions anymore

As if there had never been that confession

I know this doesn't mean she's giving up

Such a simple child with pure stubbornness

After learning about Qingqing's life experience, I felt more and more for her.

The children who have experienced such a situation are now enthusiastic and optimistic, really happy

Do I have to face the rest of my life all over again?