love like poison

The flowers on the head of the bed have completely withered.

Liu Zhiqi pulled the flower branch out of the vase, staring at the patterns on the petals.

"How many days have you lived here?"

I don't remember anymore!

Liu Zhiqi was too lazy to live with his fingers.

Xiao Huang has been busy with work recently, so he doesn't have much time to meet Liu Zhiqi, sometimes Liu Zhiqi wakes up, he leaves, Liu Zhiqi falls asleep, and he comes back.

It is not uncommon to miss it like this and not be able to see each other for a day, even though the room between the two is only a few rooms away!

Although Liu Zhiqi felt a little lonely in his heart, he didn't complain.

He is different from himself. He is a figure as important as Mount Tai in the political field, and naturally has many affairs.Liu Zhiqi knew it, and he had to understand it.

I can no longer be a wayward child!

Thinking so, Liu Zhiqi put down the flowers and said, "Okay! Then I'll play by myself today!"

Stretching and pulling the curtains, the warm winter sun instantly illuminated the room, and the slanting sunlight hit the bedding, Liu Zhiqi seemed to be able to see the dust floating in the light.

After Liu Zhiqi moved in, Xiao Huang specially hired a servant to take care of Liu Zhiqi because he was busy with work and couldn't take care of Liu Zhiqi's daily life all the time.

"Mother Lin, what are you eating today?"

This is the first sentence Liu Zhiqi must ask every day when he wakes up.

Mama Lin is an honest, middle-aged woman who likes to laugh very much. Anyone who sees her simple and foolish look feels close to her, including Liu Zhiqi.

Mama Lin was like a loving mother, cheerfully allowing Liu Zhiqi, a half-grown boy, to act coquettishly and cutely to her.

Seeing Liu Zhiqi coming down, Mama Lin stopped what she was doing and said with a smile, "Today I made barley porridge for you!"

"Ah...Okay." Liu Zhiqi was a little embarrassed, he didn't like sweets, but he still agreed with a polite smile.

For Liu Zhiqi, Mama Lin more or less let herself taste the warmth of a mother's love.

Maybe Lin's mother had forgotten Xiao Huang's previous explanation, and not only cooked sweet porridge, but it was so sweet that it was so sweet, but Liu Zhiqi didn't seem to mind that much, and could barely eat two small bowls, and she didn't express any dissatisfaction with Lin's mother , I didn’t even say that I don’t like sweets.

Perhaps many things have happened, perhaps through these experiences, Liu Zhiqi has learned to be grateful for the kindness of others!

Mama Lin is a very diligent person, not only taking care of Liu Zhiqi's three meals a day, but also busy cleaning every corner of the house.

After drinking the porridge, Liu Zhiqi warmed up a lot. After enjoying the laziness unique to winter for a while, he thought for a while: "Today should be Wednesday!"

It's time to go to school, but Liu Zhiqi still doesn't want to go, compared to school, this place is much more comfortable!

"Mother Lin, where are you cleaning today?"

Being bored, Liu Zhiqi chatted with Auntie behind her.

There have been many times like this, Lin Ma has long been used to Liu Zhiqi who is like a little follower.

Lin Ma said: "Today, I'm still sweeping the porch."

Mama Lin spoke with a northern accent, sometimes Liu Zhiqi couldn't understand: "What? What?"

"The corridor, this is the corridor!" Auntie pointed to the corridor and repeated it twice.

"Oh." Liu Zhiqi touched the mop with his toe again, "Mother Lin, I'm coming too."

The so-called "come" is nothing more than following behind with nothing to do!

Mama Lin twisted the rag, washed the mop, rolled up her sleeves and indulged in the fulfilling joy of working.

Liu Zhiqi leaned against the wall, watching her aunt bent over and mopping the floor back and forth, her endless enjoyment was really contagious!

In fact, the floor is not dirty, but after several times of mopping and washing, it becomes more glamorous, like a mirror, refracting the light more shiningly.

Liu Zhiqi lowered his head, his face was reflected on the floor.

Tilting his head left and right, Liu Zhiqi couldn't help laughing, thinking: "This young man looks really good!"

It's fun to be narcissistic!

But in fact, after being raised in the Xiao Royal Family these days, although I didn't feel much flesh growing on my body, my complexion was indeed much better than before, and my shriveled skin seemed to have become much plumper.

Liu Zhiqi touched his face, and it was indeed much smoother.

Suddenly caught a glimpse of a room next to Xiaohuang's room, the door lock was different, it looked like a room, but it looked like a gate, with a big copper lock pinned to the door.

I have noticed this door before, but I never paid attention to it.

"Mother Lin, have you swept this room?"

Liu Zhiqi walked over, fumbling with both hands on the door lock.The lock is very cool, a bit of the style of the Republic of China.

Mama Lin looked up and said, "The ones that can't be scanned, the boss said they can't go in!"

The boss is Xiao Huang. Even though Xiao Huang told Mama Lin not to call him that, Mama Lin is still very polite.

Liu Zhiqi felt strange: "Can't go in? Why?"

"Oh, don't worry about it!" Mama Lin came over and grabbed Liu Zhiqi, "If you can't enter, you can't enter, and I don't know why!"

But Liu Zhiqi is a very curious kitten, and he refuses to let go when he gets interested: "Mother Lin, do you have the key?"

"What? You want to go in?" The aunt subconsciously covered the keys in her pocket.

If you don't listen to the boss, in the understanding of domestic workers, you will definitely be fired!

What's more, Xiao Huang's salary must be several times higher, and no one wants to lose this opportunity to make a lot of money.

Still unwilling to give up, Liu Zhiqi whispered:

"He said he wouldn't let you in, but he didn't say he wouldn't let me in. Besides, if I went in, he wouldn't blame you for anything."

Auntie is an honest person, but she is still a little worried.

Seeing that the instigation failed, Liu Zhiqi said in a low voice: "Mother Lin, don't believe me, I am with him..."

As if what he said made him feel a little shy, Liu Zhiqi leaned into his aunt's ear and whispered: "He is my boyfriend!"

"Ah?" Auntie smiled innocently, "What boyfriend, two big guys, don't make fun of auntie! Besides, you two didn't sleep together! You can't sleep together! Two big guys ..."

"I didn't!" Liu Zhiqi defended in a low voice, but he thought that what Lin Mama said couldn't be said to be wrong, so he had no choice but to hold back, "Lin Mama, just give it to me, I can't do anything, okay? ?”

To say that the advantage of running behind Mama Lin on weekdays should be that once she acts like a baby, Mama Lin will definitely be overwhelmed!

Lin Ma thought about it, and felt helpless, but she obediently gave Liu Zhiqi a key.

All the rooms are similar, so the locks are naturally the same, Liu Zhiqi found the corresponding key with just one glance.

With a slight twist, the lock is opened.Liu Zhiqi thought for a while and said, "Mother Lin, since he told me that you can't enter here, can you..."

"Hey, okay." Mama Lin is a clever person at work, she immediately understood what Liu Zhiqi meant, turned around and left.

Liu Zhiqi walked in with confidence.

As soon as the lights are turned on, the furnishings in the house can be seen at a glance.

The furnishings in the gray-based room are very simple. A computer is placed on a large desk. Opposite the desk are two or three large black-lacquered bookshelves. The bookshelves are filled with books of various colors, arranged neatly. Although Liu Zhiqi is most disgusted with books , but looking at the neatly arranged bookshelves, I still can't help but feel very comfortable.

"Very ordinary!"

Liu Zhiqi muttered and walked towards the computer.

The computer was locked, and Liu Zhiqi tried several passwords but still failed to unlock it, so he had to give up.

Turning around and wandering in front of the bookshelf again, Liu Zhiqi thought to himself: "What books will he read?"

But after searching all the bookshelves, Liu Zhiqi was very disappointed!

Looking at the bookshelf full of academic books, Liu Zhiqi looked distressed and said sadly:

"Ah... is this person a piece of wood? I usually see these?! It's really... amazing!"

Suddenly, he rolled his eyes and saw a black storage box under the bookshelf.

Liu Zhiqi squatted down, pulled out the box, observed it carefully, then picked it up and weighed it, it was quite heavy!

The box is also black.

Everything is the same as Xiao Huang's thoughts, it is bottomless, no one can guess what he is thinking.

Opening the box, there were more than a dozen thick black diaries inside, Liu Zhiqi picked it up and flipped through it after thinking about it.

The first few books were written crookedly, obviously they were written when Xiao Huang was young, and the records on them were nothing more than flowers and plants and daily trifles.

Liu Zhiqi quickly flipped through the diaries. As the diaries were replaced one by one, the fonts became more and more neat and powerful, and the style of writing became more and more mature.

Looking at these sweet words, Liu Zhiqi smiled and said:

"Yo, 'I like you!', is this puberty? But...it's not fair, a teenager can write so beautifully!"

But the more you scroll down, the more Liu Zhiqi feels something is wrong!

Flipping and flipping, I finally got a freeze on one of the pages!I saw it said:

A Le,

How are you?Today is the second year since you left!I'm sorry, I've been busy finding out the truth, so I couldn't express my thoughts to you.

A Le,

I miss you so much, I was the happiest when I was with you, but why, why did you leave me forever after we only fell in love for just three months?

I really want to follow you, but I can't. I still want to find the murderer, and I want him to be buried with me!

You wait for me, I won't let you be alone there for too long!

…………

Looking at the marked date, it was six years ago.

Liu Zhiqi was a little surprised:

"That world? Could it be... the truth? What do you mean?" Another thought: "It sounds like Ah Le doesn't want to be a girl!"

But suddenly he felt that he was too stupid, if Xiao Huang liked a woman, then he would have nothing to do with him in the first place!

Liu Zhiqi looked at it, and gradually felt a little uncomfortable.Even knowing that these are all in the past, and knowing that the lover has passed away forever, but being remembered by Xiao Huang all the time, still can't help being a little jealous.

Liu Zhiqi shook his head violently again, and warned himself: "It can't be like this! People are gone, I think it's too much!"

Yes, now I should be grateful, thank you for being lucky enough to have it.

Taking a deep breath, Liu Zhiqi continued to flip through.

The eighth book is about his memory...

The ninth book is about his memory...

The tenth book is the memory of him...

…………

No.15 is still a memory of him!

Such infatuation, Liu Zhiqi can deeply feel it just through words.

If it is said that losing a person, it is normal to miss it for a year or two, or even three or five years, but... it has been seven years!

Liu Zhiqi was a little scared!

There was only the last one left in the box, Liu Zhiqi was afraid to take it.

The date in the No.15 book just now is very close to now, so this book should record what happened after Xiao Huang met himself.

What will be written in this book?

Liu Zhiqi was a little timid, if he still misses that person, then what... is he?

Liu Zhiqi prayed in his heart, praying that at least he could appear in this book... Or, it could be blank!

"No! It's already this time, there's nothing to be afraid of!"

Liu Zhiqi comforted himself for a while, moved his fingers nervously, and still picked up the book and opened it.But as soon as he turned the page, Liu Zhiqi regretted it!

On the first page, nothing was written, but a faded photo was attached.

But at a glance, it was as if he had been struck by five thunderbolts, and his expressions, movements, emotions, and even nerves all seemed to be frozen!

Liu Zhiqi took a sharp breath, blinked his eyes vigorously to confirm repeatedly, but it turned out that he was not dazzled!

In the photo, a young man who looks about the same age as himself is looking at the camera and smiling slightly, with bright eyes and white teeth, full of youth, and the cheerful enthusiasm unique to young people rushes through the photo.

However, this person is not me!It's just that it looks a lot like me!

The edges of the photo became whitish and wrinkled due to frequent touching, and the words "My Beloved Shen Le" were written on the edge, as eye-catching as the love on a human face!

But Liu Zhiqi's heart began to be scarred!

"This face really looks alike! Even I... can't tell the difference!"

Liu Zhiqi suddenly didn't know whether he should suffer or be jealous, or should... be lucky?Are you glad you have a face that resembles him?

All of a sudden, all kinds of things that happened after the encounter were played in Liu Zhiqi's chaotic mind like a revolving lantern, but at this moment, those beautiful moments seemed extremely poisonous!

Everything moved like a joke!

It's just a joke, I take it seriously!Still stuck!

Eyes are getting hot!

"Hahaha...haha..." Liu Zhiqi closed the notebook, unable to tell whether he was crying or smiling!

There were only a few tears shed, and she could barely take them back by gritting her teeth, but the feeling in her heart was overwhelming, and Liu Zhiqi couldn't resist it!

Wiping his eyes hard, he slowly put away all the books one by one in the original order, and then put the box back to its original place without any trace.

One book after another, like a polished steel knife, was slashed deep and shallow in Liu Zhiqi's heart!

One by one, like venom penetrating into the bone marrow, eroding the sour and bitter heart, and even other organs are also bursting with spicy!

The box was put away, as if it hadn't been touched by anyone, but Liu Zhiqi didn't understand, could it still be as if his heart hadn't been touched by anyone?

Liu Zhiqi also completely understood!

It turns out I shouldn't be jealous, because I'm not even worthy of jealousy!

It turns out that I have never owned you, I am just a fake of your true love!

You just want someone similar to him, but why do you want to take away my heart too!

It's me, I don't deserve anything!

The hour hand was ticking, Liu Zhiqi didn't know how long he had been sitting quietly leaning against the bookshelf.

It was a little dark, and the curtains were gently swaying by the evening wind.

Liu Zhiqi's hair was also fluttering gently, but his body and mind seemed to be injected with lead and iron, and he was too heavy to move.

"Xiao Qi, it's time to eat!"

Lin Ma came to the front of the room, but kept in mind the order not to come in, and only called from a distance.

His legs were numb from sitting for too long, Liu Zhiqi took a deep breath, supported the bookshelf and stood up slowly.

Seeing Liu Zhiqi's gloomy expression, Mama Lin was a little surprised, and asked worriedly:

"Xiao Qi, what's the matter with you? Is it because Auntie is cooking too late and you are too hungry? Auntie will..."

She always puts the fault on herself first.

"No." Liu Zhiqi interrupted softly, "I'm not hungry..."

"Then what's the matter?" Mama Lin was even more worried, "Is it because Mama Lin's cooking is not delicious, and you didn't..."

"No!" Liu Zhiqi interrupted again, his tone a little out of control, and his gloomy face was even more bitter and lonely.

Perhaps Liu Zhiqi was oozing with despair at this moment, Mama Lin also shut up and stopped talking, just watched worriedly.

After locking the door again, Liu Zhiqi stood there blankly looking at the dark door.

Dragons and phoenixes are carved on the door, and the unique cold feeling of metal strikes.Take a closer look at this moment, this door really looks like the gate of hell in the movie!

That's right, it's really hell!

Just my hell right?

Liu Zhiqi understood, completely understood!

That being the case, it is better to cut it off completely!

Thinking so, Liu Zhiqi turned around and pulled the aunt to return the key, choked up uncontrollably and said:

"Auntie, I... I'm going home. Can you promise me that you don't let him know that I have been here today. It won't do you any good if he finds out, right?"

Even now, Liu Zhiqi has no choice but to threaten a person who is looking at him with a worried face, Liu Zhiqi only belittles and ridicules him in his heart!

"This..." Mama Lin was in a dilemma, "Son, what's wrong with you? How do you look at you, have you ever cried?"

"No." Liu Zhiqi subconsciously recognized the face, "Auntie, I'm leaving first, goodbye."

"Ah, this..." Mama Lin was a little anxious for a while, but Liu Zhiqi had already run away, standing in the corridor for a long time and muttering, "This meal... just finished..."

"what!!!!!!"

Liu Zhiqi ran all the way to the beach, yelling in pain at the rising and falling waves, until he yelled until there was a bloody smell in his mouth, and then hoarse, he hugged his knees and squatted down!

The sound was still floating on the sea, and Liu Zhiqi seemed to be able to hear his hysterical cry.

My throat hurts, and my heart hurts too!

Liu Zhiqi squatted quietly, watching the waves relentlessly kissing her toes, tears seemed to feel the call of the sea, and gradually poured out, dripping on the waves rushing onto the beach again and again, fleeting.

His body was shaking and cold, but Liu Zhiqi couldn't feel it!

The only thing that can be felt is the tightness and pain from the internal organs, only the burning tears in the eyes, and only the violent ups and downs of breathing!

In the sound of the waves, the sound of crying and breathing was swallowed up!Liu Zhiqi felt as if he was being swallowed up too!

"Why... why me?"

"why always me!!!"

Why?In this way, everything can be explained clearly!

The encounter at the beginning, the weird behavior, the inexplicable tenderness, and the so-called liking are not at all how lucky I am, but based on his past!Based on... this face that was born so coincidentally!

For a moment, Liu Zhiqi wanted to tear this face apart!

But it's not worth it, since it's the case, then I shouldn't be the only one who should feel uncomfortable!

Liu Zhiqi suddenly wanted to see, wanted to see what Xiao Huang's expression would be if he saw himself with this face with someone else, who was willing to go all out for a substitute like this? !

can laugh?Will despise?Will despise?Still feel a little lost?A little pain?A little... Regret it?

"Hahaha! What regrets!" Liu Zhiqi laughed at himself with tears in his eyes, "It's me...it's me...too stupid...it's me, I lost!...I lost..."

Too stupid?have no idea!

Who did you lose to?have no idea!

He punched the beach with a fist, but all his strength was swallowed by the soft sand!

Liu Zhiqi couldn't feel the pain.

The tide became more violent, submerging Liu Zhiqi's lower body within a moment.

Winter is still cold, even though there are mountains and seas here, even though it is like spring all the year round!

The sea water made him feel cold all over, and his lips gradually turned purple.

His lower limbs gradually became numb, Liu Zhiqi slowly stood up and walked towards the shore.

You can't die yet, if you die because of this, then you are too useless!

"What are you afraid of, what else have you never experienced?"

Liu Zhiqi chuckled softly to himself.

The bottom line of the words is deeply sad, but the tone is light and calm, as if everything has been taken away, as if it is not so uncomfortable!

The shoes got wet, so I just took them off and threw them away, just like throwing away everything in the past, even if they are still intact, even if they are perfect, if you want to throw them away, you can throw them away!

The sand is so cold, Liu Zhiqi lowered his head to feel it, and said step by step:

"It would be better without you! I was originally alone..."

"It would be better without you! I'm at ease alone..."

"It would be great without you! I can go back to my original life..."

…………

The tide came again.

The throat is so blocked, and the stomach is so uncomfortable!

He stopped, and his eyes were still wet!

"Thank you... you are willing to try your best to lie to me..."

Yes, thank you!

Thank you for giving me a moment of spring flowers and autumn moon!

Thank you for giving me some light!

I am not afraid of returning to the darkness, but I will still hate you!

The rolling sound of the pitch-black sea swallowed up the wind of the night and the last cry.

"thanks……"

The author has something to say:

Xiao Liu, don't be sad, you can torture Xiao Huang until his heart is broken!come on! !