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"Didi!" There was a rapid horn sound behind him, and Tong Zhou couldn't help shaking.He said stiffly: "Drive first..." A trace of unknown emotion flashed in Chu Lin's eyes, he turned his head and continued to drive, but his aura was colder than before.

Tong Zhou's heart is in a mess. He hasn't contacted Chu Bian these days, which doesn't mean he doesn't want him.It's just that he doesn't allow himself to act like a mirror in front of this person, so he has been enduring it.

Every time he sees it, his heart shakes, like a pendulum clock, every time it strikes, he spurns it in his heart.

Chu Lin drove the car to a park, he stopped the car, and signaled Tong Zhou to go down.Tong Zhou hesitated to unbuckle his seat belt, Chu Bian went to buy a ticket, then pulled his wrist, Tong Zhou pulled him out.

Chu Bian's hand suddenly disappeared, and his heart was empty.

"What are you doing here?" Tong Zhou didn't move forward, his current brain couldn't resist any attack at all, but if the other party wanted to make trouble, he would probably have to sink to death together.

"I'll show you something." Chu Yan retracted his hand restrainedly, and turned to talk to him.Tong Zhou pursed his lips, feeling a dull pain between his brows, he raised his hand and pinched it, his brows tightened.

"Leave after reading, okay?" Chu Li sounded very understanding, so Tong Zhou had no choice but to follow him forward. At this point, does he have any choice?

The park at this point is deserted.In summer, the days are long and the nights are short, Chu Bian led Tong Zhou into a road, and walked through a few stone steps. He pointed to the swing in front of him and said, "It's over there."

"Sit down and wait for me." Seeing that there were no chairs around but only swings, Tong Zhou sat on the swings.The swings were old, rusty nails could be glimpsed while swinging, and the paint on the seats was chipped.Holding the sling with both hands, Tong Zhou felt awkward after sitting for a while, so he stood up again.

Chu Bian squatted not far away, he was digging the ground with small stones, Tong Zhou didn't know why, so he walked over, he moved forward and said, "What are you looking for?"

Chu Lin didn't answer, and continued to dig the ground. Halfway through the digging, he threw the small stone in his hand and took out the bottle. "

Tong Zhou didn't expect it to be such a thing, Chu Bian signaled him to go back, and they sat down on two swings respectively.

"This is a letter I wrote to myself when I was 17 years old. It was titled - To Myself Ten Years Later."

"You're already 32, so you came to see?" Tong Zhou couldn't help complaining, and Chu Li laughed after hearing what he said. He uncorked the bottle, took out the letter and said, "Isn't this just thinking about talking to you?" Let's watch together."

Tong Zhou couldn't help cursing something crazy, Chu Bian coughed, spread out the letter paper and said solemnly: "Don't make trouble."

Chu Lian's handwriting at that time was full of arrogance. Although the handwriting was scribbled, it was actually quite beautiful.Tong Zhou tilted his head and watched with Chu Bian.

Chu Lian ten years later:

Hello!I am Chu Lian, 17 years old.I'm currently in my third year of high school, and my third year is so fucking fucked up.When the college entrance examination ends, I will tear up all the books.

"You're very irritable, Chu Li." Tong Zhou laughed when he saw that swear word, and Tong Zhou was also a little surprised that Chu Li was responsible for this second-year middle school and real inner activities.

I volunteered to fill in the Chinese Department of F University, and I don't know if I can pass the exam.Forget it, if I don't pass the exam, I'll be a writer, stay at home all day, have freedom, that's fine.

Chu Bian, I have no money.My aunt only provides money until high school, and if she does pass the exam, college tuition will be very expensive.So I started saving money since my sophomore year in high school.I will go to the whole family to do odd jobs on weekends, and I will also accept some business drafts to earn some money.Oh, by the way, I wrote an essay for a magazine last month, and they haven't even paid me a fee for the manuscript...it's only 100 yuan, what about it?

Alas, I don't know what to write.Logically speaking, a composition with such a title should write about expectations for the future and conceive a blueprint for a better future.But I can't fucking do it.I probably have no future.

Anyway, if ten years from now you're doing well, then bless you.If you're having a bad day, don't feel too bad.

The letter ended here, just over 300 words, but after reading it, Tong Zhou felt as if a stone had been crushed in his heart and suffocated him.

Tong Zhou has never lived in poverty, his father is a gangster, and he has never worried about money.Therefore, he had never experienced the situation Chu Li was in at that time.It turned out that when he was 17 years old, he was like this, different from his peers, with a little frustration and even pain.

In fact, Chu Bian really doesn't remember what he wrote at that time. He just suddenly remembered that he did such a hypocritical thing in the second grade in high school, and thought about reading it.In fact, after reading the letter, he regretted it.This is not the appearance he expected to present to Tong Zhou, it is much more humble than he imagined.

Chu Li is not a person who will show his wounds to others.Even Lu Qingying never talked with him about his family or what happened to him in detail.He always acted so heartless, as if he had never missed the world and had lost his fireworks.But deep down, I'm actually humbled.

Chu Bian was very annoyed, he crumpled the letter into a ball and was about to throw it away, but Tong Zhou stopped him.

"What are you doing!"

"Ah, what do you want it for!" Chu Bian even became a little annoyed. Tong Zhou pulled the letter and smoothed it out. He glared at Chu Bian complainingly and said, "Don't throw it away!"

He stroked the words on it with his fingers, then carefully folded the letter, folded it into a rectangle and put it in his pocket.

"...What are you doing?" This time it was Chu Ling's turn to ask, Tong Zhou stood up, put his hands in his trouser pockets and said, "I took it."

"..." Chu Yan couldn't believe it, he reached out to rummage through Tong Zhou's pocket, and said while rummaging, "No, no, you should give it back to me!"

"If you don't give it, you won't give it!" Tong Zhou dodged, and Chu Yan went to scratch his waist. Tong Zhou was very ticklish, he laughed and hid, and everyone bowed.

Somehow, the two hugged each other.Chu Bian hugged Tong Zhou in his arms, put one hand across his waist, put his lips against his, and met his eyes, Chu Bian's eyes fell on Tong Zhou's lips, Chu Bian leaned over and kissed him. Tong Zhou.

Tong Zhou retreated, but was unable to move because of being held by Chu Lian.Chu Bian kissed attentively and carefully, his lips were soft and soft, and the moment they touched, the string in their minds could not be stretched.

Tong Zhou opened his mouth, and Chu Li came in so naturally.There was a faint smell of tobacco in his mouth, enveloping Tong Zhou, he was very familiar with that smell.

Chu Lin licked carefully, his hand wandered on Tong Zhou's back, habitually stuck into his clothes, Tong Zhou bit his lower lip.

"Hiss..." Chu Bian yelled, and Tong Zhou pushed him to separate the two.

"Tongtong." Chu Yan grabbed Tong Zhou's wrist that was about to be pulled away, and hugged him into his arms again.

"Tongtong." Chu Li buried his lips in Tong Zhou's neck, and he took a bite, which made Chu Li feel hard.

"The park is closing!" Tong Zhou vigorously pushed Chu Bian away and walked straight to the passenger seat.The corner of Chu Bian's mouth curled up into a smile, and he looked down at the muddy ground, in a good mood.

Chu Mian sent Tong Zhou back to his home, and when he went downstairs, Chu Mian asked, "Would you like me to sit up?"

Tong Zhou approached suddenly, raised his hand to undo a button on his shirt, raised his eyebrows and said, "I don't ask you to go up and do it."

Chu Li followed Tong Zhou's Adam's apple to see his open collar, and his lower abdomen felt warm.He grabbed Tong Zhou's wrist and said oppressively: "You are very capable now."

Tong Zhou smiled instead of answering, he opened his mouth and bit Chu Bian's hand, forcing him to let go of the pain, he buttoned his clothes in a leisurely manner, and got out of the car.

"Tong Zhou!" Chu Yan called him from the car, Tong Zhou turned his head and before Chu Yan could open his mouth, he said, "We don't get back together, we don't live together. It's fine."

"..." Chu Lin's expression seemed to have swallowed a knife, piercing himself abruptly.Tong Zhou smiled innocently, waved his hands and walked away. After walking two steps, he shouted again: "Mr. Chu, good night!"

damn it.Chu Lin finally understands now that he wrote these two characters for Mao Lao when he was 17 years old.

Because life sucks.

"Hahahahahaha! Damn it! He really said that! Tong Zhou is amazing!" Lu Qingying laughed on Chu Bian's sofa, out of breath.

Chu Bian slapped Lu Qingying on the back of the head with his backhand. Lu Qingying held the back of his head and screamed in pain. He kicked Chu Bian's ass and cursed: "It deserves it! You meet your opponent? He held his hands and looked at his tearful eyes, speechless and choked." Isn’t it? If life is just like the first time you see it, why is the autumn wind sadly painting a fan? I originally set my heart on the bright moon, but the bright moon shines on the ditch, right?”

Lu Qingying recited several poems in one breath, and Chu Lian's high blood pressure was about to come up.Chu Bian threw the pillow on Lu Qingying's body impatiently, and Gu Qingying took it easily, pedaling the bicycle happily in the air with two legs.

"Did Ye Yubin go out to have sex or did you dump you? He still stays here in the middle of the night." Chu Yan was so angry that he took out a cigarette and took a few puffs.Lu Qingying yelled, and lay down on the sofa and said, "Our Binbin is not like you. We wish we could turn over the signs every day and wait in line for a number. Our Binbin only loves me."

Chu Bian took a breath and exhaled at Lu Qingying. Lu Qingying waved his hand irritably and scolded him for his poor quality.

"Then what are you going to do now? This is the rhythm of treating you as a friend with sex, Mr. Chu, you are worthless now except that your stick can be used as a massage for others!"

"He is a machine with no feelings for you now!"

"Lu Qingying, if you say one more word, I'll cut off your tongue." Chu Bian squinted his eyes and smoked, the stars between his fingers flickered on and off.

"You can't do this, you call him out, and the four of us go out to play once."

Lu Qingying patted her thigh and said.

Chu Bian raised his eyelids and was too lazy to speak.Lu Qingying said solemnly: "Seriously, what's the matter with you guys like this? You need someone else to help you out. It's true that you have to tie the bell to untie the bell, so someone else is willing to let you untie it."

"That's it. I'll tell Ye Yubin when he comes back from a business trip."