Stay alive

Zhao Huanya:

I am the second lady of the Prime Minister's Mansion, and I was born to be favored and enjoy all the glory and wealth.

My mother always said: "A woman who has no talent is a virtue."

She taught me that my daughter's family doesn't need to be so powerful at birth, as long as she finds a capable husband-in-law in the future, she doesn't have to worry about it in the future.

I was ignorant, and there was only one question in my heart: Do I have to rely on others?

Someone taught me.

"Only you can protect yourself, Ya'er, you have to become strong."

Brother Qiannan always talks to me with a smile, and what he says is always ridiculous, but I think he is the best man in the world.

He always told me to be strong, but he was willing to protect me.When I married my elder sister, there were 1 reluctances in my heart. I didn't want to marry any emperor at all. I didn't want to be trapped in the deep palace as a bitter woman.

My father wanted me to be honored and honored, and my mother wanted to preserve my position.

They didn't understand me, only brother Qiannan stood up and stood in front of me.I was determined at that time, he is the best man in the world, he is worthy of my love.

When I heard the news that Brother Qiannan had died, I was like a bolt from the blue. After I calmed down, I had an almost persistent intuition—he was not dead.

Han Qi told me the truth, and I am very grateful to him for this matter.He didn't care about me getting married for my sister, he even made me a princess and sent me to the southern country to get married.

The honor my father wanted and the status my mother wanted were all there.I am not considered an unfilial daughter.

I resolutely embarked on the bleak road of marriage.God treats me well, Brother Ah Xuan is a kind-hearted spring flower.As for Brother Qiannan, he has changed a little bit.

His bright eyes became sad and joyless.

When I saw him again, I held him and cried for a long time, but he didn't push me away, and comforted me softly, his voice was very nice.

I swore at that time that I must take good care of him.

Then I lost my mother's teachings to me, and I no longer look like a woman from the Central Plains, riding a strong horse, drinking sweet wine, and following behind the one I love.

I also have an unspeakable hobby. I picked up a lot of grass-woven things made by Brother Qiannan, and they are my treasures.

At that time, I was really happy. Brother Ah Xuan was young and successful, and he was willing to have a drink with us while sitting in a high position. He knew what I wanted.Withstood the pressure from the outside world for me, allowing me to be their little sister.

I had long expected that there would be a day when I would return to the southern country. Five years passed in a blink of an eye. On the way home, I stubbornly made my elder brother Qiannan promise to marry me.

My instincts are spot on.When he returns to Yu Country, something will definitely happen.

My sister is a very strong woman, I knew it since I was a child, so I don't fight or grab, I want to maintain the sisterhood.

Brother Qiannan is my bottom line.

My sister wants to hurt me, I can bear it.But you must not hurt the brother Qiannan who has suffered so much. He finally got rid of the past.

I felt like I was a bad woman, and I pointed a knife at my sister, but I didn't really want to hurt her.I have not poisoned.

Everyone believes in my sister, but not me, I am wronged.There is only one person standing by my side from beginning to end, and that is my elder brother Qiannan.

He is my belief.

As long as he believes in me, that's enough.I don't expect anything else.The palace is dangerous, someone wants me to die, I can't escape.

Blood exchange is a pretense, Imperial Doctor Wei Tao shed tears to me, why does an old man cry and say sorry to me?

Then I believe he is a good man.

The pain is only for a moment, and death is not terrible.I closed my eyes and was thinking about many fleeting issues.

wait?afterlife?Again later?If I die, who will protect Brother Qiannan for me?Will he be sad for me?

Forget it, this life is over, let's not talk about the next life.

Brother Qiannan, you don't have to force yourself for me, I understand you, you don't love me.Huangquanlu, I won't wait for you, don't feel sorry for me.

If you really want to be in the next life, I would like to be your own sister. When the time comes, you should pamper me well and drive away all the bad guys for me.

Shen Tuxuan (spring flower):

My master gave me a very earthy name for amnesia, □□flower.Delicate flowers that symbolize spring can be lovable.

I really want to give him back the name intact. I think he is the one who needs love and affection. His temper is too stubborn and he has suffered a lot.

When he was in Prince Xian's mansion, his skin was as thick as a city wall. No matter how humiliated Han Qi was, he would always face him with a smile on the next day.

I can hear his sighs late at night, and I can see his gesture of calling his parents quietly like a child.

He always said that I don't need to hang around him all day, let me find a good girl, and he will definitely give me a dowry.I will refute at first, and then ignore it.

When I was in Prince Xian's Mansion, I only had him, and he only had me.How do I go to someone else?To take care of the whole of the life he has taken up.

Later, I regained my memory and became Shen Tuxuan again. I don't blame you.I am the future king of Tatar, and I was born to bear too many things. It is good to be his spring flower for two years, at least I understand the taste of love.

But my love is not the kind of love he loves Han Qi, nor is it the pure love of friends.

I admit that at first I felt pity for him, pity him for living in torment day and night, and then I was overwhelmed by his strength.

I found him lifeless in a mass grave, covered in blood, lying in a pile of rotting corpses.If I come later, the surrounding birds and beasts will come looking for the smell and eat him up.

I thought he was dead.

I carried him away, and on the way, he grabbed my wrist.He didn't wake up, but I knew he was alive.

Just live.

Back in Tatar, I used all the power of the whole country to treat him. I tried all kinds of panacea, but the doctors all said that they couldn't help him.I don't give up, I wait for him to wake up.

He slept for a long time before waking up.

I looked at him as a different person, I'm not sure, he is the one I called my master for two years.

He said, "Chunhua, I'm hungry."

I heard his long-lost call, and made up my mind to change the name of the Tatar country to the Southern Kingdom.

If you are ordered not to move, you will be born in the southern country.The southern country is right under my feet, and I want to give him an eternal home.

I hold a grudge against Han Qi for leaving him in a mass grave, and I have a heart of revenge, but when I first ascended to a high position, there are so many things to do.That guy took the initiative to contact me.

Then I learned that Lin Qiannan was alive because Han Qi wanted to save him.

In the past five years, Han Qi sent many secret letters, which kept Lin Qiannan in a few words, and I almost didn't reply except about his illness.

Until Han Qi said that there was a way to detoxify him and let him fully recover.It just so happened that the prime minister sent a letter saying that he was critically ill.

I hesitated again and again, and decided to let Lin Qiannan return to Yu Kingdom in the name of escorting Ya'er.All kinds of things have reached an irreversible situation. I overestimated Han Qi's feelings. When the news of Ya'er's death was sent back to Nanguo, I felt like a bolt from the blue.

I insisted on going to war because I was the king of the country, and I was afraid, afraid of losing Lin Qiannan, but I didn't expect him to be so cruel to me.

He fulfilled the dignity of the two countries with his death.

The Southern Kingdom was defeated, and I am completely convinced.He did that, how can I not accept it?

I hugged Lin Qiannan again.His body is bloody, and the temperature I can touch is uncooled blood.The face under his mask had changed beyond recognition.

I thought Lin Qiannan would wake up again like he did five years ago... no, no, no.Lin Qiannan didn't wake up again.

I thought I would break down, but calmly arranged his funeral with my own hands.

I buried Lin Qiannan in a peaceful place and sealed his honor after death.As for Han Qi, no matter how I challenged him, he ignored it, and even made various concessions for the sake of false peace.

I am not a meddlesome person, I no longer think about attacking the Yu Kingdom, I will focus all my energy on the important task of making the people of the Southern Kingdom live and work in peace.

Lin Qiannan, have you ever rested in peace?

Zhao Huanyan:

The world once called me the number one talented woman in the capital, but only I know that my talents are all used to curry favor with a peerless man.

He is my husband, Han Qi.

Once, I thought he loved me.I'm not stupid. Besides thinking that he loves me, I also understand that he will use me.

I don't mind if he conceals, uses, or deceives me, as long as he loves me.After he ascended the throne, I married him as I wished and became the most honorable woman in the Yu Kingdom.

What else am I dissatisfied with?

Among the beauties in the harem, there are many young and beautiful newcomers.I'm only jealous of one person, that ugly concubine Le Gui with poor legs and feet.

Every time he got angry, he would go to Concubine Le's bedroom, and he would not come out until all the anger disappeared.I asked someone to inquire and heard an incredible thing.

He and Concubine Le Gui have never had any skin-to-skin relationship.They talked often, and the content could not be separated from the dead man over and over again.

He didn't forget that person.

It's okay, I comfort myself.

That person is dead, and I don't have to argue with the dead.

I found out that he doesn't love me because...he never touches me either.Every time I go to bed, the candle lights are extinguished, and the person lying next to me is not him.

I was immersed in happiness and didn't find it.I only saw the clue when I went to bed late once in a while.

He doesn't love me, he only uses me from beginning to end.

I have a clever younger sister who is loved and loved at home, and I love her because even though my parents dote on her, she has never earned anything from me.

Sister, why do you want to appear in front of my sister again?And brought that person back.

Then I can't blame my sister for being cruel.

I have finally come to this day, and I have finally accepted all the shame, and I will not give it all up.

I woke up from poisoning, but I didn't meet the expectant and guilty eyes.No one cared if I woke up, I got the planned good news.

Zhao Huanya is dead.

Lin Qiannan broke with Han Qi.

I can't be happy, I'm afraid of the eyes of all strangers, even if I see a humble maidservant, I will always have the feeling that she looks down on me.

I'm probably out of my mind.I am afraid of everything, especially thinking of Zhao Huanya calling my sister with a smile... I would rather go crazy.

I reflect on what I do everything for?Even if I kill all the people in the world, it is impossible for Han Qi to love me.

Later, I became a madman.

But I got freedom, I am no longer trapped in love for Han Qi.

Ya'er, I'm sorry.

Sister, I'm sorry.

And...Lin Qiannan, I'm sorry.

The author has something to say:

Sui Sui Sui Sui Nian.

There is another chapter, I decided to write sweet.