male god effect

The author has something to say: the update that Ni Meng is looking forward to, um... please read this chapter carefully

96.

Chai Jiu was awakened by the bone marrow chill.

He didn't know how many times he passed out and became sober again after feeling severe pain.

so cold...

Chai Jiu couldn't know whether this coldness came from the outside world, or whether it was caused by his own lost blood.His whole body was stiff, his mind was numb, and the rope had been pulled into his flesh for too long, so that he even had the illusion that his body had nothing to do with self-awareness.

The blood on the hands tied behind the back has dried up, but the air is still filled with the smell of rust. The pale skin and the reddish-brown blood reflect each other, making the picture shocking.

When the first finger was cut off, Chai Jiu was actually unconscious. Blindfolded, he was sunk in the darkness of chaos and ignorance. Before he even had time to scream, everything was settled.

The one that was cut off was the left little finger of the left hand. They chose this finger for a good reason, because there was a large scar from a cigarette butt burn on the joint of his little finger, which was very easy to identify.

It took Chai Jiu a long time to get used to the strange feeling—the severed finger had been separated from the palm, but he still had the illusion of existence.

But it didn't end there.

In just a few hours, he lost the ring finger of his left hand again. This time they changed the method to let the pain continue in a more cruel way-not cutting off the root, but dividing the whole finger into three parts. Portions, knuckle by knuckle.

They recorded this process in a detailed way, and gave a close-up of the bloody wound.They purposely tore off the tape pasted on the boy's mouth, in order to record the changed, heart-piercing screams into the video tape.

This is actually a very ironic thing, Ji Mi, who is a masochist, seeks opportunities to be tortured but fails, while Chai Jiu, who is very masochistic, often becomes the one who suffers.

If Chai Jiu was more sensitive, she might be able to detect that many things are extremely wrong.

During that time, Ji Mi had two guns hidden on his body, one in his arms, one on his back waist, and sometimes even a third gun tied around his ankle when he came back from the outside.

Although EVIL allows citizens to own guns, such a number is a little too exaggerated.In the past, Ji Mi had the habit of carrying military knives with him, but he hadn't reached the point of carrying a gun with him.

So—what the hell is that guy afraid of?The moment her fingers were crushed, Chai Jiu was thinking in a trance.

He thought it hurt to have his fingers crushed off, but when they started pulling out his nails one by one, he realized how naive he was a few minutes ago.

The sharp and slow pain caused by pulling is incomparable with the sharp pain that is quickly pulled away from the body when a limb is severed with a sharp knife.The latter is just torture, while the former is a deep torture from the body to the soul.

He screamed, he howled, he twisted, he ducked...

When the whole world is maliciously added to the fragile limbs, all struggle and resistance are futile and ridiculous.

So, cry, scream, breathe, there is nothing else you can do.

Like a prisoner on the gallows, like a lamb under the butcher's knife, like a bird with broken wings in a cage.

After that, people can no longer be called people, but are no different from livestock.

Chai Jiu felt that his hands were soaked in icy water, and the bone-piercing chill penetrated into the overwhelmed body along the wound. His sad soul, which was twisted by the pain until it was separated from the body, held the still hot heart to keep warm. He pressed it against his cheek and murmured helplessly as a child.

where is mother

The more he longed to be treated gently enough, the more cruel the situation around him became.

In the limited life of a teenager, there are actually not many good memories.The childhood belonging to children is fleeting, and then they grow up prematurely, bear heavy burdens prematurely, enter the adult world prematurely, and experience everything that this age should not have.

So he ignorantly walked barefoot among the thorns covered with rubble and rubble, tried smoking for the first time, watched CDs for the first time, committed a crime for the first time, went to prison for the first time, fell in love for the first time, and fell in love for the first time. A suicide, the first time to break other people's secrets, the first time to imitate other people's atrocities, the first time to sacrifice your virginity in the atrocities...

Everything passed before his eyes like a revolving lantern, and the young man looked around the chaotic past blankly, feeling ashamed.

Before he knew it, he finally became the bad boy that his mother hated.

So...so, he deserved everything.

Deceitful, impossible.

The boy thought again.

Mom... Mom won't hate him.

He curled up into a ball aggrieved, unable to stop sobbing.

Don't want me!

Please, please... be gentle, be gentle.

No one responded.

Only the silver cross hanging on the chest glowed with a faint cold light in the darkness.

"What are you doing! Who allowed you to do this? The one I tied up is a big living person who can breathe! What are you doing now?"

Questioning voices came from afar.

"We're just following orders."

"Order? Order your mother to be a big-headed ghost! What are you guys?"

"..."

The boy's soul was floating high in the air. He tilted his head and looked at it in a ignorant posture. That aggressive little ruffian, he was not surprised by her serious posture after taking off the mask, but was confused in the chaos I don't know why the other party is so angry.

"Enough." She said coldly, "That's it."

"It's probably not up to you."

"Say it again? Believe it or not, I'll blow your heads off?"

"Hehe...you don't really think of yourself as a young lady, do you? Everyone is just a hired lackey. Your mission is over, so why pretend to be conscientious now..."

There was a bang, the sound of a tin can being kicked down, followed by several shrill screams.

"Bah, don't fucking live in the garbage dump yourself, just think everyone else is covered in maggots too. Smellless scum! Shut up your dog mouths and go back to your rotten gutters... ..."

Chai Jiu, who was blindfolded, smelled the pungent smell of gunpowder, and he felt something hot and smelly splashed on his body, maybe it was blood, maybe it was brains, or maybe it was something else, Before he could react, someone roughly ripped the tape off his body.

He felt dizzy in his brain, and everything that had happened so far was beyond his tolerance. He heard screams, screams, gunshots and explosions, but he had no time to think about what happened. He was like a lifeless The puppet passively accepts any treatment.

Whether it was the harsh shouts, the sound of the car's engine starting, or the vague calling in his ears, it seemed to have nothing to do with him.

He unilaterally cut off the connection with the world, his disconnected brain began to strike, and his illusory soul had no choice but to retreat into an unknown corner, making everything lifeless, everything have become out of reach.

"Damn it, it's not the same as what you said, you all lie to the uncle, don't you?"

Zhai Bao's voice was trembling, maybe even he himself didn't understand, what kind of emotion was that?

"Wake up, wake up! I'm sorry... I'm sorry... It's my brother's fault! I don't know, I really don't know that they can mess around like this... Those bastards! Grandpa, fuck me... You wake up !"

The juvenile soul was indifferent, only feeling very noisy.

97.

"So, can I ask 'why'?"

The young man's pale side face looked lifeless, he didn't pay any attention to the bandaged left hand and the handcuffs on his wrists. This may be the reason why he has been suffering from "poverty", "hunger" and "disease" in the past ten years. A little bit of survival experience accumulated in the suffering of "bullying" and so on, is to ignore oneself to the greatest extent, ignore one's own living state, and live in a numb attitude.

Choose life numbly, avoid death numbly.

For those who have nothing, life is as simple as a single-choice question of ticking a box.

Chai Jiu, who was rubbing the cross on her chest, became bored - if there is no answer, then it is not allowed.

Ten minutes ago, Zhai Bao, who was out of control and yelling, was dragged out by several men who looked like bodyguards. This sex bag who might destroy the plan was ordered to be locked up by his vigorous sister.

"I'm fucking human! I'm not a fucking thing! I..."

Before being dragged away, Zhai Bao cried for the first time like a child who hadn’t grown up. Maybe he was the most innocent and wronged person besides Chai Jiu. He didn’t understand why his sister became so terrible. , he didn't understand how everything turned into such a bloody situation in the blink of an eye.He who can't rub the sand in his eyes has always been the most courageous and loyal person. He can throw his head and blood for his brothers, and he can also be desperate for his relatives. How to choose? He was so confused that nothing left but unnecessary crying and catharsis.

This young man with well-developed limbs and a simple mind lived like a giant baby until he was 20 years old under the protection of his sister. For the first time, he discovered that the world is very complicated, and it is not as simple as his thinking.

He broke through an area that shouldn't be touched. From now on, he can no longer be a carefree second-generation ancestor who has nothing to do. He only thinks about his buddies, swimming pool and beautiful girls every day.

Chai Jiu thought of every deep meaning that Zhai Bao had said in the past. Maybe that guy who looked carefree actually had a more sensitive intuition for the coming crisis than anyone else. This was a gift from God. Best gift for their kind of fool.

The leopard may not know what happens when a mole and cat are together, but instinctively guesses that it will not end well, so he has to persuade the mole to separate as soon as possible.

"Student Chai Jiu, if you want to hate it, you can hate it. Zhai Bao didn't know about it all the time. He just inadvertently revealed your relationship with Ji Shao to me. Apart from that, he didn't do anything bad. The situation of the Ji family is not good, and it has reached the point where it is necessary to marry the Lin family to get through the predicament, but Ji Shao rejected the wedding with Miss Lin Na because of classmate Chai Jiu, which proved your weight in Ji Shao's heart, and it is logical can be used as a bargaining chip to blackmail."

The little ruffian took a breath.

"I also know that this is too much, but I'm sorry... For me, there are more important things worth protecting. I have been lying to you all this time. I am really, really sorry."

For the first time, Chai Jiu felt that this boy-like young man in front of him was so strange, as if he had never known her before.He held the cross on his neck and thought for a long time, and finally shook his head, as if unconsciously put his hand on the little ruffian's wrist, and at the same time heard himself saying.

"It's ok."

From the bottom of his heart, he felt that everything in front of him was both important and unimportant.Nobody needs to feel guilty about him because... because.

"What?" The little ruffian showed a look of disbelief as if he didn't understand.

Chai Jiu lowered her head and did not speak any more, she silently put the cross into her pocket.

In an instant, Ji Mi's face came to his mind.

Because, the person you are most sorry for should be that guy.

The gentlest, most harmless, most considerate fool.

"In this city, the old nobles and aristocratic families like Ji Shao will be replaced by new capitalists sooner or later. The Federation has given them such privileged people too long to breathe, and now it is time to uproot the old forces. EVIL The current pattern will be broken, and at that time, a new family will rise, and everything is a historical necessity... Sister Lang Xin said so."

The little ruffian looked at his palm and said.

"But in fact, I don't understand anything at all. I only know that whether it is Chai Jiu, or Zai, or Ji Shao, they are just pawns to promote history. Therefore, Chai Jiu just stays here honestly. Alright, after the time has passed, I will let Chai Jiu go..."

Before the words finished, the originally quiet boy had already made a move.The moment he stubbed out the cigarette, he threw the ashtray at the little ruffian.After half a second of astonishment, the latter turned around and hid.

"It turns out that Chai Jiu will sometimes take the initiative to attack."

Chai Jiu, who was dodged from the attack, did not give up, but chose to continue the strong attack.

"Do you have to go? It will be very embarrassing for me... After all, although there is no stake in it, as a mercenary, I have sworn to be loyal to the employer's family."

I know.Chai Jiu had no expression on his face, but kicked the little ruffian quickly with his right leg.

"Student Chai Jiu, you are really merciless."

Such unnecessary entanglement can't be taken advantage of, he thought, let's end it sooner.

"Did you give up so soon?"

That's not it, the boy's tense face finally loosened a little.

"You... No... How could I..."

Feeling the numbness from his limbs, the little ruffian discovered the pinhole in his wrist.

"Just now... when I said 'I'm sorry'."

Chai Jiu touched the cross in his pocket. No one would have thought that there would be an anesthetic needle hidden there, including himself, who didn't find it at first.He raised his hand and pulled out the gun from the little ruffian's waist, and pulled the safety catch.

When Ji Mi gave him the cross, he probably already expected this day, so he set up such a hidden mechanism in the so-called gift.

Including those days on the island, teaching him to use pistols/guns and shooting is one of the reasons.

That person knew everything that would happen in the future, but he never said a word, just woven a seemingly perfect life with lies so painstakingly.

Really stupid.

"I'm going to die soon, I'm a little bit unwilling."

The little ruffian's performance was unexpectedly calm, or it could be said to be relaxed.

"Your Excellency, in fact, like Chai Jiu, you don't have any friends. Even your identity and name are fake. I came to this city illegally. How old were you at that time? Well, I don't remember at all. Already."

said the little ruffian.

"I just remember that my motherland is a small country where there are always wars. There, the status of a girl is not as good as that of an animal, and my sisters were drowned as soon as they were born. So, in order to survive, I have done everything. There are too many things I don’t want to do, whether it’s joining the mercenary group, or cheating and betraying my companions, it’s very unpleasant.”

So why continue?Chai Jiu couldn't understand.

"Because Sister Lang Xin is in their hands, there is no other way. Sister Lang Xin was persecuted by the family, and those who persecuted Sister Lang Xin were also persecuted by the higher-ups. After all, no one wants to be like this, but those big people , I like to take these insignificant things as sacrifices, but... I really like Miss Lang Xin very much!"

Chai Jiu's familiar idiot smile appeared on the face of the little ruffian, like a shameless and proud villain, but without the wretched hooliganism of the past.

"How can a girl who is so beautiful, so strong, and so charming be so unattractive? So, it doesn't matter if she is treated as a pervert, it doesn't matter if she stands on the opposite side of her partner, it doesn't matter even if she loses her life, that's what I'm here for." love!"

Chai Jiu was dumbfounded, and the hand holding the gun trembled.

"Is that so? I see."

In an instant, the young man realized something that seemed illusory.

98.

That was probably the last time Chai Jiu saw the little ruffian.

He understood that even if he didn't shoot, as a failed mercenary, the opponent's fate would not be very good.

Many years later, at a party, Chai Jiu, who is no longer a teenager, sees Zhai Bao, who is also not young, from a distance.Mr. Zhai in a suit and leather shoes pushed a wheelchair, and it was said that his wife who rarely showed up was sitting on it.Mrs. Zhai is only left above the knees, and her neck and face are covered with old scars like stitched centipedes. She looks like someone, but she doesn't look like someone.

Mr. Zhai and Mrs. Zhai were quarreling, you choked on me, I reprimanded you ten, not like a middle-aged couple, but like two teenagers who don't know much about the world.

Chai Jiu didn't understand what was going on, so he had to choose to watch from a distance silently.

That heartless leopard is old, that carefree little ruffian is 'dead', and the bright and lively sister Lang Xin has already married a certain political boss.

So sorry, the rest are just strangers.

Time and space have switched to this moment, and in this private small helicopter, Chai Jiu, wrapped in a thick towel, vomited in a mess.

"President, the airsickness medicine doesn't seem to be working."

While supporting the boy, the brown-haired twin sisters said to the blond woman sitting in the driver's seat with her cigarette in her mouth and her legs crossed.

"Oh, just knock me out."

Aisa was biting a cigarette, with a manic expression.He never leaves his cigarettes all the time, and he feels uncomfortable when he is addicted to cigarettes, but at this moment, for the sake of driving safety, he can only smell the smell and not light it.If this torture continued, he felt that he was going crazy!

Sure enough, he shouldn't have promised Ji Shao to take this troublesome little guy home.This beautiful blond-haired old demon began to murmur painstakingly, his makeup is now loose, his clothes are also wrinkled, and he doesn't even have to smoke a cigarette, it's really not worth the candle.

Chai Jiu has lost the basic concept of time. He almost can't remember how he escaped, how he contacted Ji's family, and how he was dragged onto the plane by President Aisa with a sniper gun.

The wounds on his hands and body that had not been properly treated began to inflame, and the toes that had their nails pulled out began to ooze blood again. The pain haunted him persistently, and the high-altitude flight made him feel dizzy and nauseous.

There is a force supporting him, preventing him from collapsing, but how long it can last, I am afraid even this body itself does not know.

Until the moment the plane landed at night, the boy felt that he was having an unreal dream.

"Don't worry, baby. Although your Chairman Ji didn't come to pick you up, he should be almost fine." President Aisa spit out the cigarette in his mouth and took a sip of coffee, "I can't say yes , anyway, it’s almost half dead, so congratulations.”

Then, Chai Jiu saw Ji Mi who was "well done" and "almost half dead".

It was already late at night, and a convoy surrounded the already small planes, and the bright headlights cast everything pale and gloomy.

Ji Mi wobbled down from the car, and even needed support to barely stand still.The originally handsome face lacked the luster of a living person, the out-of-focus eyes were covered with bloodshot eyes, and the dry lips were full of small split wounds.

If the Creator came here in person, he would describe it like this——

Like a dead man.

This nearly 20-year-old young man lost all vigor and vitality. His body was trembling and stiff, and his pale face was filled with pain and despair.

The dying poor man knelt down towards the young man tremblingly, like a felon who was about to be beheaded.Even if you forcibly lifted him up, those legs were still trembling, as if he would never be able to stand up straight again.

Chai Jiu looked at the other party calmly, as if she wanted to penetrate his body and see the curled up soul.He even smelled the strong and pungent smell of alcohol, and he didn't have to wonder how this hopeless old alcoholic drank wine like water in his absence.

He suddenly found that Ji Mi seemed to have become a little shorter, and the next second he realized that it was not that he had become shorter, but that he had grown taller.

Compared with the 16-year-old self, who will not be far away after the new year, he has grown from 1.7 meters to nearly 1.8 meters.During this period, Ji Mi, who was originally 1.8 meters long, only grew by four or five centimeters.

He still needs to look up at him, but he only needs to tiptoe to make up for the distance of a few centimeters.Although the toes were bleeding again, but—

The boy stood on tiptoe and hugged the corpse-like guy without hesitation.

It hurts, it's cold, but it doesn't matter.