destroy me, heal me

"Xiaoxi, you are a boy, you must learn to be strong. If you fall down, you have to stand up by yourself."

"But... other children are held by their parents, why don't I?"

"Because mom and dad can't be by your side all the time. So, Xiaoxi, you have to learn to run, bathe and live by yourself."

"Dad... Mom..."

A tear dripped from the corner of Lu Lixi's eye and seeped into the pillow.He opened his eyes and stood up abruptly.Yi's mother supported him: "Xiaoxi...are you awake?"

Lu Lixi asked anxiously, "Where's Xiaoyuan? Where's Huaijin? Which ward are they in? Are they all right?"

Yi's mother nodded with red eyes: "I'm fine, just...in the next ward. But, I can't disturb them yet."

Lu Lixi lifted the quilt and got out of bed.Mother Yi couldn't hold him back, so he pursed his lips tightly, walked out barefoot, and opened the door.

"What is possibility? What is possibility? It's been three days, and you just tell me that you can't see people alive?!... I don't want it, I don't need it, you don't need it, don't apologize to me, I warn you, shut up the fuck !! They are not dead!!!!" Yi Jiangliu suddenly smashed his phone to the ground.

Panting heavily, he raised his head and saw Lu Lixi standing outside the ward, staring at him blankly.He wiped his face quickly, and walked over: "Xiao Xi..."

Lu Lixi's nose started to bleed again.Yi Jiangliu flew over to catch his slipping body, and ran back holding him in fear: "Mom! Call the doctor quickly! Hurry up!"

Lu Lixi woke up again, two days later.Yi Jiangliu watched over him non-stop, so when he woke up, Yi Jiangliu was asleep.He was lying beside Lu Lixi's hospital bed, his face was stubbled and his eye sockets were blue.Lu Lixi turned his head to look at him for a long time, then raised his hand and gently patted his head.

Yi Jiangliu woke up startled, and jumped up suddenly: "Xiaoxi? Xiaoxi! Are you awake? How is it? Does your head still hurt?"

Lu Lixi shook his head, stretched out his hand again, and stroked his prickly chin with a frown.

Yi Jiangliu didn't quite understand such a reaction, he grabbed Lu Lixi's hand: "Little Xi..."

Lu Lixi said, "Jiang Liu, what's wrong with me? Are you sick? Didn't you say yesterday that you're going to visit the orphanage today? Is it because I'm sick that I didn't go?"

——*——

"Mr. Yi, what I warned you last time is not to allow the patient to be stimulated or to injure the brain. According to the diagnosis, Mr. Lu's nervous system was severely damaged, and these injuries caused his memory center to appear. problem, but this is by no means a good thing, because the intermittent and intermittent memory makes him very likely to suffer from schizophrenia."

"Mom, let me carry it." Downstairs in the hospital, Lu Lixi reached over to get the bag in Mother Yi's hand. "Really, I don't know why I was admitted to the hospital, and I have to trouble my mother to come and take care of me."

Yi's mother hurriedly refused: "No, no, Xiaoxi, do you still feel uncomfortable with your head?" She squeezed out a little smile.

"Huh? Not anymore." Lu Lixi shook his head, and when he saw Yi Jiangliu coming down, he rushed over and held Yi Jiangliu's hand, "Jiangliu! Let's go home quickly, I always feel like it's been a long time It's like coming home!"

Yi Jiangliu raised his hand and inserted it into his hair, stroking it gently back and forth, staring at him deeply.His bloodless face gradually turned red, and finally he ducked down and ran to the front with a smile.

Walking slowly to the parking lot, Yi's mother wiped her eyes: "How could this be? Such a small river, how could...even...can't find anything..."

Yi Jiangliu said: "They must still be alive, otherwise it's impossible to find them. Mom, before you find them, don't mention their names to Xiao Xi."

Yi's mother choked up: "But...the little policemen said that Mr. Lu was shot four times, and Xiao Yuan was still a child and couldn't swim."

Yi Jiangliu said, "Stop talking, Mom, they must still be alive."

Lu Lixi turned around and waited for them: "Hurry up, it's too slow!" He waited for a while, then ran back and took Yi Jiangliu's hand, "Jiangliu, let's go shopping, I'm going tonight Come cook."

"Okay." Lu Lixi looked at him, turned his face away and raised the corner of his mouth quietly.

After buying groceries, Lu Lixi was busy in the kitchen wearing an apron.Yi Jiangliu closed the floor-to-ceiling windows and kept making phone calls on the balcony. Yi's mother sat on the sofa and flipped through Yi Chenyuan's photos secretly wiping tears.She got up, checked all the rooms again, and made sure to put away all the photos of Obuchi.

After finishing the phone call, Yi Jiangliu went into the kitchen.

"Close the door quickly!" Lu Lixi commanded him, "Otherwise all the oily smoke will float out!"

Yi Jiangliu closed the door, walked behind him and put his arms around him, sticking close to his face: "Do you have a headache?"

Lu Lixi said, "It doesn't hurt anymore! You are going out soon, and it will affect my performance."

Yi Jiangliu hugged him tighter, and asked him again: "Are you tired? Let me come, huh?"

Lu Lixi turned his head and said, "What's the matter with you, why are you acting weird lately?"

Yi Jiangliu leaned over, kissed him on the lips, and said, "No. Xiaoxi...I love you."

Lu Lixi's ears turned red, and he drove him out with a shovel.After the dishes were cooked, he took the bowl in the disinfection cabinet, and after opening it, he saw a small kawaii bowl.He took out the bowl and looked at it suspiciously, his heart suddenly seemed to be clenched tightly by something, he felt as if he had forgotten something very important.

He went out with the bowl and asked, "How can there be such a cute bowl?"

Yi Jiangliu and Yi's mother were stunned at the same time, and Yi's mother quickly said, "Oh, I bought that for chili sauce."

Lu Lixi saw that her eyes were a little red, so he didn't say anything, and went into the kitchen with the bowl.

After taking a shower, Lu Lixi lay on the bed, reading a book.After Yi Jiangliu came in, he immediately jumped up from the bed, and Yi Jiangliu hurriedly caught him.He put his arms around Yi Jiangliu's neck and said, "Jiangliu, does your mother want to hug her grandson? That's why she's always been unhappy."

Yi Jiangliu pressed against his forehead, and said softly, "Don't think about it." He hugged him, put him on the bed and covered him with a quilt.

Lu Lixi asked him, "Don't you need to work overtime?"

Yi Jiangliu said, "No need. I'll accompany you."

Lu Lixi huddled in his arms and said, "Jiang Liu is finally free tonight, he is usually very busy."

Yi Jiangliu touched his face: "I'm sorry, Xiaoxi."

Lu Lixi said, "It's okay, Jiang Liu, when are you free? Didn't we say we were going to adopt a child to make your mother happier?"

Yi Jiangliu was silent for a moment, and said, "Wait a minute, the company is a bit busy during this time."

Lu Lixi gave an obedient "Yes", and Yi Jiangliu said, "Don't be bored at home tomorrow, accompany me to the company. I don't feel at ease if you stay at home alone."

Lu Lixi raised her head and smiled: "It's not that serious, I mean, I feel like my mind is empty after waking up, and it's not really amnesia."

Yi Jiangliu met his crooked eyes, suddenly lowered his head and kissed him tightly, Lu Lixi submissively accepted his slightly aggressive deep kiss, and quietly hugged his back tightly amidst the heat.

The next day, Yi Jiangliu insisted on bringing Lu Lixi to the company.Lu Lixi felt that this place was very strange, but he didn't dare to tell Yi Jiangliu for fear that Yi Jiangliu would be worried.He sat behind the coffee table, reading a book bored.

Yi Jiangliu always looked up at him occasionally, and when he saw that he was absent-minded, he put down his pen and called him: "Xiao Xi, come here."

Lu Lixi dropped the book and walked over.Yi Jiangliu turned the chair around, pulled him to sit on his lap, kissed him, and asked, "Are you bored?"

Lu Lixi nodded: "I don't know why, but I always feel like there are more important things to do..."

Yi Jiangliu lowered his head, and sealed his slightly disturbed words with a gentle kiss.The tip of the hot tongue brushed against his lips and teeth, Yi Jiangliu retreated slightly, his breath was hot: "Don't think about other things, feel me wholeheartedly."

Lu Lixi slowly closed his eyes, and wrapped his hands limply around Yi Jiangliu's neck.The slippery tongue brushed over the soft lips, and after a tentative collision, Lu Lixi ushered in a possessive licking, kissing and sucking, tossing and turning, rubbing and entangled.

Yi Jiangliu's kiss was hot and deep.He gently wrapped around the tip of Lu Lixi's tongue, sucking and swallowing the body fluid in his mouth, as if no amount of kissing was enough.The soft touch and familiar smell made him unable to stop.

All of this used to belong to him alone.

Lu Lixi opened his eyes bewilderedly in a gradually slower and gentler rhythm.When he saw Yi Jiangliu staring at him, he had affectionate and sad eyes, which made his heart tingle for no reason.The deep and lingering kiss suddenly became lingering, and he gently inserted his five fingers into Yi Jiang's hair in a comforting manner, stroking.

Yi Jiangliu hugged his waist tightly, buried his head into his neck, took a deep breath, and closed his eyes.

Lu Lixi patted him on the back lightly, and the two of them hugged each other for a while.

"Boss Yi!" Suddenly there was an urgent knock on the door, "A man who claimed to be the boss of Haizhu Lu Group broke in and wanted to see you, so I put him in the reception room."

Yi Jiangliu reluctantly kissed the side of Lu Lixi's neck, hugged him and put him on the chair, and said, "Be obedient and wait for me here."

Lu Lixi nodded obediently, and when Yi Jiangliu's hand slipped from his palm, he suddenly grabbed that hand and said, "I love you too, Jiang Liu."

After Yi Jiangliu was stunned for a moment, Lu Lixi was pushed on the back of the chair and kissed her wet lips again.

Yi Jiangliu finally left. Lu Lixi sat in front of Yi Jiangliu's desk and fiddled with the documents on the desktop. When he looked up, the computer happened to be locked because it had not been operated for a long time. It was dark for a moment, and a picture appeared on the desktop. photo.

He and Yi Jiangliu hugged a little boy in the middle from left to right, and the little boy was holding an All Might in his hand.The eyes are round and very cute.

——"It's okay, Daddy. Shh, don't quarrel with Dad. You can't beat him. When Xiao Yuan can transform into a superhero, Daddy can fight with Dad."

Lu Lixi moved his Adam's apple slightly, and said softly, "Xiaoyuan?" He covered his head, and suddenly remembered many, many episodes.

——"Daddy! Daddy! It's a dinosaur! Whoa whoa!"

——"Xiao Yuan loves Daddy very much, and he also loves Daddy very much!"

"Xiaoyuan?" Lu Lixi slowly lay down on the table, "Xiaoyuan..."

In the reception room, Lu Yuyu was almost yelling: "Can't you find it?! You told me that you didn't find such a small river after a week?! I heard that my brother blocked four shots for your son, right? Yi, let me tell you, I'll give you three more days, if my brother can't stand here alive, you can wait to be buried with him!"

Lu Yaoyu waved his hands angrily and left. A few minutes later, Yi Jiangliu also left the reception room, and all the employees immediately bowed their heads to work.Yi Jiangliu returned to the office, saw Lu Lixi lying on the table, hurried over, squatted aside and called him, "Little Xi? Are you uncomfortable?"

Lu Lixi raised his head, and his face was covered with tears. He asked, "We...we already have a son, named Xiaoyuan, right?"

Yi Jiangliu looked away with a sad expression.Lu Lixi said, "What happened to him?" His memory was very confused, and he could only remember a little bit, "Xiao Yuan was seriously ill, very seriously ill, the doctor said that he would not survive ten days , I..." His memory was reversed, and he said incoherently, "I went to Abbot Bodhidharma to help me, and then... Abbot Bodhidharma said, I have great merits and virtues, and I can change my fate, so... I just Divide... half of your lifespan to Xiaoyuan. But... what happened later? What happened later? It’s useless, right? It’s a lie, right? Xiaoyuan didn’t come back to life, right?”

Yi Jiangliu looked at him with wide eyes.

Lu Lixi said: "What the hell is going on here? How could I have such a memory? Actually, it was my dream, right? Xiao Yuan... still... didn't come back to life, did he?"

No, Xiaoyuan has come back to life.

Because Fang was stationed abroad and had just arrived, at that time, Yi Jiangliu was still in the adaptation period, and everything was not so smooth.When the news of Xiaoyuan's serious illness reached his ears, it was even worse.Later, maybe Lu Lixi realized it and stopped letting this matter worry him.It was clear that the notice of critical illness had been issued, but at that time, Yi Chenyuan suddenly recovered.Yi Jiangliu didn't experience all this personally, he just thought it was a doctor's misdiagnosis and exaggerated.

The things Lu Lixi said that he never knew before reminded him of something he experienced when he was 22 years old.At that time, his work improved a bit, he provided a car, and on the first day he mentioned the car, he drove Lu Lixi to Shenzhen to play.

It was only a short ten-minute separation, but Lu Lixi picked up a boy in black from the street and got into the car. They planned to send him directly to the police station, but for some reason, the car didn't listen to Yi Jiangliu's orders at all.Later, he lost consciousness, and when he woke up, it was already the next day, and Lu Lixi drove him back.He had questioned Lu Lixi about this, but at the time he didn't believe it at all.

Thinking about it now, Lu Lixi did tell him at the time that the kid claimed to be Bodhidharma and lived in the east of the east wind and the end of the northwest.At that time, Lu Lixi also told him the approximate location.

If all of this is true... Yi Jiangliu suddenly held Lu Lixi's face in his hands, his voice trembling: "Xiao Xi, you gave half of your life to Xiao Yuan?"

Lu Lixi shook his head: "It's a lie, Xiaoyuan didn't come back to life..." He cried and hugged Yi Jiangliu.

Yi Jiangliu blinked, and some salty liquid dripped from the corners of his eyes.

——*——

Fearing that Lu Lixi's state would make Yi's mother worry, Yi Jiangliu called and told Yi's mother that they would not go back, so he took Lu Lixi to another house of his own.

Yi Jiangliu didn't dare to leave Lu Lixi for a moment. He cooked by himself, but he had to drag Lu Lixi to the kitchen to talk with him.At night, they hug each other and sleep together.

Sleeping until midnight, Yi Jiangliu was awakened by a noise.Lu Lixi was not on the bed, so he got up in panic and ran out barefoot, only to find Lu Lixi standing in the kitchen with his back to him, holding a knife in his hand and slashing at his fingers.Blood dripped onto the ground.

Yi Jiangliu was scared out of his wits, rushed in and grabbed the blade from Lu Lixi's hand: "Xiaoxi...Xiaoxi, please don't do this, I'm scared, please." He hugged Lu Lixi tightly into his arms.

Lu Lixi woke up with a jolt, he pushed Yi Jiangliu away and saw that Yi Jiangliu's hands were covered in blood, and his haggard face was covered with tears.Yi Jiangliu had never cried before, and he had never been so embarrassed.Lu Lixi felt pain in his heart, he took the knife and threw it away, saying, "I'm sorry, Jiang Liu, I don't know why this happened."

He dragged Yi Jiangliu to the living room and sat down on the sofa, turned on the light, and hurriedly took out the alcohol and band-aids.Yi Jiangliu held his hand and said in a trembling voice, "Don't move."

He dipped a cotton swab in alcohol, carefully sterilized Lu Lixi's wound, and put a Band-Aid on him while pursing his lips.

Lu Lixi looked at Yi Jiangliu blankly.The face that was always handsome and flamboyant in his memory was now dominated by gloom.Even in the most difficult time of his career, he has never been in such a state.

Is it all because of myself, because I became like this after my head was injured?

Lu Lixi lowered his head and saw Yi Jiangliu's bloody palm, which was no longer bleeding.He took out the hand that had been treated, took a new cotton swab, and carefully treated Yi Jiangliu's wound like Yi Jiangliu did to him.

He put his face sideways on Yi Jiangliu's leg, and said, "I'm sorry, Jiangliu. I just...dreamed that Xiaoyuan asked me for help. He said he needed my blood, and I...I must give it to him, otherwise... ...He will have an accident...I don't know why I have such a dream...I'm sorry."

——"The intermittent and intermittent memory makes him very likely to suffer from schizophrenia."

The doctor's words rang in Yi Jiangliu's mind. He pulled Lu Lixi up and hugged her tightly.