destroy me, heal me

Lu Lixi sat absent-mindedly, the waiters outside the door came and went, occasionally laughing and laughing, the boiled water on the table was steaming on its own, as if it didn't matter to anyone.This booth is on the second floor, and through the window you can see the scene outside the restaurant.

A child took her mother's hand and pointed to the penguin balloon in the store.Mom looked at her watch and took her to buy it.Little girl happily kisses her mother's face.Another man walked towards them with big bags and small bags, and the family of three left happily.

Lu Lixi raised his hand and grabbed the hot water cup on the table.The heat is transmitted to the palm of the hand through the nerves, but not to the heart.

A car was parked in the downstairs parking area.A man in a suit and leather shoes got out of the car.His name is Yi Jiangliu, and in this minute, he is still Lu Lixi's legal husband. ...at least under US law.

Yi Jiangliu walked around to the co-driver, opened the door in a gentlemanly manner, and greeted a tall and beautiful woman.This woman's name is Qi Fanghui, and soon she will become Yi Jiangliu's legal wife, and she will be legal in front of the whole world and everyone.

They walked into the dining room arm in arm and affectionately.

Lu Lixi withdrew all his expressions and sat up straight.

A few minutes later, the waiter brought Yi Jiangliu and Qi Fanghui in, and closed the door when they went out.

Lu Lixi slightly curled the corners of his mouth and said, "Miss Qi, hello."

Although Qi Fanghui had a haughty expression, she behaved dignifiedly and spoke elegantly.She got straight to the point: "The topic between us should only be limited to Xiao Yuan."

Qi Fanghui's parents are university professors. She has a Ph.D. and works for a Sinopharm Research Group; Yi Jiangliu, who has a master's degree in literature, used to be the planning director of the headquarters of the largest real estate company in the country, and is now a listed company boss.

As for Lu Lixi, he didn't even finish junior high school... Maybe he was almost illiterate, in the hearts of Qi Fanghui and Yi Jiangliu.

It seemed that their topic was only about one small abyss.

Yi Chenyuan is a child adopted by Yi Jiangliu and Lu Lixi, only 5 years old.

Qi Fanghui said: "There will be no problems you worry about. I am not the vicious stepmother in fairy tales. I will treat Xiao Yuan as well as my own children."

The arc of Lu Lixi's mouth finally couldn't hold back anymore, he looked at Yi Jiangliu, then lowered his head again.

"Mr. Lu?"

Lu Lixi raised his head and pulled out of his memory.Qi Fanghui said: "Although Mr. Lu didn't read many books, he is still young and beautiful. If you go out to the bar for a while, there must be a lot of men rushing to raise him. I heard that you will still return to Jiangliu now. Living there, it should be... not because you still want to pester Jiang Liu?"

Lu Lixi looked at Yi Jiangliu, and Yi Jiangliu was playing with the teacup, letting Qi Fanghui say what she wanted to say.Not even the slightest intention to stop it.He laughed at himself and said, "I went back to see Xiaoyuan."

Qi Fanghui nodded: "The property issue has been made very clear, right? The house belongs to Jiang Liu, and Mr. Lu did not contribute more than half of it, so it will definitely not be distributed to Mr. Lu. I heard Jiang Liu said that this Over the past few years, Mr. Lu's contribution to this family has been almost nothing except adding to the obstacles. However, I heard that after Mr. Lu left this family, he has nothing, not even a place to live. Therefore, Jiang Liu will give Mr. Lu Provide a subsidy of 3 yuan... It should be, thank Mr. Lu for being willing to stay at home for many years and be a house husband to take care of Xiaoyuan."

Lu Lixi glanced at Yi Jiangliu again. Yi Jiangliu was leaning on the back of the chair, with the corners of his mouth slightly slanted, looking very sarcastic.

3 yuan is a thank you.

The lack of focus in Lu Lixi's eyes completely sank.He took out his mobile phone and said, "No matter what Miss Qi said, she is also a well-known lady from a wealthy family. Can you say 3 yuan?" He looked at Yi Jiangliu, "[-] yuan. Now, transfer it to me. Then, it’s time to sign and sign, and it’s time to end it. No entanglement.”

Qi Fanghui smiled knowingly, and the mockery in Yi Jiangliu's eyes was even worse.

One hundred thousand arrives.

Lu Lixi put away her phone.

Qi Fanghui went to the bathroom, Lu Lixi said, "Can't you really let Xiaoyuan follow me?"

Yi Jiangliu once fascinated Lu Lixi with ridicule: "If you want to ask me for even 10 yuan, what can you give him? Take him to live in a village in the city? Take the bus and the subway every day? Wear street stalls Aside from other things, can you manage school? Do you have any relationship?... Oh, sorry, if you think about it, there will naturally be a lot of money that will line up to support you. I retract the preface, and I am very sorry." He smiled, and suddenly became gloomy again, "But, I don't want my son to grow up in that disgusting environment."

Lu Lixi clenched the water glass in his hand, then let it go.

Not even the temperature of boiling water.

"I won't go back tonight, you clean up all your things. In order to avoid my wife's misunderstanding, you don't come here again. If you want to see Xiao Yuan, please call Zhong Yuan, and Zhong Yuan will send Xiao Yuan there Looking for you."

——*——

"Daddy!" Yi Chenyuan who was sitting on the sofa watching TV heard the sound of the door opening, immediately jumped off the sofa and rushed towards Lu Lixi.

Lu Lixi took him into his arms, hugged him around twice, and kissed his forehead again: "Is Xiaoyuan obedient at home!"

Yi Chenyuan nodded vigorously: "Yeah! Yes. Daddy, Xiaoyuan is really obedient!" He hugged Lu Lixi's neck and whispered, "So, Daddy, you won't leave Ours, right?"

Lu Lixi was taken aback for a moment, and the voice of the babysitter, Sister Qing, came over: "Mr. Lu, you are back."

Lu Lixi rubbed Yi Chenyuan's head, put him on the sofa and asked him to continue watching TV.The nanny followed him to the back room.He asked, "Sister Qing, did you talk to Xiao Yuan?"

Sister Qing sighed: "No way. Mr. Lu, it's not like you don't know, Xiaoyuan is so smart, there is something he doesn't know. Mr. Yi hasn't been home for so long, and finally came back once, and he was still on the balcony What did you say about the divorce on the phone? Can Xiaoyuan not guess? Don't think that the child is still young and doesn't understand anything, in fact, he knows better than anyone else. "

Lu Lixi's eyes darkened, and Sister Qing said, "Mr. Lu, although I haven't been working here for a long time, I can tell that Xiao Yuan will never leave you. I really don't know if you really leave , what will happen to Xiao Yuan?"

[My Hero Academia] was playing on TV, and when All Might raised his hands in victory and laughed loudly, Obuchi's eyes sparkled.He turned around and said to Lu Lixi, "Daddy, have you seen that? I will also become that kind of hero, and I will definitely protect others and you. You must wait for me."

Lu Lixi sat on the sofa and hugged him into his arms: "Then, can we make an agreement?"

Xiao Yuan raised his head and looked at Lu Lixi: "What agreement? Daddy."

Lu Lixi said: "Xiao Yuan, Daddy may...can't live here any longer. But, it's not like you think, leaving you alone. Daddy just needs to be separated from Daddy. You are still Daddy and Daddy." Dad's son. Daddy will often come to pick you up and take you to play, okay?"

Xiao Yuan tilted his head slightly, and after a long time, he said, "Daddy, are you and Dad going to divorce?"

Lu Lixi took a deep breath: "I'm sorry, Xiaoyuan."

Unexpectedly, Yi Chenyuan didn't cry, but said: "It's okay, Daddy. Take me away, I want to live with Daddy."

Lu Lixi hugged Yi Chenyuan tightly.He suddenly understood that he couldn't let Xiao Yuan go.In the past, he was always beaten to pieces by Yi Jiangliu's words.Yi Jiangliu thought that Xiaoyuan would live at the bottom of society if he followed him, and even sometimes he thought so.So he always thinks that Xiaoyuan can live a good life only by following Yi Jiangliu, but he always ignores Xiaoyuan's own thoughts.If Xiaoyuan wanted to live with him, he would take Xiaoyuan with him no matter what happens.

He took a deep breath and gave Xiaoyuan a big smile: "This agreement is like this. After a month, Daddy will come here to pick up Xiaoyuan. During this month, an aunt may live here, Xiaoyuan How about getting along well with her? I hope that when I come to pick up Xiaoyuan in a month, I can see Xiaoyuan happily and politely saying goodbye to that aunt. Okay?"

Xiao Yuan thought for a while, then nodded: "Okay. Daddy, I will not let you down."

Lu Lixi kissed his forehead again, and said, "That's great. Let's go, Daddy will take you to take a bath."

When putting the fragrant Xiaoyuan into the bed, Lu Lixi solemnly told him: "Xiaoyuan, from now on, Daddy will call you every day. You must remember to let Aunt Qing charge your phone and watch, and then use it every day. Wear it on your hand, you know?"

Xiaoyuan nodded: "Yes, I see. Daddy, let's pull Gougou, you must come to pick me up soon."

After coaxing him to sleep, Lu Lixi called Sister Qing to the living room and told her, "Sister Qing, I will move out tomorrow. Because I have something to do in my hometown, I need to go back. I still need to take care of everything. Then come back to pick up Xiaoyuan. So during this time, I will trouble you to take care of Xiaoyuan. Please remember to charge his phone watch every day, and tell him to wear the phone watch before going out every day..."

The next day, Lu Lixi set off on his way home.

Two days ago, his uncle passed away due to illness. Although no relatives informed him, he still decided to go back.He leaned against the car window, staring blankly at the rapidly sweeping flowers and plants.

After getting out of the car, Lu Lixi didn't go home. Instead, he went to a hotel in the center of the town and got a room. After packing his luggage, he went to a nursing home.

After registering his name, the person in charge took him to a small room.The small room was very dirty and there was an old man lying on the bed.Hearing the sound, the old man sat up.

Lu Lixi finally breathed a sigh of relief: "Uncle Lu, that's great, you're fine."

After the person in charge went out, Lu Lixi sat on the chair beside the bed and said, "Do you remember me?"

The old man's name was Lu Sheng, and he was from the same village as Lu Lixi.He lived a very poor life and never married, because people in the village always rumored that he was crazy and a little abnormal, so no one wanted to marry him.He looked at Lu Lixi for a while, and said, "Who are you?"

Sure enough, I don't know each other.Lu Lixi didn't mind either, after all, the last time we met was when he was 13 years old.He clasped his hands and said, "I... I am Lu Lixi, the son of Lu Shupeng. A few years ago, I stayed at your house, remember?"

Lu Sheng didn't speak, but stared at Lu Lixi with a pair of eyes.Lu Lixi still remembers that when he was a child, the children who went to school together were afraid of him, saying that he was a madman who would beat children.Therefore, many people will throw stones at him and run away after throwing them.At that time, Lu Lixi was also very afraid of this strange man, although he would not say excessive things to him, he would run away when he saw him.

However, it was just such a person who took him in when Lu Lixi lost his parents at the age of 13 and all relatives were unwilling to raise him.Although he secretly left that place in just one month, he always remembered the kindness of this person.

After he worked outside and his living conditions improved, he asked a classmate in the same village who he was very familiar with and who is the only one who still has contact with him and is very honest, to transfer some living expenses to the elderly for him every month.Of course, he has always asked his classmates to keep the living expenses secret, and he only prevaricates the elderly in the name of the village committee helping the poor.He didn't want it to be known in the village.

The reason why he decided to come back this time, besides his uncle's passing away, was that his classmate told him that the old man's dilapidated house collapsed because of the continuous heavy rain some time ago.He is now temporarily taken to a nursing home.However, he knew how poor the conditions in the nursing home were, so he decided to take the elderly to Guangzhou.

Lu Sheng didn't say whether he remembered Lu Lixi or not, but said inexplicably, "Your fate has been forcibly changed."

"..." Lu Lixi was taken aback for a moment, but he heard this kind of nonsense a lot when he was a child, so he didn't pay much attention to it, and just repeated, "Uncle Lu, I heard that your house has collapsed, and now there is no place to go. live. So I want to come back and take you to the city where I live, which is Guangzhou. If you want, please wait for me for two days. I will go home to attend the funeral tomorrow, and we will leave for Guangzhou the day after tomorrow."

Lu Sheng lay down again and said, "My roots grow here, and I can't get out."

Lu Lixi was silent for a moment, and said: "Please think about it, I will come to you the day after tomorrow." He stood up, "Then I will take my leave first."

Walking to the gate of the nursing home, a silver Toyota car honked its horn.Lu Lixi looked around and saw no one else, so he walked towards the car.The car window was lowered, revealing a very handsome and three-dimensional face, he smiled at Lu Lixi: "Xiaoxi."

It took Lu Lixi a few minutes to recall, and said in disbelief, "You are... Lu Huaijin?"

Lu Huaijin was the "familiar and honest classmate" that Lu Lixi asked to hand over the living expenses. However, at that time, Lu Lixi remembered that although he was tall, he had a crew cut for many years, and he was far less outstanding than he is now.

Lu Huaijin said: "It's been a long time since I saw you, so you've changed a lot, right? But, I recognized you immediately." He looked into Lu Lixi's eyes, "You said you would come back, I guess, you should I came here first, so I came here without permission."

Lu Lixi laughed: "Okay. I originally planned to go to you next time. After all these years, I have never given up. Please allow me to treat you as a guest."

After sitting in the co-pilot, Lu Lixi asked him, "Don't you have to go to work today? Even if it's the government, this time should be working time, right?"

Lu Huaijin turned her head, and raised her index finger to her lips mysteriously: "Shh, if I'm found out, I'll be miserable."

Lu Lixi smiled softly, Lu Huaijin started the car, and said, "I really didn't expect that ten years have passed in the blink of an eye. We haven't seen each other for ten years. Back then, you and I were originally in the class of ten thousand. It's a pity that...Xiaoxi, if it wasn't for your running away without a trace back then, I would have persuaded my parents to adopt you."

Lu Lixi said sincerely: "Thank you, good brother." He did not doubt Lu Huaijin's words at all. Lu Huaijin was such an upright and loyal person.

Lu Huaijin said: "Thank you for what you say, I haven't accomplished anything."

Lu Lixi shook his head: "You've already done a lot."

Lu Huaijin smiled: "Are you married now? I've never heard you mention any personal matters. I'm quite curious."

Lu Lixi was slightly startled, and said, "I have a...five-year-old son."

Lu Huaijin was silent for a moment, and said, "Is it so powerful? I don't even have time to talk about marriage. Now I'm left as a single dog, and I'm ridiculed every day."

Lu Lixi said again: "But... that, I'm also divorced." He smiled wryly, "Well, it's a very failed marriage anyway, let's not mention it."

Lu Huaijin drove the car intently and didn't continue.

After eating a meal for a long time, they did not communicate with each other in depth.After coming out of the hotel, Lu Huaijin invited Lu Lixi to live at his house, but Lu Lixi refused.Lu Huaijin didn't say much, and drove him to the hotel.

After the phone call with Yi Chenyuan, Lu Lixi lay on the bed, thinking a lot.He was actually very afraid that he would not be able to give Yi Chenyuan a happy life. He hadn't gone out to work for two years, and he had only been a low-level job like a waiter before. He was afraid that he would really do what Yi Jiangliu said, Nothing can be given to Xiaoyuan.

——*——

Early the next morning, Lu Lixi went downstairs and found Lu Huaijin waiting for him downstairs again. He said, "The traffic in the village is very inconvenient. There are almost no cars passing by. If a chartered car goes there, the villagers will speak loudly. So, I sent You go there."

Lu Lixi was very unwilling to bother him anymore, and refused, "No need, Huai Jin. Really no need, I'm a native born and bred, I won't let others kill me, don't worry."

Lu Huaijin said, "Actually, I'm going back to attend the funeral, so I'll just bring you with me."

That being said, it's still possible.Besides, Lu Huaijin was really like him, wearing a pure black suit.Lu Lixi had no choice but to sit on it and said, "Thank you, Huai Jin. I never thought that you would be willing to attend my uncle's funeral. Back then, alas... even thinking about it now, I still feel very sorry for you. Back then I'm sorry, really."

The so-called incident in the past happened after Lu Lixi left, a dispute between adults in the village.Because of a trivial matter, and when Lu Huaijin's mother was not at fault, Lu Lixi's uncle went berserk and severely injured her.Afterwards, the treatment almost used up all the savings of Lu Huaijin's family.It is also because of this that Lu Huaijin gave up her studies and accepted the government job in her hometown.Lu Huaijin didn't tell him this in detail, but he guessed it based on Lu Huaijin's few words and asking other students.

Lu Huaijin said: "What about you? Your uncles treated you like this back then, haven't you come back?"

Lu Lixi said: "It's different, they are my relatives after all. Back then, even though they were very heartless, they took me in for a few days after all."

Lu Huaijin: "Yes, because you are such a kind person, so I don't want to be thrown too far away by you."

Lu Lixi couldn't help but suppress his smile again: "A person like me? Huai Jin, you really think too much of me. I came back this time to break up with them. Actually, I'm just a loser. I am nothing."

Lu Huaijin glanced at him, and he wiped his face: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

Lu Huaijin patted his shoulder with one hand.

——*——

It was a very typical rural funeral.The coffin was placed in the open space, and incense paper candles were constantly burning in front of it.Because they were all disgraced villagers, when Lu Lixi and Lu Huaijin appeared, they attracted everyone's attention.

They are also tall and slender, one is handsome and tough, the other is gentle and melancholy, they are also well-dressed, exuding an aura that is incompatible with this place.

Although Lu Huaijin and his family moved to the center of the town, after all, they are still in the local area, and everyone still knows each other, but no one recognizes Lu Lixi.

When they passed by the family members, Lu Lixi's aunt led the three children to kneel down together according to the custom.Lu Huaijin helped them up.Lu Lixi's aunt was grateful. She actually sent an invitation to Lu Huaijin, but Lu Huaijin refused at that time. She didn't know why Lu Huaijin came again now.However, no matter what, Lu Huaijin is now an official, but she is still willing to attend her husband's funeral. To her, it may mean that he no longer remembers the past, and her family will be much more relaxed.She looked at Lu Lixi and said, "Is this Xiaojin's friend?"

Lu Huaijin looked at Lu Lixi, and Lu Lixi called without any ups and downs: "Auntie."

Her eyes changed dramatically.

Lu Lixi dragged Lu Huaijin to his uncle's coffin, and the two of them knelt down together and burned some incense paper candles.

While waiting to go up the mountain, Lu Lixi and Lu Huaijin stood far away from the crowd in the desolate field.Lu Lixi patted the dirt off Lu Huaijin's knees and said, "Huaijin, you don't need to kneel down on him."

Lu Huaijin shook her head: "It's okay. I want to kneel with you once, but I will only kneel this time. Xiaoxi, do you want to follow up the mountain?"

Lu Lixi nodded, and Lu Huaijin said, "Okay, I'll wait for you in the car."

Lu Lixi added: "If you're busy, you can go back first and don't have to wait for me."

Lu Huaijin lit a cigarette, and the smoke was lingering. He squinted his eyes slightly: "If you say such things to me again, you will be too out of touch. It's not the first time I've been so nice to you for so many years. Are you cautious?"

After such a reminder, Lu Lixi realized that this was actually the case, and it seemed a bit hypocritical to evade it.He smiled and said, "Give me one."

Lu Huaijin leaned in front of him, exhaled a little smoke, and he coughed immediately.Lu Huaijin smirked: "See? No. Good kids are not allowed to smoke."

Lu Lixi covered his mouth with the back of his hand, and coughed until his eyes became moist: "Then you are still smoking."

Lu Huaijin said: "I'm a bad boy wearing a good boy's skin, Xiaoxi. You haven't discovered it until now, have you?" He looked into the distance, threw the cigarette on the ground, stomped it out, "Go Well, it's time."

When the coffin went up the mountain, Lu Lixi, dressed in sackcloth and filial piety, followed behind the family members, bowing silently. All the way down, his knees were painfully ground by small stones, but he remained expressionless the whole time.When the coffin was buried, he didn't say anything.

The family finally left the cemetery, and Lu Lixi's aunt asked the three children to go back with the villagers first, leaving Lu Lixi behind.In front of her husband's grave, her eyes were red: "Xiao Xi, it was my aunt who was sorry for you. After all these years, I never thought of asking someone to find your whereabouts, so that you are still willing to come back, I... ..."

Lu Lixi said: "I don't need to say these things. Auntie. Actually, I came back to give you this." He took out a card from his pocket, "There is 10 yuan in the card, and I will use it for now. Think of it as tuition fees for younger siblings. With this condition, let them get a little more education. It is very hard to go out to work when they are too young. The password is uncle’s birthday, you can change it yourself. Auntie, I will not come back in the future Take care." After he finished speaking, he turned around resolutely, leaving the tearful woman alone in the cemetery.

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