die like the dodo

Knowing Lu Boyuan's name was after they had sex.

Lu Boyuan kissed the skin on Pei Zian's ear and asked him, "Do you want to be together?"

Pei Zian was a little funny: "But you haven't told me your name yet."

Lu Boyuan kissed his ear all the way to his lips, and said, "Is this important?"

Pei Zian nodded.Lu Boyuan didn't kiss him again, but stroked his hair and opened the curtains.He smoked a cigarette with his back on his back, and chuckled again with the corners of his mouth curled up like that: "My name is Lu Boyuan."

I don't know why, but after hearing the answer, Pei Zian couldn't be happy again. He lowered his eyes and saw a beam of light falling on Lu Boyuan's feet, cutting light and darkness into two separate pieces, as if they couldn't be combined no matter what. .

It's pathetic to be alone.After making love with Lu Boyuan for the first time, Pei Zian wanted to cry because he knew that he couldn't keep Lu Boyuan.

He could never say that Lu Boyuan was wrong, Lu Boyuan just chose something that he valued more than love.He wanted to go abroad, Pei Zian actually guessed it a long time ago, contrary to his frivolous appearance, Lu Boyuan is an ambitious and ideal person.He did follow his life plan step by step, but it was obvious that there was no room for Pei Zian in Lu Boyuan's plan for the future.

Pei Zian asked himself if he knew the ending from the beginning, would he still choose to be with Lu Boyuan?After thinking about it for a long time, Pei Zian still couldn't think of an answer. Lu Boyuan's influence on him was too deep, and he was no longer just an ex who had been entangled with him for three years.

Lu Boyuan studied archaeology, and during the three years that Pei Zian was with him, they traveled all over the city's large and small museums. He heard Lu Boyuan talk about the uses of those rusty bronzes thousands of years ago. He talked about these There is always light in his eyes when he is young, Pei Zian likes to see him like this.He asked Lu Boyuan why he liked bronze wares.

Lu Boyuan gazed gently through the display cabinet, cherishing every inch of the complicated and twisted patterns on the surface of the bronze wares. He said, "Don't you think it's interesting? The copper rust that was supposed to be a disease has become an armor to protect the copper wares in the accumulation of time. They gradually become one, living in contradiction. When I look at them, I can think a lot, such as..."

"Life is short, and I love you very much right now."

Lu Boyuan pulled Pei Zian through these vicissitudes of bronze, hid in the dark corner of the exhibition hall and kissed quietly, every moment the tip of the tongue touched, exchanged love with each other heartily, the thousand years of time stopped around the two, everything was in harmony It's just right.

Pei Zian finally understood why he was so afraid of Lu Boyuan's departure, there would never be such a person who attracted him like Lu Boyuan, from body to soul, there was no place that he didn't look like he loved.

Lu Boyuan asked Pei Zian to stop his love for him, but still wanted them to continue to be friends. Pei Zian clearly understood that this was impossible.Because love is an adventure, unlike friendship, it explores the unknown and is an unstoppable pursuit. *

He was always looking for Lu Boyuan over and over again, and sometimes Pei Zian felt that he was more suitable to be an archaeologist than Lu Boyuan, if he used this curiosity on the right path.

The imprint that Lu Boyuan brought to Pei Zian is an inscription engraved on the bronze, which is unforgettable and cannot be erased no matter how much time passes.After Lu Boyuan left, Pei Zian never started a new relationship. He held an idea that could not be verified, and never left the city that made him heartbroken.

During the graduation season when everyone was busy going their separate ways, he was wearing a bachelor's uniform in front of the library, and asked passers-by to take the last photo of his student days.He saw the girls who were also taking graduation photos hugging each other and crying. They comforted each other and said that they would keep in touch in the future.The photographer called 123, and the bachelor's cap was thrown into the air along with the girl's flying hair.Pei Zian smiled lightly, but his eyes began to blur.He thought that he would never forget Lu Boyuan.

After that, Pei Zian took his graduation certificate of ceramic art design, walked into a certain museum that he and Lu Boyuan had visited hand in hand, and became a cultural relic restorer in the ceramics group.

The former classmates were more or less surprised when they heard about his work. Pei Zian was the student most favored by the teacher in their class. He was unrestrained, romantic and sensitive, as if he was a natural ceramic artist. No one would have thought of this Pei Zian will go to repair work.The restoration of cultural relics is by no means the re-creation of the artist. What he wants to do is to get as close to the original state of the cultural relics as possible to the existing extent. It is only a rule of "repairing the old as old"* that has made unrestrained artists frown .

Only Pei Zian knew how ulterior motives he had in choosing this job, and it wasn't just clay figurines that needed to be restored.He is like a dead dodo waiting for an archaeologist to come and bring his remains to light.

*Hua used his own expense Xiaotong "Homeland China": "Love is an adventure, a groping for the unknown. This is different from friendship. Friendship can stop understanding to a certain extent, but love does not stop. It is a pursuit. .”

*Repair the old as before: One of the principles to be observed in the protection and restoration of cultural relics refers to restoring the cultural relics to a healthy "original state". What it looked like at that time, but should be the state that contains the most historical value.For example, the restoration of bronze ware will not restore it to the original golden color, but will retain the cyan patina, because this part of the patina is already a part of aesthetics and culture, and it is also valuable.When restoring pottery, whether to fill in some completely missing parts has to be discussed. If there is a basis for restoration, you can try to complete it, but you must keep the traces of the restoration and not mislead the audience.If you can't find a basis, simply don't complete it.This principle can be written in a paper when explained in detail, so I won’t go into details_(:з)∠)_