die like the dodo

One day in 1681, the last dodo bird on earth died, and the species was declared extinct.

One day in 2014, Pei Zian wrote in his diary that he left and I died like a dodo.

That seemed to be a flustered spring, an extremely fierce quarrel broke out between him and Lu Boyuan, about where they would stay after graduation, and the destination of this relationship.Pei Zian suddenly became like a lion, so furious that he couldn't listen to any explanation from Lu Boyuan, he smashed all the pottery sculptures in the workshop, including the cup he and Lu Boyuan made together.

Later, when Pei Zian recalled, he felt that he was out of control at that time. He was not a grumpy person. On the contrary, Pei Zian was often called a good guy. can set him on fire.Pei Zian was stimulated by Lu Boyuan's suggestion to break up. He didn't understand why Lu Boyuan had to break up?It's just studying abroad, he can wait, one year, two years, three years, he can wait.It's just that you can't say break up, that would be too cruel to him.

But Lu Bo was far more ruthless than he thought. Not only did he want to break up, but he also wanted to ask Pei Zian to say that he would remain friends in the future.Pei Zian saw Lu Boyuan off at the airport, he smiled and waved his hands desperately, but in his heart he said bastard, don't come back after you go to England.

After Lu Boyuan left, Pei Zian listened to Radiohead for a whole month, in a daze as if he had returned to the time when they first met three years ago.

There is a strong smell of disinfectant in the bathroom of the library, like a sneaky ghost floating on the floor.In order to cope with the monthly inspection, the cleaning lady always increases the amount of disinfectant before the inspection. It seems that this pungent smell represents cleanliness.Pei Zian has mild rhinitis, and the smell of disinfectant always makes his nose itchy.He could only hold his breath and rush to the toilet as fast as he could.

Lu Boyuan was standing by the window with a cigarette in his mouth. The evening sun reflected on his face through the glass. He seemed to be smiling, but he didn't seem to. Pei Zian didn't know why he stopped. The smoke from the side, slowly dissipating in the setting sun, is orange.

The disinfectant made Pei Zian's nose itchy, he sneezed lightly, Lu Boyuan turned his head to the side following the sound, and looked at him quietly, his heart also itched.Pei Zian was stunned for a long time, Lu Boyuan stubbed out his cigarette, and when he walked past him, he patted him on the shoulder and said with a smile, "Don't tell others."

At this time, Pei Zian remembered that smoking is not allowed in the library.But he forgot everything just now, he forgot to hold his breath, he forgot where he was, and he could only see that boy.At this moment, Pei Zian didn't know what kind of feelings this was. He just thought this boy was very strange, so strange that he couldn't help but want to pay attention to him.

Pei Zian met Lu Boyuan again a week later. When he was sitting on the corner of the seat just one seat away from Lu Boyuan, and opened the bibliography to read, he heard a murmur, maybe it wasn't even a hum, It's just the airy sound made by the contact of lips and tongue, which is so subtle that it can almost be ignored.There were not many people in the whole reading room, and everyone sat apart, only Pei Zian and Lu Boyuan were so close.

He realized that Lu Boyuan was humming a song only for a few seconds. From the pages of "History of Chinese Ceramics", he saw Lu Boyuan's slender fingers tap on the table in sync with the beat.Pei Zian suddenly felt itchy in his heart, as if Lu Boyuan's fingers were not hitting the table, but his heart.

Lu Boyuan seemed to have noticed Pei Zian's gaze, turned his head slightly, looked at him with a smile like that again, and licked the corner of his mouth when he spoke: "Sorry, did I bother you?"

Pei Zian shook his head, but he didn't want to move his eyes away from Lu Boyuan, and asked him in a strange way: "What song are you singing?"

This question was too abrupt, and he almost regretted it as soon as he asked it. He wanted to bury his head in the history of ceramics, he felt that he was too stupid.But Lu Boyuan smiled, not the habitual smile before, but a smile so brilliant that Pei Zian didn't want to blink.

What is he laughing at?Are you laughing at my stupidity?Pei Zian thought anxiously.

Lu Boyuan grabbed his hand and wrote a few words in the palm of his hand.Pei Zian's palms began to tremble, and an involuntary tremor spread along the blood vessels all over his body. What exactly was that, he thought hard.Why is his heart beating so fast, why is his blood so hot...

Pei Zian opened his palm, and the ink was smeared by the sweat on his palm, making him look dirty.He tried hard to distinguish, it seems to be an English lyrics: "You're just like anangel, but I'macreep."

Probably at this moment, Pei Zian finally caught the culprit who was causing trouble in his body, left behind his history of ceramics, and chased after Lu Boyuan without hesitation.

That whole summer was very strange, strange boys, strange love affairs, Pei Zian and Lu Boyuan who had only met twice in the library lived together, full of absurd unreality.He never thought he would do something so outrageous, but it happened.They had sex in the rented house, Pei Zian taught Lu Boyuan how to make pottery, the clay was entangled between their fingers, and they exchanged a kiss.

Lu Boyuan sang Radiohead's song, he sang "Iwon'trunaway no more, I promise", Pei Zian believed it deeply at that time, and now he knows it.

Lu Boyuan is a liar.