Spring Summer Autumn Winter

The space in this coffee shop is very small. When passing each other, they have to turn sideways. The sunlight escapes through the gaps between the limbs, and they can't find a stable place.

In the corner, Li Yu'an and Chen Limei were sitting facing each other. Chen Limei's back was facing the light source, and his whole face was sunk in the shadow.And even though Li Yu'an was facing the light, there was only a bright light shining on his face, across the eyes and the bridge of the nose, like a scar.

The noise of people outside the window contrasted with the silence here.

Although Li Yu'an called Chen Limei to talk, but from the moment he sat down, he didn't know how to speak.

After a while, it was Chen Limei who finally broke the silence.

"Come on, the train will leave in two hours, so there's no rush."

Li Yu'an seemed to be waiting for such a word of approval. At this moment, he breathed a sigh of relief when he heard it, but he still didn't speak. He just opened the bag, took out the contents one by one, and placed them on the table in a circle. superior.

There are a lot of miscellaneous things, including household registration books, bank cards, invoices, X-rays, magazines... It seems that all the belongings are displayed.

Chen Limei watched him stack these things without saying a word, not knowing what he was going to do.

After a few minutes, almost the entire table was covered by these documents, which happened to be the angle that Chen Limei could see clearly.

She looked at Li Yuan suspiciously.

Li Yu'an took a light breath, adjusted his glasses, and began to explain everything.

"This is my bank card, and now there are 10,000+ in it. I also have a fixed income for writing articles. I can make money and support the two of us. This is my medical examination form. I have no infectious diseases or other diseases. , just lack of exercise, but I have already applied for a fitness card, and this is it." He pointed to a black membership card.

"There are these too. This is Siyuan's hospital bill, this is the utility bill at home, and this is..."

He started with the bank card in the corner, and he kept everything in order, speaking clearly and plainly, as if showing her everything he had, and these things were just to prove one thing——

"Auntie, I can take good care of him, I...I want to be with him."

When he said this, he finally raised his eyelids to look at Chen Limei. The light moved slowly with time, and right now it just pierced into the pupil of his left eye, but he didn't dodge it.

His eyes are so gentle, yet so firm, without any trace of gloom left over from struggling in the mud for more than [-] years.He's just begging for one thing, with his dignity and his courage.

It was the first time for Chen Limei to look at him for such a long time. She wanted to test whether he would be afraid to look into her eyes, but it turned out that she was the one who was afraid in the end.

The emotion in those eyes clearly showed that he had engraved Yang Siyuan on his bones and in his heart.Such a passionate love made her a little distracted.

She remembered that when she was young, she and Yang Jianxin fell in love for five years before getting married, and during those five years of nearly 2000 days and nights, she had never seen such feelings in his eyes.

She stayed there for a while, then suddenly felt that she lost her strength, and she leaned back on the back of the chair.

"There are so many things, it must have been prepared for a long time." She lowered her eyes and said.

Li Yu'an suddenly became nervous again, clenched his hands tightly into fists, and hid under the table.

"No, it was done the day before yesterday."

Chen Limei laughed suddenly, then shook her head wearily: "You guys are really...really..."

What is it?She couldn't continue, and she didn't know what to say, as if any language had lost the ability to express her feelings.

Li Yu'an waited anxiously for the next adjective, ready to be scolded, but in the end Chen Limei didn't say anything, he mustered up the courage to look up at her, and found that her eyes were red.

Was he crying out of anger?

He was sweating nervously, afraid to ask, speak, or even breathe.

Chen Limei turned her face sideways, but a ray of light touched her cheek and followed her tears.

Li Yu'an froze, it was the first time he saw Chen Limei cry.

He hurriedly handed over a tissue, then quickly withdrew his hand, clutching the corner of his clothes tightly.

Chen Limei wiped her tears casually, and quickly recovered from her emotions.But she still didn't look back, but kept that posture and asked, "Do you hate me?"

Li Yu'an was taken aback for a moment, but he didn't recover.

At this time, Chen Limei turned to look at him, and repeated: "What about you, do you hate me? I drove you away, and I told you to stay away from him."

Li Yu'an quickly shook his head and replied, "No, I never hated Auntie."

"You are different from other children." After a moment of silence, Chen Limei said softly. "Xiao Yuan just likes people like you."

Li Yu'an didn't know how to answer, so he lowered his head again.

"Then what about him—" Chen Limei's voice became even softer, as if she didn't dare to ask this question. "Does he hate me?"

"Of course not." This time Li Yu'an immediately reacted and said immediately. "Any other parent will not accept this fact for a while, he knows it well. And when he was hospitalized, he also said that he didn't want you to worry, so he didn't tell you... He loves you very much, and has never hated you. Mother and son ...is the dearest after all."

When he said the last sentence, his volume dropped suddenly.

Chen Limei looked at him, whether he was 19 years old or 24 years old, in her eyes she was still a child who was only one year older than Yang Siyuan, but she knew that he had endured much more than other people of the same age.

"Do you miss your mother?" She asked suddenly for some reason.

Li Yu'an was stunned, he didn't expect her to ask such a question.

"Mother" has become a very distant and strange entry for him. He doesn't know when it started, and when he thinks of this word, he will no longer feel warm.

He thought for a while, then whispered, "I did it when I was a child, but now... I have forgotten it."

"No mother, no friends..." Chen Limei smiled wryly, "You only have Xiaoyuan."

Yes, he only has Yang Siyuan.

There was another silence, he didn't respond, he lowered his head and picked at the hem of his clothes to try his best to relax, while Chen Limei leaned on the back of the chair and looked out the window.

The cello music lost its power amidst the din of human voices, and the stories it wanted to tell were drowned out, just like the regrets in those stories that ended without a cause.

After a long time, Chen Limei didn't speak again until the corners of Li Yu'an's clothes were slightly wet from his clutches.

"Didn't you think that one day you might break up?"

Have you thought about it?How could I not have thought about it.

He used to toss and turn because of this problem. For the first time, he realized how tormenting people's mood by "sorry about gain and loss".In the first one or two months of being together, he was afraid every day, afraid that he would wake up the next day and find that he was alone, and all the tenderness of the previous night was just a dream.

He has been trembling like this for almost half a year, but even he himself doesn't know when it started, and he never worried about this problem again.

He let go of his hands and said firmly: "No." Then he added: "We can't do without each other."

Chen Limei didn't say anything, she pointed to the things on the table and said, "Put it away, documents and so on, don't let others see them casually in the future. I don't have anything else to say, I should leave soon."

Li Yuan tidied up the table in a hurry, afraid that she would think he was disobedient.Facing the elders, he probably won't be able to learn the word "calm" in this life.

Seeing his flustered look, Chen Limei waved his hands and said, "You don't need to see him off, go back and accompany Xiaoyuan." Then she left while Li Yuan watched him off.

Li Yu'an stood there in a daze, wondering if he was too reckless this time, let alone what Chen Limei was thinking now.He has never been good at guessing the elders' thoughts, and Chen Limei did not give him a clear attitude, which made his heart hang, wondering if he made things worse.

Because of this thought, he was in a trance all day. After returning home, Yang Siyuan asked him why he was so unhappy, but he didn't dare to say it.

But no matter how worried he was, life had to go on.

Autumn in the south seems to be just a trip to the world, coming and going in a hurry, and by the time people realize it, it has already entered winter.

Yang Siyuan's leg finally healed completely, but Li Yu'an forced him to take care of him for another half a month before letting him move around.On the first day after getting out of bed, before he could stand on the ground for 10 minutes, he rolled onto the bed with Li Yuan in his arms.

Everything is the same as in the old days in my hometown, eating, working, shopping, sleeping, as plain as water, but also flowing through the hearts of the two of them gently like water.

On the day when the first snow fell in Hangzhou, Li Yu'an's novel was published.After receiving the sample booklet, Yang Siyuan was as happy as a child, almost jumped up on the spot, hugged Li Yuan and kissed him for a long time but refused to let go.

That day Li Yu'an sent a copy back to Chen Limei without telling him. In fact, he couldn't explain why he did this. They hadn't contacted Chen Limei for the past few months. He didn't even know if she would receive it, but He sent it anyway, presumably just another form of plea for "sneaky face".

The snowy Hangzhou is very beautiful. In the evening, the two of them went to the West Lake, held hands to enjoy the snow scene, and brushed the snowflakes off each other's shoulders.

A week later, Yang Siyuan signed for a courier, which turned out to be Li Yuan's plaid scarf.He looked at Li Yu'an suspiciously, but Li Yu'an just took the scarf and wrapped it around his neck.

As soon as Yang Siyuan recalled, he remembered the phone call he had with Chen Limei. He suddenly became excited and called Chen Limei to ask. For whom only."

He was a little lost, looked at Li Yuan who was standing aside, and found that he didn't seem to care.

Li Yuan with such an "indifferent" face is really strange, he couldn't help asking, and even tempted him to answer during sex, but no matter what, he didn't get a real answer.

Li Yu'an seemed to be hiding something from him, and he was determined not to let him know.

In this case, no matter how many times he asked, it would be useless, and he would get tired after a long time, so he had to let it go.

Until this year's Spring Festival holiday, he received a call from Chen Limei.

At that time, he had just finished working overtime, so he didn't let Li Yu'an come to pick him up, and walked home alone in the cold wind, surrounded by many closed shops.

"Hey, Mom."

There was a reply on the other end of the phone, followed by a moment of silence.

"What's wrong?" he asked.

Then he heard Chen Limei's distorted voice say something that he will never forget in his life.

"It's almost New Year's Eve, you two... Let's come back to celebrate the New Year together during the Spring Festival."

A gust of cold wind blew past, making his ears ache.

"Mom, you..."

"Remember to bring some specialties when you come back."

"……Um."

For someone like Chen Limei, this was the most direct thing she could say.Yang Siyuan knew in her heart that she agreed.

Countless quarrels, questioning, doubts, cold wars, countless times of collapse, countless times of despair... After countless "countless times", his Li Yu'an was finally recognized.

For a moment, he seemed to have a thousand words, but he didn't know where to start.It seemed that he had been floating in the air for so long, empty and unable to hold on to anything, but now, he finally landed, finally qualified to stand on the ground.

He held the mobile phone, and the strength in his hand increased a little, as if he was afraid that everything just now was an illusion.Fortunately, the cold touch told him it was true, and his mother accepted them.

Chen Limei didn't have anything else to say, so she was about to hang up the phone.Suddenly, Yang Siyuan remembered Li Yu'an's abnormality, so he hurriedly kept her and asked, "Wait a minute, Mom, let me ask you something. Yu'an... Did he tell you something?"

Another light in the roadside shop went out, and he was finally buried in complete darkness and silence, and the voices from his ears became clearer.He stood there quietly, listening to Chen Limei's words.

The moment he hung up the phone, he looked in the direction of home, suddenly unable to walk, and suddenly didn't know how to face his lover.

He didn't know how to love him more.

In front of the house, the moment the door was opened, he immediately hugged Li Yuan.

Li Yu'an was taken aback. He didn't know what stimulated him, so he could only pat him on the back lightly.

But Yang Siyuan only felt that holding hands, hugging, kissing, making love...these gentle or warm ways of expressing love could not express half of his mood at this time.He had a rush of love in his chest and couldn't find a way out, but he couldn't find any other way to express it, so he could only hug him tighter, repeating his name over and over again like a dementia.

"Li Yu'an, Li Yu'an..."

Li Yu'an, Li Yuan, Yang Siyuan's "Yuan".

Think "far".

It turned out that everything was doomed, and none of them could escape.

In the winter of 2018, Hangzhou Xiaoshan Airport.

"Have you got off the plane? I'll wait for you outside the airport." Yang Siyuan sat in the car and sent a text message to Li Yu'an.

"Well, I just got off the plane." The reply came quickly.

Yang Siyuan looked at the phone screen and smiled, then pressed the car window and looked towards the airport exit.

Soon, a man in a suit and leather shoes came out with a suitcase, still looking around.

Yang Siyuan locked him in the crowd at a glance, stretched out his hand and honked the horn.

Li Yu'an heard the horn and looked this way, and trotted over when he saw the familiar car.

Yang Siyuan leaned over to open the co-pilot's door and took his suitcase.

"Put the suitcase directly in the back seat, come in quickly, it's too cold to wear so little."

"Fortunately, it's not very cold." Li Yu'an sat in the co-pilot and said.

"You are my great writer now, you can't stand the cold! Hey, what about the trophy, show me." Yang Siyuan laughed.

The air conditioner was turned on strongly, and Li Yu'an unbuttoned it.

"It's in the suitcase, let's look at it when we get home."

"Oh... okay, it's all yours anyway, I can watch it whenever I want."

As soon as he turned on the ignition, he thought of something again, opened the phone's photo album, and handed it to Li Yu'an.

"Look at these two, which one do you like? Mom is going to buy one for you during the Chinese New Year. I don't know which one you like. Don't tell her I showed you."

Li Yu'an flicked across the picture and looked at it seriously.Yang Siyuan watched his eyes secretly, before he could speak, he snatched the phone back and said confidently: "Okay, I got it, I like the second one."

Li Yu'an laughed: "You know again?"

Yang Siyuan raised his eyebrows: "Why, I'm not right?"

"Yes, yes." Li Yu'an said, there seemed to be a hint of pampering in his tone, as well as a kind of helplessness that had already anticipated what would happen next.

"Then give me a reward."

Sure enough, Yang Siyuan immediately came over, closed his eyes and asked for a kiss.

After so many years, he is still so shameless, and Li Yu'an can only be with him without shame.

So he took off his glasses, wrapped his arms around his neck and kissed him.

"You eat candy, it's so sweet."

After the lips and teeth parted, Yang Siyuan smacked his lips and said.

"I drank a cup of milk tea before I came here. Let's go, it's getting dark soon." Li Yu'an urged, turned on the stereo, pressed a few times and cut to a song with a soft tune.

"Listen to this song again? 'How can I live the whole year without you in spring, summer, autumn and winter'...I can sing it. Hey, go back and play the guitar and sing it to you." Yang Siyuan smiled, started the car and drove away from the airport .

"You haven't touched the guitar for several years." Li Yu'an said with a smile.

In winter, it gets dark quickly, and the car is only halfway through, and the surroundings are lit up with neon lights one after another.

He leaned back on his seat and stared at the familiar scenery outside.Before he knew it, he had lived here for five years. Even though he moved house and company, everything around him was changing, but because Yang Siyuan was here, he felt that this was his hometown.

"Oh, that's right." He was in a daze when he heard Yang Siyuan say it suddenly.

"Ok?"

"I have something to ask you. A while ago, Lin Shuang told me that he wanted to write the story of the two of us into a script, a radio play, and asked my opinion. I don't think there is anything wrong with it. What about you, do you agree?"

"...just listen to you."

Yang Siyuan nodded: "I knew you would say that."

"You know again." Li Yu'an smiled.

"Yes, I know what you think." Yang Siyuan said quite proudly.

He looked like a child, and Li Yu'an laughed even more when he amused him.

After a while, he asked again: "Ah, also, the name of the radio play, he said let us think about it, do you have any ideas?"

"name?"

"Well, name."

Li Yu'an's eyes flashed those gorgeous lights and the hurried pedestrians on the road, and suddenly a snowflake broke into his pupils, and the other scenery lost its color.

"Ah, it's snowing."

"Um……"

The snow fell down one after another, getting bigger and bigger, and fell on the ground to form a white blanket, covering the mud and dirt.

It's winter again.Looking at the snow outside the car window, he thought to himself.

"Spring, Summer, Autumn and Winter."

"what?"

"The name of the radio drama should be "Spring, Summer, Autumn and Winter"."

That song was still playing in a loop, and the gentle and deep voice of the male singer echoed in the car, drilled into their ears, and fell on their hearts.

Another year passed, another round of seasons.Everything in the world is changing with time, but they built a nest in the gear of time.

The car passed under the street lights, bright lights came in from the front window, and a dazzling spot of light shone on their left ring fingers, just like the love they cherished in the dark times.

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