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The two of them had agreed to keep the New Year's Eve, but they had a row at night for a long time. They were so tired that they couldn't take it anymore, so they just got under the covers to watch the fireworks comfortably.

The bed in Yang Siyuan's room was a bit small, of course it couldn't accommodate two boys with long hands and long feet, so they slept in Chen Limei's bedroom, stretched across the big bed.

Fireworks are blooming outside the window. Yang Siyuan likes the golden ones, but not the red, green and green ones. Li Yuan is different, he likes the ones that explode and then fall into sparks, like a waterfall.

After midnight, the fireworks gradually disappeared, and the two of them became more tired, staring in a daze.

After all, Yang Siyuan was physically stronger, but he was more energetic than Li Yuan at this moment.

So he acted presumptuously with this bit of energy: "Your hands are really pretty, you can be a model for me someday and let me draw a picture."

Li Yu'an withdrew his hand in a daze and hummed a few words.

Yang Siyuan saw that he was soft and sticky, and always wanted to poke him.However, there is no flesh on his face, and it is hard to poke.

"Look at how skinny you are... Living alone, you have to make yourself fatter." Yang Siyuan tucked the corner of the quilt.

"Hmm." Li Yu'an's eyelids were clenched, as if he couldn't hear what he was saying at all.

Yang Siyuan saw that he was being bullied at this moment, what to say, thinking about doing the difficult things now.

So he took out a red envelope from the side drawer, gently stuffed it into Li Yuan's hand, and whispered in his ear, "Hold it, big red envelope."

"Hmm..." Li Yu'an had already fallen asleep, with something stuffed in his hand, he grasped it tightly and turned over.

Seeing him sleeping curled up, Yang Siyuan couldn't help chuckling when he saw him curled up sleeping, which was quite different from his usual indifferent appearance, like a stray kitten finally found a warm nest.

Although he is one year older than himself, he is still a teenager, and sometimes... he still has a childish and naive look of being late.

He got out of bed again and drew the curtains, and then fell asleep soundly.

Rarely, he had no dreams all night and slept very soundly.

The next morning, Li Yu'an woke up and looked at the red envelope in his hand, but he didn't react.

"Hmm... woke up? Damn, you took it all night, and you didn't move?" Yang Siyuan next to him also just woke up, seeing Li Yu'an still holding the red envelope, he couldn't help asking in surprise.

"This……"

"The red envelope is huge." Yang Siyuan said with a smile.

Li Yu'an squeezed the thick red envelope, shook his head quickly, and was about to return the red envelope: "No, I can't take it...it's too much..."

Yang Siyuan raised his eyebrows: "That can't be done, you already collected it last night. It includes your salary for this month and the New Year's money, so it's a lot. You have to accept it, brother, you must accept it!"

"..."

Li Yu'an remembered that he was still hesitating whether to advance his salary before, but now he didn't need to say, Yang Siyuan had already arranged for him.He didn't know if Yang Siyuan had guessed that he had been heavily in debt recently, or if it was just because of the Chinese New Year, but no matter what, his heart was warm.

……

After the New Year's Eve passed, Chen Limei took Yang Siyuan back to her natal home. Speaking of which, Yang Siyuan hadn't seen his grandma for many years, but because of the lack of contact, he and his grandparents were not very close. It's no different.

And the dialect here...he really didn't understand it, he just smiled awkwardly and listened to the old man's speech all day long, and then responded with a couple of um, ah, ah, and didn't know if he had responded.

At night, when it was not so lively, he let out a long sigh of relief and lay on the bed to send a message to Li Yu'an.

"I'm so tired, I have no idea what they're talking about."

"Can't you understand the dialect there?"

"That's right... the last time I came here, it was when I lost my teeth. Well, it's here that I lost my teeth."

"..."

"Tired, don't want to type. Is it convenient to talk on the phone?"

After receiving Li Yu'an's response, Yang Siyuan took the initiative to call him.

"Brother, what are you doing?" Yang Siyuan turned over and said lazily.

Li Yu'an cleared his throat: "I was writing a manuscript just now."

"Oh...so did I bother you?"

Li Yu'an shook his head, realizing that the other party couldn't see him, so he quickly said "no".

Yang Siyuan stared at the ceiling, listening to the chatter next door.He didn't know anyone, and he couldn't understand a word, so he could only rest in the guest room on the excuse of being tired.At such moments, he suddenly felt so lonely.

"Hey, let me tell you...there are a lot of old people here. In fact, when I first came here today, I didn't even know which one was my grandma." Yang Siyuan raised his hand, dangling in front of his eyes.

Li Yu'an noticed Yang Siyuan's confiding tone and did not interrupt.

Maybe it was the huge gap between the noise and the silence that aroused Yang Siyuan's desire to tell, or maybe it was the emotions that had been accumulated for many years finally found an outlet.

"My grandma's house is the same. My grandma doesn't like my dad, but likes my uncle. The company my dad works in is actually run by my uncle... My family was very poor in the early years, and my uncle brought my dad closer to the company. So our family... ...Actually quite unpopular. I have never been taken care of by those old people since I was a child...let alone a hundred-day banquet, red envelopes...Where can I get it? When I was young, I went to my grandparents' house. Ask me about my grades, and don't ask about anything else... It's like going through a robbery. I'm quite envious of those who were spoiled by grandparents, how nice it is."

The regret, fragility, and longing in his tone, through words, crawled into Li Yuan's ears along the radio waves, touching his soft heart.

He just wanted to say something to comfort Yang Siyuan, when Yang Siyuan suddenly said: "Ah, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have told you these things."

Li Yu'an lowered his eyes, smiled lightly, and said, "It's okay."

"Hey, are you laughing?" Yang Siyuan stopped his shaking hands and asked.

Li Yu'an immediately turned cold, and changed the subject like a normal person: "Aren't you going to have fun?"

"Well... I'll go and have a look tomorrow, and let a brother over here take it with me. I'll see if I can get you some special products back home."

"There is no need for special products..."

"Try it, what if it suits your taste?" Yang Siyuan said, "Oh, by the way, what if I miss the class these days?"

Li Yu'an turned the pen and looked at Yang Siyuan's study schedule, and said, "It doesn't matter, I can finish it without these four days."

Yang Siyuan: "Oh...then you should take a good rest these few days, remember to eat well, I will go back and check to see if you have gained weight!"

Li Yu'an was helpless: "Only four days..."

How much weight can you change in just four days?

As a result, four days later, when Yang Siyuan came back, he lost half a circle of weight, and Li Yuan was startled when he went to class.

"You lost so much weight?"

Yang Siyuan waved his hand: "Oh...don't talk about it. The water and soil are not acclimatized. Their water quality is not good, it's difficult to digest, and they have diarrhea every day and can't eat... You listen to how stupid I am when I call you."

Li Yu'an thought about it, indeed, he was like Lin Daiyu when he talked on the phone afterwards.

"I found a lot of specialty shops, but I feel they are all deceitful. I'm not used to eating it, so you better not try it." Yang Siyuan curled his lips, feeling unhappy.

"Uh, it's okay. I don't like eating that much..." Li Yuan said.

"I'd better go less in the future... Going here is like losing half my life... Hey, hug me quickly, I need a big hug." As he said, he opened his arms pitifully and cried with tears in his eyes. Looking at Li Yuan.

It wasn't a day or two since Yang Siyuan acted like a baby, Li Yu'an sighed, stepped forward and hugged Yang Siyuan gently.

……

Yang Siyuan's winter vacation is short, and the first day of school is just in time for the Lantern Festival. He originally planned to have a Lantern Festival at home, but now he can only go back to school to drink plain porridge.

The thirteenth day of the first month was the last class, and Li Yu'an specially adjusted the class time to give Li Yu'an a day to pack up.

It's just that he didn't expect that the last class was also the last time they saw each other.

Li Yu'an's preparations that day were relatively simple, and it was also because Yang Siyuan had studied for a holiday, and when the school started, it would be better to relieve him a little bit of pressure.

The two finished a class easily, and it was only before eight o'clock, and a few hours after eating, Yang Siyuan yelled that he was hungry again.

"Brother, I'm hungry."

After a holiday, Li Yu'an was almost immune. He packed up the papers and said with a blank expression, "Eat something when you're hungry."

"The food was cold... I studied for a long time, so pitiful..." Yang Siyuan said, holding his chin.

"Then what do you eat?" Li Yu'an had already figured out his routine, knowing that he wanted to cook for himself.

"Boiled noodles."

"Then you wait a moment."

The sound of chopping vegetables and washing dishes came from the kitchen. Yang Siyuan held a door frame and stretched his head to look in. He saw that Li Yu'an was like a house cook.

"Hey, whoever wants to marry you from now on will be so happy, eating delicious food every day." He muttered.

Li Yu'an suddenly slipped his hand and dropped a tomato.He hurriedly picked it up and said, "What nonsense are you talking about?"

"Really, you can cook, you're smart, you have a good temper, um... it would be nice if you didn't fight."

Li Yu'an put down the knife, walked straight over, and closed the kitchen door with a "bang" under Yang Siyuan's puzzled eyes.

"Hey, hey, what's the matter, you don't like listening to me complimenting you?" Yang Siyuan's mournful voice came from outside the door, and after talking to himself for a while, his voice disappeared, and he went back and lay paralyzed.

Li Yu'an leaned against the door panel, feeling uneasy.

It's strange, he was actually a little angry, just because Yang Siyuan talked about getting married.

He actually rushed to the top of his head with blood, trying to refute him vigorously, as if he had said something terrible.

The water in the pot boiled, making a gurgling sound.

What are you doing...

Li Yu'an took a deep breath and settled down.

……

Yang Siyuan snorted and finished eating, drank all the soup, and praised Li Yu'an as if he was a god of cook.

"Are you tired too? Why don't you stop writing manuscripts today and take a day off?" Yang Siyuan suggested seeing that Li Yu'an was really tired these days.

Li Yu'an thought about it, and finally nodded.

Take a rest, and spend more time with Yang Siyuan.After all, after he started school, it was very difficult to see him.

Yang Siyuan stared at him for a while, then suddenly reached out to him.

"What?" Li Yu'an asked in confusion.

"Hands, you promised me on New Year's Eve to let me draw your hands." Yang Siyuan blinked his eyes and said it as if it was true.

Li Yu'an looked at him suspiciously: "...is there any?"

"Why, talking doesn't count." Yang Siyuan curled his lips.

"..." Li Yu'an didn't bother to argue with him, and besides, he couldn't beat him anyway, so he just honestly reached out his hand and reached out.

"Be natural, be natural, you don't need to spread your palms, you can do what you usually do." Yang Siyuan said while fiddling with Li Yu'an's hands.

Every inch of skin on his right hand brushed against Yang Siyuan's fingertips, Li Yu'an froze, as if frozen, and let him go.

"Okay! Don't move, I'm starting to draw."

The pencil walks on the rough sketch paper, making a "rustling" sound, leaving a light footprint wherever it passes, connecting with each other, and gradually drawing a beautiful hand with distinct bones.

When Yang Siyuan was painting, his expression was focused, and it was rare that he didn't say a word. He just buried his head in the painting, his eyelashes fluttering, which was especially clear from Li Yu'an's perspective.

At first, Li Yu'an was afraid that Yang Siyuan would find out that he was peeking, but after sneaking around for a while, he realized that Yang Siyuan really didn't notice, so he just stared openly.

"Okay, look, does it look good?"

Yang Siyuan finished his work, blew on the rubber crumbs, and held up the painting to show Li Yuan.

Li Yu'an quickly retracted his eyes and nodded: "It looks good."

Yang Siyuan chuckled: "That's because the model looks good."

"..."

"Do you want it? If you want, take it back." Yang Siyuan asked.

"Uh, you can keep it." Li Yu'an felt that it was strange for him to take his hand back.

"Okay! It's so beautiful, I'll take it to school, just take a look if you have nothing to do, be happy." Yang Siyuan said, then carefully rolled up the painting and put it on a rubber band.

"Would you like to listen to nursery rhymes? I packed my luggage during the day, and I'm really tired." Yang Siyuan said.

No wonder you're so hungry... Li Yu'an thought to himself, but still nodded.

Unexpectedly, before Li Yu'an could react, Yang Siyuan picked her up and rolled onto the small bed.

"Lie down and listen, how comfortable." Yang Siyuan said while stuffing an earphone into Li Yu'an's ear.

"Can you let me go first..." Li Yu'an looked down at Yang Siyuan's arms wrapping him, and said helplessly.

"You're not a little girl, why are you so particular about it. Listen to the songs." Yang Siyuan didn't let go, but hugged her even tighter.

That's right, it's not a little girl, what's so embarrassing.

Jay Chou's "Thousands of Miles Away" was playing on the MP3, and the familiar melody brought Li Yu'an's thoughts back to that night full of fireworks and candlelight, everything seemed to be yesterday, and it seemed to be a long time ago.

Suddenly, the song paused.

Probably because it wasn't long after eating, Yang Siyuan seemed a little sleepy, and his words were full of tiredness: "I don't want to hear him sing, I want to hear you sing. You sing well."

"...how can I sing better than others?"

"Sing, I want to hear it." Yang Siyuan leaned over and rubbed Li Yu'an's neck.

"...Okay." Being hugged so ambiguously, Li Yu'an's heart was pounding, and he seemed to have no other choice but to agree to Yang Siyuan's request.

He thought about the lyrics, and then sang softly, which was better and more emotional than that night.

However, before he finished singing a song, Yang Siyuan's steady breathing sounded in his ears.

Li Yu'an was taken aback, stopped, and called Yang Siyuan's name lightly, but no one responded.

Fell asleep?It seems really tired.

He looked down at the hands embracing him again, after a while, he gently released those hands, then slowly turned over, facing Yang Siyuan.

The bed was very small, and the two of them were too close, forehead to forehead, nose to nose.

Yang Siyuan's eyelashes trembled slightly, and the air he exhaled brushed against Li Yuan's chin, making it itchy.

The lights in the room were still on, and every strand of hair, every pore, and every inch of his skin was magnified in front of Li Yuan's eyes, and then magnified until it occupied his entire pupil, and there was no room for other things.

so quiet.Li Yu'an looked at his sleeping face and thought.

He will also be tired, sad, and collapsed...

Li Yu'an actually knew in his heart that he was not as bright and easy as he appeared on the surface, and he had many things in his heart, but he just didn't want others to see it, especially Li Yu'an didn't want to know.

Yes, how could Yang Siyuan have the heart to let Li Yuan bear his pain again?

But in the end, he still needs to talk.

Li Yu'an thought of Yang Siyuan's phone calls when he was at his grandma's house, and sighed softly.

What merits and virtues do I have to meet him?

Li Yu'an freed up a hand, and slowly stroked Yang Siyuan's forehead, eyelids, nose, cheeks, and mouth...

Soft and comfortable.His fingers rested on Yang Siyuan's mouth, unwilling to leave for a long time.

My breathing is getting heavier and my heart is beating faster...

Oops, he wants to kiss him.

Am I crazy?Yes, from the moment I met him, I was crazy.

Everything he has experienced in the past 20 years is nothing more than one knife and one arrow, bit by bit scratching him all over.And creatures have instinctive self-protection, so they learn to lick wounds and disinfect them from childhood, and cocoons grow in the scars, and they arm themselves layer by layer like armor. Although they can no longer feel warm, they can also resist overwhelming Most of the weather.Willing to do so, is also under the balance that the advantages outweigh the disadvantages.

However, along the way, Yang Siyuan unknowingly removed his own armor.It's like a cocoon of silk that was tightly wrapped, but that person ran in front of him, his smile peeled off a little, his crying peeled off a little, his anger peeled off a little, and his gentleness peeled off a little more... In the end, the whole body collapsed, and he fell to the ground with a huff, revealing his sensitive and selfish body with ugly scars.

He unexpectedly showed his true self to others without any defense.

But in his heart, he greedily hoped that that person could accept and like him.

That's right, that person actually accepted himself like this, and even paid so much for himself, even if he didn't get anything in return.

Li Yuan's eyes were hot, as if some liquid was secreting.

He admitted that he had long been tempted.

But what qualifications does he have to expose this feeling to the sun?

Wake up, you have to be alone after all.

He took a deep breath and held back the disobedient tears.

It's just that he still doesn't want to retract his fingers, even for a while, and he still wants to covet Yang Siyuan's body temperature.

God, please let him sleep longer.

He stared at Yang Siyuan, praying like this.

But God always wanted to joke with him.

In the silence, there was a sudden "click" of the door opening.

"Xiao Yuan, you still have the noodles in the pot..."

Li Yu'an was stunned for a moment, and suddenly looked back.

In the crack of the door, Chen Limei held the doorknob, got stuck in the middle of the conversation, opened her eyes wide, and looked at him in disbelief.

In an instant, the whole world collapsed.