after the canary rebellion

The corridors of the hospital at night are very quiet, with occasional murmuring or snoring from the ward, and the red number shows 22:34.

The nurse on duty wanted to turn on the light, but was stopped by Xie Zaiyuan. He put his index finger between his lips and made a "shh" signal, so the nurse closed the door.

He sat on the edge of Lin Mei's hospital bed, watching Lin Mei curled up and sleeping in a ball, with most of his face buried in the pillow.Lin was not very afraid of the cold, and the air-conditioned ward was covered with two layers of quilts, and the mattress was thicker than that of the grandfather next to him.

In the past two years, Lin Wu once slept in the guest room, turned on the floor heating and turned on the air conditioner, and spread an electric blanket under the sheets, so that he didn't wrap himself into a ball. After sleeping with Xie Zaiyuan, there was no electric blanket. And the air conditioner, you have to squeeze into Xie Zaiyuan's arms every night and be hugged, afraid of the cold to this extent.

Seeing that Lin did not sleep well at this moment, Xie Zaiyuan wondered if he was afraid of the cold or insecure?

Xie Zaiyuan looked at him quietly, hoping to get closer to Lin Mo, talk more or hug him, but he is a person who is used to being cold and cold, and he didn't know what to do for a while.

Stalking is easy to say, but it is like picking the moon from the sky in practice.

He was used to being the leader, but now that his role had changed, he couldn't even find the right way to express his heart. They met for the first time after Lin was not transferred to the ward. Xie Zaiyuan didn't control his emotions well. Maybe in the eyes of the other party, he still had his usual condescending tone.

It is indeed extremely hateful, and I deserve to suffer from you.

After sitting by the bed for half an hour, he lowered his eyelashes to look at Lin Wu's chapped lips. After a while, he used his fingers dipped in mineral water to spread evenly on his lips, and then carefully smoothed Lin Wu's slightly wrinkled lips. Between eyebrows.

It's been a long time since he saw Lin Wu like this, maybe in the future he can only take a peek at this kind of occasion.

Before he left, he tucked Lin Mo's quilt up, and after he closed the door lightly, Lin Mo opened his eyes in the dark, and wiped away the water stains with his fingers expressionlessly.

Lin didn't cover the quilt tightly, and when he woke up again, there was a large bouquet of roses beside the bed.I don't know when it was delivered, but the tender petals are still stained with dew, reflecting the first ray of morning light this morning.

·

A few days later, it was the day when Xie You returned to Yidu.

Lin didn't take care of his body for a long time, and almost healed, but a new symptom appeared again, he suddenly started to have intermittent headaches, and he had another physical examination, and the results showed that everything was normal.

The attending doctor said that after observing for a while, he was diagnosed with depression as the cause of the headache: "Don't reject taking medicine, you weigh the pros and cons."

Lin didn't realize that after he started losing hair because of taking antidepressant drugs, no matter how much he persuaded him, he stopped cooperating with the treatment, and at this time he didn't listen to what the doctor said.

After seeing off the attending doctor, he saw that Xie You called him in time to report his safety, and he was still surprised, thinking that the sun was coming out from the west.

It was he who underestimated the child's sensitivity. Even though he didn't know exactly what happened between him and Xie Zaiyuan, Xie You had already sensed something was wrong from the mutual avoidance of the conversation with the two parties.When I got off the plane, I didn't go to my favorite restaurant to have a full meal, and I didn't play around with a few friends. I hesitated and said that I wanted to see Lin Mei.

"Don't come to the hospital, there are too many germs." Lin did not casually refuse him, rubbing his aching head.

"What? Are you in the hospital?" Xie You raised his voice.

Damn, I slipped my mouth for a while.Lin didn't rush back: "It's nothing serious, I'm in good health, but the hospital is relatively clean, I'm going to stay for a while."

"Mom, what's wrong with you? Why are you staying in the hospital for no reason? No, I'm worried. Which hospital are you in? I'll come and see you."

Lin didn't seriously refuse him: "Xie You, don't come to see me, and don't have any extra burdens, I don't need you to worry."

"But you are my mother, how can I not worry!"

"By default, I want you to call my mother. Don't mistake me for your own mother. Your own mother has already sent you to Xie Zaiyuan. Don't make trouble. Someday Xie Zaiyuan will bring back a sister or brother. Don't think purely all day long. ,protect yourself."

"Uncle Zheng, please drive me to my mother's hospital, don't say you don't know, who are you fooling?"

"Xie You, don't be willful, don't give me a headache, okay?" Lin didn't stop him.

Hearing that Lin Wu was so determined, he said dejectedly, "You don't want me anymore? You don't want my dad either?"

"Yes, I was in charge of you because I was on good terms with your father. Now that I'm separated from your father, there will be someone more suitable to take care of you in the future. You have to figure out the priorities."

"Am I a gift from my dad? So you don't want my dad, and you don't even want me? You can't hurt the innocent."

Facing Xie You's acting like a baby, he endured it and explained: "Don't think so, your custody is with Xie Zaiyuan, Xie Zaiyuan needs you very much, if I want you, you are stealing other people's children. Don't treat it as if you were abandoned by the whole world It's the same. I think it's better for us to have less contact in the future, and it's not a good thing to be disconnected."

"My God, 360 days a year, I may not see my dad for 65 days, you said he needs me, then you can see dad for [-] days, wouldn't he need you more!"

Xie You's gag didn't have any effect, Lin didn't even feel resentment in his heart, he had never talked to Xie You like this before, and impatiently wanted to end the conversation: "This is replaceable."

In the end, Xie You was not sent to the hospital, Lin did not call the driver, the driver said: "The young master was sent home, hiding in the room and crying."

From Lin Wu's point of view, Xie You was still so young. When he became a young man, he had already forgotten who he was. Lin didn't think about it for a long time. Procrastination is not good for anyone, and he can only speak well on the phone. So decisive, if he spoke face to face, he might not be able to speak out.

"Young master really cares about you, that's why you say that." The driver added.

Lin Wu was polite and unfamiliar: "I know, but I also understand that procrastination is not good. I apologize that I was a little rushed when I talked to him just now."

After he hung up the driver's phone, he contacted the landlord who had negotiated with him before. He was almost in good health, and it was time to think about the things he had delayed before and bring up the matter of signing the contract. The landlord heard that Lin was not hospitalized, so he hurried When I came to the hospital, I even gave Lin Mei a flower basket.

After signing the contract, the landlord said: "My daughter likes you very much. She is too young to be shy. She is arguing to marry you every day at home. Recently, I am wondering where you have been. I have no plans. Can I sign for my daughter? a name?"

Lin didn't sign the notebook given by that person. Neither he nor the brokerage company issued a contract termination statement. His last Weibo was to support Song Heyan, and he hadn't updated it so far. He planned to leave quietly. Do not respond any more.

"If possible, please don't tell me about my hospitalization. I don't want to make the little girl worry about me." Lin Mo said.

"Okay, okay." The landlord nodded quickly, "You look better than on TV, I wish you a speedy recovery."

Lin Wu's face looked much better in reality than it was captured by the camera. His illness made him lose weight, and his palm-sized face became smaller. The curvature of his chin was perfect.He smiled and said: "Okay, I wish you all the best."

The old man wearing presbyopic glasses shook the newspaper and asked, "What store do you open?"

Lin didn't force himself to cheer up, and explained: "Flower shop."

"Why do you think about flower shops?"

"I like flowers." Lin didn't hold his chin, smiled lazily, and remembered that his long-standing plan was about to come true, and his mood improved accordingly, "I've always wanted to have a flower shop, but I haven't figured out the specific plan yet, let's take a step Count one step."

The old man put down the newspaper and said, "Don't think too deeply, life is lived slowly by oneself, it's good to take one step at a time."

Lin didn't nod, and said: "Yes, maybe if this store is open, I will become the big boss."

Hearing what he said, the old man laughed loudly: "Let's drive it, you shouldn't have the heart to mess around like this, there will always be something you can't bear to part with. It's all a matter of time, so don't think too much about it."

A psychiatrist chatted with Lin Wu a few times. Lin Wu didn't really want to meet such a purposeful stranger. Even though the doctor just said he wanted to chat with him, he felt that his mind was being pryed into and was very resistant.

In a few short conversations, the psychiatrist tried to bring up some everyday topics, but they all broke up badly.

·

The daily life in the hospital can be attributed to eating, taking medicine and sleeping. Life is more dull than a cup of cold water. Unknowingly, it is time to leave the hospital, but Lin Wei still suffers from pain and cramps from time to time, and he has not been able to leave the hospital for a long time.

When he has a headache, he will lose the sense of time. He doesn't know how many days have passed since the last time he was tortured like this. Sometimes it is two or three days, sometimes it is five or six days, but he always feels that it happened yesterday. It's been a bit of a mess.

These pains are often not real, but they do make yourself uncomfortable.It was difficult for him to control these things, he refused to let his friends come to visit, and even planned not to call anymore, because he could no longer control his temper with Xie You.

On the day when the grandfather in the next bed was discharged from the hospital, his son’s family came to pick him up. Lin didn’t know the reason for the grandfather’s fall. I accidentally sprained my foot and fell hard in the snow.

"Be careful in the future. At this age, I still go to catch thieves." The son helped him up, the daughter-in-law packed the luggage, and the grandson was still holding the grandfather's radio.

The child stood obediently aside, noticed Lin Wu's pale face, and was also looking here, and asked in a low voice, "Are you that star?"

Lin Mei was in good spirits today, and echoed, "Yes, do you want to sign? I just signed one at noon."

So the child asked Lin Mei to sign five names on his draft paper, and Lin Mei asked, "Are you engaged in wholesale?"

The child counted with him: "Give me one for the class monitor, one for my deskmate, one for my teacher, and one for my future girlfriend."

"What about the rest?"

"In case you break up with your girlfriend, prepare for the next one."

Lin Mei raised the corners of his mouth and rubbed the child's fluffy hair, and said, "It's cheap for you. My signature is hard to buy outside, but you are making a wishful thinking."

Seeing his thin and white wrists, the child looked a little sick, and asked, "When will you be discharged from the hospital?"

Lin didn't see the child smiling at him, so he forced a smile back and said, "I can't get out yet, I've done something wrong and I'll be imprisoned here for a long time."

The child blinked: "It's okay, everyone will make mistakes. The teacher said that if you know your mistakes, you should correct them."

"The chances of possibly making up are slim."

Before the body didn't buy Lin Mo's account, the side effect of taking the medicine was severe nausea. Now that the medicine is stopped, he healed his illness, but his spirit was dragged down in the day after day of depression, going around in circles Let him change another part to continue the pain.

When the elderly family left, Lin was the only one in the ward.

The room became very quiet, and he wanted to go out to get some air, but he just stood up slowly, his whole body was numb due to a sharp pain, and he fell straight to the ground.

Afterwards, Lin didn’t become conscious again, and when he fell into a drowsy sleep, he heard the nurse say: “Mr. The reason is definitely that he was too much affected by emotions."

"But don't worry, since you are on a business trip, you can slowly figure out a solution when you come back."

Lin didn't turn over, and subconsciously combed his hair with his hands. He once slept lightly on Xie Zaiyuan's arm. Xie Zaiyuan touched his hair and said casually: "The hair is well-growth."

Now he spread out his palm, and there were a few strands of soft hair inside.