glass fish tank

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Zhuang Yao and Fan Chengxi would contact occasionally to talk about Yan Shizhang's recent situation.For Yan Shizhang, Fan Chengxi almost gave up all his roots in the country, but he didn't feel any resentment in his tone, on the contrary, he was very happy.

The moment he hung up the phone, Zhuang Yao suddenly felt very lonely.

A professor in Canada first conducted a sensory deprivation experiment. In the experiment, the experimenters who were deprived of their senses by various methods would start to have hallucinations, anxiety or fear after being alone for a few hours, and it often took many days after the experiment to recover. Back to normal.This experiment draws a conclusion that human growth is based on contact with the external environment.In other words, no one is not afraid of being alone.

The company of others is the sixth sense of people.

Zhuang Yao drove home, but the house was empty.His house was designed by a friend, and every inch is to his liking.He likes his home, it's comfortable and comfortable.No matter how the real estate market changes and changes outside, he never thought about where to move.But at this moment, Zhuang Yao felt the emptiness everywhere in this big house, as if an abyss was staring at him.

What is missing?He racked his brains and couldn't figure it out. The lighting, temperature, and furnishings... It was clear that every detail was perfect.

What's missing?

……

"Are you in Shanghai? Are you in the hotel?"

Mu Ning was eating barbecue takeaway with Amy Zhao in full swing, when a message from Lin Jiayang poured into his phone.

"Jiayang, didn't I send you the hotel?" Mu Ning called back directly.

"Well, I'll go find you in a while."

"Do you want to save some for the barbecue?"

Lin Jiayang smiled on the phone: "Haha, no need, there will be a public event tomorrow, and my face will be swollen after eating barbecue."

Mu Ning just woke up from a dream and said to Amy: "Oh! I have an event tomorrow!"

"It's okay, I brought a beauty instrument for removing edema, and I'll fix it for you tomorrow morning, and it will be fine in 20 minutes." After Zhao Aimi finished speaking, she shouted to Lin Jiayang again: "Jiayang, come tonight I'll do it for you too."

"...he hung up." Mu Ning reluctantly put down the phone: "He seems to be in a bad mood today."

Lin Jiayang knew that he was a fan fan.In acting, he is at best on par with other traffic niches, and he is incomparable to an actor like Mu Ning who can really impress others with his works.So he understands what Huang Shan said better than anyone else, but at the same time another voice in his heart is rebellious.That voice told him to break all this, to break the fan's illusion of him, to break the shackles that everyone put on him.

Lin Jiayang listened to the voice in his heart.

He took the car keys from Huang Shan, studied the hotel's escape area map for a while, and went to the second underground garage.

"Brother is here!"

There were also a few illegitimate students waiting in the underground garage on this floor, but Lin Jiayang was not surprised at all.He looked at the girls, they all looked familiar.

"I have something to go out for a while." Lin Jiayang said.

"Where is brother going?" one of the girls asked.

"Go find a friend."

"Can I follow you?" The girl pointed to the camera: "I won't take pictures."

"Don't want it?" Lin Jiayang took out a pen from his pocket: "I also sneaked out, it's not convenient. Can I sign it for you?"

"Then you need a TO sign." The illegitimate girls handed over the prepared things one by one.

It's not a day or two for Lin Jiayang to communicate with these illegitimate students. Huang Shan knows a little bit about it.These illegitimate students are not just his fans, they are also the president of his fan club and the head of his personal fan station.The reason why Lin Jiayang has so many diehard loyalists is that he is always a "boyfriend" persona wherever he goes, and the second is because the leaders of these fans are held firmly in his hands.

Huang Shan once warned him that water can carry a boat and it can also overturn it, fans are uncontrollable after all.

But he was stuck.

……

Zhuang Yao went to the hospital alone.Chang Yanyun has already come out of the ICU ward and transferred to the VIP ward.Before coming, Zhuang Yao didn't know why he came here.Many images flashed through his mind, including Chen Zhen, Zhuang Zhong, Xie Lin, Bie Ye Shen Shen in Beijing, the fire in London, and Mu Ning...

But when he walked to the door of the ward, what he thought of was Chang Yanyun singing.

All complicated thoughts stopped at that moment.

When Zhuang Yao was young, every night fell was the most difficult moment for him.His room was at the end of the corridor, and few people came. With the window closed, he could only hear the lush branches and leaves of the big trees outside rustling against the eaves.Whether he was crying or begging, Chen Zhen never came.

Only Chang Yanyun would quietly open the door of his room in the dead of night, and he must have tossed and turned at that time and had trouble falling asleep.

Chang Yanyun didn't say anything, just sat by his bed, sang for him, and coaxed him to sleep.

For thousands of nights, Chang Yanyun sang that ballad thousands of times.Zhuang Yao still couldn't understand why Chang Yanyun chose to remain silent for so many years.However, all mothers have their first time, but the love of all mothers cannot be questioned.

Without further hesitation, Zhuang Yao opened the door and walked in.

Chang Yanyun was leaning on the hospital bed, her face was as pale as paper.

Seeing that it was Zhuang Yao, she was taken aback: "Young master?"

Zhuang Yao took off his coat slowly, put it on the back of the sofa beside him, walked to the hospital bed and sat down, asking, "Have you felt better these two days?"

"Okay, it's much better...cough cough...really..."

Seeing that she was coughing badly, Zhuang Yao poured her a glass of water.

The needle was buried in Chang Yanyun's arm, but she insisted on taking it with her own hands.

"Young master... I'm very happy that you can come to see me."

Chang Yanyun's body is still weak, so she speaks very slowly and intermittently.Zhuang Yao just kept silent and didn't interrupt her.

"I know that you are the kindest and most soft-hearted in this family... I have done my best to the dealer, but since I was sick, no one has come..." She paused, then said: " Hey, but it's also... at least I can live in such a good hospital, so I shouldn't expect anything extravagant."

Ever since Chang Yanyun fell ill, Chen Zhen and Zhuang Zhong had actually done nothing.These were Zhuang Yao's arrangements, but he didn't say anything.

"All these years, you have been the only one who has missed me...you never forget to buy me something wherever you go, young master, I am really grateful to you...in my house, there are many...cough cough, a lot of you I bought it for me, but I couldn't take it away..."

"I'll go home another day and help you pack up those things and move them out," Zhuang Yao said.

Chang Yanyun was overjoyed: "Really? Thank you, young master, I shouldn't have bothered you to do these..."

Zhuang Yao hated this title.Zhuang Zhong loves to hear others call him commander, and the whole house is filled with an old and stale smell.But Zhuang Yao is not interested in being a young master.What's more, the dying woman in front of him is still his mother.

"Zhuang Yao." He said, "Mom, my name is Zhuang Yao."

Chang Yanyun's expression froze: "What did you say?"

"Mom." Zhuang Yao called again.

"You... when did you..."

"A while ago." Zhuang Yao lied.

Chang Yanyun is holding the cup, which is the water she brought up but had to hand over to someone's son to pour it for her.She held tighter and tighter, tighter and tighter, so tight that even the needle tube on her wrist was bleeding.

Zhuang Yao carefully took the cup out of her hand, and held her hand instead.

Chang Yanyun's tears washed down her ravine-ridden face like a torrent breaking a bank. "sorry Sorry……"

"There's nothing I'm sorry about." Zhuang Yao held Chang Yanyun's cold hand tightly.

She is much younger than Chen Zhen, but she seems to belong to the same age as Chen Zhen.

This is my mother.Zhuang Yao thought in his heart, this is my mother, I should love her.I should have loved her long ago.

……

After confirming that there was no rear end, Lin Jiayang drove to Mu Ning's hotel.

"call……"

"It can be counted." Mu Ning said with a smile: "Amy has gone back to the house to sleep."

"Is there any barbecue left?" Lin Jiayang asked, "I'm a little hungry."

"The previous ones are cold, so I ordered a new one. It should be here soon."

Lin Jiayang's mood relaxed because of this sentence.There seems to be a kind of magical power in Mu Ning, as long as he is by his side, no matter how boring the world is, it will become interesting.

Lin Jiayang thought this way, Mu Ning was walking into the room with his back turned to him, he strode forward and hugged Mu Ning tightly from behind.

"Stay with me, Munning. I can't wait that long, I love you!"

A few short but powerful words fell in Mu Ning's ears, which shocked his heart more than the excitement brought by the warm breath.

Mu Ning and Zhuang Yao have been together for ten years, and they have never felt loved.Of course Zhuang Yao would say "I love you" - but Mu Ning knew that in Zhuang Yao's words, there was only pet but not love.In front of Zhuang Yao, he is just a beautiful and precious ornamental fish, waiting for the owner to feed him, showing his beautiful fins in exchange for the owner's lingering for a moment.

But in front of Lin Jiayang, Mu Ning felt the long-lost freedom.

The brightly lit Bund is reflected outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, and the Oriental Pearl Tower stands quietly in the dark with the lights off.

"Okay," Mu Ning made up his mind and said, "Let's be together."