What kind of experience is it for Shanghainese to drift north?

We are all adults, so of course I know what it means to live outside.I agreed to her and booked a more suitable hotel nearby.We had dinner together, thinking about what happened tonight, I sent Fu Pingqiu a message, saying that I was living outside today.

After dinner, I visited Wangfujing for a while, and I took her to the hotel, not forgetting to buy a box of condoms in a small supermarket near the hotel.She was a little restless along the way... she seemed nervous, so why not me.

I finished a cigarette while waiting for her to take a bath, and Yu Ruoxuan came out of the bathroom, wearing only underwear in front of me.

There was a graceful figure of a woman in front of me, but I didn't feel anything. I adjusted my glasses, looked away, and whispered that I was going to take a bath too... But she tripped me halfway and almost fell to the ground.

"Zhang Kedou...!" There seemed to be three points of anger in her eyes and seven points of sadness in her eyes. "Do you know why I feel so sad when I watch a movie?"

"Huh?" I don't understand.

"Because...because I thought of you...you are just like the male lead." Yu Ruoxuan sat down on the soft hotel bed, "Since you dated me this month, you have always been lukewarm to me. If you don't take the initiative to kiss me, you have no interest in my body... "

"But, don't I send you V letters every day? I don't know... I thought you didn't want to move too fast..." I argued.

"But I would." She looked at me firmly, almost wistfully.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry, Xiaoxuan." I climbed onto the bed and hugged her body, which was still hot from the bathroom, and kissed her tenderly with apology.

After this, I discovered a problem that was too serious to ignore.

Yu Ruoxuan is very beautiful and has an impeccable figure, but I still have no... no sexual desire for her.No matter how I try to recall the face of the Japanese actress in my mind, it still doesn't work.

The only time I had sex with a woman before was with my ex-girlfriend in college. I almost couldn't get hard that time, and then I barely managed to finish it by constantly imagining that Japanese actress.But Japanese actresses are like consumables. After one use, almost all my desires for her have been exhausted, and I can no longer use it for the second time.

Is Yu Ruoxuan not good enough... I pondered.Obviously, I haven't vented for a long time, as if there is something stuck in my heart and there is nowhere to vent. I want to do it, longing for an intimate contact... The more I think about it, a familiar figure appears in my mind.I think of that snowy night when Fu Pingqiu pressed my hand, and the man's lacquer kiss... I was a little intoxicated in the feeling of being controlled and completely relaxed, and my body gradually became hot.

"Tadpole... What's the matter with you, are you uncomfortable?" She began to ask me in a gentle tone.

"I...Xiaoxuan, I have something to confess to you before I do it..." I didn't want to hurt her, so I said without choice in my anxiety.

"What?" She straightened up, her face quite tense.

"It's just...what I showed in front of you before is actually pretending to be B."

After I said it, I felt relieved, and calmly confessed everything to her, including that I don’t know anything about Shakespeare at all, I don’t have any literary accomplishments, and my opinions when discussing literature with her are all the answers I searched on the spot.I... am not the perfect man she imagined at all.

"Hahaha..." Unexpectedly, she smiled in relief.

"What are you laughing at?" I still don't understand, my image in her mind must be shattered, why is she still so happy?

"It's okay. Blame me for forcing you too much..." Yu Ruoxuan took my hand and intersected my fingers, "But what I like is not your knowledge, otherwise why don't I just marry the professor? Zhang Kedou, I like it It's you."

...Is it okay even if it is broken?I really don't understand her.

"One more thing... I lied to you too." I sighed and let go of her reluctant hand.

In her confused eyes, I continued to dismantle her affection: I like you... I'm really sorry.

"Zhang Kedou!"

I saw her lips trembling slightly, like a sharp knife scraping my heart.

After calling my name, Yu Ruoxuan couldn't say anything else, she lowered her head and sobbed.I gently put on her clothes and left without staying for a while.I don't have the face to stay any longer.

After leaving the hotel, my heart sank, and I typed a message word by word, and sent it to Yu Ruoxuan.The moment I pressed send, my whole body seemed to be exhausted and liberated.

"Sorry, let's break up."

That's when it became clear to me that I was a jerk—a hopeless kind.

By the time I got home in a daze, it was already late.The crumpled shirt on my body was stained with the smell of perfume that I was originally fond of, but now it made me slightly disgusted.

As soon as he entered the door, he saw Fu Pingqiu at home, still awake, sitting on the sofa and watching his mobile phone.

Seeing me coming back, he glanced at me, and said lightly why he came back, didn't he say he wouldn't come back tonight.I saw that his expression was not very good, and his face was a little gloomy.

I stayed silent, not wanting to answer this question.In the end, he still spit out a sentence sullenly, and the matter was pushed back.

Then I went to the refrigerator and opened the door, took out a can of beer, and slammed it down.Finishing one bottle was not enough, so I took another bottle without changing my face.Silently lit a cigarette, sat at the table and smoked.Fu Pingqiu didn't care about me any more, just swiped his phone on his own.

He was playing with his mobile phone, and I was drinking beer alone. Neither of us said a word, only the clatter of beer cans on the table, and the room was filled with an awkward and dull atmosphere.

After a while, my stomach began to feel uncomfortable after drinking too much... and my head began to feel dizzy.Hearing the man on the sofa suddenly say something indistinctly, he may have to go out later and won't come back to live.

I couldn't help being upset, so I said, "Where are you going? You don't want to go out for an appointment this time."

I didn't even realize how rude I was when I finished.But I... just don't want to be left alone by him like this, and I don't know what's wrong with me.Today I was not normal from morning till night.

Well, he said, he was not in a good mood today, so he wanted to go out and find someone to vent.

It's already 11 o'clock in the evening, and this person still wants to have sex?My heart became angry for no reason, and that happened to be my line.I unceremoniously threw the beer can on the table, and asked him what the hell was the point of being like this, what kind of people are you looking for when you date people, are those people with such excellent qualifications worthy of you, huh?Don't you pick someone when you go to bed?

He raised his eyelids with a strange expression: Who said I didn't pick?Last time I was looking for a returnee photographer.

I coldly hummed what is so great about returnees. Is his hometown Beishangshen?Have you graduated with a master's degree?Do you have a house and a car?Is there an annual salary of 20?Is everyone in the family high-ranking officials?Are you 1.8 meters tall?Do you have eight pack abs?Is that thing 18cm? ...Crackling like venting.

Fu Pingqiu was taken aback by my sudden questioning, and then replied thoughtfully, although I don't know all about him, but some of the points you said are satisfactory.

I laughed dryly, squinted my eyes and approached Fu Pingqiu, and I said yes, yes, is he comparable to me?

As if he didn't expect me to ask this question suddenly, the man's pupils dilated for a moment, and then he smiled. It was a smile I was not familiar with.I heard him chuckle and say: Of course he's not as good as you, but fuck him.do you fuck

It turned out to be like this.After talking for a long time, I still went to bed.

My brain got hot, I reached out and snatched his mobile phone, and it turned out to be bluxd on the screen.He didn't lie to me, he was really looking for a man for sex.

As soon as I let go, I threw his mobile phone on the sofa and raised my legs to straddle him.Feeling the heat of another man's body temperature at the base of his leg, he took a deep breath and said, don't look for those garbage outside, it's not a big deal if you were last time.

His eyes darkened, he put his hands loosely around my waist, and looked up at my face seriously, stop making trouble, you still have a girlfriend.

"We broke up." I said with lowered eyes.

"why?"

I snorted disdainfully and said that I would rather like you than her.

At that moment, the man's gaze on me became extremely hot, and his hot breath swept over my neck. He firmly clasped my shoulders and asked in a questioning tone, what about me?Who would you rather like than me?

I got stuck with his question, as if the engine was trying to detect a more advanced area and ended up not being able to find the file.Sitting on his lap, he opened his mouth in a daze, unable to utter any syllables.

"...Don't blame me for not giving you a chance."