Do you think I like you or not

In fact, this matter back then, it was quite complicated to say that it was complicated, but it is not impossible to make a simple summary.To paraphrase Wen Ran, it is probably that the young man fed the dog innocently.

Although He Xuan discovered her sexual orientation as early as middle school, she never had a relationship until she went to college.It's not that no one is chasing after him, on the contrary, just put that face there, plus he has a cheerful personality, and he has received a lot of love letters since he was a child, both boys and girls.But he turned them all down.It's not about saying that you don't want to have a puppy love and delay your studies, that's all an excuse, and to put it bluntly, I still haven't met.In terms of literature and art, it means that I haven’t met anyone who feels right. To put it simply, I always feel that I am not so good.It's been solo for 20 years, and most people don't believe it.

In my sophomore year, a brother named Xu Lang from the same club suddenly broke up with his girlfriend.He Xuan didn't have much communication with the senior brother before, after all, they are not in the same department, so in his impression, the senior brother is a very gentle person, always smiling.When I first joined the club, I had to deal with senior brothers because of the group activities, and I always helped and guided me patiently and seriously when I encountered any problems.It is said that Brother Xu and his girlfriend are very affectionate. His girlfriend is not from the school, and they are not even in the same city, but he will visit his girlfriend at least once a month. At that time, the relationship between the two was once a good story. Many people also jokingly called Senior Brother Xu an "affectionate and warm man".I didn't expect that two people who were so good at the beginning would be separated like this, and everyone was stunned for a while.When He Xuan first heard about this incident, she just sighed with her classmates and didn't take it to heart.

One night when He Xuan was about to return to the dormitory after playing ball with someone, he saw from a distance as he passed the track and field that it seemed that Brother Xu was running alone. He stopped and looked at it for a long time, and suddenly felt that thin figure was very lonely. , very sad again.In the end, he just sat on the sidelines and stayed quietly for a long time.

"Hey, what are you thinking?" Suddenly someone sat down next to him.He Xuan turned his head and realized that the senior brother had walked over at some point, and handed him a can of beer, "Can you drink it?"

"Hmm." Reached out to take it, "Brother, what were you thinking when you were running just now?"

Xu Lang froze for a moment, then smiled softly. "It's nothing, I just feel that after living for more than 20 years, I will make such a **** mistake."

He Xuan didn't quite understand.

Xu Lang took a deep look at him, and then said: "You know, sometimes when two people separate, it's not because they don't love each other anymore, but because many things are wrong from the beginning, and they are wrong in some of the most principled aspects. .”

In fact, He Xuan didn't understand what the senior brother was talking about that day, but since that day, the communication between the two has increased.Senior brothers would ask him to play ball and games together, as if the relationship from "senior brother" to "good buddy" suddenly.Xu Lang has a very good temper, and He Xuan also feels that being friends with him is quite happy, and they will take care of each other's affairs.

One Saturday night, He Xuan had just finished taking a shower when he suddenly received a call from Xu Lang. It sounded like he was drunk, and he was still quite drunk.Xu Lang said that he was alone in the bar near the school, and his speech was already in a state of confusion, so He Xuan had to change his clothes in a hurry and run out.

When I found Xu Lang at the bar, the guy was already drunk to the point of mud, and He Xuan took a lot of effort to help him up, paid the bill and carried him back.Going back to school drunk like this, I don't know if he can fool the dormitory uncle. He was wondering who Xu Lang's roommate was going to contact, when Xu Lang suddenly turned around and hugged him.

As a pure and natural guy who has never been in a relationship, He Xuan was too scared to move for a long time. After thinking about it, she felt that her senior brother must be confused, so she asked tentatively, "Senior brother, do you know who I am?"

"He... He Xuan."

"I'll take you back now. Can you tell me who your roommate is and what building you live in?"

Xu Lang mumbled a few names, and He Xuan finally called someone after calling one after another. Just after he breathed a sigh of relief, Xu Lang suddenly stood up straight, stared at him for a long time, and then began to giggle.

? ? ?Eh, no, the double personality came out drunk? ? ?

Xu Lang wobbled and tried hard to maintain his standing posture, and said with a smile, "I...I'll tell you a secret, don't tell anyone else."

"Hmm, I won't tell anyone."

"Pull...pull the hook."

"Pull the hook well." He Xuan rolled his eyes to the sky. Can this person graduate from kindergarten with his IQ drunk?

Xu Lang approached him abruptly, and whispered in his ear: "I found out, actually...I seem to like...I like men."

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After carrying Xu Lang back, He Xuan lay on the bed in the dormitory for a long time without recovering.The warm breath of wine exhaled by the senior brother seemed to be blowing in his ears again, and the earth-shattering words rang in his mind over and over again.Is that why you broke up with your girlfriend?That's why I said, is it wrong to be the most principled aspect?Then why were you with your girlfriend back then?How did he suddenly realize that the one he likes might be a man?The most important thing is, he told me why ah ah ah ah ah!

Headache, headache hurts.Obviously it wasn't me who was drinking, but why was my mind in a mess like drunk?He Xuan tried her best not to think about all the things that happened at night, and she fell asleep slowly under the blanket for a long time.The most terrible thing is, I don't know if he thought about it for too long, but that night he actually dreamed about what happened when he met Xu Lang just now.

Waking up the next morning, He Xuan picked up the phone and glanced at it in a daze. There was a new message.

"Thank you last night.——Xu Lang"

? ? ! !He Xuan woke up instantly, and sat up all at once.

"Um...it's okay, it's okay, senior brother, are you okay now?"

"Ah."

"That……"

"I remember it all."

? !Fuck you speak clearly!Remember everything, what do you remember? !

This kind of feeling of knowing other people's secrets when others are unconscious makes He Xuan very uncomfortable, especially this kind of secret, especially since he...is still gay.He Xuan was secretly slandering, when suddenly another piece of news came.

"Go downstairs and I'll take you to dinner."

...Okay, whatever you like, the person involved doesn't feel any embarrassment, I have nothing to worry about.He Xuan sorted out his clues, and then went downstairs heartlessly.

I have heard people say that when you share a secret with someone, it means that the relationship between the two of you has become closer, because you are the other person's "insider".

I don't know if it's because of this reason, but He Xuan found that Xu Lang took the initiative to find him more times, and his attitude towards him seemed to be different.Sometimes He Xuan got up late in class and Xu Lang would give him something to eat when get out of class was over, and would chat for a long time on WeChat after playing games together at night. He Xuan had a cold and a fever and Xu Lang ran to him medicine.Although He Xuan looked careless on the surface, he was not a fool, not to mention that he was not as heartless as he appeared on the surface, no matter how late he realized something.

Xu Lang seems to be flirting with me?

The first time this thought popped into his mind, He Xuan was taken aback.To be precise, I can't believe it.Even if you look at it rationally, what Xu Lang has done recently is indeed very strange.First he told himself that he likes men, and then his attitude became very strange from that day on, as if... as if the words he said before were just to predict the next action.

He Xuan panicked for a moment, but he didn't know what he was panicking about.Probably, I treat you as a good brother but you want to sleep with me?No no no I'm not the one below.So, I treat you like a brother but you want to be fucked by me?

He Xuan wondered if he was acting too much, and he panicked here without anyone saying anything.What if... What if people just think they know his secret and want to win people over to keep it a secret, right?Yes, yes, it must be... a fart!Who would do so many weird things to keep people a secret!

So He Xuan succeeded in insomnia again that night.

The next morning he made up his mind that this could not be the case, and He Xuan vowed to have a good talk with Xu Lang.He invited Xu Lang to a small road where no one usually passes by, and the battle between heaven and man lasted for a long time, and he said sadly: "Senior, you can't torture me physically and mentally just because I know you are gay and want to shut me up like this!"

Xu Lang raised his eyebrows and looked at him with a smile.

Ten seconds later...

"What the hell did I just say?!"

Seeing He Xuan's frantic look, Xu Lang smiled, and then said lightly, "Do you really think that I did these things just to make you shut up?"

While He Xuan was still in a daze, Xu Lang left a light kiss on his face, and then left directly.

?What just happened?Fuck?me?Kissed?

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It's fried, it's all fried.He Xuan felt that box after box of fireworks had been blown up in his mind at this moment, and he could still blow up colorful and various graphics, which were even more beautiful than the one that Wen Ran had dragged him to see a few days ago. .

He Xuan originally thought that he could finally end his 20-year solo career, so he went back and seriously considered whether his senior brother was a confession, and whether he should accept it or not, but Xu Lang’s internship unit asked him to go on a business trip, and he left the next day up.

What the hell, run away after kissing, even though it was just a kiss on the face, I am an innocent boy!He Xuan was so angry that he didn't take the initiative to find Xu Lang for two whole months. As a result, the number of times Xu Lang took the initiative to talk to He Xuan was actually very few, as if he was very busy every day.In the past two months, He Xuan thought a lot, recalled every detail of getting along with Xu Lang, and finally decided to stay with him when Xu Lang came back.

On Christmas Eve, Xu Lang finally returned to City C. He Xuan originally planned to pick him up at the airport but was rejected, saying that there were a few colleagues who wanted to have dinner together and stay overnight in a hotel before going back to school.He Xuan wanted to give him a surprise, so she secretly inquired with his roommate about the hotel where he stayed when he came back, and then figured that he was going back soon, so she went to the hotel to wait for him, and wanted to tell him her thoughts face to face.

When he saw Xu Lang walking over with a girl in his arms, He Xuan felt that his whole body was like an ice sculpture. He felt cold from head to toe, so cold that he couldn't move, and he couldn't even say hello in a cool way. What a coincidence." Then he left handsomely.He didn't know what happened in the past two months, who made the mistake, when and where the mistake started.

Xu Lang was stunned when he saw He Xuan, and reached out to grab him, but he subconsciously threw him away.He Xuan tried his best to regain his senses and ran away without looking back, regardless of Xu Lang calling him from behind, and regardless of whether people around him looked at him strangely.It's not important, these are not important, he just wants to get out of this ghost place quickly.

After returning, he ignored Xu Lang's bombardment of countless text messages, phone calls and WeChat, but just deleted them all blankly, and then asked Xu Lang's roommate to help him with a last sentence.

"Don't contact me again."

After doing this, he buried himself under the quilt without shedding tears, because he felt it was unnecessary.I just don't know where it hurts.

There is nothing wrong with him, he was a straight man before, he was just playing around, it was my fault.I... took it seriously.

After a long time, a tear flowed down quietly.He Xuan wiped her face vigorously, and cursed in a low voice: "Damn it, it's really useless."

But after all, it's the first time I've been heartbroken.

It may be because this incident hit He Xuan too hard. After a few days, when Wen Ran suddenly confessed to him, he said impulsively: "I'm sorry, I like men." Wen Ran was shocked for a long time. In the end, out of nowhere, she became what Wen Ran called a "good sister".He Xuan sometimes thinks that having such a friend to listen to him tell those secrets hidden in his heart is a blessing in disguise, but... the price is really quite high.

It is also because of this that He Xuan has become more cautious about emotional issues, completely different from his usual foolishness. Although he seems to be friends with everyone, as long as someone expresses his heart to him, he will always be rejected. For a long time, I didn't dare to show my feelings easily.

As for Xu Lang, he always wanted to have a good chat with He Xuan, but all he got was rejection in the end.After being rejected countless times, he had to ask Wen Ran to say sorry to He Xuan, but Wen Ran scolded him bloody.He Xuan didn't care about how he was doing afterwards, but a friend in the club mentioned that he went to other places to study for graduate school and found a very cute girlfriend.It's just that these are not important to He Xuan.