pig like age

Fu Siyan.

This person has long been a special existence in my heart.Seeing it now, the spirit and demeanor are exactly the same as the goddess.

Yes, they are people in the same world.The same background, the same outstanding, is one in a million characters.

And me, and I...

The light purple sunset reflected his features clearly and brightly.One is a handsome and noble son, and the other is a peerless and independent beauty. In the eyes of the world, these two people stand together as a perfect match...

I couldn't think about it anymore, so I had to bury my head and hold back the acid water from my nose.This situation has pushed my feelings of inferiority and self-loathing to the peak these days.

I don't like myself very much now, no, it can be said that I hate it to the extreme!My sister said that I have an optimistic and positive personality, and she also said that no matter what I do, I don't think too much about it.In fact, in the final analysis, there is a confident heart.But my self-confidence, which is not afraid of tigers as a newborn calf, seems to have slipped in the opposite direction at a very fast speed after experiencing a series of life blows.

There is no transition, and I am not even given time for psychological construction, and no one can help me, so that I can completely degenerate into the current state that I don't like the most.

Later, I gradually realized that my self-confidence used to be based on my youth, and the people around me doted on me, and I was the only one in the ivory tower.True self-confidence is based on a strong heart and control over the world. This is the source of self-esteem and self-confidence.

But stepping out of the ivory tower, experiencing setbacks and tempering, and making oneself truly strong, there will always be such a process of painful transformation.During this period, you may be fearful and hesitant, you may hesitate and resist, and even feel that the whole world is gloomy and painful like now.These are the processes that have to be experienced and grown up.

Closer to home.The appearance of a rival in love, without saying or doing anything, completely defeated me, which was unimaginable in Xi Xiaochen's world before.The impact on oneself is also indescribable.

For a while, I was filled with grief, anger, pain, self-destruction, and depression that could not be vented.

Compared with my dire situation, my rival in love acted calmly and said, "You must have a good relationship with Nanyin, right?" Afraid that I would feel awkward when I heard it, he explained with a smile: "She Don't give out addresses to people you don't know."

This sentence was spoken confidently and calmly, as if she was familiar with Jian Nanyin, and I was depressed after hearing it.

"It seems that you are also very familiar with Nanyin?" I secretly gritted my teeth and asked knowingly.

He smiled again and didn't answer me.He has a bookish look when he smiles, with slender wrists and slender fingers, gentle and clean.In terms of appearance, it is really disgusting, but in my heart, it is comparable to a scourge.

"Oh, by the way, I saw you taking out something just now, is it for her? I can pass it on for you."

"Are you going to wait here for her?" I couldn't help asking.

"Yes, I will wait forever." The handsome young man looked at the door in front of him, with an indescribably tender and affectionate look in his eyes.

I saw a needle pricking my heart, but I still couldn't help asking: "What if I can't wait?"

I know she's probably spending most of the semester in the lab and doesn't come back here very often.

He looked straight into my eyes, smiled brightly, and said slowly: "As long as you keep waiting, you will always be there."

I almost ran away.

Straight out of the door of the building, a heavy chill slowly oozes from the heart, forcing the root of the tongue to be as bitter as rust.

There is nothing more intimidating than the stoic patience of this opponent.Because time can wear water through stone, making it impossible to have hope.

And Jian Nanyin also recognized his kindness to her, which meant that she didn't feel disgusted.

Although I am no longer qualified to be his rival in love, my love for Jian Nanyin has not changed. I watched such a powerful opponent approaching the heart of the person I love step by step. Fucking someone else, that feeling is worse than cooking my internal organs!

Later, I thought, Fu Siyan appeared at that time, could it be that the god of fate was guiding me to the light?

On the one hand, he let me see people in two different worlds, the gap between me and him; on the other hand, the appearance of a rival in love also made me understand my love for her, as if there were fine grass growing wildly in my heart, Never exhausted, the longer the longer the more prosperous.

Yes, in terms of other conditions, I am not as good as Fu Siyan.But when it comes to the love for Jian Nanyin, I dare say that no one can compare with me.

Even he can spend time in exchange for Nan Yin's new appreciation for her, day after day.And I was only temporarily weak and inferior, feeling that I couldn't match her well, couldn't get the approval of her family, and couldn't promise her a bright future... All these demons trapped me and made me annoyed and hated.But at least, I still have her love...

Is there anything more commendable than this?

Fu Siyan can wait for a heart that doesn't love him. Compared to him, isn't it easier to change the status quo through hard work?

"I'm so stupid! It turns out that the special medicine to heal the wound is right in front of me; the key to the shackles of my soul has long been in my hand! I should really thank Fu Siyan, my rival in love, for letting me I am so enlightened! Do you know..." I danced and gestured: "It's like, like..." I didn't know how to describe it for a while, but when I saw Mais's computer screen scrolling the screensaver of her game, I was so blessed, Said: "That's right! It's like the clearance game of Dragon Quest! All those external factors that I think are unsolvable are all barriers that prevent us from being together! I haven't left Novice Village yet, so of course I can't help it!" Get rid of them! But I will work hard to level up, I will work harder than others! Soon I will become stronger, and finally defeat the dragon and marry the princess!"

"The premise is that the princess is willing to wait for you there all the time." Mais was dug out of the bed by me in the middle of the night, yawned and listened to my awakening, and couldn't help but began to speak viciously.

I thought about it, and said, "Then I will redouble, redouble my efforts!"

"Ah, whatever you want. But I want to remind you that making yourself stronger is just your wishful thinking to solve your current problems. Her family doesn't accept you. It doesn't matter if you are strong or not, just because Are you a woman?" At this point, she put away her dislike for me, and her face gradually turned pale, presumably recalling the past that she didn't want to recall.

There is a wound in everyone's heart, dripping with blood, which cannot be faced.I use alcohol, she uses games, trying to escape this unfaceable reality by paralyzing myself.But running away is useless, we must find the courage to face it again!And I finally found the way of redemption, and I will never give up easily!

Once a person has a goal, the boat of life will have a direction to sail, and will not spend time on useless things, especially emotions.What's more, there is a powerful rival in love behind him, it's like putting wings on a boat, full of power!

So with my efforts, Fanhua Films finally registered successfully. Different from Sister Li's other companies that focus on model agency, model training, public relations and other businesses, Fanhua's business scope involves actor brokerage, actor business development, actor promotion, film and television Drama promotion, etc.

In terms of equity allocation, my 20 yuan was really too much to sell, but because of my stalking, I finally persuaded Xiao Youzuo to join, and got Sister Li's approval.Let my 20 account for 30% of the company's shares, and then increase the registered capital.

This incident made me realize more clearly that Sister Li found the right partner.She can put personal affairs aside and is willing to try a new business model, which shows that she is informal and ambitious; let me invest 20 yuan in shares with a red mouth and white teeth, which shows that she has a win-win thinking, a mind and a big picture , is a heroine among women, and even a rare partner.

Speaking of which, I was able to win Xiao Youzuo's agent appointment, and it was really painstaking.Beijing and Shanghai flew back and forth no less than five times.If I hadn't laid the groundwork for her parents in advance and done the key work, I'm afraid it would be really difficult.

At the same time, our competitors who negotiated contracts with her are all one of the largest companies in China.As for Sister Li and I, it can be said that we are laymen who started from scratch, without the resources of those big companies.You know, the golden life cycle of an actor is usually just a few years. It can be said that she is taking her supposedly brilliant stardom to accompany us in a big gamble.Therefore, even for the trust of Xiao Youzuo and my godfather and godmother, I can only succeed, not fail!

Back then, I made up my mind to sign Xiao Youzuo to prove my worth to Sister Li, but I never thought that the chain effect she would bring would be so huge.It seems that there is no need for us to promote it, and attention from all directions is pouring in.It caused a huge shock in the industry.

Not only is the industry curious about Fanhua, but even the media has begun to pay attention to us. We just took advantage of the situation and held a special signing ceremony, which can be regarded as Fanhua's debut.

Fortunately, luck came, and it couldn’t be stopped. Our heavily invested media and public relations team played a decisive role in making this event a remarkably successful one, occupying the headlines of major entertainment pages almost overnight.

With Xiao Youzuo's popularity rising, more and more people know that a new brokerage company has been announced - Fanhua Films, which means that our artists can be colorful and bloom like brocade.

Next, my eyes fixed on Jane to the north again.

How can I let him go who has good genes from the Jane family?I have gnawed down the most difficult bones, let alone Handsome Jane.

The next step is to recruit Liu Jiayang, a part-time celebrity assistant, as a matchmaker in Beijing.Everything is a new beginning, everything is vigorous and thriving.

During this period, I was busy taking care of the flowers and seedlings, and I also had to take care of my studies. The time passed quickly.

"Every day is like a race against time. There are too many jobs waiting for me to learn and I will do it. I am so tired..." Liu Jiayang said weakly on the table after working overtime on the nth night.

Our office is located in a small bungalow on Lujiabang Road. Although the sparrow is small, it has all the internal organs. It also takes care of the auntie to cook three meals a day, and supplements us with nutrition in different ways, enough for us to work overtime until "six relatives don't recognize it". .

"You might as well come back." I suggested, "You're from Shanghai, so it's easy to clear up the relationship."

"No, no, there are many gays in Beijing, and there are many mates. Besides, can you return to Beijing after graduation?"

"Where is the goddess, where am I?" I said seriously.

Liu Jiayang rolled his eyes: "Shouldn't it be where are the flowers? Where are you? My dear boss!"

I was very embarrassed by the boss's call, and said in a friendly voice, "Stop talking nonsense, how is the appointment with the producer?"

Upon hearing this, Liu Jiayang lay down on the table and yelled: "That producer Wang is notoriously difficult in the circle, if you let me talk about it, you might as well let me die!"

Looking at his panda-like dark circles, I couldn't bear it.Indeed, Liu Jiayang has been coming from Beijing for a week, and he has not returned home once, and has worked overtime at the company for six days.Iron Man couldn't take it either.

"Let's go." I waved my hand.

Liu Jiayang seemed to be choked by the throat, and suddenly stopped howling, blinking his eyes and said: "Boss, do you want me anymore, Boss? I'm going to seduce, no, go drink with Producer Wang!"

So the entertainment industry is really ruining people, I swear the original Liu Jiayang is not so badass.In his words, he had been serving female stars personally before, and as an assistant to a female star, he wanted to be gay, so that he would not be scolded by fans.

It's just... well, a little overdone.

It is very important for Xiao Youzuo to obtain the cooperation with the producer surnamed Wang.Xiao Youzuo's reputation was built up by fans of American dramas, and was overexposed by the media when she returned to China. Now she is a bit weak in succession, and urgently needs a domestic representative work to be produced to prove her strength.

This producer Wang has a vicious vision, and the films he has participated in in recent years all have a good reputation.We weighed and negotiated in various ways and believed that he is the most important stepping stone at our current stage.The meaning is not trivial.

Let Liu Jiayang take the lead because he has played with him before, and it is a familiar relationship.But Liu Jiayang's overtired face made me really feel sorry for him. I thought it would be better for me to go directly to the battle, which could also represent the sincerity of the company.So I wanted him to go home and rest.Unexpectedly, he misunderstood, hugged my thigh and asked me to give him a chance to redeem himself.I was a little puzzled, and I accidentally asked Sister Li during the video conference, and Sister Li said, "It's you who are too desperate and serious, which also drives them to work as hard and serious as possible."

"Really?" I touched my chin, which was getting thinner day by day, and couldn't help but think of Jian Nanyin, my goddess. (The Goddess Perspective episode will be included in the personal journal. Please go to Gengleuhan Weibo and follow the pre-sale of this personal journal. You only need to scan it once, and you will receive five great gifts. In the last five days, it will be out of print.)

It has been 113 days. Since the painting and calligraphy exhibition, we have not seen each other for more than 100 days.During this period, I have flown back and forth between Beijing and Shanghai five times. Even my sister is about to fly back to China from the other side of the ocean for Christmas, but we, who are in the same city, don’t even have a chance to meet by chance.

Fortunately, Jane Xiangbei would share her current situation with me from time to time, so that I could chat for comfort.But every time I hear about her, I miss her even more.

It's true, longing has become a disease.

When I was a child, I read texts, and when I read why Yixiao made people haggard, I just felt that I was moaning about nothing, and I was doing well.Thinking about it now, it is so true.

When I miss her so much, work gradually becomes a way for me to divert my attention.I miss her a lot, so from the perspective of outsiders, I am always working without stopping.Of course, there is another important reason, that is the sense of urgency from the heart...

I always fall into a state of anxiety, repeatedly asking myself when can I succeed?When can I make some achievements?

Can you go faster, faster!

I don't know when I will be able to return to the confident and optimistic Xi ​​Xiaochen.It is not the Xi Xiaochen who sits at the bottom of the ivory tower, looking at the sky from a well, and blindly confident, but the Xi Xiaochen who can cope with any difficulties and obstacles and walk side by side with her.

when?when!when……

This anxious mood tormented me all day long, and even dominated me for a long time.Later, it gradually caused my severe insomnia.

As soon as night fell, when the night was dead, I began to dread the arrival of day.I was afraid that when I woke up, I would be told that the goddess had been married off by Fu.So subconsciously, I hope that the night will never end and the day will never come.I try to do a lot of things to prolong the night, but I just don't go to bed, afraid of falling asleep.

"Xiaochen, no one is forcing you, and you don't need to force yourself." Sister Li repeated the same old tune again, speaking earnestly.

This time I was more straightforward and said, "Okay, after meeting with Producer Wang, can you give me a week off? It's almost the end of the semester, and I have to deal with the thesis."

Sister Li breathed a sigh of relief: "I can't ask for it."

Writing a final paper was one of the reasons, and another reason I thought I should see a therapist.Anxiety has increased recently, and anxiety combined with lack of sleep has seriously affected my daily life.

So, I started preparing for the meeting with Producer Wang.

Maybe in everyone's life, there will always be several important scenes that will reappear in the mind yesterday.It may be your critical moment; or that scene touched a certain chord in you at that time; or a fragment that has great meaning to you.

And meeting Director Wang is such an existence.It seems that in my memory, it will never be erased.

Because I didn't expect to meet the goddess again in such a way.I can't help but suspect that the God of Destiny is deliberately playing tricks...