sun, fall

Unstoppable tears ooze from the corners of my eyes, soaking my vision, my lips, and the wheat-colored chest full of elasticity. "I...I didn't, I wanted to leave on purpose..." I muttered sobbing, my voice, even myself, was a little unclear...

The slightly cold and slightly rough palm had already reached into my neck, gently stroking my back.

I snuggle into Chu Ling's arms, my nose just sticks to the skin of Chu Ling's left chest, the scar.His body temperature is faint and refreshing...

Obviously I know very well that Chu Ling has forgiven me long ago, and even from the very beginning, she never blamed me for anything, but I can't always calm down.Thinking of the scene where I "abandoned" him in the infirmary more than two hours ago, my heart seemed to have an indescribable pain—however, the feeling of being comforted and caressed by Chu Ling at this moment made me Indulging in it, even I would rather let the pain in my heart continue endlessly, and just stay in Chu Ling's arms all the time, making this moment eternal.

——Perhaps, rather than blaming myself, I might as well say that I was just acting like a baby.When I was crying in Chu Ling's arms, I was close to his body, and his heart was also resonating with my sobbing.I know that Chu Ling really loves me, and I really possess him.

There are voices behind him.I was startled, quickly wiped my face, and turned my head to look over there.Two seven or eight-year-old boys, with toy guns in their hands, rushed past us.Chu Ling and I sat side by side on a milky white stone chair by the flower bed in the corner of the Fang×li community.The last brilliance of the setting sun, under the shade of trees accompanied by gusts of cool wind, cast many golden and shiny spots, as if the sun in early summer had fallen on the ground.I look at my watch, it's already 06:30.Even if you get home right away, you will probably be scolded. In this case, it doesn't matter if you go back later.

"Chu Ling...can you do it and stay with me forever?"

Chu Ling nodded vigorously.Looking at his firm yet gentle gaze, a warm current filled my heart immediately, and at the same time, I also felt a burst of warmth in my eyes, which could not stop overflowing.

"I'm sorry, Shao Yuan, I... I'm really cowardly, I don't look like a man, I'm even trash, you say, don't you?" Chu Ling looked at me, and I saw that his eyes were shining brightly tears, but he bit his lip hard to keep the tears from rolling down.

"No! No!" I suddenly raised my voice, "Today, it's my fault. I shouldn't have left you when you were getting the injection. Everyone has something to fear, everyone is the same! What's wrong with the man ? Men are human too, deep in everyone's heart, it is inevitable that there are some restricted areas, and it is inevitable that there are things to be afraid of!"

The more I spoke, the louder my voice became. In the end, I almost opened my voice and burst into tears.The moment I finished speaking, I saw a teardrop seep from one corner of Chu Ling's eye, fall off, hang on the cheek, and slowly move down.Almost at the same moment, Chu Ling quickly kissed me, and his tears and mine were on each other's faces.

"Shao Yuan, you are so kind." Chu Ling smiled at me, his eyes were still red with tears, but his smile was always so handsome and warm, just like the sunshine in early summer.

"Actually, I am not what I appear to be. I have a high-end CD player, a famous brand, and I often wear accessories——Shao ​​Yuan, you already know the real situation of my family, right? My dad is a peddler. A corner of the farmer’s market, selling counterfeit clothing, sneakers, and sometimes groceries. I was always looked down upon by many classmates in elementary school and junior high school. The day before I graduated from the third year of junior high school, I stole my father’s money for the first time. For 1000 yuan, I went to a big shopping mall and bought myself a CD player and some CDs of popular songs. It cost nearly 900 yuan. I bought a necklace with the rest of the money. The necklace worth more than 100 yuan was nothing more than a black string , and hang a grotesque metal ornament—”

As Chu Ling said, she took off the necklace that was often worn on her chest and shone in the sun, and handed it to me.As for accessories, I am a complete layman, and I have never worn them, but I can also see that the price of this item is definitely not low, although it may be too much to sell more than 100.

"Actually, it can be bought for as little as five or sixty yuan. There are many individual stalls in the big shopping mall, and the competition is fierce. Almost all things have great flexibility in price. At that time—" Chu Ling showed a shy expression Smile, "At that time, the stall owner was a handsome boy in his 60s. His sportswear was very bright in color. He also wore this necklace at the time. He said that this style sold for 20 yuan. There is only the last one left... I hesitated for a while, then took out all the money, a total of more than 130, and gave it all to him. At that time, I was still grateful to him in my heart, and felt that he gave me some discounts."

I laughed too.He glanced at his watch casually, and was surprised again: it was seven o'clock.

"Do you have a phone at your house?" I suddenly thought of something.

"No. Last time I called your house, I used a pay phone."

I was suddenly a little lost.Suddenly, a kind of unprecedented determination arises spontaneously. "Chu Ling, tomorrow—no, the day after tomorrow, Sunday, are you free? I want...I want to be with you, like, like a lover...dating!"

Looking at the unprecedented expression in Chu Ling's eyes—surprise intertwined, but also moved and expectant eyes—I added firmly, "Today, I plan to go home at 07:30. As for my parents, They won't do anything to me! From here to home, run fast, it's only 10 minutes. I leave at seven twenty. Now, we can stay together for another 20 minutes."

"Sunday, I'm free anytime."

"That's good! How about nine o'clock in the morning this Sunday? Would it be convenient for you to meet here? Or..."

"I'm fine. I usually get up at 06:30, whether it's at school or at home. My dad wakes up early, and I can't sleep in even if I want to."

His last words made my heart ache again.It suddenly occurred to me that I had more than 300 yuan in my small coffers.Because, for the first time in this semester, the mid-term exam was held at the end of April. As a result, most of the students were caught off guard and their grades were generally poor. On the contrary, I, because I have always studied well, this time I got the first place in the class and the fourth grade.Mom and Dad were very satisfied with this and gave me some pocket money.I also lied about buying the exercise set and falsely reported the price. The 6 books were "embezzled" for a total of nearly [-] yuan (I bought the D version, but the price written on the back is the same as the original version).The good grades not long ago made me a lot more courageous, which is why I dare not go home so late today, but I have no fear.

"That's good!" I nodded, "How about this, Chu Ling, we'll see each other at this place at nine o'clock on Sunday morning. Then, let's just find a place and have fun all day, how about it? I have Money, at least two hundred, is enough for lunch no matter where you go. What do you think?"

"Okay! But, you don't have to pay for the money, I have it! See you at 9 o'clock on Sunday morning!" Chu Ling flashed an excited expression, and while he was talking, he put on his necklace again. I saw his With one hand, he kept touching the scar on his left chest.

"Shao Yuan, when the time comes, I'll take you to a good place, I'm familiar with it, and no strangers will bother you, tell me, okay?" Chu Ling paused, as if after a moment of hesitation, "I think I will tell you all my secrets, including the scar on my chest, and why I am so afraid of injections. - All of this has something to do with my family. My father and my mother divorced when I was in the third grade of elementary school Yes, I was less than 9 years old at the time. My mother was determined to divorce my father, and she didn't want me to be a burden by her side..."

"Chu Ling, stop talking." I hugged Chu Ling tightly in my arms and kissed his neck.At this moment, I am really worried that Chu Ling, or me, will suddenly lose control of her emotions and cry out—after all, in at most 10 minutes, I have to go home anyway; You can't reveal the clues that you just cried in front of your parents.