That thing

The end of the year is approaching, and the postgraduate entrance examination is basically busy.I am a very planned person, and today's work is done today, and life is naturally easier after the holidays.

Both he and I are used to a casual lifestyle, we understand each other and give each other private space.

After visiting the exhibition, and returning home together, he chattered on the road so much that he could write a book about what he saw and heard today.

I actually listened with gusto.Sure enough, falling in love will make people boring, and falling in love with a stick will make people even more boring.

I am a science student, and I am used to thinking about things and must compare the standards of the unit.

But in the relationship, you can't be too fussy, because if you are too fussy, you will worry about gains and losses.

When I woke up in the morning, when I turned around, I saw him looking at me with his head propped up, and said with a smile, "Bao, there is an exhibition at the east gate today, you can go with me."

While he was shaving, he lathered my face casually.

I hum and wipe the foam back on his new shirt.

I don't really like to go with him when I go to the exhibition. He forgets me when he starts working. To be honest, I'm a little bit jealous...well, it's true, I'm very upset.

On the way home, he beamed and talked with me about the photos, and rattled the phone.

When he got home, he put down the SLR and asked while taking off his coat, "Baby, did my clothes rub against somewhere, why is it so white?"

I took a look, it was my shaving lotion.

I don't want to say that Chen Zicheng thought it was toothpaste rubbed on, he threw his clothes into the laundry basket heartlessly, and rushed towards me with his bare upper body.Like a big cat, he kept hitting me with his hair, and I was happy to coax him.

In high school, Chen Zicheng was not a good-tempered person, and his reputation as a "stab head" made the school famous.But he has no temper now, not the bear-like temper he used to have, smelly and hard.

I remember once asking Chen Zicheng when he fell in love with me. He said that he took a card camera to take pictures everywhere in high school, and I walked past his camera while memorizing a vocabulary book. I think he is related to me.

I don't have the slightest impression of this.My impressions of him all started when I was in college.

At that time, it was mandatory for the school to join a sports club and an entertainment club. I joined a Taekwondo club, and when I turned around, I saw the photography club next to me. At that time, I happened to get a SLR from a relative. Chen Zicheng sat there with a dark face. I thought he was recruiting new people, so I asked him for a registration form. He raised his head with a dark face, stared at me for a while, but got up and left without saying anything. .

After he left, the seniors and sisters who recruited new students also had a bad face at the time, and they complained: "I have never seen such a newcomer."

What they said made me feel uncomfortable. I didn't sign up again and left.

It can also be seen from this incident that I am not a very tolerant person. In Chen Zicheng's words, I just have some inexplicable "G" spots, and I can "orgasm" accidentally.

Later, I became acquainted with him in the big classes of Ma Yuan and English, because Chen Zicheng could always find the right time to sit next to me.

Sometimes I went back a bit late, and the classroom was already full. When I looked inside, I saw Chen Zicheng standing up and waving to me.

He is an authentic, muscular Northeast guy. Before I got to know him, I thought his painting style should be crazy and cool. Then I found out that he called himself Xiaomengmeng in private... Really, it's hard to say.

On Saturday, Chen Zicheng went out to make a film appointment.I stayed at home to catch up on American dramas, and watching Broke Girls and The Big Bang always made me laugh out loud.

When Chen Zicheng came back, his expression was not very good. I was lying on the sofa holding the IPAD, my face was full of tears, and I grinned and asked him what happened. He paused and said that the car almost scratched the flower bed when I came back , but it's okay.

I believed him when he said that.I think the sense of trust between lovers is very important. I don’t say [-]% when I’m with him, at least [-]% I believe all his explanations.

I went back and continued watching the drama.He got down on one knee and carefully kissed the back of my neck.I thought he was a bit weird today, Chen Zicheng just hugged me, and then said he was going to cook.

I was also hungry. The fish in the refrigerator had been frozen for several days. I said I wanted to eat the fish head, and he said yes.

The color, fragrance and taste are all good, and now I am a little greedy to write this.

But that was the last time I ate his fish head.

On Christmas Eve I got my approval for my school application and I passed.I can't remember exactly how I got through that day, I just remember that I was so happy that day, got very drunk, Chen Zicheng helped me recall afterwards, and told me that I was crying all night and said it was too difficult.

It's kind of embarrassing to think about it.

Before the Spring Festival, I discussed with him to celebrate the New Year together.I'm busy with my studies, and my family doesn't care much about me, for fear of disturbing my study.But Chen Zicheng didn't have a good relationship with his family, and no one cared about him if he didn't go back.

But that day I accompanied Chen Zicheng to watch anime, and he said that he had to go back for the Chinese New Year this year. It was very difficult for him to say this, and I listened to it for a long time before I listened.

I asked him why, I remember my tone was very calm at the time, and I really didn't think there was anything wrong with him saying that he wanted to go home, let alone feel uncomfortable, I just wanted to know why.

But Chen Zicheng sprang up like a cat whose hair has been pulled. He walked around the room uneasily, and said anxiously, "Can't you think about me?"

I "relied", not knowing what he was doing.Chen Zicheng took a deep breath, and then came over and said that his mother was ill, so he had to go back anyway.

I was a little surprised and asked, auntie is sick, what is the disease?

Chen Zicheng's face became strange, he said, I didn't tell you about this?

I was also confused at the time, so I asked him back, did you say so?

He turned sharply and went to the bathroom.

I'm also stupid, I didn't think to ask him, then who did you tell about this?

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Chen Zicheng went back to his hometown a few years ago, and I bought a ticket and told my family that I would go back for the New Year.

Compared with the two of them, that year was really lively.

The children running around the house and the non-stop crackling of firecrackers outside the house made it extremely lively.

When the bell rang, I quickly called Chen Zicheng, but it took me a long time to answer. His father's voice was on the other end of the phone. His father said that Chen Zicheng and his friends went shopping.

I hurriedly said, Happy New Year to that uncle.

Uncle was taken aback for a moment, and then replied politely, "Happy New Year to you too."

I didn't realize at the time that the note Chen Zicheng had given me on the phone before was "Thieves Rare Rare".But maybe I changed it at that time, maybe I thought too much.

After the Chinese New Year came back, I went to the school and the city hall to prepare all the affairs to go abroad. During that time, Chen Zicheng was also very busy. The number of times I have done with him is one of the few. Every time he hugs me for a long time before going. bath.

He respects me very much and never shoots inside/ejaculate, but during that time, every time he did it, he would ask if he could get it inside. Because I was going to go abroad, I felt a little distressed and guilty, and I never refused.

But it's really uncomfortable to have it in my body, it's almost incontinent when it leaks out, and I have to grin my teeth for a while to get it out.

And Chen Zicheng's stick can still be contented and happy for a long time.

After writing this, my thoughts stopped, and I thought for a long time before I found the thread that made the following things unravel.

I went to Chen Zicheng's studio to look for him. The young girls and boys in his studio saw me and stopped shouting "Good morning, lady boss" and "Miss boss is here to inspect". The atmosphere was strangely quiet, and they whispered, Chen Zicheng Brother is out.

I just suddenly got up to look for him, but I didn't expect it to be empty, I felt a little regretful, and left without thinking much.

It was a rare time for me that day. I bought two movie tickets. It was in the next door movie theater, and the movie started in 10 minutes.

I don't like people interrupting my work, and I don't like interrupting other people's work.So he returned a movie ticket and went to watch a movie alone.

It is a sci-fi movie, the first half is pretty good, but the second half is a bit boring. I fell asleep in the movie theater, and finally woke up by the ending song.

When he got home, Chen Zicheng probably went out after coming back for a while, and he threw his mobile phone on the sofa.

At that time, mobile payment was not as popular as it is now, and it was still a time when you could go out with just a wallet.

I saw the screen of Chen Zicheng's phone light up. It was a familiar nickname who sent a few pictures. I swiped open the phone to unlock it, but the phone vibrated, reminding me that the password was wrong.

I thought I made a mistake, and tried a few more times, but nothing was right.

Finally I gave up.On the message preview of the phone lock screen, there are still a series of [pictures], followed by the last sentence, "Love you".

I am a very rational person, or maybe I have felt it a long time ago, so I put the phone back where it was, then found a box and stuffed the books, notebooks, etc. on my desk neatly into it.

Looking back now, I feel a little baffled. Most people should be angry and suspicious when they encounter such a thing, but I didn't think of asking him anything at that time.

It may also be because I am a very face-saving person, saving face for myself and him.

So I don't want to ask anything.boring.

Chen Zicheng went out to buy a boxed lunch and came back. When he opened the door and saw me sitting on the sofa watching TV, he was still very happy, and explained that he forgot to buy groceries today, so he had to buy a boxed lunch.

Why a box lunch.Chen Zicheng said that he had eaten outside.

I didn't ask who he ate with.

A lover’s sense of trust is inexplicable. When you believe him, he says the sky is made of cotton candy and you think it’s right, but once the seeds of doubt are planted, you’ll feel full of doubts when you hear what he says So it’s better not to ask more questions.

While eating, I asked him calmly, what's the plan after that?

His face froze, and he said quickly: "I haven't thought about it yet."

I went on to say, since your aunt is in poor health, do you plan to go back to work after graduation?

He was silent for a long time before looking at me cautiously and said that he had this plan.

I smiled and said, that's pretty good.

I went on to tell him that I have finished my overseas affairs, and it will be time for spring enrollment in a few days.

He paused for a long time before asking me difficultly when I was leaving.

I thought he still had some affection for me, so I couldn't help but touched his face and said "Leave today".

There is a strange joy in my heart when I say this sentence.

Chen Zicheng asked in shock, where are you going today?

I smiled and said goodbye to my former roommates when I went back to the dormitory.

He asked is that still coming back?

I said, the things are still here and I have to come back to get them.

His tone was very slow, very slow.But I could still hear the trill in his voice.I hugged him, and he hugged me back, and after a while my shoulders were soaked.

What a naive ghost.

But he's not a mallet anymore, I am.I said in my heart that it is good to get together and get away.

In fact, I thought of "breaking up" with him again abroad, so that no one would pester anyone, and everyone would be straightforward, one kind of separation and two lenient.

If you don't get that text message.

It was an unknown number. The time and place were written in the text message. It was an exhibition hall. I thought it was Chen Zicheng who sent it to me, so I replied, what are you doing?

The other side quickly replied to me: Brother, you will know when you go.

This is not Chen Zicheng's tone.Later, when I remembered this incident occasionally, I guessed that it might be a text message sent to me by the little girl in Chen Zicheng's studio.

I did.

There is no other meaning, I just want to end the last bit of emotion.

I am not a person who likes revenge, and I am not a person with very strong emotions, so I can't do anything drastic.

Following the instructions, I walked through a large area of ​​red, yellow, blue and green hair to the exhibition hall on the second floor. I didn't need to look much, and I saw the big tall man in the crowd at a glance.He stood out from the crowd all by himself, with his hands still on the shoulders of a girl with twin ponytails, talking to people and laughing happily, I knew who he was without looking at his face.

I originally thought that I had reached the state of being peaceful until death, but suddenly, my heart was still clenched so hard that it was almost bursting with pain.

I heard a young girl in the studio behind Chen Zicheng shout "Madam Boss", and I fled in despair.

Looking back on that scene to this day still makes me feel extremely embarrassed and ashamed.In the next few years of my life, that was the one thing I most regretted doing.

Good together and good parting finally became an unhappy ending.