Kidney loss

Shen Yan has never been so guilty in his life - even though he really didn't do anything, he didn't even dare to look into Su Jianian's eyes, he just walked over at a faster pace.

As a result, after walking two steps, the other party turned his head and ran away.

Shen Yan chased after him instinctively, the alcohol was swaying in his stomach, his vision flickered a few times, and the things in front of him began to blur.He rubbed his eyes, only to feel that Su Jianian's back became two, he reached out to reach for it, almost missed his foot and fell down the stairs.

Su Jianian didn't run fast, he seemed more angry than fleeing, but he was always paying attention to the movement behind him, when Shen Yan fell down, he instinctively turned back to help him, and when he got to a place where no one was around, he wanted to let go , but Shen Yan grabbed the sleeve.

The latter only felt a rumbling in his stomach, but fortunately he hadn't eaten anything before, so he wouldn't spit it out shamefully, now he was half bent over and panting, holding on to Su Jianian and refusing to let go, wait for a while Only then did Shen Yan straighten up tremblingly: "Why are you running..."

He was stunned before he finished speaking, staring blankly at Su Jianian's face, at the other's red eyes, and the glint of water in his eyes.

At that moment, Shen Yan only felt that his heart was being held tightly by someone, and he almost forgot to breathe——his voice trembled when he spoke: "You, why are you crying..."

Hearing this, Su Jianian blinked his eyes blankly, tears slipped from his eye sockets, leaving a long water mark... He tasted a faint salty taste at the corner of his mouth, and then he lowered his head as if in shock, and held the water with the back of his hand. its erased.

From the beginning to the end, he didn't make a sound, he even breathed very lightly, his nose fluttered slightly, he didn't complain or question, Su Jianian was too quiet, even shed tears silently... But Shen Yan He would rather he said something, even if he scolded himself, he wouldn't care about it, it was better than saying nothing but making him feel bad.

It was only then that Shen Yan realized that he would be so nervous even after years of sensuality. He rubbed his sweaty palms on his trousers, then carefully stretched out his hand, raised Su Jianian's face, and stood up for him. Wipe away water stains from the corners of the eyes.

"Don't cry..." Shen Yan's voice sounded like a soft sigh: "I have nothing with him."

"..." Su Jianian still didn't speak, his red eyes stared at him unblinkingly, the eyelashes wet with tears looked thick and dense, the pupils were deep black, the light fell into them, glowing with stars A little bit of water.

Shen Yan's heart softened again, like a freshly rolled cotton candy, poking a hole.He raised his hand and hugged him into his arms, pressed Su Jianian on the back of his head and let his chin rest on his shoulder, "Qi Bing is embarrassing him in the box, I don't think we can get him out...We didn't do anything, really .”

"..."

"Trust me once, okay?" He kissed the tip of the other's ear, as if persuading or pleading. "I only like you..."

After finishing speaking, Shen Yan was stunned—he never thought that he could blurt out these two words so easily... Although he has said it many times, to many people, these are different, because that Back then he knew he was playing, and he knew no one would take it seriously - but now he knew he was serious, and he knew that Su Jianian would definitely believe it.

That shaky bottom line finally faltered, and he let a man go and stepped in with a foot.

And Su Jianian was also taken aback, the previous boredom and grievances were instantly forgotten, as if someone lit a handful of fireworks in the dark night, and the lead finally climbed to the end, only to hear "咻" "咻" Twice, something flew up into the sky with the ejected fireworks, and exploded with a "bang", turning into a colorful sky.

"...Say it again." Because of the reason for crying just now, there was a sobbing sound when she spoke, and the tears in her eyes were not yet dry. At this moment, she opened her mouth half coquettishly and half orderly. Poor staring, a little unbearable.

But Su Jianian didn't want to let him go, he was so happy, the corners of his trembling mouth curled up involuntarily, like crying and laughing: "Say it again, brother Shen, I'll forgive you if you say it again..."

"I..." Shen Yan's lips trembled, his mind was in a mess, but his consciousness was exceptionally clear - so what if he crossed the line?He just liked him, more than anyone—

So he said, "I only like you."

The next moment, someone hugged his back, and pressed a kiss with a faint salty taste. Su Jianian pinched his chin, and kissed him jerky and hard, biting his fangs until his lips hurt, The lips and tongue were mixed with blood and tears and the smell of alcohol, turning into an ambiguous and long-lasting sound of water.

At first, Shen Yan tried to guide the kiss back, but then gradually he couldn't breathe, and wanted to break free, but he couldn't escape the big hand that was holding the back of his head. The aching lungs heaved and heaved, draining the last bit of strength... Shen Yan, who was almost passed out by the kiss, leaned against Su Jianian with black eyes, Su Jia was panting young, her moist lips pressed against On the side of the ear, said softly: "If there is a next time... I will not let you go."

It's a pity that Shen Yan, who was dizzy and tinnitus, couldn't see the paranoia that flashed in the other party's eyes, and naturally he didn't hear the fierce "threat".

It was already midnight when the two of them arrived downstairs, Su Jianian helped Shen Yan, who was half asleep and half awake, upstairs, and as soon as he entered the door, he warmly greeted him with coffee, wagging his tail and showing them his "achievements" of the day... The part-time workers came to feed him in the morning, noon and evening, and cleaned up by the way, but none of this could resist Teddy's enthusiasm and made a mess of the house.Su Jianian pushed the dog away with the back of his foot to avoid stepping on it, helped Shen Yan into the bathroom, first cleaned up the old man and threw him on the bed, and then came to serve the "young master".

It was already two o'clock in the middle of the night after Su Jianian finished tidying up all his things and calmed down the bouncing coffee with a molar stick. He took a quick shower and walked into Shen Yan's bedroom on tiptoe. She was lying on the big bed , wearing pajamas on the upper body, with a rolled quilt sandwiched between her long bare legs, holding her in her arms.

This sleeping posture is really indecent, Su Jianian sat on the bedside and tried to pull the quilt out of the other person's arms, but he didn't want Shen Yan to hug him tightly, so he didn't twitch for a while, so he had to go to the closet next to him and hug him again. One bed.

After Su Jianian turned off the bedside lamp and officially lay down, as if feeling the heat from his body, the sleeping man leaned over and pressed his arm against the young man.

Su Jianian heard a very soft voice, which could be covered by a slightly louder heartbeat.

"Don't... go..."

Shen Yan murmured, subconsciously hugging the quilt tightly in her arms, as if hugging someone.

In the darkness, a pair of eyes opened suddenly, water flashed in the eyes, Su Jianian's chest heaved violently a few times, and finally suppressed the sourness welling up in his nose, gently stretched out his hand, and lifted this inexplicably fragile The man pulled it into his arms.

I won't let go, he closed his eyes, pressed his forehead against the other's steady beating chest, and promised quietly in his heart.

……

Ever since Shen Yan was drunk and blurted out his confession in a hurry, the relationship between the two has undergone subtle changes.

It seems that sharing the same bed at night has become a natural thing. Every morning, Shen Yan will wake up to the smell of breakfast and the sound of coffee, and the beginning of the day is no longer bitter black coffee and loud noises. Instead of an alarm clock, it is a fresh, hot breakfast - with a variety of patterns, which change every day; and the sweet smile of the person you like.

"Are you awake?" Su Jianian was stirring the freshly boiled soybean milk in the pot, Shen Yan hugged his waist from behind, and put his chin on the other's shoulder: "What else do you want to eat?"

"It's nothing, I just bought some walnuts earlier, and I beat them with soy milk to nourish my brain." The young man turned his head, blushed and kissed the elder's cheek: "You've been too busy recently, it hurts your brain."

There are indeed a lot of things that bother Shen Yan recently. His father who is seriously ill is still lying in the VIP room, and the daily maintenance expenses are astonishing figures - but that's fine, he has taken over the family business logically, but found that this is a This crumbling and dangerous building, if it is to be bulldozed and rebuilt, will become a huge pressure on him, but he can't give up, so he can only grit his teeth and pay for it himself.

In addition, Qi Bing's relationship is getting more and more awkward, but the cooperation is still going on. It is impossible for him to destroy a business because of personal conflicts, so he has to find time to deal with the other party in his busy schedule. Sparks are often sparked due to disagreement of ideas. Fortunately, the direction is still right, and the project is developing in a good situation, but it is almost impossible to recover the cost at present.

Perhaps a person is unlucky to a certain level, and worries will follow one after another——a scandal broke out in a popular artist under Jiaren Media, which directly led to a huge public opinion storm. This matter is going around to reduce the company's losses as much as possible, but even so, it still can't save this month's financial statement.

Since Shen Yan entered the business district, he has experienced all kinds of wind and rain along the way, and it is not the lowest point yet, so he is not in a hurry or impatient, and tries his best to handle everything he handles... And with Su Jianian to accompany him Looking at him, why would he fall down here?

Drinking fresh soy milk with just the right amount of sweetness filled my cold stomach, and looking at those piles of documents, it didn't seem so hateful.With such a mood after working all day, when he returned home exhausted at night, he lay down on the sofa and waited for Su Jianian to finish the meal. The mischievous coffee climbed up along Shen Yan's long legs that fell on the ground to press down. Play fun on a man's chest.

Shen Yan was tired, maybe it was due to the cup of coffee in the afternoon, he was not very sleepy now, picked up toys on a whim, and played with coffee... Although he hadn't raised this dog himself since he came home, he didn't know Why does the other party just like him, and whenever he sees someone, he takes the initiative to rub against him, even ignoring Su Jianian, who is full of shit and piss.Because of this, Su Jianian was very angry, and was comforted by Shen Yan who couldn't laugh or cry: Son always likes to cling to his father.

Now it seems that it is indeed... Shen Yan, whose face was covered with saliva, thought silently, grabbed a handful of snacks and fed them to the coffee, who ate them happily, and came up to lick him again...

This endless loop continued until Su Jianian cooked a meal and called people.

After eating, Shen Yan plunged into the study, and climbed into the bathroom exhausted until midnight, and Su Jianian never went to bed earlier than him, but first prepared a cup of hot milk and put it on the bedside, waiting for Shen Yan to sleep on it. After getting into bed, help him turn off the light.

This kind of life is boring but not boring, it is even more fulfilling than the previous drunken life, Shen Yan is very satisfied with the current state, he even thought that it would be good to live like this for the rest of his life.

Mr. Shen, who has read countless people but has never had a serious relationship once, has unknowingly fallen into the state commonly known as the "passionate love period", but he never thought that so far, they have only known each other for less than half a year...

Half a year may be a long time, but if you want to know a person well enough, it is far from enough.

Because in front of the person they like, people tend to show their best side, but this superficial thing can't last for too long. It's only a matter of time before opinions and differences come.

Another month passed, and the company's situation did not improve much. On the contrary, Shen Yan's father was admitted to the ICU again. When the secretary called, he was having an extended meeting, and the cell phone that was forgotten in the office rang and died. .It was only when I got home to recharge the battery that I saw the record. Shen Yan hurriedly called and got the news that the old man is safe for the time being and is still in a coma.

Shen Yan asked about the situation again. The call lasted for more than 20 minutes. When he hung up, he felt that most of his three souls and seven souls had been taken away. nothing.

In the end, he actually just fell asleep sitting up like this.

And Su Jianian didn't go to Shen Yan's house today, because his electronic album is finally released - this is his first work since he signed the contract, so he has been busy with various matters all day, because he doesn't want to show his face too much Relationship, the cover of the album is a silhouette plus post-synthesis, and recorded a few pieces of audio as an easter egg... At the end of his busy schedule, he returned to the dormitory nearby and fell asleep, and he didn't forget to send a text message to Shen Yan before going to bed There was a notification, but unfortunately the other party didn't have time to see it.

After waking up, it will be a new day, Su Jianian wakes up refreshed, ready to pack up and cook for Shen Yan, that is, on the way, he finally has time to listen to his own works... …yes, as the writer of the album, he didn't even get to audition it.

At first Su Jianian was still a little confused, but now he finally understands why Jiang Ran never mentioned this matter, and even avoided it...

The young man was sitting in a taxi, listening to the beautiful singing voice coming from the headset. He was familiar with every note and lyrics, but he was not the one who sang—the sound was somewhat distorted due to the excessive late stage, but the accuracy of pitch and high pitch were unmistakable. Very good, but only not him.

He is the one who racks his brains to create, he is the one who works hard to sing well, and he is even the one who perseveres in repeating the recorded songs again and again—only the one in the album is not like him.

Like soap bubbles shattered in the sun, there was a "pop", so light, but it took away a colorful dream.