[Xu Run] Love Parting

26.

Xu Feng drank two bowls of peanut soup, and it was regarded as a day's breakfast and lunch.

This is a new day.

As usual, Xu Feng took the cloth towel and walked to the altar, and wiped off the two memorial tablets one by one. The smaller one was wiped more slowly and carefully. trembling.

After wiping it and putting it in order, Xu Feng lit three sticks of incense and kowtowed three more times. In this way, the morning class for this day was over.

Xu Feng went to lie down on the couch, and soon fell asleep.

He had that dream again.

In the drizzle, on the path in the mountains, Li'er was lying on his shoulders, and Yu'er was lying in his arms. Maybe they were tired from playing just now, and the two of them were sleeping soundly at this moment.

He deliberately slowed down his pace, for fear of waking them up, he walked for half a morning after a short distance.

Suddenly Yu'er opened her eyes, looked at him with a sweet smile, and asked, "Aren't you tired?"

He also smiled: "How can you be tired? I wish this road would never end."

As if in response to this sentence, I saw that the road under my feet suddenly lengthened and stretched into the thick fog ahead.I lowered my head again, the things in my arms and on my back were all empty at once.

Then Xu Feng woke up.

After sitting for a long time, Xu Feng put the two strings of beads, one blue and one transparent, back under the pillow, then sat back at the table, took out the dragon scale on his heart, and continued his uninterrupted homework for this year.

Yu'er, I'm here to chat with you again.

I'm doing this serious thing every day now, so don't think I'm bothering you.

Yesterday...well, we talked about Li'er.

You named the child Li'er, I like it very much.

I remember you told me that when you were young, you really wanted to be a carp, but you couldn't do it, so if you can make a carp, it would be great.

I also saw the hidden spirit beads you made, and I thought at the time, my Yu'er is indeed the most capable, and nothing can trouble you.

You went to Dongting Lake with Li'er in your arms. That was the first time I saw your mother. According to the rules of the world, she would also be my mother.

So thank you for having that bead, otherwise I would never know what she looks like, and my imagination of her would only be the rebel in the mouth of the mother god.

She is a gentle woman, and when I saw her coaxing Li'er later, I roughly understood why you looked like I knew you.

You didn't look back when you left, but I know that you left half of your heart there.

The other half was still given to me.

You come to look at me in front of the marriage mirror every day, and then you come down to accompany me every day.

Even in this life, I am entangled with Jin Mi again, but you are still by my side.

Yu'er, you used to laugh at me for being stupid, but you didn't know that you were even more stupid.

Whenever you show up again, I am a mortal, and I might be fascinated by you.

But only at night, when I'm asleep, will you show up and talk to me.

But you know, I can't hear you.

Even if you cry and beg me not to leave you, I can't hear you.

Even if I hear it, I won't remember you, and I won't respond to you.

You also gave me your only nilin... but my Huandi Phoenix Feather has never been given to you.

The reasons for this I have never told you, and now I think it is ridiculous.

Yu'er, you like to be plain and clean, and you wear white clothes all year round. I was always afraid that if you wore this golden hairpin, you would definitely attract the attention of the mother god and cause you a lot of trouble for nothing.

But I don't know that I am your biggest trouble.

Later, I generously gave it to someone, but it was not you. You knew it at that time, but have you ever been sad?

As I was talking, I got off topic again. You see, my problem has become more and more serious in the past two years.

Let's talk about carp again.

Li'er has grown up slowly, like me, but more like you, especially the eyes, which are like a replica of you and can talk.

He is so good, he is much quieter and more sensible than when I was younger.

Whenever I see you holding him, I feel very satisfied, even if I am not by your side.

The only regret is that I couldn't call him "Li'er" in person after all, and hear him call me "Daddy" with my own ears, and... watching him grow up...

Xu Feng suddenly choked up and couldn't speak, and covered his face for a long time before he started talking to himself again.

Yu'er, do you know that after Li'er left, I had a long, long dream, that dream was very beautiful...

I dreamed that as soon as Li'er was born, you and I took him out of the heaven.

I am no longer the God of Vulcan, and you are no longer the God of Night, we are just the most ordinary couple in the world, a family of three living a peaceful life.

I became a hunter, you know my arrow skills, as long as you shoot, you will get something, so we have a good life.

As for you, you became a teacher in the town, besides teaching the children in the town to read and write, you also took care of Li'er by the way.

I've sneaked a few times to see you guys, and it's really funny that Li'er shakes his head and shakes his head among a group of half-grown kids.

On the contrary, you, standing in front of the podium, still have the desolate and dusty appearance on the Buxing stage, so beautiful that I can't turn my eyes away.

Every evening, I will wait for you to bring Li'er back at the intersection in front of the door. Whenever Li'er sees me, he will run over quickly to be hugged.

I'll hold Li'er in one hand and lead you home with the other.

When eating, Li'er always wants you to feed him, but he refuses to eat well, twisting left and right, often eating his face into a messy butt.

I laughed at him, but he was still not convinced, turned around and complained to you that I bullied him, which made you pretend to reprimand me.

But I know, you are still reluctant, otherwise why would you have to smile at me every time after training?

Sleeping at night is the most troublesome thing, Li'er, that little guy, always needs many unrealistic wishes from me to coax him to the small bed in the cubicle.

But if he promised it, he promised it, anyway, once he fell asleep, he would forget about it the next day.

Day by day, every day is almost the same, but when I think about it now, I still feel that every day is new.

I still remember one day, March [-]rd, when all the people in the town went to worship the mountain god.

Although we both think that this mountain god is nothing more than land, we still can't stand Li'er insisting on joining in the fun.

It happened to be him who wanted to join in the fun, and he was also the one who fell asleep on my neck halfway through watching the festival, and he was still holding my ears persistently with both hands.

It started to rain on our way down the mountain, and within a short while, your clothes were stained with mud, so I hugged you up,

You were reluctant at first, but you still couldn't beat me.

I just hugged you like this, carried Li'er on my back, and walked slowly down the mountain.

And then... no more.

Without you, and without Li'er, from beginning to end, it was just a dream of mine...

I woke up, and it is said that my uncle took a lot of trouble to wake me up.

He looked worried, but I didn't know what expression to use to face him.

Yu'er, few people know about the two of us, but uncle is one of them.

How sad you are, he knows clearly.

I came back abnormally, and he said that he was also vaguely aware of it.

But these, he never mentioned to me.

In the final analysis, he still has prejudice against you all the time. It seems that the people around me have never been really nice to you.

That's all for uncle, mother god and father emperor...

One reward, one reward, Yu'er, you did nothing wrong.

From start to finish, it was all my fault.

Thinking about it now, how stupid and shameless I was at that time, to think that a glass of wine could comfort you, but I didn't even notice a trace of your heartache.

Li'er is your child as well as mine, he died at the hands of my parents, and I kept saying that I wanted to avenge you for them.

You are right, I am blind and blind. I have lived for thousands of years, but I have never seen through even a single person around me.

I once set up a spiritual tablet for the Mother Goddess in Yujiang Palace and worshiped it every day. Before leaving the Demon Realm, I went to see her for the last time.

I told her that I will remember her kindness in nurturing; I will pay for all the sins she committed; but if there is an afterlife, I only wish to never be a mother and child again.

I am not filial, but her love, I can no longer bear it.

Not to mention them, even me, in fact, deserved what I deserved.

I don't remember before, I don't know why you know where my inner alchemy is.

But the moment you disappeared, I remembered.

【Runyu, this is where my inner alchemy is. Xufeng swears here today that if one day I betray you, you will pierce Jingyuan with your sword. Xufeng will never complain. 】

This is the promise I once made to you. If I betray you, I have fulfilled my oath. Death is the retribution I deserve.

You felt so sorry for me later... I know, but you didn't want to kill me at all... It was me, self-righteous, who failed your painstaking efforts...

Yu'er, I... really don't deserve it...

You once said that as long as I am by your side, you can feel less hate and less pain.

But when you were in the most pain, I didn't know anything, and lived my own happy life in the world.

What qualifications do I have to make you suffer for me?

You should forget about me and be your god.

You are different from me. You have great kindness in your heart and sentient beings in your eyes. If you are the emperor of heaven for tens of thousands of years, you must be lucky in the six realms.

God's life is long, and you will always meet someone more worthy than me, and entrust your life to him.

Yu'er, you shouldn't have saved me.

At that time, Jin Mi always said that the person who saved me was not her, and she couldn't tell who it was, but the moment I thought of you, I understood everything.

That person is you.

Only you, and only you.

But it was too late by then, the person who gave me my life was taken... by my own hands.

Yu'er, do you... hate me?

The moment you left, have you ever regretted it?

Xu Feng's tears dripped down on the dragon scales, refracting the candlelight, reflecting colorful light, so beautiful, so... heartbreaking.