[Xu Run] Love Parting

Today's weather is a bit gloomy, Xu Feng hurriedly hurried, and finally rushed home before the first drop of rain fell.

When he was still some distance away from the courtyard, his heart beat faster as usual, but after walking a few more steps, he felt that the latch on the courtyard door was still the same, and he couldn't help feeling a little disappointed.

Xu Feng walked to the kitchen in the west wing, lit the fire, put some water in the pot to heat up, then opened the bamboo basket that she had been carrying just now, put the two bowls of milky white soup into the water to warm up, and then returned to the kitchen. house.

At this time, it was raining patter outside, and the room became dark all of a sudden, Xu Feng lit the lamp, and then sat down at the table.

He took out a brocade bag from his arms, and carefully unwrapped it, revealing the crescent-shaped dragon scales inside.

Xu Feng held it in the palm of her hand and touched it several times. I don't know if it's because of touching it so many times that the surface of the dragon scale has become a bit dull.

The next moment Xu Feng muttered to it.

Yu'er, on the way back today, I saw that small stall selling peanut soup again. It was the one you thought tasted the best when we went down to earth for the last time. Now it has been passed down to No.30 for several generations. I tasted it Taste it, it seems to be similar to the taste at that time.

Not necessarily though, you know, I've never been very gifted with sweets.

I bought two bowls, if you come back, I will eat with you.

So, will you show up today?

Yu'er, as of today, it has been 200 years since you left, and 120 years since you died.

I don't know where you are practicing now, have you cultivated your true body?Do you remember me?

It doesn't matter if you don't remember me, you just need to entrust me with a dream, tell me where you are, and I will come to you.

But if, you just don't want to see me...

It doesn't matter, as long as you live freely.

By the way, where did my story tell you yesterday?

Let me think about it, it seems that it is the Demon War.

Blame me, blame me, but I got stuck in the most important place. It's my fault. I'll continue talking to you today, okay?

It is actually not easy and a little embarrassing to tell you about my 200 years in one year, but as long as you are willing to listen, I will tell you.

The moment you left, I remembered everything, every call you made, every smile you made, I remembered it all.

But what's the use of that, I can't even touch a corner of your clothes.

You don't know how crazy I was, if Jin Mi hadn't come to lie to me, saying that you had something for me, I am afraid that everyone who was present that day would not be able to walk out of Wangchuan alive.

The power of heaven and earth, how domineering, omnipotent after borrowing, destroying heaven and earth.

But did you really not fight back because you knew it was terrible?

Everyone thinks so, but I know it's not.

No one knows you better than me.

You are the kindest and most soft-hearted Yu'er in the world, but you have never been cowardly, even, you have always been stronger than me.

You were afraid that the power of heaven and earth would exhaust my divine energy, so you gave up, right?

Or, you are heartbroken, and you feel that there is nothing in this world worth your nostalgia, right?

There are actually three things in your heart for the rest of your life, me, mother, and Li'er.

Your mother and Li'er are gone, and I also regard you as a mortal enemy. The moment you left, you really gave up.

It was only later that I realized how far I had hurt you that you would give up.

I will always remember your last tear, and I will dream of it every night.

I dreamed that you were standing in mid-air, not saying a word, just looking at me with those talking eyes, and I would not wake up until the tears fell and fell on my face.

After the war, Jin Mi once came to question me, why did he regret it now, even though he had thought so clearly before the war?

I'm ashamed to tell her that it's because I forgot about you, it's like making excuses for myself.

But she is a persistent woman, I kept asking her if I didn't tell her, and then I dragged your cheap brother to find out why I forgot you.

In fact, I really didn't care about this at the time. If I was wrong, I was wrong. If I lost, I lost. You are no longer here. What's the point of pursuing these things?

When Sui He died, he told me that I will never get the person I love the most.

She got her wish.

At that time, I really wanted to go with you, maybe in a corner, we might meet again, instead of being alone in this world alone...

But I did not die after all, and I also know the reason why I forgot you.

I was in a daze at that time, and I didn't even hear what Jin Mi was talking about. I only heard that it was related to the Mother God, and I forgot about you because of something I ate.I didn't know it until Jin Mi told me again last month.

But at the time I just thought, so what, you will never come back.

I don't feel good because of it, I just feel stupid, I always pretend to be a protector in front of you, but in fact I can never protect you.

My self-righteous protection only deepened the mother god's hatred for you time and time again.

In the end, she turned me into a weapon against you.

From the very beginning, I shouldn't have provoked you.

In that way, maybe now, you are still the night god who has nothing to do with the world. Although you are lonely, the years are quiet, peaceful and joyful.

And I can still see you every day.

Fortunately, later, Yanyou gave me a bead, which told me everything about you.

I know what it means to be heartbroken, and I also understand the meaning of my life.

Yu'er, I never thought that you and I would have a child,

It's because I told you before I went to the demon world that I want our child, so you can rest assured, right?

You act against the sky just because of a word from me, why are you so stupid?

The moment Li'er was born, do you know that I was happy.

But as happy as I am, so painful.

I still remember before my nirvana, you said that when my nirvana is over, you have something to tell me, and later, when you rarely came to see me, but saw Jin Mi on my bed, it was all because of this matter ,Is it right?

It was my fault, I forgot.

I forgot that the person I love the most is called Runyu. He is not only my elder brother, but also my fairy companion.

I forgot about you, I only remember Jin Mi who spent half a year in the mortal world.

No wonder you look like that suddenly, no wonder you are so thin, I can't imagine how much patience you have used to not shed tears in front of me.

Obviously I broke your heart, I didn't even explain half a sentence to you...

But why are you still so nice to me?Comfort me in front of Luoxiang Mansion, save Jin Mi outside Nantian Gate.

You should hate me, I, who unilaterally forgot everything, is not worthy of your love at all.

Wan Lei piercing my heart, pain like broken bones, I have never experienced it, but I can roughly know it when I look at you in the bead.

Because you are obviously the most able to endure pain.

Do you still remember the year when we just came of age, we went to the demon world to try out together?

We strayed into Yanwei's territory. In order to save me, your whole back was scorched by the fireball it vomited.

I cried in distress, but you didn't even say a word.

But at that time you struggled like that, I am afraid that ten Yanwei breathing fire together will not cause you such pain.

If I were here, I'm afraid I'll be like that time again, crying until I can't even speak.

In this way, when you are laughing at me, maybe the pain will become better.

But I'm not here, what was I doing at that time?

Jin Mi and I have gone down to earth together to experience calamity.

It's ridiculous, when I heard Kuang Lu say that, I thought it was ridiculous.

While you were wandering in the gate of hell because of me, I was sleeping with someone else...

So then I slapped myself hard in the face, what right do I have to hate you?

Also, are you curious why I call you Yu'er now?

It's because I saw you telling Yanyou that I would never call you Yu'er.

But when Yanyou became me, you still chose to believe it.

You know, how much I wish that was me.

That's why I call you like this, because I want to pretend that what you saw wasn't a phantom that day, and just pretend that I really accompanied you that day...

Yu'er, how are you?

I also saw the phantom in your dream, which is a small courtyard in the mortal world. There are you, me, and Li'er in the courtyard.

So all these years after you died, I stayed in the mortal world, the inn where we made love, do you remember?

Thousands of years have passed, and the landform here has changed a lot, but it has not turned into barren mountains and wild mountains. It is just a little far away from the town, but that's good, no one bothers you, I can wait for you to come back quietly in the yard.

Yes, I built the house and yard myself. The yard is exactly the same as what you dreamed back then. I set up a set of stone tables and benches like Xuanji Palace. I also planted a peach tree beside the courtyard wall in the year it was built. Now it has grown to be about the same size as the unknown tree in Xuanji Palace.

How about, am I amazing?

You will definitely smile and say yes, you never seem to be mean to praise me, even if I haven't done anything great.

The only bad thing is that every time there are footsteps passing by on the road outside the courtyard, I would think it was you who came back.

In this poor and remote place, sometimes no one passes by for several days, and sometimes many people pass by in a day, which makes me go to the gate of the courtyard many times a day.

I regret that the courtyard wall is built so high. If I were shorter, I would be able to see you from a distance.

I got off topic again... Forget it, let’s stop here today, and I’ll tell you about the rest tomorrow.

Oh, by the way, if you don't come back, I'll eat both bowls of peanut soup by myself.

Just... let's limit it to midnight, there are still several hours, but if you are already on your way back, don't worry, even if it is later, I will wait for you.

The sky slowly darkened outside the window, and after a long time, it lighted up slightly again. A drop of tear fell silently in the peanut soup that had already cooled down.