Pretend to be straight

I said the words "your uncle's" several times in front of her, but now she gave it back to me, and after she spoke, she broke into a smile and let go of my wrist.

Shi Jinghe still looked at me in this posture. There was a box of tissue paper on her bedside table. I tore a piece first and then planned to wipe her tears.

She said in a muffled voice, "I want to use a handkerchief."

"Okay, okay." Of course, I would not disobey her words, and found the handkerchief in the box on the side.

With the lamp on my back, Shi Jinghe's face couldn't be seen very clearly. I knelt on the bed, brushed her hair aside, exposing her whole face, and then wiped her tears with a soft handkerchief .

Shi Jinghe pursed her lips lightly, closed her eyes, and let me wipe her carefully.

Her hair was a little wet. After I wiped it, I put the handkerchief aside and asked her in a low voice, "Does it still hurt?"

Shi Jinghe opened her eyes, her eye sockets were still obviously moist, probably because of the tears she shed just now.

She looked at me, and I looked at her, but she didn't answer me, so I continued to ask her: "Do you need medicine?"

Just when I was sitting on the chair, I saw the medicine on the table.

Shi Jinghe shook her head, she stretched out her hand, beckoning me to hold it, I put my hand on it, and heard her hoarse voice, she said: "I'm sorry..."

"Don't apologize." I shook my head, "I should apologize."

In retrospect, it was all my fault, too.

Shi Jinghe's hand grabbed mine, she gradually clasped her fingers with mine, and shook her head: "I know you hate being cheated, but you end up doing it again and again."

I shook my head again: "It's okay, it's okay if it's you, you can do whatever you want."

Obviously I didn't think this way during the day, but now my attitude has changed 180 degrees, because I love her so much.

Many times, some people choose to do things "for the good of the other party", and Shi Jinghe did not escape.

She thought that if Qiu Yu apologized to me, I could let go of the stone hanging in my heart, but she never thought that when the stone fell, it would splash in the water.

If Qiu Yu hadn't told me, I wouldn't have known all this.

She thought that after disappearing for more than half a month, it would be enough to come back and lie to me calmly. She didn't want me to feel sorry for her.

She always hides from me when she does things, and makes my friends hide from me, just so that I don't worry about it and make me happy.

But obviously, I can only be happy when she is happy, isn't it?

And now that she is lying on the bed, all I feel is sadness, self-blame and heartache.

Shi Jinghe twitched the corner of her mouth, she moved her body, and immediately "hissed", her face was a little twisted.

I asked cautiously, "Can I have a look?"

Shi Jinghe refused my request: "No." She paused, "It's not very pretty, it might scare you."

She gently squeezed my hand, and slowly told the truth of the matter: "When I was young, my parents didn't quarrel very much and got along very harmoniously. At that time, he didn't beat anyone. Later, it was probably me After entering high school, he was cheated out of a lot of money by his friends, and then his temperament changed drastically, and he drank a lot.”

She looked at me: "After drinking, sometimes I couldn't control myself and would beat my mother. At that time, I was still living in school, and sometimes I would see my mother with scars when I was sober. Doing such behavior, on the contrary, will be very gentle, and greet my mother and me."

I tucked her in the quilt and asked doubts: "Why didn't you get a divorce earlier..."

I don't think Mother Shi is an irrational woman.

Shi Jinghe replied: "Because of my father's various self-blame and guilt later, when my mother said about the divorce, he swore that he would not drink anymore, and he really did it in those two years." She sighed, " I also thought he was fine, and he would never hit anyone again, we still got along harmoniously, even if I came back to tell them that I like girls when I was in college, although he couldn't accept and agree, he didn't drink and beat me, After that, I became pregnant with my sister."

"My parents work separately. My mother did better than him, and my mother's business grew bigger and bigger in those few years. My father became more and more careless, and he felt a huge psychological gap. When Mao Mao was more than two years old, my dad got drunk again and hit him as soon as he came back. While beating, he asked my mother why he was better than him, which made him get all the jokes from his friends and made him lose face."

I:"......"

"We got divorced later, and Mao Mao and I followed our mother. No matter how much my father regretted it, it was useless. He went to Liucheng and started his business again."

When Shi Jinghe said this, he slowly closed his eyes: "I was probably influenced by my parents before, so in fact, I have never believed in so-called love and marriage." Shi Jinghe She clasped my hand a little harder, "So even though I think I like Zhong Nian, I don't want to get distracted. I don't care what she does or says, and I haven't lost anything anyway."

She opened her eyes to look at me again, the corners of her mouth twitched, and the dimples appeared: "So Zhizhi, as I said yesterday, at the beginning, I felt more pity for you than I liked you, but now I think A lot, it’s not like that at all.”

As soon as she finished speaking, she "hissed" again, and the wound was obviously hurting again. I said, "Stop talking, just lie down, and I'll get the medicine."

I wanted to let go of her hand, but she held it tightly, and I laughed dumbfounded: "Sister, your injury is important, can you let me get the medicine first?"

Shi Jinghe shook her head stubbornly: "No." She looked straight at me, "I must finish my sentence."

I followed her words: "Then you apply the medicine after you finish speaking?" I softened my voice, "Okay?"

Shi Jinghe: "Okay." She pulled my hand a little towards her, and then she gently pressed her lips on the back of my hand, and I immediately felt the heat of her breath and her lips.

I've relaxed, but I don't know what she's doing with it.

I looked at her suspiciously, trying to see clearly what she was trying to say, which moved her so much.

Shi Jinghe sniffed and looked at me: "No, that's not the truth."

"Ok?"

She closed her eyes and didn't look at me again: "I never have such a deep impression on a person, only you, only you let me remember so long and so clearly."

"Emotionally, I'm too slow. I didn't realize until recently that I have such an obsession with you."

"I should have understood a long time ago. It's not unreasonable for you to let me remember for five or six years."

I don't understand: "Huh? What?" I feel like my IQ is a little off the line.

Shi Jinghe opened her eyes again, but she looked at me half-emptyly: "After seeing the photo of you and Qiu Yu, I remembered you in my mind, and after you and Yu Mo appeared, I just After seeing you twice, you can't get out of my memory."

"Zhizhi." Shi Jinghe called me, she lifted the quilt with her other hand, and gradually arched her body.

Her hair was loose, her face was facing the pillow, I couldn't see her expression, but I was anxious: "Don't..."

I didn't finish my sentence, and I didn't dare to touch her, because when I remembered that I patted her on the back yesterday, I blamed myself again.

She sat down on the bed in one go, facing me, and stared at me.

I was a little anxious in my heart, and couldn't help asking her: "Is there anything else to say? If not, then I..."

Shi Jinghe stretched out her hand to cover my mouth, and she said, "I still have something to say."

There was a burning temperature in her palm, I nodded, regained my emotions, and stopped interrupting.

She withdrew her hand and looked at me sincerely: "I feel that I am not 26 years old, I am naive, I don't know how to take into account your feelings, I am self-righteous, I have many shortcomings, compared to my age , I am not mature at all, and I have been playing Vanishing for half a month."

I defended her: "It's not what you want to disappear for half a month. You gave me a chance before, but you just haven't waited for it." I slightly lowered my head, and said in an apologetic tone, "I still feel sorry , I didn’t come to you directly that day, if I had come, then there wouldn’t be these problems, and you wouldn’t be what you are now.”

Shi Jinghe listened to me patiently, and then she bent her lips and smiled: "It's better to discover these problems earlier, Zhizhi, don't apologize anymore."

I looked at her, nodded slowly, and then heard her say: "For the past half month, when I was lying on the hospital bed, I thought a lot. Yu Mo also came to see me during this period, I put I also told him that we were together, and he immediately said that my behavior was not good, no matter who I am, I don’t like my lover disappearing, and the object is still you.”

"He is happily married now, and he has no other emotions when talking about you. In order to understand how I miss him, he even brought me the dusty printed photo of you."

After speaking, Shi Jinghe turned his body slightly, put his hands under the pillow, and took out two photos.

She raised her chin and put the photo in my hand.

I looked at the two old photos in my hand and didn't know what to say for a while. The background of the two photos was the same. I was sleeping on the grass. One side face and the other face, maybe I was sleeping Yu Mo secretly photographed me when I was sleeping.

I looked at Shi Jinghe with some puzzlement, she sniffed: "I thought I was indifferent before, because for Zhong Nian's feelings, I could stop liking her so quickly, and I said before that you put comfort As love, but I used to be like this, because of my family affairs, Zhong Nian has been comforting me, I thought it was love, but all these years, I didn't know it was not until I met you again."

I know, Shi Jinghe is communicating with me, she wants to unplug many potential problems now.

I put the photo on the bed, knelt a little closer to her, and wiped her face with the handkerchief in my hand.

Now Shi Jinghe looks like a vulnerable doll, the emotion in her eyes makes me feel very distressed.

I opened my mouth, and just about to ask her if she had anything else to say, Shi Jinghe raised his hands to cup my face, and my mouth pouted again because of this action.

Her strength is not strong, and there are thousands of affections in her eyes. I relaxed my body and listened to her gentle voice: "Zhizhi, I like you. It's not pity or comfort. It's because I'm too slow." She paused ,"Can you understand?"

I nodded slowly, because of her action, "n" and "l" were indistinguishable: "Length."

Shi Jinghe laughed immediately, she put down her hands, and lay down on the bed again: "The wound on my back hurts so much."

......

Shi Jinghe's injuries were mainly concentrated on her back and legs, and every time I applied medicine to her, I felt extremely uncomfortable.

Since I grew up, except for the time I was almost strangled to death by Qin Yiwen, I have never suffered such a time.

When I applied medicine to Shi Jinghe for the first time, I couldn't stop my tears. While sniffing my nose, I gently applied medicine to her with a cotton swab.

It’s been half a month, but these wounds are still shocking, bruised and purple, and I never thought that the first time I saw Shi Jing and these places would be in such a scene, and there is no fantasy at all. No, only heart full of distressed eyes.

But Shi Jinghe behaved like a normal person in front of me, which made me feel even more heartbroken.

Fortunately, the wounds will not heal. After about ten days, those wounds on Shi Jinghe's body finally disappeared.

I ran to Shi Jinghe's house every day, and Shi's mother said that I could stay here, but I politely refused, because I didn't want to disturb Shi Jinghe's rest because of my presence, she has to recuperate, right?

The days passed quickly, from 2018 to 2019 in a blink of an eye, and it is already January [-]th.

I was playing games with Mao Mao in the living room of Shi Jinghe’s house. She had finished her homework and was holding a tablet in her hand to play match [-] games. When she couldn’t pass the level, she looked at me pitifully and called me “Zhi Sister Zhi".

I can't resist the cute kid's acting like a baby, especially this person is Shi Jinghe's younger sister.

And Shi Jinghe is sleeping in the bedroom, her wound has basically healed, and she has developed the habit of taking a nap these days, so Shi Jinglan and I can only play games in the living room, and the sound cannot be heard. It's very big, afraid of disturbing Shi Jinghe.

After a while, the doorbell rang, and Shi Jinglan stood up immediately, put the tablet in my hand, and ran all the way to open the door.

The person who came was Cen Xuan, whom I was familiar with. There was a middle-aged man standing beside her. The two looked alike. It was not difficult to guess that this was Cen Xuan's father and Shi Jinghe's cousin. The boss of 1000 million orders.

Shi Jinglan smiled and stretched out her hand, calling, "Cousin."

Her cousin bent down and picked her up. The man had a doting smile on his face. As he walked towards the living room, he asked, "Have you finished your homework? Your mother is going to enroll you in cram school again."

Shi Jinglan nodded hurriedly: "It's over, it's over."

When Cen Xuan saw me, she also looked a little surprised: "Sister Zhizhi, you're here too."

I smiled and nodded: "Yeah."

Shi Jinglan was put down by the man. He walked up to me and held out his hand: "Hello, Cen Bin, you are very polite."

His voice was the same as in that phone call, I was stunned for a moment, and shook hands with him: "Lu Zhi."

After we finished speaking, we both let go of our hands tacitly. Cen Bin smiled gentlemanly, and then poured water by himself.

Cen Xuan sat down on the sofa, looked at Shi Jing and the direction of the bedroom, and asked me softly: "Are you taking a nap with Xiangu?"

Shi Jinghe and Cen Xuan didn't know about the injury, and last week there was a big exam at school, so she didn't come here but studied hard with Jin Lin. Jin Lin told me all this when she called me .

Shi Jinglan answered for me: "Yes, niece, my sister is sleeping."

Cen Xuan: "Damn, brat."

At this time, Cen Bin came over with a water glass, and he patted Cen Xuan's head lightly with his hand: "This is your little aunt, what a brat, do you think I won't care about you?"

Cen Xuan covered her head pretending to be in pain, glanced at her father, and snorted softly. Shi Jinglan made faces at her, and the two children had a great time.

Cen Bin put down the cup, then looked at me, and said to me: "Miss Lu, can you go out and have a talk with me?"

"Dad, what do you have to talk about with Sister Zhizhi? Do you also want to find Sister Zhizhi as a model?" Cen Xuan knew about my lip model for "Selling Love".

Cen Bin: "..."

The two of us walked to the end of the corridor outside the door, where there was a window that illuminated the corridor.

Cen Bin spoke first: "Miss Lu must have already known my identity from Xiao Zhou, so I won't introduce myself any more."

I nodded: "OK."

I don't know what he wants to talk to me about, but it must have something to do with Shi Jinghe.

"We were surprised when we found out about Ms. Lu's occupation. To be honest, we did investigate you first, and then found you by pretending to be by chance."

I didn't understand: "Mr. Cen's words sounded a little convoluted to me." I asked, "Mr. Cen, did you all know about my existence from the beginning?"

"Yes." Cen Bin nodded.

I looked puzzled, waiting for his next words.

Cen Bin lowered his head and smiled: "That's right, my cousin and I have been nosy since we were young, especially about Jinghe."

"You may already know her family situation, and she has no hope for love, but we found you."

There are several question marks on my head: "?"

"In Jinghe's drawer, there is a photo, which was probably a few years ago. There are two people in the photo, and one of them is you. Only your name is written on the back of the photo."

"I also asked where the photos came from. She said that Ms. Zhong's sister printed the photos and sent them to Ms. Zhong to show off. Ms. Zhong came to her again and told her about it. She didn't take the photos with her when she left. a photograph."

"So after some investigation, we found you."

Cen Bin smiled slightly, and said, "Miss Lu, all this is not accidental."