Pretend to be straight

The day of Christmas also came to an end soon, Shi Jinghe's Weibo had no activity, and for the first time, she didn't send a happy Christmas message to her fans.

It's still the business Weibo post with Luo Mimi, many fans are still concerned about asking her if something happened, and they check in the comments every day, good morning, good afternoon, good night.

I didn't participate in the comments, but I did send her a private message.

Today is the one-month anniversary of being together. After I woke up in the morning, I sent her a private message: [Morning, happy month. 】

Although today... is not happy, we have only been together for thirteen days in this month, and the rest of the time is like this.

In addition to Weibo, I also send her WeChat messages every day, looking forward to when she will reply me.

But they didn't reply me every day, and today is no exception. I can't tell what I feel in my heart.

After breakfast, Xie Ying was about to go out with her bag on her shoulders.

She wore a thick down jacket and wrapped a scarf, only showing her entire face, making her look a bit bloated.

I smiled listlessly: "It's so tightly wrapped."

"It's too cold today. The weather forecast says it's only three degrees. If I don't wear more clothes, I might be blown into a fool in the wind." Xie Ying talked to me while putting on her shoes.

After a while, she went out: "Zhizhi, I'll be back at night."

"Goodbye." I nodded.

I was the only one left in the whole world, I propped my head on the sofa, looked at the sky outside the window, and didn't blink until my eyes were sour.

After a while, I sighed, got dressed, and went through the routine I had to do every day—go to "Selling Love" and Shi Jinghe's apartment.

I quit the circle, and Cheng Siyi also quit the circle. Last night, Xiaoxu took screenshots of some of my peer circles, and they expressed their incomprehension.

I don't look at my work phone anymore, it's already turned off.

In the past few days, all the people have been waiting for are their mobile phones, but they have not heard from Shi Jinghe.

I don't know when I will be able to wait, but I believe it will not be a lifetime.

The monk can't run away from the temple. Shi Jinghe's candy store is still in Yuncheng, his apartment is also in Yuncheng, and his sister is also in Yuncheng. If she comes back, I will always meet her.

However, the reality is so skinny - although I didn't meet Shi Jinghe, I met Qiu Yu.

Yes, Qiu Yu, I saw her for the first time after she returned to China.

Or I can't say that I met, because she called me and asked where I was, and she had arrived in Yuncheng.

Her tone was normal and natural, and her voice was a little more mature than what she remembered.

I didn't worry too much, so I reported the location, and it was still the dessert shop.

I was a little impressed by the clerk who brought me the Christmas gift box last night. She was stunned when she saw me, and asked me with a smile: "May I still order yesterday's products today?"

I nodded silently, pursed my lips, and thanked: "Thank you."

"You're welcome, please wait."

I sat where I sat last night again, quietly waiting for dessert and Qiu Yu to arrive.

It's not surprising that Qiu Yu has my mobile phone number. As I said before, we also have mutual friends. She knew it when she asked.

Soon, the dessert arrived. I took a little with a spoon and put it into my mouth, and the sweet taste immediately invaded my mouth.

After a while, maybe I ate almost half of it, Qiu Yu called me again and asked where I was sitting.

I reported my location and hung up the phone. A few seconds later, there was another person on the small sofa opposite me.

I have also imagined the scene of my reunion with Qiu Yu countless times. Of course, that is also ten years from what she said.

Maybe I will be almost [-] by then, and I am still not married and have no children, but I have a lover who I love, and I will hold her hand and pass by Qiu Yu without giving Qiu Yu a look.

Unexpectedly, when I was lonely, Qiu Yu found me again.

I'm so embarrassed, I don't really want to see her, but I hope to settle the matter about her as soon as possible, so as not to cause misunderstanding when Shi Jinghe comes back later.

I don't want Shi Jinghe to be misunderstood, and I don't want Shi Jinghe to be wronged.

Shi Jinghe once joked, "I don't know which one will come first tomorrow or Qiu Yu", but now, Qiu Yu has arrived, but she has disappeared.

I looked at Qiu Yu, but my eyes were full of Shi Jinghe's shadow. It was not until she said "Lu Zhi" that I was pulled back from the chaos.

I asked politely and politely, "What's the matter?"

Compared with five years ago, Qiu Yu's appearance has really changed a lot.

She used to have black hair, but now it's done in small waves and has blue highlights.

There is a gorgeous makeup on the face, which is not vulgar, and has a glamorous feeling.

I used to like her eyes the most, because they were smiling eyes, and when they were bent, they became small crescents.

She is not smiling now, and her eyes are still very beautiful, and I look at her.

After a few seconds, her red lips parted, and she sighed, "You haven't changed much."

"Yeah." I replied without emotion.

If I had changed a lot, then Shi Jinghe would not have recognized me very early, after all, she had only seen my photos.

Qiu Yu glanced at me: "I... I'll just talk straight."

I nodded, "Yeah."

I never imagined such a reunion with her, and the two of us can talk so peacefully.

I hope Qiu Yu will stop thinking of me as unlucky. Every time I think of this word, I feel that I am too miserable.

"I'm going home."

"Because I have a bad conscience."

My eyelids twitched: "Conscience...? Ashamed...?" I finally got an expression, and said sarcastically, "I didn't expect you to say such a thing."

"Lu Zhi." She called me again.

I didn't wait for her to finish, I smiled and asked her: "So why did you go so early? Five...five years later, you came back to apologize to me? You thought the previous harm could be gone with the passage of time. ?"

I'm still stuck with the words she said when she played with my attitude and left me.

I don't know if I'll forgive her, but she doesn't seem to need my forgiveness, otherwise it wouldn't have taken me so long to come back and tell me this.

I really don't like her anymore, and her words and deeds are still a thorn in my heart.

My voice and tone were a bit sharp, because I didn't give her any sympathy, but we didn't have any sympathy either.

Qiu Yu clasped her hands on her lap, her makeup was charming, especially when she smiled.

After hearing my words, she didn't answer immediately, but drank some water slowly, then looked into my eyes and said, "I wanted to come back a long time ago." She pursed her lips, "But I never had the courage .”

Me: "Oh."

Me: "That's really troublesome and hard work. You came back from thousands of miles and told me that you have a guilty conscience."

My tone is bad, and I can't get better.

Qiu Yu seemed to have expected my attitude, her eyes didn't change much, she just lowered her head slightly, with a sincere face: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry for treating you like that."

I waved my hand: "It's useless." After I finished speaking, I stood up, "I'm going first."

"Wait." Qiu Yu called to stop me, "If I said Shi Jinghe's name, wouldn't you want to stay?"

I had already turned around, but when I heard her words, my heart tightened, and I turned to look at her, staring at her closely: "What?"

"I know you're together."

"It was she who asked me to come back when I went back to China."

"Because she wanted to get rid of the knot in your heart and asked me if I could come back and apologize to you."

"..." I felt aphasia again, and sat down on the sofa.

I squeezed my bag, stared at Qiu Yu, and asked confirmingly: "She asked you to come back?"

"Yes..." Qiu Yu nodded, she tilted her head, her eyes curved, "Otherwise I won't be back until another five years."

Qiu Yu paused again: "I was supposed to see you when I went to Qicheng before, but she said to give me some buffer time, and this time has been buffered until now."

"Didn't I go to Qicheng because she was on a business trip?"

"There is also this reason, but more... I want you to see me and pick the thorns in your heart."

What she said shocked me a lot, because I didn't know the truth behind it.

No wonder.

No wonder Shi Jinghe wanted to take me to Qicheng, no wonder Qiu Yu just happened to be returning home.

I couldn't help but feel puzzled: "But... didn't you still ask Shen Xun and the others for my contact information?"

"That's just a procedure." Qiu Yu said frankly.

I was stunned on the spot, and my mind was empty for a while, but I came back to my senses after a while, and reorganized all this.

So... there are not so many accidents, everything is inevitable.

For me, Shi Jinghe went to find Qiu Yu, hoping that from now on, I could get rid of Qiu Yu's hurting me from my heart and live my own life.

She is gentle to the bottom of her heart, and she can't be better to me, but I still suspect that she doesn't like me enough.

I covered my eyes, held back my tears, and heard Qiu Yu say, "I... didn't plan to tell you because you hate being deceived, but after thinking about it, I decided to come and tell you the truth."

I put down my hand to look at her, Qiu Yu continued: "I never liked you, and you know it all. I don't expect your forgiveness, but I only hope that my original hurt can fade in your heart until it disappears." No see." She rolled her eyes, "Lu Zhi, you should have a better life, so I won't participate, I wish you happiness in the future."

I took a deep breath and asked her with a trembling voice, "Do you know where she is?"

Qiu Yu's expression was a little hesitant: "You know...?"

I couldn't wait to ask her: "Can you tell me?"

"She should have returned to Yuncheng by now."

"Maybe it's already at the apartment."

I came earlier than Qiu Yu, and I left earlier than Qiu Yu.

I immediately drove to Shi Jinghe's apartment, and I didn't even have time to say goodbye to Qiu Yu, but I said "thank you" to her.

Thank you for her willingness to tell me all this.

I was extremely anxious, and finally arrived at the underground parking lot of Shi Jinghe's apartment, but because of my nervousness, I got out of the car and forgot to take my bag. I didn't realize it until I got to the elevator and turned back.

It contains Shi Jing and the keys to the apartment. In so many days, I have come to open the door almost every day.

I ran to the elevator entrance and pressed the button for the 21st floor. While waiting, I grabbed the hem of my clothes and my body was shaking.

I was so scared, so afraid that Shi Jinghe hadn't come back yet, and also really afraid that Shi Jinghe would ignore me.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help biting my lip, watching the floor number gradually jump to "21".

The elevator door opened, and I choked my throat before I got out of here.

Not the first time here, but this time was more intense than usual.

My heartbeat is accelerating rapidly, and my heart is about to explode/explode.

Finally, I stood in front of Shi Jinghe's apartment.

There was no sign of the door being opened, so I squatted down and buried my face in my knees.

I didn't cry out loud, but I was crying silently, and soon my pants were wet from crying.

I fell from heaven to hell in an instant, because Shi Jinghe hasn't come back yet, and she hasn't sent me a message.

But after a while, I heard the sound of the elevator doors opening again.

I slowly raised my head and looked in that direction, expecting to see the person I wanted to see.

No, just a neighbor, she looked at me a little surprised, then asked if I needed help.

I shook my head and thanked, my heart sank little by little.

The temperature in the hallway was very low, but my face was very hot from crying.

My legs were numb from squatting, and I stood up slowly while supporting the wall.

I bent slightly to look at the ground, and beat my thigh, trying to let the numbness go away earlier.

Not long after, my cell phone rang, I took it out of my bag, and before I answered it, I heard the voice I missed: "Zhizhi?"

I raised my eyes and looked towards the source of the sound. Shi Jinghe was holding a vegetable in one hand and a mobile phone in the other.

Shi Jinghe lowered his hand holding the phone and walked towards me slowly.

I close my eyes, hoping that when I open them, everything in front of me is not an illusion.

And before I even opened my eyes, I heard the sound of a plastic bag being placed on the ground. In the next second, I was hugged, and what I could smell was the fragrance of hair that I had been thinking about day and night. A gentle voice close by.

"Sorry, I'm a little late."

"Zhizhi, happy month."