Pretend to be straight

"I……"

How can I not understand?I have also had such a time, whether it was before or now, how could I not understand such a simple truth.

"Understood." I lowered my head slightly and answered her.

It's strange, it's already winter in mid-November, the wind in the air is so cold that people doubt life, but the temperature of my face has not been cooled by it.

Even, getting hotter and hotter, I raised my hand and touched my face.

Hey, it's so hot, did I wear too much?

Shi Jinghe suddenly asked me, bringing back my thoughts: "Do you want to go to the playground tomorrow?"

I put my hand down, clenched my fist nervously, and responded to her: "Huh?" I reacted and asked her, "Cen Xuan wants to go or Mao Mao wants to go?"

"...Can't it be that I want to go?"

"Yes." I grinned, and some passers-by looked away from me for two seconds, probably wondering why I was laughing like this on the phone.

I put away my smile and was about to ask her if she would bring these younger sisters, but Shi Jinghe stepped up to me and said, "Since you ask that, then take them. You take your sister, and I will take my niece and my younger sister."

"Okay..." I sighed in my heart, feeling that I said something wrong and missed the opportunity to be alone with Shi Jinghe.

Is it too late to remedy it now?It was too late, because Shi Jinghe said goodbye to me, and she said she was going to eat.

The tone was a little angry, and I stared blankly at the phone, not knowing how to react.

Back in the private room, Pu Xin and Jin Lin were still laughing, and they chatted very speculatively.

I looked down, sat down in my seat, and ate food in silence.

Pu Xin gave me a look, and she asked, "Zhizhi, why are you so fat? Are you mad at customers again?"

I shook my head and denied it: "No, I haven't received orders recently, and it's not like you don't know."

"Then your face looks exactly the same as when you were angry with customers."

I raised my hand and touched my face again, the temperature on it had already dropped, and I blew the cold wind outside for a long time, which woke me up a lot.

But the more sober I feel, the more stupid I feel, and I wish I could go back to the time when Shi Jinghe asked me if I would go to the playground.

"No, I'm just mad at myself."

The two of them put their eyes on me and waited for my next words. I pursed my lips and said, "I'm so stupid."

Jin Lin nodded in agreement: "I think so too."

Pu Xin slapped her lightly on the head: "Little boy, you will suffer if you agree with your sister at this time." Naturally, Pu Xin has known me for a long time, and she needs to know me better, "Hey, Zhizhi, Tell me the reason first, and let us analyze it for you?"

I looked into their eyes, and after thinking for a few seconds, I shook my head: "It's okay, let's eat, I'm hungry again."

"..."

After the alarm clock rang at 08:30 the next morning, I struggled for about ten minutes before getting up.

The air conditioner in my room was blowing for a long time at night, my face and lips were very dry, and I went to the bathroom to wash after I got up.

She has come out of the shower, and Jin Lin is still asleep on the sofa, but I won't rush her now, if she still hasn't woken up by 09:30, I will call her again.

Last night, I made an appointment with Shi Jinghe to go to the playground, and it was at 10:30 in the morning. If I drive there from my house, it will take four to 10 minutes. In addition to the time I have to put on makeup, after eight o'clock is just right.

I was drawing my eyebrows when there was a knock on the door, and the next second the door was opened.

It was Xie Ying, her hair was still a bit messy, she was relieved when she saw me: "I woke up late today, I thought you weren't up, so I came to call you."

I thought of this last night, and I told Xie Ying specifically that if I haven't moved after eight o'clock, come to my room and wake me up.

Maybe she didn't hear me while I was washing up, so she thought I wasn't awake.

I thanked her and she closed the door and walked in slowly.

Xie Ying sat on my chair, rubbed her sleepy eyes, and asked me: "Zhizhi, did you think of any countermeasures when you went to see Shi Jinghe today?"

I looked at myself in the mirror, and I was very satisfied with the eyebrows I just painted, and I was puzzled: "What countermeasure?"

"..." Xie Ying was silent for two seconds, "When you get along with Shi Jinghe, how can you make her like you? Have you ever thought about it?"

I turned my head and looked at her: "What do I want to do?"

Xie Ying seemed to be starting to doubt life: "Your every move is very important. For example, when you are doing this action, you have to predict in your heart whether it will make her favor you or not."

I was puzzled: "Do you need it?"

Xie Ying's eyes widened: "Don't you need it?"

I turned my head to look in the mirror again, and I looked a little dazed inside, so I answered her: "Yingying, haven't I told you that I had a girlfriend before."

"I confirmed that I struggled and struggled when I liked her, because she was a girl and so did I, but then I chased her with courage. But at that time, I didn't think so much at all, and I didn't have much time for me Think about what you said, because she will be with me soon." I said slowly, "I haven't experienced what it's like to be ambiguous, the boyfriends I made later, you know, I don't like them , so sometimes I feel that I am quite helpless."

I summed it up for myself: "I look like an emotional king, but I'm actually a bronze."

Xie Ying's drowsiness was completely wiped out by my words, her lips moved for a long time, and finally said: "Bronze with my own ability, Lu Zhi is awesome."

Since engaging in this industry, I have made three boyfriends in total.

The first one is from our circle. Not long after I entered the industry, he confessed his love to me.

There is no other reason, because he is very handsome. At that time, Xiaoxu had just arrived and his career had not yet risen, so he was the most popular one.

He said he liked me and asked me to be his girlfriend, and I agreed after a few days.

Later, I fell in love with him for two months, and I tried my best to play this role well, but I was with him after all, so he also saw it later.

We broke up peacefully, and since then I haven't seen him again, because he quit the industry and is no longer doing this job. Instead, he was spotted by a scout and asked him to act. This face cannot be wasted.

The result was very bad, not to mention that there was no fire, and because of being a monster during the show, netizens picked up a black history-cheating and derailing many times during the relationship.

I am also listed, and I am also one of his girlfriends.

This relationship is the most speechless I have ever been. I still felt guilty at that time, because I didn't like him but he was very good to me.

result?Here's a show for me, when he was with me, he was also in love with five or six other girls at the same time, he appeared in this hotel with girl No. 1 today, and in another hotel with girl No. 2 tomorrow.

After he was exposed, Xiao Xu and I were already good friends. Xiao Xu's reaction to this incident was very violent: "Fuck, I knew he was a piece of trash."

It's really rubbish, but luckily I don't like him.

I continued to put on makeup on myself, Xie Ying said: "Anyway, Zhi Zhi, whether it is before or after dating, you have to use tricks." She clapped her hands, "Do you understand tricks?" ?”

I nodded: "Barely understand."

But I can't implement it to Shi Jinghe, I don't even have enough courage to test her.

After so many years, I fell in love with someone again, and this person is more or less connected to my past.

I felt a little guilty in my heart, as if I liked someone I shouldn't like.

After a while, Jin Lin woke up too. She was yawning profusely, and she didn't seem to have slept well.

I asked her, "Did you sleep late last night?"

"A bit."

"It's so late to chat with Cen Xuan?"

Jin Lin sighed: "Sister, the two of us are so worried."

"Pfft." I was choosing clothes, and when I heard this, I looked back at her, "What are you two kids worrying about?"

"It's too stupid to worry about you."

"..."

"So we have decided that we will separate from you when we arrive, and leave the two of you alone."

I frowned, and couldn't help asking: "Is it a bit too exaggerated?" I said, "And it's so obvious."

Jin Lin's face was full of disbelief: "This is much better than you sitting on the fence and waiting for rabbits."

"Okay." I couldn't help laughing.

At 45:[-], we went out, and Xie Ying waved to us in the living room, wishing us a good time.

After leaving the parking lot, I asked Jin Lin: "Jin Linlin, what should I do? I'm a little nervous."

"Take a deep breath and relax, Jing and sister don't eat people."

I glanced at her: "You say that, I really want her to eat me." I coughed, "You understand."

Jin Lin roared, "Lu Zhi! I'm still underage!"

"I didn't kiss anyone until I was 17. You are much better than me."

After a while, I said, "Call Cen Xuan and ask if they are coming soon."

"it is good."

Jin Lin dialed the phone obediently, and I pricked up my ears while driving, hoping to hear Shi Jinghe's voice.

But no, it was Cen Xuan's voice the whole time.

But I'm not in a hurry, or I'm pretending not to.

After all, in ten minutes or so, I will hear Shi Jinghe's voice and see Shi Jinghe's face. I just need to wait for the time to come.

Finally, I parked the car in the parking space of the playground, and after getting out of the car, I saw the gate of Yuncheng Playground.

Now people are already entering the venue one after another, and there are many peddlers shouting about their business in the wide field outside the gate.

Jin Lin and I came and stood and waited. It didn't rain in Yuncheng today, it was cloudy, so it was just right to come out to play.

But I inexplicably remembered that Cheng Siyi asked me if I wanted to go to the playground, and she didn't ask me directly, but through Xie Ying.

I don't want to reason about her behavior other than feeling puzzled.

After waiting for a few minutes, I saw a new red car entered the parking lot. The license plate number was the one I remembered in my mind.

When Shi Jing and the others arrived, I couldn't help but raise the corners of my lips.

Jin Lin also saw it, she bumped mine with her elbow, and whispered to me: "Sister, come on, don't be nervous, you can do it."

Shi Jing and the others had already got out of the car, and Cen Xuan was holding Shi Jinglan's hand. They also saw us and were walking towards us.

Shi Jinghe wore another windbreaker, this time in khaki color, tied with a belt in the middle.

She looks like a street star when she walks, full of aura.

I choked my throat and felt more and more nervous.

The three of them have come to us.

Jin Lin called Shi Jinghe: "Sister Jinghe."

Cen Xuan and Shi Jinglan called me: "Sister Zhizhi."

I nodded, concealed my nervousness, and started to follow the steps: "Then let's buy tickets first?"

Cen Xuan nodded again and again: "Okay, okay, then let's lead my little aunt to line up first."

Shi Jinglan disagreed, she frowned: "But I want to hold sister Zhizhi."

Her appearance is so cute, I didn't have much resistance to her all the time, so I stretched out my hand to her and smiled at her: "You hold me."

After saying this, I felt Jin Lin's gaze. I took a look at her and understood what she was talking about me.

She meant that I was not up to date.

I curled my lips to respond to her, saying that I can't help it either.

Shi Jinglan bent his eyes, raised his hand, and was about to put his hand in my palm.

At this time, Shi Jinghe's faint voice came from my ear, but he paused every word: "Shi, Jing, Lan...?"

Shi Jinglan's small body has big eyes, she blinked when she heard Shi Jinghe's words, and immediately turned her hand to hold Cen Xuan's.

"Hey, niece Xuanxuan, you should lead me."

"okay."

The three of them walked a little fast, and they were laughing all the way, looking very happy.

I couldn't help feeling: "It's nice to be young."

But my other purpose is to find something to say, because Shi Jinghe has not said any other words except calling Shi Jinglan.

And after I said this now, she still didn't say anything.

I turned my head to look at her, wanting to see her expression, but I made eye contact with her - Shi Jinghe was looking at me.

I turned my eyes away the next second.

I fuck.

It's terrible, if there is another such stare, I may not survive today.

Shi Jinghe's second words sounded in my ears again, she was calling me: "Lu Zhi."

"Huh?" I don't know if my face is red, but I can feel my heart beating faster.

After a few seconds, Shi Jinghe said again, "It's all right."

I licked my lips, obviously what Xie Ying and Jin Lin had said to me was all in my mind before, but at this moment, I couldn't think of anything.

But I remembered another thing, something that was extremely crucial to me.

I turned to her and asked, "Where am I having fun?"

Every time I think of "I only tease you when you are having fun", I feel uncomfortable.

"Huh?" Shi Jinghe was obviously taken aback, "Why do you ask this?"

I persisted, and continued to ask: "Didn't you say that I am having fun?"

Shi Jing and innocent face: "Where do I have it?"

After she said this, she said "Oh~", and the pear dimple was on her lips again: "I remember."

"I didn't say it's funny to see you, I mean it's sweet to see you."

"You heard wrong."