Pretend to be straight

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These two days I don't want to see Shi Jinghe anymore.

Whenever I think of her, I will think of her chuckle and that sentence - "Lu Zhi, should you take your medicine?"

Especially after she finished speaking, she stood up, went to the drawer of her desk, and really brought me a box of headache medicine for me.

"I don't know if you have finished eating the one I gave you last time. Take this box first."

I:......

Seeing things and thinking about people does not exist, but seeing things and "beating" people really does exist here.

I know, my turn was extremely embarrassing, but it shouldn't be her attitude, right?

I was really angry, and even more angry, her reaction made me feel that I could not complete this task.

I seem to have been going back and forth between heaven and hell recently. For a while, I feel that I can succeed, and 1000 million is close in front of me. At the same time, I feel that I will fail, and 1000 million is far away.

Frustration hit my whole body again, and the little confidence I finally had was knocked to pieces again.

And more importantly... I'm not sure if Shi Jinghe understands me.

"Hey."

I sighed, which attracted Xiao Xu's squint. He was sitting on the sofa opposite me, chatting sweetly with his boyfriend.

He put his eyes back on his mobile phone again, and kept typing, but he said: "Little sister Zhizhi, I heard you sigh a lot this afternoon. If you have any troubles, tell brother , Brother will relieve your worries."

In the past two days, because he missed his partner so much, he didn't take orders, and because he was too bored, he came to my house to play with me.

It just so happens that I am also a "vagrant", just as idle and panicked as he is.

I said I don't want to see Shi Jinghe just for fun, of course, it's not my unilateral reason, but also Shi Jinghe's.

After she finished eating on Sunday, she quickly got into work again.

With a lot of work to deal with, she was so busy that she rarely posted on Weibo these two days.

I consciously didn't bother, so as not to give her a bad impression.

...Although the original impression is not very good?

I rubbed my eyes, I was a little sleepy after sitting for so long, I said: "Xiao Xu, how can you let that girl know that I am not straight?"

"Huh?" Xiao Xu was stunned, and he looked at me again with an unbelievable expression on his face, "The current situation can't be that you chase someone but they don't know?"

I swallowed, and when he asked me directly, I slowly nodded in his eyes: "Yes...and she knew that I had a boyfriend before..." I scratched my hair, "I'm worried That's it."

Xiaoxu: "..."

Xiao Xu: "So what you're showing now may be considered by her to be friendship between straight girls...?"

I shook my head, and said in Xiao Xu's eyes that had just turned into "a child can be taught", "No, I didn't show anything."

Xiao Xu's eyes immediately changed to "hate iron but not steel", and he said, "Damn it, didn't you say you pursued him?" Xiao Xu broke his fingers, and after two seconds he stared at me, "You do the math, how many days have passed?"

I moved my lips, finally lowered my head in resignation, and said listlessly: "Well, I haven't done anything yet." I found a reason for myself, "You know, I haven't dated a girl for so long, My ex-boyfriends were not initiated by me, what can I do?"

I spread my hands: "I'm also desperate!"

Really desperate.

Shi Jinghe is the emotional witness of my love affair with a boy, and she should have preconceived me, thinking that I am a straight girl.

Xiao Xu waved his hand: "Sister, why don't you stop chasing, let's give up."

I:"……"

I began to think, was what I did too deliberately before, would I be more relaxed and normal and natural, maybe the effect would be better?

Finally, after reflecting on it, I think it may be because I have been focusing on this matter recently, which made me too nervous, so I did not perform well.

So I decided, I'll take an order first, and try to focus on other places first.

Maybe it's unintentional?Right.

So I asked the leaders of the sailors I added, but their reply to me was: there are no stars who need sailors recently.

So I had to do the task of receiving orders. After various selections, I accepted an order that was not difficult-to accompany the campus tour.

After Qin Yiwen's incident, I now have a feeling of "being bitten by a snake and afraid of well ropes for ten years" about the identity of customers.

This time, the girl who asked me to accompany her on campus is called Yuan Xinrui. She is a sophomore this year, and she is real in her sophomore year, unlike Qin Yiwen, who is a liar.

Because Yuan Xinrui showed me her class schedule and her student ID card, she is indeed a student of the Department of Mathematics of Yuxing University.

And the other party is a girl, so I have to rest assured.

I have accompanied people shopping and eating, so I am not surprised to accompany people on campus.

On Thursday afternoon, I drove to Yuda, parked the car and called Yuan Xinrui.

Today is still cloudy, and I'm not as happy as before, and I'm even affected by the weather, trying to smile while answering the phone.

The call was connected quickly, and after I asked Yuan Xinrui where she was waiting for me, I got out of the car and went to the basketball court she said to find her.

It is impossible for me to forget what Qin Yiwen did to me. I can only ignore it as much as possible and overcome this fear.

There is nothing to be afraid of on the university campus. I can't stop accepting campus tasks just because I was almost strangled to death at the gate of Yuncheng University.

When I took on this task, I also asked Yuan Xinrui why she would rent me to go around the campus with her.

Her answer was simple: alone.

Lonely people also want someone who can listen to them, and it doesn't matter if it's a stranger.

She doesn't live in a dormitory, has no roommates, and basically sits in a corner in class.

Her grades are mediocre, her looks are not impressive enough, and no one has taken the initiative to chat with her.

She is taciturn and has been in this school for more than a year, but she has no friends.

This is what she told me herself.

And she is not a proactive person. When she was the most proactive, it might be this time she asked me to accompany her to school.

In the past, she always shopped alone, maybe she couldn't really go shopping, she just stopped and looked around.

I came to Yuda very rarely, and I was not familiar with it at all. I first searched the campus map with a search engine, and then looked at the road signs set up on the campus. After going around, I arrived at the basketball court that Yuan Xinrui mentioned.

It is now afternoon, and many majors in the school are in class, but there are also some students who are not in class and "wandering" in the campus.

Sports venues such as basketball courts and football fields have always been very popular places. I am not surprised that Yuan Xinrui asked me to come here.

When I arrived, the cheers in the arena grew louder and louder.

The scene is spectacular and lively.

I took a look, and there are probably two departments playing a friendly basketball match, and it hasn't been long since it started, no wonder there are so many people at the scene.

I haven't met Yuan Xinrui, so I don't know what she looks like, but she told me that she was wearing a red sweater with a ponytail and a black hair tie.

... There are many girls dressed like this at the scene.

I called her again and explained my location, and she said she would come to me right away.

I stood there for maybe 2 minutes before waiting for her.

It's different from what I imagined, she said she looks unremarkable, but that's not what I saw.

On the contrary, it can even be said to be very delicate, with the feeling of a sister next door.

It's just that his eyes looked extremely calm, like a bottomless well.

Everything around her has nothing to do with her, and behind her is the scene of shouting for her department or the people she supports. She was in it, but she was out of place.

Because it was too quiet, even when he called me, his tone was flat, and the volume of each word seemed to be the same.

I smiled and asked her, "Didn't you mean to visit the campus?"

Being able to be calm in the face of unfamiliar customers is a skill I have cultivated a long time ago.

Yuan Xinrui looked at me with pursed lips, and said, "You look different than I imagined."

Sometimes I also wonder, where do some customers know about me? I asked some people, and most of them said they learned about it from friends. That is to say, there may be some kind of connection between my customers and customers. .

But Yuan Xinrui didn't tell me. She asked me the price directly. After I answered, she transferred the deposit to me, and then said her request.

Therefore, Yuan Xinrui is a little more mysterious in my eyes, and because of what she said just now, I feel a little different.

I asked, "What do you imagine me to be like?"

Her eyes still didn't change, and she said, "Be ugly." She nodded slightly, "I won't make people feel... inferior when standing in front of you."

After she finished speaking, she turned around and walked to the basketball court. I walked beside her, and I smiled: "How can I make people feel inferior? I'm a big guy who picks my feet."

Yuan Xinrui glanced at me: "..."

The basketball game was played in the middle of the court, and the friction between the soles and the floor made a slightly harsh sound, but after scoring a goal, the enthusiastic screams could cover everything.

Yuan Xinrui led me to sit down on a ladder, she only cared about herself, and wiped the dust from the place where she was sitting.

I raised my eyebrows, and took out a tissue from my bag and put it under my buttocks.

My jeans are black and if they get dusty it's pretty obvious.

There were people on the left, right, front, back, and the place where we sat was not remote at all, it was more like being surrounded by people.

I looked at the scoreboard on the field, thought about it, and said, "The Chinese department and the foreign language department have nothing to do with your mathematics department."

The answer I got was flat, and there was only one word: "Yeah."

Talking less and having problems with self-awareness, this is my first impression of Yuan Xinrui now.

The sound next to me was terrible, especially after the team I supported scored a goal, I almost covered my ears.

I said it was to accompany me to the campus, but in fact I knew very well that I was there to chat with, just like playing games with me.

I asked: "Then... is there a boy you like on the court?"

Yuan Xinrui didn't turn her head to look at me, she looked straight at the game and shook her head: "No."

She said, "You talk a lot."

OK, this is a different customer. I was just here to sit with you, not even to chat.

I suddenly thought of what Shi Jinghe said to me a few days ago. I was too anxious that day, she talked a lot about me, and asked me if I wanted to borrow money from her.

I'm not a chatterbox, am I?Especially compared with Xiaoxu, I can be regarded as dumb.

And the point is, Yuan Xinrui said she was lonely, so she came to me. I thought she was just like most people who lacked a listener.

Unexpectedly, I just came to sit with her and watch boys play basketball.

The last time I saw a basketball game, it was probably in college.

I stopped when I passed the basketball court, and left after a while.

That was after he broke up with Yu Mo. Before that, when he played basketball many times, he would ask me to watch it.

Because in this case, he will perform better and be much happier.

It seems to be the case. When I am doing something, if the person I like is around, then I should be more motivated, and the challenge that cannot be completed may also be completed.

At this moment, the basketball game on the court has reached the intense stage of the first half, and it is almost late October, but the boys are wearing short sportswear, sweating profusely, even pouring water on their faces, and then shaking their hair, There were screams from the audience.

The cheers around him became louder and louder, and the hot pursuit of the score in the field made people look excited.

But Yuan Xinrui and I were accidents among so many people, we two seemed to have a barrier of our own, separating us from the others.

After sitting for about 10 minutes, Yuan Xinrui spoke.

It is also very important to observe words and expressions. Since she thinks I talk too much, then I just shut up in a timely manner.

So I waited for her to speak, and now finally.

She said: "This competition has nothing to do with our department, but it has something to do with the boys I like."

"I'm too bad to have the guts to talk to him," she said.

I froze for a second, and followed her gaze - it was on the basketball court.

I thought about it and asked her, "Is he playing basketball?"

Yuan Xinrui shook her head, she sighed softly: "No, it's his boyfriend who plays basketball."

"..." Wait a minute, let me sort out the current situation.

It means that Yuan Xinrui likes a boy, but that boy is gay.

I asked again, "Is he here?"

"Not now."

I'm like a curious baby: "Then what's the point of you watching the basketball game...?"

"I want to see how good his boyfriend is. Will I be able to practice basketball better than this boy in the future, and he will like me too."

I said frankly: "...I don't think so."

She turned her head to look at me, and I realized that her eye sockets were a lot redder unconsciously, but her tone was still natural and normal, without a hint of crying in it.

"I know," she said.

"I'm just dreaming," she said.

The whistle blew on the field, and the teams on both sides entered the rest period.

Yuan Xinrui stood up, and I also stood up, picking up the dirty paper on the ground for a while and preparing to throw it into the trash can.

After going around the crowd, she led me out of the basketball court and towards the sports field.

She is a little shorter than me, her back looks very thin, her hair is very black, and she is very white with a ponytail that exposes the back of her neck.

In terms of external conditions, she shouldn't be as bad a person as she described, should she?

If I were a boy, if I met such a girl in school, maybe I would go to her for contact information.

The basketball court in the sports field is very close, and it may only be 2 minutes away.

In the middle of the sports field is the football field, and there are boys sweating on it, as if there is wind under their feet, just to kick the football into their team's frame.

The first floor outside the football field is the running track, and there are still individual classes taking physical education classes and doing warm-up exercises.

Finally, I felt like I was doing a task, which was to visit the campus.

Yuan Xinrui was silent all the way, but I was afraid that she would find me annoying, so I didn't take the initiative to speak.

Just when I thought we had to go to other places, she led me to sit down on the ladder beside the rostrum.

... I'm still a sitter.

I sighed inwardly, and just sat down. I just didn't see a trash can on the road and I didn't throw away my paper towels, and now I'm reusing them again.

The seats on the side of the rostrum were much empty, Yuan Xinrui rested her arms on her knees, her face was still calm, she looked at the football field, and I followed her gaze.

I seriously guessed the plot and asked her: "Then... is he playing football?"

She answered me: "No."

"I'm just tired of walking," she said.

I've only been walking for a few minutes... Are you serious when you say you're tired?

I gave a short "um" and decided not to speak anymore.

It's better for her to speak, lest I appear to be... mentally retarded.

This reminds me of Shi Jinghe calling me "a stick".

After taking this task for so long, I have to admit that I think Shi Jing and this person are quite interesting.

It would have been nice if she hadn't witnessed my straight daughter's love affair, but unfortunately not.

But it doesn't prevent me from thinking about her when I come out to do other tasks now.

After all, I was thinking about how to attack her every day in my mind, but I didn't take action.

Yuan Xinrui still didn't speak, I felt a little bored, maybe it was indeed my task to sit quietly with her.

So I simply closed my eyes, anyway, I am not interested in football games, nor in the scenery.

At this time, I heard several boys shouting.

"Student, get out of the way!"

"Quickly open!"

"Damn! Are you asleep!"

I opened my eyes to see what was going on, but it was too late - the football had already passed over my head and bounced somewhere else.

I covered my head, tears were about to come out.

It's over, I really have a headache, I'm afraid Shi Jinghe is not a prophet.

My body also leaned back a little due to the force. After I sat firmly, I looked at Yuan Xinrui, and she didn't seem to have reacted from the "accident" just now.

Her lips parted, probably trying to explain to herself why she didn't pull me away or remind me just now.

I covered my head with one hand and waved the other: "It's okay."

The running end of the football reached the runway, and the sudden pain just now brought tears to my eyes.

And the football game on the field was also terminated. Fortunately, unlike the basketball field, it seemed to be played here, so there were very few people watching.

I'm not too embarrassing either.

A boy ran up from the ladder beside him. He was wearing a ball uniform, and his muscular muscles were very obvious. He said, "Student, are you alright?"

My God, this familiar line.

Before I had time to shake my head, he started the next sentence: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, why don't I take you to the infirmary?"

I rubbed the top of my head and shook my head: "No."

He was still panting, and his face was very red from the exercise.

He added: "I kicked the ball just now. I'm really sorry. If you feel uncomfortable, you must tell me. I will pay all the medical expenses."

After finishing speaking, he asked me: "Have you brought your mobile phone? You can add me on WeChat, and if you have anything, you must tell me."

Yuan Xinrui pursed her lips beside me, silently watching all this.

I continued to shake my head and repeated: "No, it's fine."

It was really painful when the football hit the top of my head, but it feels better now.

I don't want to add this boy's contact information, because I don't want to use my life phone to add any strangers.

The boy hesitated to speak, obviously still wanted to take responsibility for my wound, I continued to refuse: "No need, thank you."

Um?Why did I, a victim, start saying thank you?

He finally stopped insisting and returned to the court after bowing to me.

Yuan Xinrui waited for him to leave, then moved her throat, and said, "I'm sorry, I didn't react."

"fine."

I was injured while on a mission. If I had a company, I would probably be considered a work-related injury.

But I don't, I'm just a temporary worker.

After the mission, just in case, I went to a clinic to have my head injury checked.

The pain is not strong, but the touch is not the same as before.

There is a small bag.

The doctor asked me to pay more attention to my diet and wait for it to disappear.

I didn't knead it any more and went home after dinner.

After arriving home, Yuan Xinrui also sent me the final payment, which was a little more than what was negotiated, and she said she was sorry for my injury.

I accepted it and sent her the extra one back.

Xie Ying was not at home. She said that she would come back later tonight because she was playing outside with some of her college classmates.

I was the only one in the empty living room. I drank some water and watched TV with a blank expression.

The boy's words today are exactly the same as what Yu Mo said a few years ago, which shocked me and scared me a little.

That's why I was so resolute in my refusal, because I was afraid of doing the same thing again.

It's not because I'm narcissistic, but I now have enough avoidance awareness—avoid all scenes or behaviors that may be staged and misunderstood.

In the past few missions I have done, apart from the time when Qin Yiwen almost strangled me, which time have I not met Shi Jinghe directly or indirectly?

Mission nemesis, not just talk, I have a certain "fear" of her.

It's already past eight o'clock in the evening, and my eyelids are a bit heavy, because I'm overworked today-I used to lie at home with salted fish every day, and I went out and walked so much all of a sudden, I was really tired.

Yuan Xinrui's business is not over yet, she also asked me if I have time on weekends, and if I can stay with her again.

Her task is light and simple, and she is a girl, and she is a little pitiful, so I agreed without thinking long.

After agreeing, he felt that it would be a pity not to tell Shi Jinghe what happened today.

I haven't sent a message to Shi Jinghe for two or three days, because I don't want to cause her trouble, although my relationship with her is not enough to cause her trouble.

I turned to the chat box with her, bit my lip, and sent her a message.

Me: 【My head was kicked by a football today. 】

Me: [ I picked up a bag, it hurts a bit. 】

I said it lightly on purpose, maybe chatting will be more interesting.

Shi Jinghe actually replied in seconds: [Distressed. 】

But when I blinked my eyes, I saw these two words retracted.

...?