Pretend to be straight

I had a very messy dream, the scenes and characters in the dream were all kinds of random strings, here and there for a while, the world was spinning, and it made me feel dizzy and uncomfortable.

I clearly know that this is a dream, because in reality, there will be no figure of Qiu Yu, her smiling face, or her voice by my side.

Who is Qiu Yu?Qiu Yu was my first love.

She has been away from me for five years, and has not been by my side for five years.

So only in dreams, and in the past few years, I dreamed of her more than once, but every time I woke up, I was greeted with round after round of emptiness and loneliness. I was invaded by them and had no resistance I can only let them occupy every part of my body, making me tremble and making me feel like being stabbed by needles, and my whole body hurts.

And what did he dream about her this time?Just like before, I dreamed that she was still smiling at me and calling me "baby" one second before, but the next second she was telling me not to pester her with fierce eyes.

Am I pestering her?In my dream, I was also trying to think back to the time when we broke up.

She was entangled, and she was right, because I cried and told her not to leave me.

It's like... I took a task before, and the other party asked me to beg him hard in public not to break up with me.

Memories don't fade with age, and especially when they do, they will be remembered more clearly.

It turned out that when I cried and begged the other party not to break up with me without dignity, I really did.

At the end of the dream, there was another person. I tried my best to see who the other person was, but in the end I could only see a vague outline.

Who is it?I was guessing, and I was not sure until I heard the other party speak.

It was Shi Jinghe, she was calling me "Lu Zhi" again and again, her tone was a little worried, but there was also a gentleness, which made me feel at ease.

I wanted to respond to her, but I couldn't say anything. I thought I was dumb, and Shi Jinghe was getting further and further away from me.

The sky in the dream changed color, suddenly dark clouds covered, followed by thunder.

I woke up.

What caught my eye was the hotel's overhead lights, the lights were dim and soft, and didn't hurt my eyes.

I raised my hand and put the back of my hand on my forehead, closed my eyes again, and eased the feeling of fear that I had just escaped from the dream.

The room was very quiet, Shi Jinghe was gone, I remember she came after I had been drinking.

My head was still a little dizzy, I licked my dry lips, and after getting used to the current situation for a while, I got up and went to the coffee table to drink the water I bought.

The coffee table and the carpet are clean, the bottles and cans I drank last night are gone, but the smell of wine is still in the air.

I took a sip and went to the bathroom to retch the toilet.

When Shi Jinghe called me, I had just finished washing and it was already seven o'clock in the evening.

I slept for about twenty hours, from last night to tonight, during which time I missed the train back to Yuncheng, and I bought a new ticket for tomorrow at noon.

"Lu Zhi." She called me, the voice on the other end of the phone was a bit noisy, obviously there were a lot of people, she asked me, "Is there anything you want to eat? I just got out of the banquet now."

During the twenty hours I was asleep, she called me several times, but I didn't answer.

Meng Yisheng and Xie Ying also sent me messages asking me when I came to Yuncheng, and I replied one by one.

I still had the fresh smell of toothpaste in my mouth, I lowered my head and said, "I'll go out and solve it by myself in a while." I wrinkled my nose and said from the bottom of my heart, "Thank you."

"You're welcome." Just as Shi Jinghe finished speaking, I heard someone calling her "Sister".

I scratched my hair and wanted to say "If you have something to do, go and do it", but she didn't give me a chance, she answered the man and said, "Today is Yu Mo's wedding."

The wedding is today, and I was about to leave Liucheng today, but I am still in a daze in the hotel.

I opened my mouth and said stiffly, "I wish him a happy wedding."

Shi Jinghe laughed softly, she "hmm" and said, "I'll come to you, I'm not full."

After I hung up the phone, I changed my clothes, opened the curtains, and opened the window a little bit. After blowing the cold wind for 2 minutes, I felt that I was fully awake.

Shi Jinghe said that she would pack a few dishes from the restaurant and asked me to remember to open the door for her later.

After about four or 10 minutes, I drank a bottle of pure water for the whole person. At this time, the doorbell rang, and I got up to open the door.

The same scene as last night, except that I am not drunk anymore, and I can see Shi Jinghe's face very clearly.

She was wearing a black v-neck long-sleeved base layer, and another windbreaker outside. There was a belt around her waist, which outlined her slender waist.

I sighed with unclear eyesight, and began to envy her good figure again.

She picked up a bag and raised her eyebrows: "Take it, I can't carry it anymore."

"Okay." I agreed, took the bag in my hand, turned and walked to the living room, and she closed the door behind me.

I'd be lying if I didn't eat for almost a day to say I wasn't hungry, and I'm being honest, my stomach said it for me.

Shi Jinghe went to the bathroom to wash his hands, and when he came out, he raised his chin towards me and said, "Help me take out the handkerchief from the bag."

I looked at her expensive bag and asked, "Where is it?"

"Outside."

"Ok."

If it was me, I would just wipe the water with toilet paper, and I'm not that expensive.

Shi Jinghe's handkerchief is not the one I lent me last time, but another one, light pink, with the word "Jinghe" still on the corner of the handkerchief.

I watched her wiping the water, and couldn't help but ask, "How many colors does your handkerchief have?"

Shi Jinghe was taken aback when she heard the words, frowned slightly as if thinking about it, and after a few seconds, she said, "I don't know, my cousin sells these and gave me a lot."

"Cen Xuan's father?" I asked.

Jin Lin also called me in the past few days and asked me where I was. She wanted to come and have dinner with me and bring Cen Xuan with her. She also said that because Cen Xuan wanted to see me, because Cen Xuan felt It sounds nice and gracious.

It's all because of my act of kindness and my deceitful face, it's all right now, I'm being dealt a "good guy card" by a minor.

"Yes, it's him." After finishing speaking, Shi Jinghe put the handkerchief aside and sat down on the sofa. She rubbed her hands and glanced at me, "Why haven't you opened it yet?"

"Ah?" I was stunned for a moment, and then realized after looking at the bags of food on the coffee table.

I might be stupid, I thought sadly.

While untying the bag, Shi Jinghe said, "I bought the same few dishes from the restaurant two days ago. I didn't buy the rest because I was afraid you wouldn't like them."

I nodded: "OK."

She took out the rice and put it in front of me. I set the chopsticks, smelled the aroma of the food, and my stomach growled in unison.

I thought for a while and asked, "Have you told Yu Mo about my coming to Liucheng?"

I didn't mean anything else, I was just looking for a topic to ask, but this question triggered Shi Jinghe's frown switch, she looked at me with disbelief in her eyes: "Do you think I am that kind of person?"

I shook my head with an apologetic smile: "No, no."

"When you're in love, if it comes true, it's a promise. If it doesn't come true, it's a lie." Shi Jinghe said, "It's as if he once said that the bride he will marry in the future must be you."

She hooked the corners of her lips, and said: "Since it's a lie, then there's no need to bring it up, lest there will be emotional fluctuations because of the lie, then let's forget it."

Before Yu Mo fell in love with me, he had three girlfriends, and I was his fourth, maybe because I didn't like him enough, that's why he cherished me more and more, for fear that I would disappear from his eyes.

During that time, his friends joked that he was a "wife slave", and he cheerfully said "I am", seeing that I was expressionless, he asked me in fear if his friend's words hurt me Now, tell me a joke right away, and tell my friends not to tell it like that again.

He is really good to me, he puts a lot of energy on me, being together for one week is also an anniversary, and two weeks together will also surprise me.

He tried every means to be nice to me, but my biggest response was to kiss the corner of his mouth one night, but he was as happy as a child who got his first doll in his life.

He said that he could wait for me until the day when I completely open my heart to him. He didn't care that I was in love with Qiu Yu once. He firmly believed that after I was with him, I would not think about others.

But what happened?I don't want to think about it anymore, the more I think about it, the more I feel guilty.

Fortunately, Yu Mo got married today, he will have a wife he loves and loves him, and he will have a cute and well-behaved child by his side in the future.

I have nothing else to say, I only hope that this big boy who really liked me can have the happiness that I will not have.

"Yeah." I nodded, "It's fine if I don't say anything, if I do, I'll bother him, and that's my fault."

Shi Jinghe was burying her head in her meal, when she heard that she looked up at me, swallowed the rice in her mouth, smiled, and said, "If it's not your fault, who else could."

It's a bit of a complaining tone, and I know why, because Yu Mo has a good relationship with her, but I used to treat him like that.

"Forget it, let's eat, and I will give you medicine after eating."

I didn't realize it: "Take medicine? What kind of medicine?"

Shi Jinghe's eyes are complicated, when her gaze is on my neck, I understand it instantly.

broken.

I tore off the silk scarf when I went back to the hotel last night, and now I don't know where to put it, but Shi Jinghe came over last night.

...What excuse do I have to find to prevaricate?

I moved my lips and finally just said, "No, it doesn't hurt anymore."

It really didn't hurt that much, and the scabs on the scratches were almost falling off. I looked in the mirror when I was washing, and found that there was not much difference from the normal time before.

Shi Jinghe's eyes dimmed, her face made me a little nervous, but after a few seconds she just smiled and didn't ask any further questions.Just said two words: "Okay."

I breathed a sigh of relief, but I heard her say again: "Next time if someone wants to hit you, you can call me. I work out and have better physical fitness than you. Then I can ask my friend for help."

Excuse me, where is the connection in your words?

I was speechless and said blankly, "Thank you, I will."

After I was half full, I lost my appetite, so I took the purified water and poured it into my mouth.

It seems that Shi Jinghe really didn't eat enough at the wedding banquet, she was still eating, looking at her phone while eating.

I quietly glanced at her mobile phone interface, it was Weibo, and her notification bar was all red.

I licked the water stains on my lower lip and asked her, "Sister Jinghe, why do you want to be an internet celebrity?"

"Huh?" She moved her eyes to my face, blinked her eyes, and looked a little confused, "Can't you?"

I shook my head and said, "No..."

Shi Jinghe pondered for a few seconds, and said, "If I have to position myself, I should be regarded as an atypical Internet celebrity? I don't accept advertisements, I don't open a Taobao store, and I open a candy store, but fans still don't know the address."

I nodded: "Yeah." I remembered her candy store, "And even if I go to that store, I probably won't meet you by chance, your office..."

My words did not continue, I knew she understood.

"My original intention was very simple, just to post photos. I used to be too restrained myself, and I rarely posted photos. Later, I thought it would be better to be happy." She showed me her mobile phone home page, "I also I didn’t expect to post photos, so many people would like them.”

I sincerely praised: "It's very beautiful."

"Really?" She raised the corners of her lips, "I think so too."

"..."

The development of the matter exceeded my expectations. I am now friends with Shi Jinghe, but it feels very strange to me.

Obviously, I want to attack her, don't I?But now that I have become good friends, how can I move forward?

Acquaintances are not good at committing crimes. How can I transform myself into a suitor?

When I got home, I was still thinking about this question, but maybe I really don't have enough experience in pursuing people, and I haven't got the answer yet.

I came back by train, Shi Jinghe said that she would probably stay in Liucheng for a week before she returned to Yuncheng, and sent me a message to remind me to be safe.

In the end, she said that she would not misunderstand that I drank because of Yu Mo, because she thought I never liked Yu Mo.

How can you forget the relationship you have never liked before?What's the point of being sad?

right.

Xie Ying came back at night, and when she saw me, the corners of her mouth couldn't stop rising, she came over and hugged me and said, "Zhizhi, I'm so lonely these few days when you're not here."

I coughed twice because of her arms around my neck, and she quickly said nervously: "I'm sorry, I forgot that you are still injured."

After she finished speaking, she sat up straight, looked at the wound on my neck carefully, and breathed a sigh of relief when she saw that there were no particularly obvious marks.

There was a trace of sadness in her eyes, and she said: "Zhizhi, why don't you also become an Internet celebrity? It's not the same as Shi Jinghe. You can open a Taobao store and accept advertisements, which is better than what we are doing now. work pays more.”

I was taken aback by her suggestion, hey, it seems not bad?

"If Brother God and the others find out, they will definitely buy you a lot of sailors for free. It will not be difficult for you to develop, and you will soon become a rising star in the Internet celebrity world."

"...And then I'll be picked up at that time, Shuiman Weibo?" I thought about the follow-up cooperatively.

Xie Ying laughed loudly. She patted my head lightly, put away her smile, and said solemnly, "Anyway, don't let such a thing happen again."

I nodded and smiled at her: "Don't worry, I won't accept love orders in a short time."

Xie Ying: "What about Shi Jinghe's list?"

"This...isn't a love list, I'm still chasing her, and she's fine, don't worry."

Xie Ying was still a little worried, she wanted to say something more, so I avoided the topic while she was silent: "I bought you a gift in Liucheng, you wait, I'll get it."

The work phone was not turned on for a few days, and when I turned it back on, many messages popped up.

I flipped through the news and was very puzzled: Don't you go out to play during the National Day?Why are you still thinking of asking me to do the task?

But among all the tasks, there is also Qingliu who told me happy National Day.

I didn't reply to any of them, and pretended that I hadn't come back from my trip. Anyway, the National Day is still two days away.

If it was before, I would definitely take the high-paying list and take the task out, but I don't have that kind of thought now, I just want to be a salty fish now.

Suddenly, I remembered one thing, that is, it is already the beginning of October, and my tenant has not paid the rent to me.

My house is a three-bedroom, one-living room, about 150 square meters, in a pretty good location in Yuncheng.

I only rent out girls. Just two years ago, three girls in the same class were worried about where to live. Finally, they found my house and I rented it out.

Instead of paying the rent for one year directly, they will pay me the rent every three months from the rental date.

A house of 150 square meters has a good location, complete furniture, and a good community environment. It is only 2500 per person per month, which is not too much.

Before, they always transferred the rent to me on time, only this time they didn't, and the agreed time was October [-]st.

I thought about it and talked about it in the group.

Soon, I received two transfers, and one girl didn't give it to me.

I pursed my lips and planned to take medicine to sleep, maybe she didn't see the news now?By the time I wake up tomorrow morning I will probably have a transfer.

But no, I didn't receive much of the 7500.

This girl is called Ding Yuan. I remember her job as a designer in a certain company. I was deeply impressed by her because when I met her last time, her hair was the shortest among the three.

In the past, she paid on time, but this time she didn't know why she didn't pay. Even after I clarified the "debt collection", she still didn't transfer the money to me.

If she has no money for the time being, I can accommodate it a bit, and it doesn't matter if it's a few days later, but she didn't send me any news.

I had to send her a single message to urge her. I am not a savior. People can live in my house for free, not to mention that my house price is already very low.

After sending her a message, I got up and went to eat. Xie Ying didn't work today, so she cooked a fish and said to make it up for me.

She also said that she wished me "good luck and no worries for the rest of my life", and I couldn't help laughing when I heard her homophonic blessing: "Do you think this fish's life is going well?"

Xie Ying: "I'm so mad, don't eat you."

Instead of thinking about Qin Yiwen repeatedly, I can still be a Pippi Shrimp.

It's a good life to be a salted fish. I just eat, drink and have fun every day, and don't have to rack my brains to think about what I should do and what expression I should put on when I complete the task.

Ding Yuan sent me a message back, she said that she was cheated out of the money before, and now she can’t afford the rent, and asked if I can wait to pay only one month’s salary first, and she will pay me the remaining two months next month.

Anyway, one month passed quickly, so I agreed, and soon received her 2500 yuan transfer message.

At this stage, falling in love will not make me happy, only sitting and making money can make me happy.

I am so happy that I want to scream up to the sky, let this happy day last a little longer.

But God said: impossible.

Because on the [-]th, Dai Sheng sent me a message. At that time, I was having a foot massage with Xiao Xu in the foot bath shop.

Dai Sheng said in a business-like tone: "Miss Lu, the National Day is over, and your time is getting less and less. There are still a little more than four months, are you sure?"

His words were like a basin of cold water being poured over my head, which gave me a chill.

Time is really running out, and I feel that 1000 million is getting farther and farther away from me.

The master who massaged my feet was still trying hard at this time, saying that I was too wet, so I only responded to Dai Sheng with a scream.

Dai Sheng smiled: "Miss Lu, after our investigation, we found out that you and Shi Jinghe are in a university. We don't know the inextricable connection between you, but isn't this better? How many lovers Did it start with friends?" He said, "You shouldn't be worrying, please keep going."

I thought he had finished speaking, but he said another word: "Yeah."

He hung up the phone after showing off his cuteness, and I just screamed the whole time.

Xiaoxu was also being pressed by the master, "pain, pain" "Master, please lighten", he saw me finish the phone call, twisted his face, and asked me: "What's the matter?"

Maybe it's because my brows are gradually frowning now, which makes him feel that I have something on my mind.

I shook my head and nodded again: "Tell me later."

After pressing the feet, the aunt at the cash register said with a smile on her face that she welcomes to come again next time, and Xiao Xu also smiled: "See you next year."

I laughed at his words, and he looked at me seriously and said, "That's a good wish."

"Ok."

Xiao Xu's boyfriend came home today, and he finally had time to come shopping with me.

He carried the bag when I bought things, but the clerks obviously saw a lot of gays like him. Seeing that we got along harmoniously, they didn't say "your boyfriend" to me.

Xiao Xu walked slowly with me, he glanced at my face and said, "Zhi Zhi, are you still chasing that straight girl?"

I nodded: "Forget it, the call just answered is related to her."

I said again: "You don't know, she is still my senior sister in college, but she was about to graduate when I was a freshman, and we have nothing to do with each other."

"I said, why don't you change your courtship? Straight women are as hard as ever to chase. Even if you bend her later, she can go straight back to dating men, marrying and having children."

I didn't answer his question, but said something else: "Xiao Xu, what do you mean when you have a partner but no one knows? The assumption is that this person has many friends and is very popular. It must be the kind of news flying all over the sky."

After I came back, I asked the seniors and seniors of the School of Economics I knew, but each of them gave the same answer.

They had never heard of Shi Jinghe having a partner, and one of them was still working in Shi Jinghe's student union department, so he answered the same way.

The summary is: Shi Jinghe did not fall in love during college, or no one knew that she was in love.

As a famous person, Shi Jinghe would surely spread the word if he fell in love, right?

However, those senior sisters and seniors all said no, and they answered in the affirmative.

And I was surprised and regretted that I didn't witness Shi Jinghe falling in love.

Xiao Xu bit her lip and thought for a while, then suddenly her eyes widened——

"Could it be... a foster/care relationship?"