The Blaze of Xueba

Boyhood ([-])

But today, walking home at night with Li Lie, Zhou Yan didn't feel much embarrassment even though he was silent all the way.

In fact, this is also the first time Zhou Yan walked home with others. From elementary school to junior high school, he walked home alone, talking to himself and thinking in silence.

Zhou Yan glanced at Li Lie out of the corner of his eye. The bastard was walking on his right, with a bag slung over his shoulder and school uniform unbuttoned, smiling innocently and stupidly.

Zhou Yan felt very at ease walking with him like this, so he withdrew his gaze again, only looking at the road ahead.

Zhou Yan's home was originally in the city center, very close to the school. It only took 20 minutes to walk, and he had already reached the gate of the community before he knew it.

Zhou Yan stopped and said, "I'm home."

Li Lie wondered why the time passed so quickly, and it arrived in no time. Zhou Yan asked in a daze, "Is your family here too?"

Li Lie gave a dry laugh, pointed at a building in the community, nodded and said, "Yes, it's there, I didn't expect that we lived in the same place! Haha! What a coincidence!"

Zhou Yan nodded, raised his hand to look at his watch, and said, "It's getting late, I'm going home first, see you tomorrow."

See you tomorrow.

Li Lie repeated these words in his heart, and smiled.He stood still, watching Zhou Yan walk into the depths of the night.

He wondered whether he should take off his schoolbag or drink water first after returning home. Anyway, he would drink water when he was thirsty. When he returned, did his parents sleep or did they sleep? What did he say, it must be something that cares about him, after all, he has such a strong self-discipline, he is a good boy who will not be worried at all...

Li Lie stood under the darkness, and a cold wind blew over him. He shivered and sneezed, but he still refused to move.

He doesn't want to go home.

For him, his so-called home is a place colder than an ice cellar.

But where else could he go but back?He lied to Zhou Yan just now, his home is not in this clean and orderly community, but a place opposite to this.

He walked back slowly, passing the usual dirty street, with several mahjong tables set up here and there, men and women huddled together, drinking and drinking and slurping.

It gets darker and darker as you go in, there are no street lights here, so some underworld people often steal money here, and the police don't care about it, and they can't control it.

The most trivial quarrels could be heard through the non-soundproof walls, either Zhang San took advantage of Li Si, or Wang Mazi suspected that Lao Wang next door had stolen his woman.

greasy life.

A life I don't want to live anymore.

However, for 15 years, Li Lie is still here, just like any time before, he took out the key from his schoolbag, opened the rusty iron door of his house, and went home.

It was black inside, pitch black, but he had gotten used to it over the years.Li Huafeng went out to work the night shift. Li Huafeng was his father, but he didn't know when he stopped calling him father.Grandma Li Shi and younger sister Li Zhi have already fallen asleep.

Before, grandma wanted to leave a light for him because he came home late, and he thought it was a waste of electricity, so he canceled it.He opened his door in the dark and threw his schoolbag on the bed.

The house is very narrow. He and his sister and grandma share a small room, separated by a partition in the middle. Every time my sister and grandma go in and out, they have to pass by him, which is very inconvenient.

He turned on a small light, opened the drawer, and took out the accounting book to calculate the food and clothing expenses for these days. He felt annoyed after the calculation, and he cursed in his heart, shit!I can't wait to buy a lottery ticket and make millions!

He leaned back suddenly and fell on the broken chair, which whined.He sighed, and continued to count the money under the dim light, not only his, but also his sister's, and grandma's... everything was on his shoulders.

Li Lie's father, Li Huafeng, and his mother, You Yan, divorced when he was very young. His mother gave him a bank card and paid him his living expenses every month, which was her mother's responsibility.

Although he lives under the same roof as Li Huafeng, he is like a passer-by. His father either sleeps or plays mahjong with others during the day. He doesn't care about him, and he never gave him living expenses. According to Li Huafeng's thinking, it is a great tolerance not to kick him out. , I still want living expenses, dreaming!

Li Lie lived in the smoke of gunpowder when he was very young, and the people who started the war were his father and his mother. They quarreled every day, and the quarrel was so loud that they would not stop until the roof was knocked down.

Li Huafeng is an honest rural man with a stocky build. He does consignment work, and he met You Yan when he was traveling in the city.

In the middle of a run one day, Li Huafeng went out to buy cigarettes in the middle of the night and saw You Yan standing in front of the barber shop in bright clothes. You Yan caught a glimpse of Li Huafeng staring at her, and immediately knew what it meant.

You Yan threw out a charming smile, which made Li Huafeng feel uneasy.Although Li Huafeng looks rather stupid, he has met many people of all kinds in his travels, and he still knows a lot about the ways of society.It's so dark, this woman is standing in front of the barbershop, she must be a chicken.

Li Huafeng was full of energy, and when he saw no one around, he walked up to You Yan and asked in a low voice, "How much is it for one night?"

You Yan pretended to be a strong woman, "You misunderstood me, I'm not a chicken, I won't do anything for any money."

Li Huafeng was so embarrassed, You Yan burst out laughing, and whispered softly in Li Huafeng's ear, "Except for you, I don't want money."

You Yan made Li Huafeng very comfortable. You Yan said that she was also a rural person, and she was tricked here by accident. She was tearful and wronged, and Li Huafeng was immediately moved. He hugged the weak woman in front of him and said to marry her as a wife.

The two got married just like that.

Li Huafeng was away from home all year because he was on a long-distance business trip. You Yan was used to being in the crowd and couldn't bear the loneliness, so she opened a mahjong parlor at home with two mahjong machines.

As the saying goes, where there is mahjong, there are people, and where there are people, there are rumors.Li Huafeng came home only once during the Chinese New Year, and wanted to tease the newborn Li Lie, but he didn't expect that the people around him were winking at him and saying something.

Li Huafeng ran a lot of sports cars, saw more and more doorways, and gradually became an old Jianghu. Seeing You Yan dressed up every day, he was already unhappy, and with other people's Ruo Ruowu hiding his knife in his smile, his suspicion became more and more serious. Heavy.

It was a small quarrel at first, but gradually it became bigger and bigger. After You Yan got pregnant again, there was a little peace at home. For Li Lie, that was the happiest time of his entire childhood. He cared about him, he just begged not to quarrel, and every time they quarreled fiercely, he would become very angry, cry angrily, and angrily wanted to kill this pair of dogs and men.

It's a pity that the good times didn't last long. After You Yan gave birth to Li Zhi, the family's war resumed. The reason was that Li Huafeng bumped into You Yan flirting with other men, swearing and flirting. She dragged it to the ground and dragged it home.

When Li Huafeng let go, there was a large handful of yellow hair in his hand, and You Yan was lying on the ground weakly, dying.Li Huafeng scolded angrily, "You are a fucking slut by nature, you can't change your slutty nature, you hooked up with another man before I died, I'll kill you shameless bitch today!"

After the beating, You Yan had scars all over her body, and Li Huafeng ran out to play cards.You Yan got up and packed her luggage without saying a word.Li Lie came out when she was about to leave.

"Are you leaving?" Li Lie asked with a crying face.

You Yan saw that the little Li Lie was so pitiful, after all, she was a mother, she hugged him tightly and didn't speak.

You Yan walked into the kitchen and started cooking for Li Lie and feeding Li Zhi with milk powder.After Li Lie finished eating, You Yan patted his head and said, "Mom is leaving now."

You Yan put on her suitcase and was about to go out. Li Lie chased her to the door, grabbed a corner of her clothes, and sobbed softly, "Mom, don't go." You Yan pretended not to hear, and brushed his hand away cruelly. The moment the door closed, , Li Lie's tears fell to the ground.

After You Yan left without saying goodbye like this, Li Huafeng was so angry that he cursed for three days. He turned all his anger on Li Lie and Li Zhi, wondering if they were his kind, and often stared at them. Getting more and more unhappy, getting angry every three days for no reason.

Li Zhi had no milk powder to eat and often screamed from hunger. Li Huafeng was upset when he heard it, so he didn't give milk powder to him, but just scolded, "The things born by a bitch are mean, if you cry again, I will throw you to the dogs!"

Li Lie bought milk powder to feed Li Zhi with the saved money, and played the role of mother. Later, when grandma came, Li Zhi was taken care of by grandma.

It was impossible to ask for money from Li Huafeng, so Li Lie had no choice but to go to work by himself and get acquainted with people of all kinds in the society.Li Lie also wanted to go and grab it when he was in a very difficult time. This kind of money comes too easily, and the police can't control it anyway. After joining the underworld, there are still people protecting you.

However, such thoughts only floated in my mind for a while, and then disappeared with the wind.

He doesn't want to be despised by himself, no one in the world loves him, if he hates himself, then what's the point of living?

Li Lie, who was listening to lectures when he was in junior high school, was called out, and he saw a radiant and smiling You Yan standing in the corridor.

You Yan wanted to touch Li Lie's head, but Li Lie avoided it in disgust, and asked in a very adult tone, "What do you want from me?"

You Yan said in surprise, "Xiao Lie, I am your mother, don't you know me?"

Li Lie looked at her indifferently, "You said you were my mother, so did you treat me like a son?"

You Yan smiled wryly, took out a bank card from her LV bag, stuffed it into Li Lie's hand, and said, "The password is your birthday, and I will regularly pay you for living expenses every month and buy some good food. , and take good care of your sister, I know I'm not worthy to be your mother, but things have already happened, and I can't do anything about it. I'll come to see you again when I have a chance. "

Li Lie saw You Yan stepping on her bright high-heeled shoes and getting into the BMW.He clenched the bank card tightly in his hand, causing pain in his palms. Finally, he relaxed his frown, raised the bank card high, and said to himself, "I'm very happy to get money for free."